CHAPTER VIII.
I blush to confess it, but I invited Mr. Paraday that very day to transcribe into the alb.u.m one of his most characteristic pa.s.sages. I told him how I had got rid of the strange girl who had brought it-her ominous name was Miss Hurter and she lived at an hotel; quite agreeing with him moreover as to the wisdom of getting rid with equal prompt.i.tude of the book itself. This was why I carried it to Albemarle Street no later than on the morrow. I failed to find her at home, but she wrote to me and I went again; she wanted so much to hear more about Neil Paraday.
I returned repeatedly, I may briefly declare, to supply her with this information. She had been immensely taken, the more she thought of it, with that idea of mine about the act of homage: it had ended by filling her with a generous rapture. She positively desired to do something sublime for him, though indeed I could see that, as this particular flight was difficult, she appreciated the fact that my visits kept her up. I had it on my conscience to keep her up: I neglected nothing that would contribute to it, and her conception of our cherished author"s independence became at last as fine as his very own. "Read him, read him-_that_ will be an education in decency," I constantly repeated; while, seeking him in his works even as G.o.d in nature, she represented herself as convinced that, according to my a.s.surance, this was the system that had, as she expressed it, weaned her. We read him together when I could find time, and the generous creature"s sacrifice was fed by our communion. There were twenty selfish women about whom I told her and who stirred her to a beautiful rage. Immediately after my first visit her sister, Mrs. Milsom, came over from Paris, and the two ladies began to present, as they called it, their letters. I thanked our stars that none had been presented to Mr. Paraday. They received invitations and dined out, and some of these occasions enabled f.a.n.n.y Hurter to perform, for consistency"s sake, touching feats of submission. Nothing indeed would now have induced her even to look at the object of her admiration. Once, hearing his name announced at a party, she instantly left the room by another door and then straightway quitted the house. At another time when I was at the opera with them-Mrs. Milsom had invited me to their box-I attempted to point Mr. Paraday out to her in the stalls. On this she asked her sister to change places with her and, while that lady devoured the great man through a powerful gla.s.s, presented, all the rest of the evening, her inspired back to the house. To torment her tenderly I pressed the gla.s.s upon her, telling her how wonderfully near it brought our friend"s handsome head. By way of answer she simply looked at me in charged silence, letting me see that tears had gathered in her eyes.
These tears, I may remark, produced an effect on me of which the end is not yet. There was a moment when I felt it my duty to mention them to Neil Paraday, but I was deterred by the reflexion that there were questions more relevant to his happiness.
These question indeed, by the end of the season, were reduced to a single one-the question of reconst.i.tuting so far as might be possible the conditions under which he had produced his best work. Such conditions could never all come back, for there was a new one that took up too much place; but some perhaps were not beyond recall. I wanted above all things to see him sit down to the subject he had, on my making his acquaintance, read me that admirable sketch of. Something told me there was no security but in his doing so before the new factor, as we used to say at Mr. Pinhorn"s, should render the problem incalculable. It only half-rea.s.sured me that the sketch itself was so copious and so eloquent that even at the worst there would be the making of a small but complete book, a tiny volume which, for the faithful, might well become an object of adoration. There would even not be wanting critics to declare, I foresaw, that the plan was a thing to be more thankful for than the structure to have been reared on it. My impatience for the structure, none the less, grew and grew with the interruptions. He had on coming up to town begun to sit for his portrait to a young painter, Mr. Rumble, whose little game, as we also used to say at Mr. Pinhorn"s, was to be the first to perch on the shoulders of renown. Mr. Rumble"s studio was a circus in which the man of the hour, and still more the woman, leaped through the hoops of his showy frames almost as electrically as they burst into telegrams and "specials." He pranced into the exhibitions on their back; he was the reporter on canvas, the Vand.y.k.e up to date, and there was one roaring year in which Mrs. Bounder and Miss Braby, Guy Walsingham and Dora Forbes proclaimed in chorus from the same pictured walls that no one had yet got ahead of him.
Paraday had been promptly caught and saddled, accepting with characteristic good-humour his confidential hint that to figure in his show was not so much a consequence as a cause of immortality. From Mrs.
Wimbush to the last "representative" who called to ascertain his twelve favourite dishes, it was the same ingenuous a.s.sumption that he would rejoice in the repercussion. There were moments when I fancied I might have had more patience with them if they hadn"t been so fatally benevolent. I hated at all events Mr. Rumble"s picture, and had my bottled resentment ready when, later on, I found my distracted friend had been stuffed by Mrs. Wimbush into the mouth of another cannon. A young artist in whom she was intensely interested, and who had no connexion with Mr. Rumble, was to show how far he could make him go. Poor Paraday, in return, was naturally to write something somewhere about the young artist. She played her victims against each other with admirable ingenuity, and her establishment was a huge machine in which the tiniest and the biggest wheels went round to the same treadle. I had a scene with her in which I tried to express that the function of such a man was to exercise his genius-not to serve as a h.o.a.rding for pictorial posters.
