But to describe Mildmay"s feelings when he was suddenly introduced into this novel world is more difficult. He was taken entirely by surprise.
He did not know anything about the curate in charge. If he thought of his predecessor at all it was the late rector he thought of, who had died on the sh.o.r.es of the Bay of Naples after a life-long banishment from England. He could understand all that; to go away altogether after art, antiquity, Pompeii, cla.s.sic editings, and aesthetic delights was perfectly comprehensible to the young Oxford man. But this--what was this? The old man before him, so gentle, so suave, so smiling, his own inferior in position, for was he not rector elect, while Mr. St. John was but curate? Yet so far above him in years and experience, and all that const.i.tutes superiority among gentlemen of equal breeding. Why was he here as curate? and why did _that_ girl look at himself with so much suppressed pa.s.sion in her eyes? and where had the other been trained to draw so well? and what was the meaning of the two children, so unlike all the others, whom his young enemy had carried off impetuously, instead of ringing the bell for their nurse as any one else would have done? Mildmay felt a thrilling sensation of newness as he sat down at the tea-table, and looked on, an interested spectator at all that was proceeding under his eyes. This in its way was evidently _life_; there was no mistaking the pa.s.sion that existed underneath this quiet surface, the something more than met the eye. Was it a skeleton in the closet, as the domestic cynic says? But these were not words that seemed to apply to this calm old man and these young girls. It was life, not the quiet of books, and learned talk, and superficial discussion, but a quiet full of possibilities, full of hidden struggle and feeling. Mildmay felt as if he had come out of his den in the dark like an owl, and half blinking in the unusual light, was placed as spectator of some strange drama, some episode full of interest, to the character of which he had as yet no clue.
"You are looking at the furniture; it is not mine," said Mr. St. John, "except the carpets, which, as you say, are much worn. The other things are all Mr. Chester"s. I am expecting every day to hear what is to be done with them. Most likely they will sell it; if you wanted anything----"
Mildmay made a gesture of horror in spite of himself, and Mab laughed.
"You do not think Mr. Mildmay wants all that mahogany, papa? The catafalque there, Cicely and I agreed it was more like a tomb in Westminster Abbey than anything else."
"What is amiss with it?" said Mr. St. John. "I always understood it was very good. I am told they don"t make things nearly so strong or so substantial now. Poor Chester! He was a man of very fine taste, Mr.
Mildmay. But why do you laugh, my dear? That was why he was so fond of Italy; shattered health, you know. Those men who are so fond of art are generally excitable; a little thing has an effect upon them. Cicely, give Mr. Mildmay some tea."
"Yes, papa," said Cicely; and gave the stranger a look which made him think his tea might be poisoned. Mr. St. John went maundering kindly--
"You said you were going to London, and had left your things at the station? Why shouldn"t you stay all night here instead? There are a great many things that I would like to show you--the church and the school for instance, and I should like to take you to see some of my poor people. Cicely, we can give Mr. Mildmay a bed?"
Cicely looked up at her father quickly. There was a half-entreaty, a pathetic wonder, mingled with anger, in her eyes. "How can you?" she seemed to say. Then she answered hesitating, "There are plenty of beds, but I don"t know if they are aired--if they are comfortable." Strangely enough, the more reluctant she was to have him, the more inclined Mildmay felt to stay.
"It is very kind," he said. "I cannot think how it is possible that I can have had the a.s.surance to thrust myself upon you like this. I am afraid Miss St. John thinks it would be very troublesome."
"Troublesome! There is no trouble at all. Cicely is not so foolish and inhospitable," said the curate in full current of his open-heartedness.
"My dear, it is fine warm weather, and Mr. Mildmay is a young man. He is not afraid of rheumatics like the old people in the parish. He and I will walk up to the station after tea and fetch his bag, and I will show him several things on the way. You will tell Betsy?"
"I will see that everything is ready," she said, with so much more meaning in the words than was natural or necessary. Her eyes were a little dilated with crying, and slightly red at the edges; there was surprise and remonstrance in them, and she did not condescend by a single word to second her father"s invitation. This settled the question. Had she asked him, Mildmay might have been indifferent; but as she did not ask him, he made up his mind it was quite necessary he should stay.
