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"Oh, by the way, there was a telephone call for you. From Bill Toy. Day before yesterday."
Marty looked up at Pearl from his plate of steak, and pulled a face.
"Why didn"t you tell me?"
She looked contrite.
"It was the day I lost my wick with those d.a.m.n people. I left a message for you-"
"I didn"t get it."
"-on the pad beside the telephone."
It was still there: "Call Toy," and a number. He dialed, and waited a full minute before the phone was picked up at the other end. It wasn"t Toy. The woman who repeated the number had a soft, lost voice, slurred as if by too much drink.
"Can I speak to William Toy, please?" he asked.
"He"s gone," the woman replied.
"Oh. I see."
"He won"t be coming back. Not ever."
The quality of the voice was eerie. "Who is this?" it asked of him.
"It doesn"t matter," Marty replied. His instinct rebelled against giving his name.
"Who is this?" she asked again.
"I"m sorry to have bothered you."
"Who is this?"
He put the receiver down on the slushing insistence at the other end. Only when he had did he realize that his shirt was clinging to a cold sweat that had suddenly sprung from his chest and spine.
In the love nest in Pimlico, Yvonne asked the vacated line "Who is this?" for half an hour or more before letting the telephone drop. Then she went to sit down. The couch was damp: large, sticky stains were spreading on it from the place where she always sat. She a.s.sumed it was something to do with her, but she couldn"t work out how or why. Nor could she explain the flies that congregated all over her, in her hair, in her clothes, whining away.
"Who is this?" she asked again. The question remained perfectly pertinent, though she was no longer speaking to the stranger on the phone. The rotting skin of her hands, the blood she left in the tub after bathing, the horrid look the mirror gave her-all inspired the same hypnotic inquiry: "Who is this?"
"Who is this? Who is this? Who is this?"
VI
The Tree
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Breer hated the house. It was cold, and the natives in this part of the city were inhospitable. He was regarded with suspicion as soon as he stepped out of the front door. There were, he had to concede, reasons for this. In recent weeks a smell had begun to linger around him; a sickly, syrupy smell that made him almost ashamed to get too close to the pretty ones along the schoolyard railing, for fear they would put their fingers to their noses, making a "poo-poo" sound, and run off calling him names. When they did that, it made him want to die.
Though there was no heating in the house, and he had to bathe in cold water, he nevertheless washed from head to foot three or four times a day, hoping to dislodge the smell. When that didn"t work he bought perfume-sandalwood in particular-and doused his body with it after each ablution. Now the comments they called after him weren"t about excreta but about his s.e.x life. He took the brunt of their remarks with equanimity.
Nevertheless, dull resentments festered in him. Not just about the way he was treated in the district. The European, after a courtship that had been polite, was more and more treating him with contempt: as a lackey rather than an ally. It irritated him, the way he was sent to this haunt or that looking for Toy-asked to comb a city of millions in search of a shriveled old man whom Breer had last seen scrambling over a wall stark naked, his scrawny b.u.t.tocks white in the moonlight. The European was losing his sense of proportion. Whatever crimes this Toy had committed against Mamoulian they could scarcely be profound, and it made Breer weak with tiredness to contemplate another day wandering the streets.
Despite his weariness, the capacity for sleep seemed to have deserted him almost entirely. Nothing, not even the fatigue that killed his nerves, could persuade his body to close down for more than a few eye-fluttering minutes, and even then his mind dreamed such things, such dreadful things, it was scarcely possible to call the slumber blissful. The only comfort remaining to him was his pretties.
That was one of the few advantages in this house: it had a cellar. Just a dry, cool s.p.a.ce, which he was systematically clearing of the rubbish left by the previous owners. It was a long job, but he was gradually getting the place the way he wanted it, and though he had never much liked enclosed s.p.a.ces there was something about the darkness, and the sense of being underground, that answered an unarticulated need in him. Soon he would have it all scrubbed. He would put colored paper chains around the walls, and flowers in vases on the floor. A table maybe, with a cloth on it, smelling of violets; comfortable chairs for his guests. Then he could begin to entertain friends in the manner to which he hoped they would become accustomed.
