The thought she had s.n.a.t.c.hed was: I would have to learn to be gentle; that, or something like it. He was afraid she"d bruise, for Christ"s sake. That was why he was all dammed up when he was with her, so circuitous in his dealings.
"I"m not going to break," she said, and a patch of skin at his neck blushed.
"I"m sorry," he answered. She wasn"t sure if he was conceding his error or simply hadn"t understood her observation.
"There"s no need to handle me with kid gloves. I don"t want that from you. I get it all the time."
He threw her a disconsolate glance. Why didn"t he believe what she told him? She waited, hoping for some clue, but none was offered, however tentative.
They"d come to the weir that fed the lake. It was high, and fast. People had drowned in it, she"d been told, as recently as a couple of decades ago, just before Papa had bought the estate. She started to explain all this, and about a coach and horses that had been driven into the lake during a storm, telling him without listening to herself, working out how to get past his courtesy and his machismo to the part of him that might be of use to her.
"And the coach is still in there?" he asked, staring into the threshing water.
"Presumably," she said. The story had lost its charm already.
"Why don"t you trust me?" she asked him straight out.
He didn"t reply; but he was clearly struggling with something. The frown of puzzlement he displayed deepened to dismay. d.a.m.n, she thought, I"ve really spoiled things somehow. But it was done. She"d asked him outright, and she was ready to take the bad news, whatever it was.
Almost without planning the theft, she stole another thought from him, and it was shockingly clear: like living it. Through his eyes she saw the door of her bedroom, and her lying on the bed beyond it, gla.s.sy-eyed, with Papa sitting close by. When was this, she wondered? Yesterday? The day before? Had he heard them talking about it; was that what woke such distaste in him? He"d played the detective, and he hadn"t liked what he"d discovered.
"I"m not very good with people," he said, answering her question about trust. "I never have been."
How he squirmed rather than tell the truth. He was being obscenely polite with her. She wanted to wring his neck.
"You spied on us," she said with brutal plainness. "That"s all it is, isn"t it? You saw Papa and me together-"
She tried to frame the remark as if it were a wild guess. It didn"t quite convince as such, and she knew it. But what the h.e.l.l? It was said now, and he would have to invent his own reasons as to how she"d reached that conclusion.
"What did you overhear?" she demanded, but got no response. It wasn"t anger that tongue-tied him, but shame for his peeping. The blushing had infected his face from ear to ear.
"He treats you like he owns you," he murmured, not taking-his eyes off the roiling water.
"He does, in a way."
"Why?"
"I"m all he"s got. He"s alone . . ."
"Yes."
". . . and afraid."
"Does he ever let you leave the Sanctuary?"
"I"ve got no desire to go," she said. "I"ve got all I want here."
He wanted to ask her what she did for bed companions, but he"d embarra.s.sed himself enough as it was. She found the thought anyway, and fast upon the thought, the image of Whitehead leaning forward to kiss her. Perhaps it was more than a fatherly kiss. Though she tried not to think of that possibility too often, she could not avoid its presence. Marty was more acute than she"d given him credit for; he"d caught that subtext, subtle as it was.
"I don"t trust him," he said. He took his gaze off the water to look around at her. His bewilderment was perfectly apparent.
"I know how to handle him," she replied. "I"ve made a bargain with him. He understands bargains. He gets me to stay with him, and I get what I want."
"Which is?"
Now she looked away. The spume off the whipping water was a grubby brown. "A little sunshine," she finally replied.
"I thought that came free," Marty said, puzzled.
"Not the way I like it," she answered. What did he want from her? Apologies? If so, he"d be disappointed.
"I should get back to the house," he said.
Suddenly, she said: "Don"t hate me, Marty."
"I don"t," he came back.
"There"s a lot of us the same."
"The same?"
"Belonging to him."
Another ugly truth. She was positively brimful of them today.
"You could get the h.e.l.l out of here if you really wanted to, couldn"t you?" he said, peevishly.
She nodded. "I suppose I could. But where?"
The question made no sense to him. There was an entire world outside the fences, and she surely didn"t lack the finances to explore it, not Joseph Whitehead"s daughter. Did she really find the prospect so stale? They made such a strange pair. He with his experience so unnaturally abbreviated-years of his life wasted-and now anxious to make up for lost time. She, so apathetic, fatigued by the very thought of escape from her self-defined prison.
"You could go anywhere," he said.
"That"s as good as nowhere," she replied flatly; it was a destination that remained much on her mind. She glanced across at him, hoping some light would have dawned but he didn"t show a glimmer of comprehension.