"I shall perhaps see you finish that group," he said to Mab, who was interested and amused by the novelty of his appearance, as her father was.
"Ah, but I shall never get them into the same _pose_! If papa had not come in so suddenly, waking them--besides spoiling my light----"
"I am afraid it was partly my fault," he said; "but I did not expect to be brought into the presence of an artist."
The colour rose on Mab"s cheeks. "Please don"t flatter me," she said. "I want so much to be an artist. Shall I ever be able to do anything, do you think? for you seem to know."
Cicely looked at her sister, her eyes sparkling with offence and reproach. "The people who know you best think so," she said. "It is not right to ask a stranger. How can Mr. Mildmay know?"
How hostile she was! between her smiling pretty sister, who was ready to talk as much as he pleased, and her kind old suave father, what a rugged implacable young woman! What could he have done to her? Mildmay felt as much aggrieved when she called him a stranger, as if it had been a downright injury. "I know a little about art," he said quite humbly; "enough to perceive that your sister has a great deal of real talent, Miss St. John."
"Yes, yes, she is clever," said the curate. "I hope it will be of some use to you, my poor Mab. Now, Mr. Mildmay, let us go. I want to show you the rectory fields, and the real village, which is some way off. You must not think this cl.u.s.ter of houses is Brentburn. It is pleasant walking in the cool of the afternoon, and, my dears, a walk will be good for you too. Come down by the common and meet us. Cicely," he added in a half-whisper, standing aside to let his guest pa.s.s, "my dear, you are not so polite as I hoped. I wish you would look more kind and more pleased."
"But I am not pleased. Oh, papa, why did you ask him? I cannot bear the sight of him," she cried.
"My love!" said the astonished curate. He was so much surprised by this outburst that he did not know how to reply. Then he put his hand softly upon her forehead, and looked into her eyes. "I see what it is. You are a little feverish: you are not well. It is the hot weather, no doubt,"
he said.
"Oh, papa! I am well enough; but I am very wretched. Let me speak to you when we have got rid of this man--before you go to bed."
"Surely, my dear," he said soothingly, and kissed her forehead. "I should advise you to lie down for a little, and keep quiet, and the fever may pa.s.s off. But I must not keep my guest waiting," and with this Mr. St. John went away, talking cheerfully in the hall to his companion as he rejoined him. "It is trying weather," they heard him saying. "I stopped behind for a moment to speak to my eldest daughter. I do not think she is well."
"Will papa discuss your health with this new man?" cried Mab. "How funny he is! But don"t be so savage, Ciss. If it must be, let us make the best of it. Mr. Mildmay is very nice to talk to. Let us take whatever amus.e.m.e.nt is thrown in our way."
"Oh, amus.e.m.e.nt!" said Cicely. "You are like papa; you don"t think what is involved. This is an end of everything. What are we to do? Where are we to go to? His name is not Mildmay; it is Ruin and Destruction. It is all I can do not to burst out upon him and ask him, oh! how has he the heart--how has he the heart to come here!"
"If you did I think he would not come," said Mab calmly. "What a pity people cannot say exactly what they think. But if he gave it up, there would be some one else. We must make up our minds to it. And how beautifully poor papa behaves through it all."
"I wish he were not so beautiful!" cried Cicely in her despair, almost grinding her white teeth. "I think you will drive me mad between you--papa and you."
CHAPTER X.
IN THE PARISH.
Mr. Mildmay had a very pleasant walk. He went through Brentburn proper, which was a mile from the church on the rich woodland side of the parish, an ordinary little village, a mixture of old picturesque Berkshire cottages, with high sloping roofs and aged harmonious mossy brick walls, and very new square houses in the bilious brick of modern use--mean and clean and angular. The cottages, with their wild old gardens and mossed apple-trees delighted him; but the curate shook his head, "They will be the curse of your life," he said solemnly, at which the young Oxford man was disposed to laugh.
