"Never lie to me," she charged him icily.
"It"s all I can tell you," he replied; his tone was almost pitiable. "If you know more than I do-" He turned and looked at her, his voice urgent. "Do you know something?"
"Oh, Papa," she murmured reproachfully, "more conspiracies?" How many feints and counterfeints were there in this exchange? Marty puzzled. "You don"t suspect me now, surely?"
Whitehead frowned. "No, never you, darling," he said. "Never you."
He raised his hand to her face and leaned forward to put his dry lips to hers. Before they touched, Marty left the door and slipped away.
There were some things he couldn"t bring himself to watch.
25
Cars began to arrive at the house in the early evening. There were voices Marty recognized in the hallway. It would be the usual crowd, he guessed; among them the Fan-Dancer and his comrades; Ottaway, Curtsinger and Dwoskin. He heard women"s voices too. They"d brought their wives, or their mistresses. He wondered what kind of women they were. Once beautiful, now sour and lovelorn. Bored with their husbands, no doubt, who thought more of money-making than of them. He caught whiffs of their laughter, and later, of their perfume, in the hallway. He"d always had a good sense of smell. Saul would be proud of him.
About eight-fifteen he went into the kitchen and heated up the plate of ravioli Pearl had left for him, then retired into the library to watch a few boxing videos. The events of the afternoon still niggled him. Try as he might he couldn"t remove Carys from his head, and his emotional state, over which he had so little control, irritated him. Why couldn"t he be like Flynn, who bought a woman for the night, then walked away the next morning? Why did his feelings always become blurred, so that he couldn"t sort one from the other? On the television set the match was getting bloodier, but he scarcely registered the punishment or the victory. His mind was conjuring Carys" sealed face as she lay on the bed, probing it, looking for explanations.
Leaving the fight commentator to babble on, he went through to the kitchen to fetch another couple of beers from the refrigerator. At this end of the house there was not even a hint of noise from the party-goers. Besides, such a civilized gathering would be hushed, wouldn"t it? Just the clink of cut gla.s.s, and talk of rich men"s pleasures.
Well, f.u.c.k them all, he thought. Whitehead and Carys and all of them. It wasn"t his world and he wanted no part of it, or them, or her. He could get all the women he wanted anytime-just pick up the phone and call Flynn. No trouble. Let them play their d.a.m.n-fool games: he wasn"t interested. He drained the first can of beer standing in the kitchen, then got out two more cans and took them through to the lounge. He was going to get really blind tonight. Oh, yes. He was going to get so drunk nothing would matter. Especially not her. Because he didn"t care. He didn"t care.
The tape had finished, and the screen had gone blank. It buzzed with a squirming pattern of dots. White noise. Wasn"t that what they called it? It was a portrait of chaos, that hissing, those writhing dots; the universe humming to itself. Empty airwaves were never really empty.
He turned the set off. He didn"t want to watch any more matches. His head buzzed like the box; white noise in there too.
He slumped down in the chair and downed the second can of beer in two throatfuls. The image of Carys with Whitehead swam into focus again. "Go away," he told it, aloud; but it lingered. Did he want her, was that it? Would this unease be pacified if he took her to the dovecote one of these afternoons and humped her till she begged him never to stop? The wretched thought only disgusted him; he couldn"t defuse these ambiguities with p.o.r.nography.
As he opened the third beer he found his hands were sweating, a clammy sweat he a.s.sociated with sickness, like the first signs of flu. He wiped his palms on his jeans and put the beer down. There was more than infatuation fueling his nervousness. Something was wrong. He got up and went to the lounge window. He was staring into the pitch darkness beyond the gla.s.s, when it struck him what the wrongness might be. The lights on the lawn and perimeter fence had not been put on tonight. He would have to do it. For the first time since he"d arrived at the house it was real night outside, a night more black than any he"d experienced in many years. In Wandsworth there was always light; floods on the walls burned from twilight to dawn. But here, without streetlamps, there was just night outside.
Night; and white noise.
26
Though Marty had imagined otherwise, Carys wasn"t at the dinner party. There were very few freedoms left to her; refusing her father"s invitations to dinner was one of them. She had endured an afternoon of his sudden tears, his just as sudden accusations. She was weary of his kisses and his doubts. So tonight she"d given herself a larger fix than usual, greedy for forgetfulness. Now all she wanted to do was lie down and bask in not being.
Even as she lay her head on the pillow, something, or someone, touched her. She came around again, startled. The bedroom was empty. The lamps were on and the curtains drawn. There was n.o.body there: it was a trick of the senses, no more. Yet she could still feel the nerve endings at the nape of her neck tingle where the touch had seemed to come, responding, anemone-like, to the intrusion. She put her fingers there and ma.s.saged the place. The jolt had s.n.a.t.c.hed lethargy away for a while. There was no chance of putting her head back down until her heart had stopped hammering.