"Never mind," she said.
"Are you coming?"
"No, I think I"ll stay here for a while."
"Don"t throw yourself in."
"Can"t swim, eh?" she replied, testily. He frowned, not understanding. "Doesn"t matter. I never took you for a hero."
He left her standing inches from the edge of the bank, watching the water. What he"d told her was true; he wasn"t good with people. But with women, he was even worse. He should have taken the cloth, the way his mother had always wanted him to. That would have solved the problem; except that he had no grasp of religion either, and never had. Maybe that was part of the problem between him and the girl: they neither of them believed a d.a.m.n thing. There was nothing to say, there were no issues to debate. He glanced around. Carys had walked a short way along the bank from the spot where he"d left her. The sun glared off the skin of the water and burned into her outline. It was almost as if she wasn"t real at all.
Part Three
DEUCEdeuce1 n. The two at dice or cards; (Tennis) state of score (40 all, games all) at which either party must gain two consecutive points or games to win.deuce2 n. Plague, mischief; the Devil.
V. Superst.i.tion
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Less than a week after the talk at the weir, the first hairline cracks began to appear in the pillars of the Whitehead Empire. They rapidly widened. Spontaneous selling began on the world"s stock markets, a sudden failure of faith in the Empire"s credibility. Crippling losses in share values soon mounted. The selling fever, once contracted, appeared well-nigh incurable In the s.p.a.ce of a day there were more visitors to the estate than Marty had ever seen before. Among them, of course, the familiar faces. But this time there were dozens of others, financial a.n.a.lysts, he presumed. j.a.panese and European visitors mingled with the English, until the place rang with more accents than the United Nations.
The kitchen, much to Pearl"s irritation, became an impromptu meeting place for those not immediately required at the great man"s hand. They gathered around the large table, demanding coffee in endless supply, to debate the strategies they had congregated here to formulate. Much of their debating, as ever, was lost on Marty, but it was clear from the snippets he overheard that the corporation was facing no explicable emergency. There were falls of staggering proportions happening everywhere; talk of government intervention to prevent imminent collapse in Germany and Sweden; talk too of the sabotage that had instigated this catastrophe. It seemed to be the conventional wisdom among these prophets that only an elaborate plan-one that had been in preparation for several years-could have damaged the fortunes of the corporation so fundamentally. There were murmurs of secret government interference; of a conspiracy of the compet.i.tion. The paranoia in the house knew no bounds.
There was something about the way these men fretted and fought, hands carving up the air in their efforts to contradict the previous speaker"s remarks, that struck Marty as absurd. After all, they never saw the billions they lost and gained, or the people whose lives they so casually rearranged. It was all an abstraction; numbers in their heads. Marty couldn"t see the use of it. To have power over notional fortunes was just a dream of power, not power itself.
On the third day, with everyone drained of gambits, and praying now for a resurrection that showed no sign of coming, Marty encountered Bill Toy, engaged in a heated debate with Dwoskin. To his surprise Toy, seeing Marty pa.s.sing by, called him across, cutting the conversation short. Dwoskin hurried away scowling, leaving Toy and Marty to talk.
"Well, stranger," said Toy, "and how are you doing?"
"I"m OK," Marty said. Toy looked as if he hadn"t slept in a long while. "And you?"
"I"ll survive."
"Any idea of what"s going on?"
Toy offered a wry smile. "Not really," he said, "I"ve never been a moneyman. Hate the breed. Weasels."
"Everyone"s saying it"s a disaster."
"Oh, yes," he said with equanimity, "I think it probably is."
Marty"s face fell. He"d been hoping for some words of rea.s.surance. Toy caught his discomfort, and its origins. "Nothing terrible"s going to happen," he said, "as long as we stay levelheaded. You"ll still be in a job, if that"s what you"re worried about."
"It did cross my mind."
"Don"t let it." Toy put his hand on Marty"s shoulder. "If I thought things looked that bad, I"d tell you."
"I know. I just get jittery."
"Who doesn"t?" Toy tightened his grip on Marty. "What say the two of us go on the town when the worst of this is over?"
"I"d like to."
"Ever been to the Academy Casino?"
"Never had the money."
"I"ll take you. We"ll lose some of Joe"s fortune for him, eh?"
"Sounds good to me."
The anxiety still lingered on Marty"s face.
"Look," said Toy, "it"s not your fight. You understand me? Whatever happens from now on, it won"t be your fault. We"ve made some mistakes along the way, and now we"ve got to pay for them."
"Mistakes?"
