"Duane, I did not dream that you cared so much, so truly--Oh, I--I do love you then!--I love you, Duane! I love you!"
He drew her suddenly into his arms, close, closer; she lifted her face; he kissed her; and she gave him her heart with a sob.
"You will wait for m-me, won"t you?" she stammered, striving to keep her reason through the delicious tumult that swept her senses. "Before I m-marry you I must be quite certain that you take no risk----"
She looked up into his steady eyes; a pa.s.sion of tenderness overwhelmed her, and her locked arms tightened around his neck.
"Oh," she whispered, "you _are_ the boy I loved so long, so long ago--my comrade Duane--my own little boy! How was I to know I loved you this way, too? How could I understand!"
Already the glamour of the past was transfiguring the man for her, changing him back into the lad she had ruled so long ago, glorifying him--drawing them together into that golden age where her ears already caught the far cries and laughter of the past.
Now, her arms around him, she looked at him and looked at him as though she had not set eyes on him since then.
"Of course, I love you," she said impatiently, as though surprised and hurt that he or she had ever doubted it. "You always were mine; you are _mine_! n.o.body else could ever have had you--no matter what you did--or what I did.... And n.o.body except you could ever, ever have had me. That is perfectly plain now.... Oh, you--you darling"--she murmured, drawing his face against hers. Tears sprang to her brown eyes; her mouth quivered.
"You _will_ love me, won"t you? Because I"m going quite mad about you, Duane.... I don"t think I know just what I"m saying--or what I"m doing."
She drew him closer; he caught her, crushing her in his arms, and she yielded, clung to him for a moment, drew back in flushed resistance, still bewildered by her own pa.s.sion. Then, into her eyes came that divine beauty which comes but once on earth--innocence awakened; and the white lids drooped a little, and the mouth quivered, surrendering with a sigh.
"You never have, never could love any other man? Say it. I know it, but--say it, sweetheart!"
"Only you, Duane."
"Are you happy?"
"I am in heaven."
She closed her eyes--opening them almost immediately and pa.s.sing one hand across his face as though afraid he might have vanished.
"You are there yet," she murmured with a faint smile.
"So are you," he whispered, laughing--"my little dream girl--my little brown-eyed, brown-haired, long-legged, swift-running, hard-hitting----"
"Oh, _do_ you remember that dreadful blow I gave you when we were sparring in the library? _Did_ it hurt you, my darling--I was sure it did, but you never would admit it. Tell me now," she coaxed, adorable in her penitence.
"Well--yes, it did." He laughed under his breath--"I don"t mind telling you now that it fractured the bridge of my nose."
"What!"--in horror. "That perfectly delicious straight nose of yours!"
"Oh, I had it fixed," he said, laughing. "If you deal me no more vital blows than that I"ll never mind----"
"I--deal you a--a blow, Duane! _I_!"
"For instance, by not marrying me right away----"
"Dear--I can"t."
The smile had died out in her eyes and on her lips.
"You know I can"t, don"t you?" she said tenderly. "You know I"ve got to be fair to you." Her face grew graver. "Dear--when I stop and try to think--it dismays me to understand how much in love with you I am....
Because it is too soon.... It would be safer to wait before I start to love you--this way. There is a cowardly streak in me--a weak streak----"
"What blessed nonsense you do talk, don"t you?"
"No, dear."
She moved slightly toward him, settling close, as though within the circle of his arms lay some occult protection.
For a while she lay very close to him, her pale face pressed against his shoulder, brown eyes remote. Neither spoke. After a long time she laid her hands on his arms, gently disengaging them, and, freeing herself, sprang to her feet. A new, lithe and lovely dignity seemed to possess her--an exquisite, graceful, indefinable something which lent a hint of splendour to her as she turned and looked down at him.
Then, mischievously tender, she stooped and touched her childish mouth to his--her cheek, her throat, her hair, her lids, her hands, in turn all brushed his lips with fragrance--the very ghost of contact, the exquisite mockery of caress.
"If you don"t go at once," she murmured, "I"ll never let you go at all.
Wait--let me see if anybody is in the corridor----"
She opened the door and looked out.
"Not a soul," she whispered, "our reputations are still intact.
Good-bye--I"ll put on a fresh gown and meet you in ten minutes!...
Where? Oh, anywhere--_anywhere_, Duane. The Lake. Oh, that is too far away! Wait here on the stairs for me--that isn"t so far away--just sit on the stairs until I come. Do you promise? _Truly_? Oh, you angel boy!... Yes--but only one more, then--to be quite sure that you won"t forget to wait on the stairs for me...."
CHAPTER VIII
AN AFTERGLOW
Deliciously weary, every fibre in her throbbing with physical fatigue, she had nevertheless found it impossible to sleep.
The vivid memory of Duane holding her in his arms, while she gave her heart to him with her lips, left her tremulous and confused by emotions of which she yet knew little.
Toward dawn a fever of unrest drove her from her hot, crushed pillows to the cool of the open cas.e.m.e.nts. The morning was dark and very still; no breeze stirred; a few big, widely scattered stars watched her. For a long while she stood there trying to quiet the rapid pulse and fast breathing; and at length, with an excited little laugh, she sank down among the cushions on the window-seat and lay back very still, her head, with its glossy, disordered hair, cradled in her arms.
"Is _this_ love?" she said to herself. "Is this what it is doing to me?
Am I never again going to sleep?"
But she could not lie still; her restless hands began groping about in the darkness, and presently the fire from a cigarette glimmered red.
She remained quiet for a few moments, elbow among the pillows, cheek on hand, watching the misty spirals float through the open window. After a while she sat up nervously and tossed the cigarette from her. Like a falling star the spark whirled earthward in a wide curve, glowed for a few seconds on the lawn below, and slowly died out.
Then an inexplicable thing occurred. Unthinkingly she had turned over and extended her arm, searching in the darkness behind her. There came a tinkle, a vague violet perfume, and the starlight fell on her cl.u.s.tering hair and throat as she lifted and drained the br.i.m.m.i.n.g gla.s.s.
Suddenly she stood up; the frail, crystal gla.s.s fell from her fingers, splintering on the stone sill; and with a quick, frightened intake of breath, lips still wet and scented, and the fire of it already stealing through her veins, she awoke to stunned comprehension of what she had done.
For a moment only startled astonishment dominated her. That she could have done this thing so instinctively and without forethought or intent, seemed impossible. She bowed her head in her hands, striving desperately to recollect the circ.u.mstances; she sprang to her feet and paced the darkened room, trying to understand. A terrified and childish surprise possessed her, which changed slowly to anger and impatience as she began to realise the subtle treachery that habit had practised on her--so stealthy is habit, betraying the body unawares.