Sitting up, she wondered where her runner was. Probably at the dinner party with the rest of Papa"s court. They"d like that: to have him among them to condescend to. She didn"t think of him as an angel any longer. After all he had a name now, and a history (Toy had told her everything he knew). He"d long lost his divinity. He was who he was-Martin Francis Strauss-a man with green-gray eyes; with a scar on his cheek and hands that were eloquent, like an actor"s hands, except that she didn"t think he"d be very good at professional deceit: his eyes betrayed him too easily.
Then the touch came again, and this time she distinctly felt fingers catching her nape, as though the bone of her spine had been pinched, so, so lightly, between somebody"s forefinger and thumb. It was absurd illusion, but too persuasive to be dismissed.
She sat down at her dressing table and felt tremors moving out through her body from her jittering stomach. Was this just the result of a bad fix? She"d never had any problems before: the H that Luther bought from his Stratford suppliers was always of the highest quality: Papa could afford it.
Go back and lie down, she told herself. Even if you can"t sleep, lie down. But the bed, as she stood and turned to walk back to it, receded from her, all the contents of the room withdrawing into a corner as though they were painted on linen and had been plucked away from her by some hidden hand.
Then the fingers seemed to be back on her neck again, more insistent this time, as if working their way into her. She reached around and rubbed the back of her neck vigorously, cursing Luther loudly for bringing her bad stuff. He was probably buying cut heroin instead of the pure, and pocketing the difference. Her anger cleansed her head for a few moments, or so it seemed, for nothing else happened. She walked steadily across to the bed, orientating herself by putting her hand on the flower-patterned wall as she went. Things began to right themselves; the room found its proper perspective again. Sighing with relief she lay down without pulling back the covers, and closed her eyes. Something danced on the inside of her lids. Shapes formed, dispersed and reformed. None of them made the least sense: they were splashes and sprawls, a lunatic"s graffiti. She watched them with her mind"s eye, mesmerized by their fluent transformations, scarcely aware in her fascination that the invisible fingers had found her neck again and were insinuating themselves into her substance with all the subtle efficiency of a good ma.s.seur.
And then sleep.She didn"t hear the dogs begin to bark: Marty did. At first just a solitary barking, somewhere off to the southeast of the house, but the alarm call was almost immediately taken up by a volley of other voices.
He got up boozily from in front of the dead television and went back to the window.
A wind had got up. It had probably blown some dead branch down, which had disturbed the dogs. He"d noticed several dead elms that needed felling in the corner of the estate; probably one of those was the culprit. Still, he"d better look. He went through to the kitchen, and turned on the video screens, flicking from camera to camera along the perimeter fence. There was nothing to see. As he flipped to the cameras just east of the woods, however, the pictures disappeared. White noise replaced the sight of floodlit gra.s.s. Three cameras were out of action in all.
"s.h.i.t," he said. If a tree were down, and that became a likelier option than ever if the cameras weren"t working, he"d have a clearing-up job on his hands. It was odd that the alarms hadn"t started, though. Any fall that had incapacitated three cameras must have breached the fence"s systems: yet no bells rang, no sirens wailed. He took his anorak off the hook beside the back door, picked up a flashlight, and went outside.
The fence lights glimmered at the periphery of his vision; scanning them quickly he could see none that were out. He set off toward the racket of dogs. It was a balmy night, despite the wind: the first confident warmth of spring. He was glad to be going on a walkabout, even if it was a fool"s errand. It might not even be a tree at all; simply an electrical fault. Nothing was infallible. The house fell away behind him, the lit windows diminished. Now, all around him, darkness. He was isolated for two hundred yards between the lights of the fence and those of the house, a strip of no-man"s-land over which he stumbled, flashlight inefficiently lighting the turf a few strides ahead of him. In the woods, the wind found an occasional voice; otherwise there was silence.
Eventually he reached the fence where he approximated the noise of the dogs to have come from. All the lights in either direction were working: there was no visible sign of disturbance. Despite the rea.s.suring correctness of the scene, something about it, about the night and the balmy wind, felt odd. Maybe the dark wasn"t so benign after all, the warmth in the air not entirely natural for the season. A tick had begun in his stomach, and his bladder was heavy with beer. It was vexing that there were no dogs to be seen or heard. Either he"d made an error of judgment in approximating their position or they"d moved from the spot, pursuing. Or, the absurd thought came, pursued.
The lamps in the uprights of the fence rocked their hooded heads in a fresh gust of wind; the scene danced giddily in the pitching light. He decided he could go no further without relieving his aching bladder. He turned off the flashlight, pocketed it, and unzipped, back to the fence and the light. It was a great relief to p.i.s.s into the gra.s.s; the physical satisfaction made him whoop.
