He laughed: "I suppose so."
"So do I. You are no novice, are you--as I am?"
"Are you a novice, Rosalie?"
"Yes, I am. You probably don"t believe it. It is absurd, isn"t it, considering these lonely years--considering what he has done--that I haven"t anything with which to reproach myself."
"It is very admirable," he said.
"Oh, yes, theoretically. I was too fastidious--perhaps a little bit too decent. It"s curious how inculcated morals and early precepts make mountains out of what is really very simple travelling. If a woman ceases to love her husband, she is going to miss too much in life if she"s afraid to love anybody else.... I suppose I have been afraid."
"It"s rather a wholesome sort of fear," he said.
"Wholesome as breakfast-food. I hate it. Besides, the fear doesn"t exist any more," shaking her head. "Like the pretty girls in a very popular and profoundly philosophical entertainment, I"ve simply got to love somebody"--she smiled at him--"and I"d prefer to fall honestly and disgracefully in love with you--if you"d give me the opportunity." There was a pause. "Otherwise," she concluded, "I shall content myself with doing a mischief to your s.e.x where I can. I give you the choice, Duane--I give you the disposal of myself. Am I to love--you?--or be loved by G.o.d knows whom--and make him suffer for it"--she set her little even teeth--"and pay back to men what man has done to me?"
"Nonsense," he said good-humouredly; "isn"t there anything except playing at love that counts in the world?"
"Nothing counts without it. I"ve learned that much."
"Some people have done pretty well without it."
"You haven"t. You might have been a really good painter if you cared for a woman who cared for you. There"s no tenderness in your work; it"s all technique and biceps."
He said gravely: "You are right."
"Am I?... Do you think you could try to care for me--even for that reason, Duane--to become a better painter?"
"I"m afraid not," he said pleasantly.
There was a silence; her expression changed subtly, then the colour came back and she smiled and nodded adieu.
"Good-bye," she said; "I"m going to get into all sorts of mischief. The black flag is hoisted. _Malheur aux hommes!_"
"There"s one now," said Duane, laughing as Delancy Grandcourt"s bulk appeared among the trees along Hurryon Water. "Lord! what a bungler he is on a trout-stream!"
Rosalie turned and gazed at the big, clumsy young man who was fishing with earnestness and method every unlikely pool in sight.
"Does he belong to anybody?" she asked, considering him. "I want to do real damage. He is usually at Geraldine"s heels, isn"t he?"
"Oh, let him alone," said Duane; "he"s an awfully decent fellow. If a man of that slow, plodding, faithful species ever is thoroughly aroused by a woman, it will be a lively day for his tormentor."
Rosalie"s blue eyes sparkled: "Will it?"
"Yes, it will. You had better not play hob with Delancy. Are you intending to?"
"I don"t know. Look at the man! That"s the fourth time he"s landed his line in a bush! He"ll fall into that pool if he"s not--mercy!--there he goes! Did you ever see such a genius for clumsiness?"
She was moving forward through the trees as she spoke; Duane called after her in a warning voice:
"Don"t try to do anything to disturb him. It"s not good sport; he"s a mighty decent sort, I tell you."
"I won"t play any tricks on your good young man," she said with a shrug of contempt, and sauntered off toward the Gray Water. Her path, however, crossed Grandcourt"s, and as she stepped upon the footbridge she glanced down, where, wading gingerly in mid-stream, Delancy floundered and panted and barely contrived to maintain a precarious footing, while sending his flies sprawling down the rapids.
"Good-morning," she nodded, as he caught sight of her. He attempted to take off his cap, slipped, wallowed, and recovered his balance by miracle alone.
"There"s a thumping big trout under that bridge," he informed her eagerly; "he ran downstream just now, but I can"t seem to raise him."
"You splash too much. You"d probably raise him if you raised less of something else."
"Is that it?" he inquired innocently. "I try not to, but I generally manage to raise h.e.l.l with every pool before I get a chance to fish it.
I"ll show you just where he lies. Watch!"
His cast of flies whistled wildly; there was a quick pang of pain in her shoulder and she gave a frightened cry.
"Good Lord! Have I got _you_?" he exclaimed, aghast.
"You certainly have," she retorted, exasperated, "and you had better come up and get this hook out! You"ll need it if you want to fish any more."
Dripping and horrified, he scrambled up the bank to the footbridge; she flinched, but made no sound, as he freed her from the hook; a red stain appeared on the sleeve of her waist, above the elbow.
"It"s fortunate that it was a b-barbless hook," he stammered, horribly embarra.s.sed and contemplating with dismay the damage he had accomplished; "otherwise," he added, "we would have had to cut out the hook. We"re rather lucky, I think. Is it very painful?"
"Sufficiently," she said, disgusted. "But I suppose this sort of thing is nothing unusual for you."
"I"ve hooked one or two people," he admitted, reddening. "I suppose you won"t bother to forgive me, but I"m terribly sorry. If you"ll let me put a little mud on it----"
She disdained to reply. He hovered about her, clumsily solicitous, and whichever way she turned, he managed to get underfoot, until, thoroughly vexed, she stood stock-still and opened her arms with a hopeless gesture:
"What _are_ you trying to do, Delancy? Do you want to embrace me? I wish you wouldn"t leap about me like a great Dane puppy!"
The red surged up into his face anew:
"I beg your pardon," he said. "I"m very sorry."
She looked at him curiously: "I beg yours--you big, silly boy. Don"t blush at me. Great Danes are exceedingly desirable property, you know.... Did you wish to be forgiven for anything? What on earth are you doing with that horrid fistful of muck?"
"I only want to put some mud on that wound, if you"ll let me. It"s good for hornet stings----"
She laughed and backed away: "Do you believe there is any virtue in mud, Delancy?--good, deep mire--when one is bruised and sore and lonely and desperate? Oh, don"t try to understand--what a funny, confused, stupid way you have of looking at me! I remember you used to look at me that way sometimes--oh, long ago--before I was married, I think."
The heavy colour which surged so readily to his temples began to amuse her; she leaned back against the bridge rail and contemplated him with smiling disdain.
"Do you know," she said, "years ago, I had a slight, healthy suspicion that you were on the verge of falling in love with me."
He tried to smile, but the colour died out in his face.
"Yes, I was on the verge," he contrived to answer.