"Sometimes people don"t forgive, Marty."
"All this"-Marty spread a hand to take in the whole circus-"because people don"t forgive?"
"Take it from me. It"s the best reason in the world."
It struck Marty that Toy had become an outsider of late; that he wasn"t the pivotal figure in the old man"s worldview that he had been. Did that explain the sour look that had crept across his weary face?
"Do you know who"s responsible?" Marty asked.
"What do boxers know?" Toy said with an unmistakable trace of irony; and Marty was suddenly certain the man knew everything.The panic days stretched into a week without any sign of letup. The faces of the advisers changed, but the smart suits and the smart talk remained the same. Despite the influx of new people, Whitehead had become increasingly laxer with his security arrangements. Marty was required to be with the old man less and less; the crisis seemed to have put all thoughts of a.s.sa.s.sination out of Papa"s head.
The period was not without its surprises. On the first Sunday Curtsinger took Marty aside and undertook a labored seduction speech that began with boxing, moved laterally to the pleasures of intermale physicality, and ended up with a straight cash offer. "Just half an hour; nothing elaborate." Marty had guessed what was in the air several minutes before Curtsinger came clean, and had prepared a suitably polite refusal. They parted amicably enough. Such diversions aside, it was a listless time. The rhythm of the house had been broken, and it was impossible to establish a fresh one. The only way Marty could preserve his sanity was by keeping out of the house as much as he could. He ran a great deal that week, often chasing his tail around and around the perimeter of the estate until an exhaustion fugue set in, and he could go back to his room, threading his way through the well-dressed dummies who loitered in every corridor. Upstairs, behind a door that he happily locked (to keep them out, not to keep himself in) he would shower and sleep for long hours the deep, dreamless sleep he enjoyed.Carys had no such liberty. Since the night the dogs had found Mamoulian she had taken it into her head, on occasion, to play the spy. Why this was, she wasn"t certain. She"d never been much interested in goings-on at the Sanctuary. Indeed she"d actively avoided contact with Luther, and Curtsinger, and all the rest of her father"s cohorts. Now, however, strange imperatives stirred her without warning: to go into the library, or into the kitchen or the garden, and simply watch. She got no pleasure out of this activity. Much that she heard she found impossible to understand; much more was simply the vacuous gossip of financial fishwives. Nevertheless she would sit for hours, until some vague appet.i.te was satisfied, and then she"d move on, perhaps to listen in on another debate. Some of the conversationalists knew who she was; to those who didn"t she offered the plainest of introductions. Once her credentials had been established n.o.body questioned her presence.
She also went to see Lillian and the dogs at that dispiriting compound behind the house. It wasn"t because she liked the animals, she simply felt impelled to see them, for the sake of seeing; to look at the locks and the cages and at the pups playing around their mother. In her mind she charted the position of the kennels relative to the fence and to the house, pacing it out in case she needed to find them in the dark. Why she would ever need that facility escaped her.
In these trips she was careful not to be seen by Martin, or Toy, or worst of all, her father. It was a game she was playing, though its precise purpose was a mystery. Maybe she was making a map of the place. Was that why she walked from one end of the house to the other several times, checking and rechecking its geography, working out the length of the corridors, memorizing the way the rooms let on to each other? Whatever the reason, this foolish business answered some unspoken need in her, and when it was done, and only then, would that need p.r.o.nounce itself satisfied, and let her be for a while. By the end of the week she knew the house as she never had before; she"d been in every room except that one room of her father"s, which was forbidden even to her. She had checked all the entrances and exits, stairways and pa.s.sages, with the thoroughness of a thief.
Strange days; strange nights. Was this insanity, she began to wonder?On the second Sunday-eleven days into the crisis-Marty was summoned to the library. Whitehead was there, looking somewhat tired perhaps, but not substantially cowed by the enormous pressure he was under. He was dressed for the outdoors; the fur-collared coat he"d worn the first day, on that symbolic visit to the kennels.
"I haven"t left the house in several days, Marty," he announced, "and my head"s getting stale. I think we should take a walk, you and I."
"I"ll fetch a jacket."
"Yes. And the gun."
They headed out the back way, avoiding the newly arrived delegations who still thronged the stairs and hallway, waiting for access to the holy of holies.
It was a balmy day; the nineteenth of April. The shadows of light-headed clouds pa.s.sed across the lawn in dissolute troupes. "We"ll go to the woods," the, old man said, leading off. Marty walked a respectful couple of yards behind, acutely aware that Whitehead had come out here to clear his mind, not to talk.