All his arrangements could be effected much more quickly if he weren"t forever interrupted by the d.a.m.n-fool errands the European sent him on. But the time for such servitude, he"d decided, had come to an end. Today, he would tell Mamoulian that he wouldn"t be blackmailed or bullied into playing this game. He"d threaten to leave if it came to the worst. He"d go north. There were places north where the sun didn"t come up for five months of the year-he"d read about such places-and that seemed fine to him. No sun; and deep caves to live in, holes where not even moonlight could stray. The time had come to lay his cards on the table.If the air in the house was cold, it was even colder in Mamoulian"s room. The European seemed to exhale a breath that was mortuary-chilled.
Breer stood in the doorway. He"d only been in this room once before, and he had a niggling fear of it. It was too plain. The European had asked Breer to nail boards across the window: this he had done. Now, by the light of a single wick, burning in a dish of oil on the floor, the room looked bleak and gray; everything in it seemed insubstantial, even the European. He sat in the dark wood chair that was the only furnishing-and looked at Breer with eyes so glazed he could have been blind.
"I didn"t call you up here," Mamoulian said.
"I wanted . . . to talk to you."
"Close the door, then."
Though this was against his better judgment, Breer obeyed. The lock clicked at his back; the room was now centered on that single flame and the fitful luminosity it offered. Sluggishly Breer looked around the room for someplace to sit, or at least lean. But there was no comfort here: its austerity would have shamed an ascetic. Just a few blankets on the bare boards in the corner, where the great man slept; some books stacked against the wall; a pack of cards; a jug of water and a cup; little else., The walls, except for the rosary that hung from a hook, were naked.
"What do you want, Anthony?"
All Breer could think was: I hate this room.
"Say what you have to say."
"I want to go . . ."
"Go?"
"Away. The flies bother me. There are so many flies."
"No more than there are in any other May. It is perhaps a little warmer than usual. All the signs are that the summer will be blistering."
The thought of heat and light made Breer sick. And that was another thing: the way his belly revolted if he put food into it. The European had promised him a new world-health, wealth and happiness-but he was suffering the torments of the d.a.m.ned. It was a cheat: all a cheat.
"Why didn"t you let me die?" he said, without thinking what he was saying.
"I need you."
"But I feel ill."
"The work will soon be over."
Breer looked straight at Mamoulian, something he very rarely mustered the courage to do. But desperation was a rod at his back.
"You mean finding Toy?" he said. "We won"t find him. It"s impossible."
"Oh, but we will, Anthony. That I insist upon."
Breer sighed. "I wish I was dead," he said.
"Don"t say that. You"ve got all the freedom you want, haven"t you? You feel no guilt now, do you?"
"Most people would happily suffer your minor discomforts to be guiltless, Anthony: to commit their heart"s desire to flesh and never be called to regret it. Rest today. Tomorrow we"re going to be busy, you and I."
"Why?"
"We"re going to visit Mr. Whitehead."
Mamoulian had told him about Whitehead and the house and the dogs. The damage they"d done to the European was conspicuous. Though his torn hand had healed quickly, the tissue damage was irreparable. A finger and a half missing, ugly scars raking palm and face, a thumb that would no longer move properly: his facility with the cards was permanently spoiled. It was a long and sorry tale he"d told Breer the day he"d returned, bloodied, from his encounter with the dogs. A history of promises broken and trust despised; of atrocities committed against friendship. The European had wept freely in the telling of it, and Breer had glimpsed the profundity of pain in him. They were both despised men, conspired against and spat upon. Remembering the European"s confessional, the sense of injustice Breer had felt at the time was reawoken. And here was he, who owed the European so much-his life, his sanity-planning to turn his back on his Savior. The Razor-Eater felt ashamed.
"Please," he said, eager to make amends for his petty complaints, "let me go and kill this man for you."
"No, Anthony."
"I can," Breer insisted. "I"m not afraid of dogs. I feel no pain; not now, not since you came back. I can kill him in his bed."
"I"m sure you could. And I will certainly need you, to keep the dogs off me."
"I"ll tear them apart."
Mamoulian looked deeply pleased.
"You do that, Anthony. I loathe the species. Always have. You deal with them while I have words with Joseph."
"Why bother with him? He"s so old."