Halfway through, the lights behind him flickered. At first he thought it was simply a trick of the wind. But no, they were actually dimming. Even as they faded, along the perimeter to his right the dogs began again, anger and panic in their voices.
He couldn"t stop p.i.s.sing once he"d started, and for valuable seconds he cursed his lack of bladder control. When he was done he zipped up and started to run in the direction of the din. As he went, the lights came back on again, falteringly, their circuits buzzing as they did so. But they were set too infrequently along the line of the fence to offer much rea.s.surance. Between them, patches of darkness sprawled, so that for one pace out of every ten all was clarity, for the other nine, night. Despite the fear clutching at his gut he ran all-out, the fence flickering past him. Light, darkness, light, darkness- Ahead, a tableau resolved itself. An intruder was standing on the far side of a light pool thrown down by one of the lamps. The dogs were everywhere, at his heels, at his chest, snapping and tearing at him. The man was still standing upright, legs apart, while they milled around him.
Marty now realized how close he was to witnessing a ma.s.sacre. The dogs were berserk, tearing at the intruder with all the fury they could muster. Curiously, despite the venom in their attack, their tails were between their legs, and their low growls, as they circled looking for another opening, were unmistakably fearful. Job, he saw, was not even attempting to pounce: he slunk around, his eyes closed to slits, watching the heroics of the rest.
Marty started calling them off by name, using the strong, simple commands Lillian had taught him.
"Stand! Saul! Stand! Dido!"
The dogs were immaculately tutored: he"d seen them put through these exercises a dozen times. Now, despite the intensity of their anger, they relinquished their victim when they heard the command. Reluctantly they fell back, ears flattened, teeth exposed, eyes clamped on the man.
Marty started to walk steadily toward the intruder, who was left standing in a ring of watchful dogs, reeling and b.l.o.o.d.y. He carried no visible weapon; indeed he looked more like a derelict than a would-be a.s.sa.s.sin. His plain dark jacket was torn in a dozen places by the attack, and where his skin was exposed blood shone.
"Keep them . . . off me," he said, his voice wounded. There were bites all over his body. In some places, particularly his legs, pieces of his flesh had been ripped away. The middle finger of his left hand had been bitten through at the second joint, and was depending by a thread of sinew. Blood splashed on the gra.s.s. It amazed Marty that the man was even standing upright.
The dogs still circled him, ready to renew the a.s.sault if and when the order were granted; one or two of them glanced at Marty impatiently. They were itching to finish their wounded victim off. But the derelict wouldn"t grant them a sign of his fear. He only had eyes for Marty, and those eyes were pinp.r.i.c.ks in livid white.
"Don"t move," Marty said, "if you want to remain alive. If you try to run they"ll bring you down. Do you understand? I haven"t got that much control over them."
The other said nothing; simply stared. His agony, Marty knew, must be acute. He wasn"t even a young man. His uneven growth of stubble showed more gray than black. The skull behind the lax and waxen flesh was severe, the features set on it used and weary: tragic even. His suffering was only apparent in the greasy sheen of his skin, and the fixedness of his facial muscles. His stare had the stillness of a hurricane"s eye, and its menace.
"How did you get in?" Marty asked.
"Get them away," the man said. He spoke as if he expected to be obeyed.
"Come back to the house with me."
The other shook his head, unwilling even to debate the possibility.
"Get them away," he said again.
Marty conceded to the other"s authority, though not certain why. He called the dogs to him by name. They came to heel with rebuking looks, unhappy to surrender their prize.
"Now come back to the house," Marty said.
"No need."
"You"ll bleed to death, for G.o.d"s sake."
"I loathe dogs," the man said, still not taking his eyes off Marty. "We both do."
Marty hadn"t time to think clearly about what the man was saying; he just wanted to stop the situation from escalating again. Blood loss had surely weakened the man. If he fell down Marty wasn"t certain he could prevent the dogs from going in for the kill. They were around his legs, glancing up at him irritably; their breath was hot on him.
"If you don"t come on your own accord, I"ll take you."
"No." The intruder raised his injured hand to chest height and glanced down at it. "I don"t need your kindnesses, thank you," he said.
He bit down on the sinew of the mutilated finger, as a seamstress might through a thread. The discarded joints fell to the gra.s.s. Then he clenched his seeping hand into a fist, and thrust it into his ravaged jacket.
Marty said: "Christ Almighty." Suddenly the lights along the fence were flickering again. Only this time they went out altogether. In the sudden pitch, Saul whined. Marty knew the dog"s voice, and shared his apprehension.
