"Contenting myself with what you don"t want."
Dysart lit a cigarette, still smiling, then shrugged and turned as though to go. Around them through the smoke rose the laughing clamour of young men gathering at the exit.
"I want to tell you something," said Grandcourt heavily. "I"m an a.s.s to do it, but I want to tell you."
Dysart halted patiently.
"It"s this," went on Grandcourt: "between you and my mother, I"ve never had a chance; she makes me out a fool and you have always a.s.sumed it to be true."
Dysart glanced at him with amused contempt.
A heavy flush rose to Grandcourt"s cheek-bones. He said slowly:
"I want my chance. You had better let me have it when it comes."
"What chance do you mean?"
"I mean--a woman. All my life you"ve been at my elbow to step in. You took what you wanted--your shadow always falls between me and anybody I"m inclined to like.... It happened to-night--as usual.... And I tell you now, at last, I"m tired of it."
"What a ridiculous idea you seem to have of me," began Dysart, laughing.
"I"m afraid of you. I always was. Now--let me alone!"
"Have you ever known me, since I"ve been married--" He caught Grandcourt"s eye, stammered, and stopped short. Then: "You certainly are absurd. Delancy! I wouldn"t deliberately interfere with you or disturb a young girl"s peace of mind. The trouble with you is----"
"The trouble with _you_ is that women take to you very quickly, and you are always trying to see how far you can arouse their interest. What"s the use of risking heartaches to satisfy curiosity?"
"Oh, I don"t have heartaches!" said Dysart, intensely amused.
"I wasn"t thinking of you. I suppose that"s the reason you find it amusing.... Not that I think there"s any real harm in you----"
"Thanks," laughed Dysart; "it only needed that remark to d.a.m.n me utterly. Now go and dance with little Miss Seagrave, and don"t worry about my trying to interfere."
Grandcourt looked sullenly at him. "I"m sorry I spoke, now," he said. "I never know enough to hold my tongue to you."
He turned bulkily on his heel and left the dining-hall. There were others, in throngs, leaving--young, eager-faced fellows, with a scattering of the usual "dancing" men on whom everybody could always count, and a few middle-aged gentlemen and women of the younger married set to give stability to what was, otherwise, a debutante"s affair.
Dysart, strolling about, booked a dance or two, performed creditably, made his peace, for the sake of peace, with Sylvia Quest, whose ignorant heart had been partly awakened under his idle investigations. But this was Sylvia"s second season, and she would no doubt learn several things of which she heretofore had been unaware. Just at present, however, her heart was very full, and life"s outlook was indeed tragic to a young girl who believed herself wildly in love with a married man, and who employed all her unhappy wits in the task of concealing it.
A load of guilt lay upon her soul; the awful fact that she adored him frightened her terribly; that she could not keep away from him terrified her still more. But most of all she dreaded that he might guess her secret.
"I don"t know why you thought I minded your not--not talking to me during dinner," she faltered. "I was having a perfectly heavenly time with Peter Tappan."
"Do you mean that?" murmured Dysart. He could not help playing his part, even when it no longer interested him. To murmur was as natural to him as to breathe.
She looked up piteously. "I would rather have talked to you," she said.
"Peter Tappan is only an overgrown boy. If you had really cared to talk to me--" She checked herself, flushing deeply.
O Lord! he thought, contemplating in the girl"s lifted eyes the damage he had not really expected to do. For it had, as usual, surprised him to realise, too late, how dangerous it is to say too much, and look too long, and how easy it is to awaken hearts asleep.
Dancing was to be general before the cotillion. Sylvia would have given him as many dances as he asked for; he danced once with her as a great treat, resolving never to experiment any more with anybody.... True, it might have been amusing to see how far he could have interested the little Seagrave girl--but he would renounce that; he"d keep away from everybody.
But Dysart could no more avoid making eyes at anything in petticoats than he could help the tenderness of his own smile or the caressing cadence of his voice, or the subtle, indefinite something in him which irritated men but left few women indifferent and some greatly perturbed as he strolled along on his amusing journey through the world.
He was strolling on now, having managed to leave Sylvia planted; and presently, without taking any particular trouble to find Geraldine, discovered her eventually as the centre of a promising circle of men, very young men and very old men--nothing medium and desirable as yet.
For a while, amused, Dysart watched her at her first party. Clearly she was inexperienced; she let these men have their own way and their own say; she was not handling them skilfully; yet there seemed to be a charm about this young girl that detached man after man from the pa.s.sing throng and added them to her circle--which had now become a half circle, completely cornering her.
Animated, shyly confident, brilliant-eyed, and flushed with the excitement of attracting so much attention, she was beginning to lose her head a little--just a little. Dysart noticed it in her nervous laughter; in a slight exaggeration of gesture with fan and flowers; in the quick movement of her restless little head, as though it were inc.u.mbent upon her to give to every man confronting her his own particular modic.u.m of attention--which was not like a debutante, either; and Dysart realised that she was getting on.
So he sauntered up, breaking through the circle, and reminded Geraldine of a dance she had not promised him.
She knew she had not promised, but she was quite ready to give it--had already opened her lips to a.s.sent--when a young man, pa.s.sing, swung around abruptly as though to speak to her, hesitating as Geraldine"s glance encountered his without recognition.
But, as he started to move on, she suddenly knew him; and at the same moment Kathleen"s admonition rang in her ears. Her own voice drowned it.
"Oh, Duane!" she exclaimed, stretching out her hand across Dysart"s line of advance.
"You _are_ Geraldine Seagrave, are you not?" he asked smilingly, retaining her hand in such a manner as practically to compel her to step past Dysart toward him.
"Of course I am. You might have known me had you been amiable enough to appear at my coming out."
He laughed easily, still retaining her hand and looking down at her from his inch or two of advantage. Then he casually inspected Dysart, who, not at all pleased, returned his gaze with a careless unconcern verging on offence. Few men cared for Dysart on first inspection--or on later acquaintance; Mallett was no exception.
Geraldine said, with smiling constraint:
"It has been so very jolly to see you again." And withdrew her hand, adding: "I hope--some time----"
"Won"t you let me talk to you now for a moment or two? You are not going to dismiss me with that sort of come-back--after all these years--are you?"
He seemed so serious about it that the girl coloured up.
"I--that is, Mr. Dysart was going to--to--" She turned and looked at Dysart, who remained planted where she had left him, exceedingly wroth at experiencing the sort of casual treatment he had so often meted out to others. His expression was peevish. Geraldine, confused, began hurriedly:
"I thought Mr. Dysart meant to ask me to dance."
"_Meant_ to?" interrupted Mallett, laughing; "_I_ mean to ask for this dance, and I do."
Once more she turned and encountered Dysart"s darkening gaze, hesitated, then with a nervous, gay little gesture to him, partly promise, partly adieu, she took Mallett"s arm.
It was the first glimmer of coquetry she had ever deliberately displayed; and at the same instant she became aware that something new had been suddenly awakened in her--something which stole like a glow through her veins, exciting her with its novelty.
"Do you know," she said, "that you have taken me forcibly away from an exceedingly nice man?"
"I don"t care."
"Oh--but might I not at least have been consulted?"