"So am I," Mamoulian replied. "Older than I look, believe me. But a bargain is a bargain."
"It"s difficult," said Breer, his eyes wet with phlegmy tears.
"What is?"
"Being the Last."
"Oh, yes."
"Needing to do everything properly; so that the tribe"s remembered . . ." Breer"s voice broke. All the glories he"d missed, not being born into a Great Age. What must that dream time have been like, when the Razor-Eaters and the Europeans, and all the other tribes, held the world in their hands? There would never come such an Age again; Mamoulian had said so.
"You won"t be forgotten," the European promised.
"I think I will."
The European stood up. He seemed bigger than Breer remembered him; and darker.
"Have a little faith, Anthony. There is so much to look forward to."
Breer felt a touch at the back of his neck. It seemed a moth had alighted there and was stroking his nape with its furred antennae. His head had begun to buzz, as though the flies that beset him had laid eggs in his ears, and they were suddenly hatching. He shook his head to try to dislocate the sensation.
"It"s all right," he heard the European say through the whirring of their wings. "Be calm."
"I don"t feel well," Breer protested meekly, hoping his weakness would make Mamoulian merciful. The room was fragmenting around him, the walls separating from the floor and ceiling, the six sides of this gray box coming apart at the seams and letting all kinds of nothingness in. Everything had disappeared into a fog: furniture, blankets, even Mamoulian.
"There"s so much to look forward to," he heard the European repeat, or was it an echo, coming back to him from some far-off cliff face? Breer was terrified. Though he could no longer even see his outstretched arm, he knew that this place went on forever and he was lost in it. The tears came thicker. His nose ran, his guts knotted.
Just as he thought he must scream or lose his mind, the European appeared out of the nothingness in front of him, and by the lightning flash of his eclipsed consciousness Breer saw the man transformed. Here was the source of all flies, all blistering summers and killing winters, all loss, all fear, floating before him more naked than any man had right to be, naked to the point of not-being. Now he spread his good hand toward Breer. In it were bone dice, carved with faces Breer almost recognized, and the Last European was crouching, and was tossing the dice, faces and all, into the void, while somewhere close by a thing with fire for a head wept and wept until it seemed they would all drown in tears.
35
Whitehead took the vodka gla.s.s, and the bottle, and went down to the sauna. It had become a favorite retreat of his during the weeks of Crisis. Now, though the danger was far from over, he had lost focus on the state of the Empire. Large sectors of the corporation"s European and Far Eastern operations had already been sold off to cut their losses; receivers had been called in to a couple of smaller firms; there were ma.s.s redundancies planned for some of the chemical plants in Germany and Scandinavia: last-ditch attempts to stave off closure or sale. Joe had other problems on his mind, however. Empires could be regained, life and sanity could not. He"d sent the financiers away, and the government think-tank men: sent them back to their banks and their report-lined offices in Whitehall. There was nothing they could tell him that he wanted to hear. No graphs, no computer displays, no predictions interested him. In the five weeks since the beginning of the Crisis he remembered with interest only one conversation: the debate he"d had with Strauss.
He liked Strauss. More to the point, he trusted Strauss, and that was a commodity rarer than uranium in the bazaar Joe bartered in. Toy"s instinct about Strauss had been correct; Bill had been a man with a nose for integrity in others. Sometimes, particularly when the vodka filled him with sentiment and remorse, he missed Toy badly. But he was d.a.m.ned if he"d mourn: that had never been his style, and he wasn"t about to start now. He poured himself another gla.s.s of vodka and raised it.
"To the Fall," he said, and drank.
He"d worked up a good head of steam in the white-tiled room, and sitting on the bench in the half-light, blotched and florid, he felt like some fleshy plant. He enjoyed the sensation of sweat in the folds of his belly, at his armpits and groin; simple physical stimuli that distracted him from bad thoughts.
Maybe the European wouldn"t come after all, he thought. Pray G.o.d.
Somewhere in the benighted house a door opened and closed, but the drink and the steam made him feel quite aloof from events elsewhere. The sauna was another planet; his, and his alone. He put the drained gla.s.s down on the tiles and closed his eyes, hoping to drowse.
Breer went to the gate. There was a hum of electricity off it, and the sour smell of power in the air.