"What"s happening, boy?" he asked the dog, wishing to G.o.d it could reply. And then the dark broke; something lit the scene that was neither electricity nor starlight. The intruder was the source. He"d begun to burn with a faint luminescence. Light was dripping from his fingertips and oozing from the b.l.o.o.d.y holes in his coat. It enveloped his head in a flickering gray halo that consumed neither flesh nor bone, the light licking out of mouth and eyes and nostrils. Now it began to take on shapes, or seemed to. It was all seems. Phantoms sprang from the flux of light. Marty glimpsed dogs, then a woman, then a face; all, and yet perhaps none of these, a flurry of apparitions that transformed before they congealed. And in the center of these momentary phenomena the intruder"s eyes stared on at Marty: clear and cold.
Then, without a comprehensible cue, the entertainment took on a different tone altogether. A look of anguish slid across the fabricator"s face; a drool of b.l.o.o.d.y darkness spilled from his eyes, extinguishing whatever played in the vapor, leaving only bright worms of fire to trace his skull. Then they too went out, and just as suddenly as the illusions had appeared, they were gone, and there was just a torn man standing beside the humming fence.
The lights were coming back on again, their illumination so flat it drained any last vestige of magic. Marty looked at the bland flesh, the empty eyes, the sheer drabness of the figure in front of him and believed none of it "Tell Joseph," said the intruder.
-it had all been trickery of some kind- "Tell him what?"
"That I was here."
-but if it was just trickery, why didn"t he step forward and apprehend the man?
"Who are you?" he asked.
"Just tell him. "
Marty nodded; he had no courage left in him "Then, go home."
"Home?"
"Away from here," the intruder said. "Out of harm"s way."
He turned from Marty and the dogs, and as he did so the lights faltered and failed for several dozen yards in either direction.
When they came back on again, the magician had gone.
27
"Is that all he said?"
As ever, Whitehead had his back to Marty as he spoke, and it was Impossible to gauge his response to the account of the night"s events. Marty had offered a carefully doctored description of what had actually happened. He"d told Whitehead about his hearing the dogs and about the chase and the brief conversation he"d had with the intruder. What he"d left out was the part that he couldn"t explain: the images the man had seemingly conjured from his body. That he made no attempt to describe, or even report. He"d simply told the old man that the lights along the fence had failed and that under the cover of darkness the intruder had made off. It made a lame finale to the encounter but he had no powers to improve on his story. His mind, still juggling the visions of the previous night, was too uncertain of objective truth to contemplate a more elaborate lie.
He hadn"t slept for over twenty-four hours now. He"d spent the bulk of the night checking the perimeter, scouring the fence for the place the intruder had breached. There was no break in the wire, however. Either the man had slipped into the grounds when the gates were opened for one of the guests" cars, which was plausible; or else he had scaled the fence, disregarding an electric charge that would have struck most men dead. Having seen the tricks the man was capable of Marty was not about to discount this second scenario. After all, this same man had rendered the alarms inoperative-and somehow drained the lights of power along the stretch of fence. How he"d achieved these feats was anybody"s guess. Certainly scant minutes after the man"s disappearance the entire system was fully operational again: the alarms working and the cameras functioning all around the boundary.
Once he"d checked the fences thoroughly, he"d gone back into the house and sat in the kitchen to reconstruct every detail of what he"d just experienced. About four in the morning he"d heard the dinner party break up: laughter, the slamming of car doors. He"d made no move to report the break-in then and there. There was, he reasoned, no use in souring Whitehead"s evening. He just sat and listened to the noise of people at the other end of the house. Their voices were incoherent smears; as if he were underground, and they above. And while he listened, drained after his adrenaline high, memories of the man at the fence flickered in front of him.
He told none of this to Whitehead. Just the plainest outline of events, and those few words: "Tell him that I was here." It was enough.
"Was he badly hurt?" Whitehead said, not turning from the window.
"He lost a finger, as I said. And he was bleeding pretty badly."
"In pain, would you say?"
Marty hesitated before replying. Pain was not the word he wanted to employ; not pain as he understood it. But if he used some other word, like anguish-something that hinted at the gulfs behind the glacial eyes-he risked trespa.s.s into areas he was not prepared to go; especially not with Whitehead. He was certain that if he once let the old man sense any ambivalence, the knives would be out. So he replied: "Yes. He was in pain."
"And you say he bit the finger off?"
"Yes."
"Maybe you"d look for it later."
"I have. I think one of the dogs must have taken it."
Did Whitehead chuckle to himself? It sounded so.
"Don"t you believe me?" Marty said, taking the laughter to be at his expense.
"Of course I believe you. It was only a matter of time before he came."
"You know who he is?"
"Yes."
"Then you can have him arrested."
The private amus.e.m.e.nt had stopped. The words that followed were colorless.