Chapter 1450: What Is Love (5)
Because she had loved him since she was young, even though Shangguan Yu’s personality was a little introverted, she was never stingy. She would not be so shy that she could not express her love for him. Everyone knew that she loved him.
Fu Siye did not speak and only reached out to pull her into his embrace. She loved him so much. He could be afraid of anything except that she wouldn’t love him. Even if the world would be destroyed, she wouldn’t not love him.
Such love.
However, he had forcefully erased it. He had forced her, who loved him so much, to give up and let go of that love. No matter what, she could not live with him.
He…
Fu Siye couldn’t think about it. The moment he thought about it, he wanted to return to the past. He wanted to stab that d.a.m.n self of his to death and take his past self’s place. He wanted to start loving her well from the start so that she wouldn’t have to experience such pain and only have happiness in her life.
It would make it impossible for them to separate forever. They wouldn’t have such despair and fear…
“Siye, what’s wrong with you?” The current him was very different from the past him. She had always felt so uneasy. Apart from losing her memory, her life felt incomplete, and this was also because he suddenly loved her so much, cared about her so much, and…
He was like how she was in the past. He was worried about gains and losses, afraid of losing her, and he especially cherished her.
What exactly happened to make him like this?
He made her feel surreal because he used to hate her so much.
But he suddenly loved her so much and doted on her. He was afraid of losing her.
This made her feel like she was dreaming even though she had been awake for so long. She felt uneasy as she walked.
She was always afraid that one day, she’d wake up and realize that this was only a dream…
Because of this uneasiness, she really wanted a child.
She felt that only with a child would everything become real…
“I had a very, very real dream. That dream was as real as reality. In the dream, you didn’t love me anymore. You wanted to divorce me. No matter what I did, you wouldn’t forgive me. You insisted on divorcing me.
“That dream was really too real, too real… It was so real that I couldn’t tell if it was a dream or if the happiness we are living in now is a dream. Hence, I am afraid, afraid that I would lose you, afraid that I would one day wake up from this beautiful dream. When I wake up, you would still be the you who didn’t love me and wanted to divorce me…
“You’ll never love me again. No matter what I do, you won’t forgive me. You’d have to give up on me… If that happens, I don’t know how I can continue living…”
Fu Siye hugged her tightly, as if he had suddenly fallen into the despair he had felt in the past three years. He had really done everything he could, but he still couldn’t get her heart back. That despair made him want to walk toward destruction a few times. He couldn’t lose her, couldn’t…
“I know I was wrong. I really know I was wrong. I was too much of a b.a.s.t.a.r.d in the past. I couldn’t see my heart clearly.” He really knew that he was wrong. He really knew… Don’t just abandon him like this and give up on him. In this relations.h.i.+p, it wasn’t her who had the deeper feelings. It was him… It was just that he was too stupid in the past…
“Xiao Yu, I didn’t fall in love with you so suddenly. I’ve fallen in love with you since a long time ago. Think about it carefully and you’ll realize that every time you’re tired and wanted to give up on me, I’d hold on to you tightly.”