A few people were standing about their doors enjoying the cool evening, at whom the new rector looked with curiosity. They were very commonplace people, with the set hard faces so common among the rural poor, half caused by exposure to the open air, and half by the dull routine in which their life is spent. Mildmay looked at them wistfully.
Were they the kind of people among whom he could find the life he sought? A few of the women were gossiping, the men stared blankly at him as he pa.s.sed, saluting the curate gruffly; and evidently the wag among them made some rough joke, received with loud laughter, upon the two blackcoats.
"Yes," said the curate mildly, "that fellow Joe Endley is one of the worst in the parish. It was at us, no doubt, they were laughing.
Anything above their own level, except money, they don"t understand; and they know I have no money. Good evening, Mr. Wilkins. What a sweet evening it is!"
"Good evening, sir," said the grocer, coming, with his ap.r.o.n round him from his shop-door. "I thought perhaps as you was comin" to me, sir, along o" the letter I sent you."
"I did not get any letter," said Mr. St. John, looking at the grocer in a helpless, pitiful way, which his companion remarked wonderingly. The curate seemed to shrink somehow: a painful look came upon his face.
"I sent up this afternoon with my cart," said Wilkins, "to say as, if it was quite convenient----"
"My daughter will see to it--my daughter will see to it," said the curate anxiously. "I am occupied at present, as you perceive, and in a hurry. She will see you, or I, to-morrow."
And he shuffled on through the dust of the highroad, quickening his pace. His step had been the long, firm, manly step of a man still young, till they met with this interruption. But poor Mr. St. John fell into a shuffle when he met the grocer. His cheek got a hectic flush; he shrank visibly; his knees and his elbows grew prominent. He did not speak again till they had got beyond the village. Then he drew breath, and his natural outline came slowly back. "You will find much hardness among the people," he said; "Heaven forbid that I should blame them, poor souls: they live hardly, and have hardness to bear from others; but when any question arises between them and one who has unfortunately the niceties--the feelings--that we are brought up to----" (the curate stopped); "and I never was used to it," he said, as if to himself, in a low voice.
What did it all mean? the new rector said to himself. I think it was easy enough to divine, for my part; but then the rector was young, and had always been well off, and it did not occur to him that a grocer, simply as grocer, could have any power over a clergyman; more and more he felt convinced that some drama, some domestic tragedy, must be connected with the St. Johns, and he felt more and more eager to find it out. They went to the station, and sent a boy to the rectory with Mildmay"s portmanteau, and then they strayed home by the common, across which the setting sun threw its very last slanting arrow of gold.
"This is delightful!" said Mildmay. "What freedom! what breadth of atmosphere! One feels oneself on the moors, in the great, ample world, not shut in by walls and houses."
"No, there is little of these," said the curate; "and it is very healthy, I have always understood: the common is what my girls love. But I don"t see them coming." He arched his hand over his eyes as a defence against the light, as he looked along the road for his daughters. Mr.
St. John had quite recovered himself. I don"t think that even the name of Wilkins would have discouraged him now. In the warm and balmy air he took off his hat, holding up his venerable bare head to the sky. It was a head which might have served for that of an old saint. His white hair was still thick and abundant, his eyes full of soft light, his expression tranquil as the evening. "I have come here in many troubles,"
he said, "and I have always been refreshed. I don"t pretend to know much about art, Mr. Mildmay, but nature is always soothing. Greenness cools the eyes whether it is study or tears that have fevered them. But I wonder what has become of the girls."
Mildmay was charmed by the meditative turn his companion"s remarks had taken, but the question about the girls embarra.s.sed him.
"I am afraid," he said, "that my intrusion has perhaps given Miss St.
John some trouble."
"No; there is the servant, you know, a very good sort of girl, and Cicely is like her dear mother--never taken by surprise. If you are here as long as I have been you will know how pleasant it is to see a new face. We country folks rust: we fall into a fixed routine. I myself, see, was about to take this little byway unconsciously, a path I often take, forgetting there was any one with me----"
The curate looked wistfully along the thread of path; it had been worn by his own feet, and he seldom concluded his evening walk otherwise.
Mildmay followed the narrow line with his eyes.