The people I was perhaps angriest with were the editors of magazines who had introduced what they called new features, so aware were they that the newest feature of all would be to make him grind their axes by contributing his views on vital topics and taking part in the periodical prattle about the future of fiction. I made sure that before I should have done with him there would scarcely be a current form of words left me to be sick of; but meanwhile I could make surer still of my animosity to bustling ladies for whom he drew the water that irrigated their social flower-beds.
I had a battle with Mrs. Wimbush over the artist she protected, and another over the question of a certain week, at the end of July, that Mr.
Paraday appeared to have contracted to spend with her in the country. I protested against this visit; I intimated that he was too unwell for hospitality without a nuance, for caresses without imagination; I begged he might rather take the time in some restorative way. A sultry air of promises, of ponderous parties, hung over his August, and he would greatly profit by the interval of rest. He hadn"t told me he was ill again that he had had a warning; but I hadn"t needed this, for I found his reticence his worst symptom. The only thing he said to me was that he believed a comfortable attack of something or other would set him up: it would put out of the question everything but the exemptions he prized.
I"m afraid I shall have presented him as a martyr in a very small cause if I fail to explain that he surrendered himself much more liberally than I surrendered him. He filled his lungs, for the most part; with the comedy of his queer fate: the tragedy was in the spectacles through which I chose to look. He was conscious of inconvenience, and above all of a great renouncement; but how could he have heard a mere dirge in the bells of his accession? The sagacity and the jealousy were mine, and his the impressions and the harvest. Of course, as regards Mrs. Wimbush, I was worsted in my encounters, for wasn"t the state of his health the very reason for his coming to her at Prestidge? Wasn"t it precisely at Prestidge that he was to be coddled, and wasn"t the dear Princess coming to help her to coddle him? The dear Princess, now on a visit to England, was of a famous foreign house, and, in her gilded cage, with her retinue of keepers and feeders, was the most expensive specimen in the good lady"s collection. I don"t think her august presence had had to do with Paraday"s consenting to go, but it"s not impossible he had operated as a bait to the ill.u.s.trious stranger. The party had been made up for him, Mrs. Wimbush averred, and every one was counting on it, the dear Princess most of all. If he was well enough he was to read them something absolutely fresh, and it was on that particular prospect the Princess had set her heart. She was so fond of genius in _any_ walk of life, and was so used to it and understood it so well: she was the greatest of Mr.
Paraday"s admirers, she devoured everything he wrote. And then he read like an angel. Mrs. Wimbush reminded me that he had again and again given her, Mrs. Wimbush, the privilege of listening to him.
I looked at her a moment. "What has he read to you?" I crudely enquired.
For a moment too she met my eyes, and for the fraction of a moment she hesitated and coloured. "Oh all sorts of things!"
I wondered if this were an imperfect recollection or only a perfect fib, and she quite understood my unuttered comment on her measure of such things. But if she could forget Neil Paraday"s beauties she could of course forget my rudeness, and three days later she invited me, by telegraph, to join the party at Prestidge. This time she might indeed have had a story about what I had given up to be near the master. I addressed from that fine residence several communications to a young lady in London, a young lady whom, I confess, I quitted with reluctance and whom the reminder of what she herself could give up was required to make me quit at all. It adds to the grat.i.tude I owe her on other grounds that she kindly allows me to transcribe from my letters a few of the pa.s.sages in which that hateful sojourn is candidly commemorated.
CHAPTER IX.
"I suppose I ought to enjoy the joke of what"s going on here," I wrote, "but somehow it doesn"t amuse me. Pessimism on the contrary possesses me and cynicism deeply engages. I positively feel my own flesh sore from the bra.s.s nails in Neil Paraday"s social harness. The house is full of people who like him, as they mention, awfully, and with whom his talent for talking nonsense has prodigious success. I delight in his nonsense myself; why is it therefore that I grudge these happy folk their artless satisfaction? Mystery of the human heart-abyss of the critical spirit!
Mrs. Wimbush thinks she can answer that question, and as my want of gaiety has at last worn out her patience she has given me a glimpse of her shrewd guess. I"m made restless by the selfishness of the insincere friend-I want to monopolise Paraday in order that he may push me on. To be intimate with him is a feather in my cap; it gives me an importance that I couldn"t naturally pretend to, and I seek to deprive him of social refreshment because I fear that meeting more disinterested people may enlighten him as to my real motive. All the disinterested people here are his particular admirers and have been carefully selected as such.
There"s supposed to be a copy of his last book in the house, and in the hall I come upon ladies, in att.i.tudes, bending gracefully over the first volume. I discreetly avert my eyes, and when I next look round the precarious joy has been superseded by the book of life. There"s a sociable circle or a confidential couple, and the relinquished volume lies open on its face and as dropped under extreme coercion. Somebody else presently finds it and transfers it, with its air of momentary desolation, to another piece of furniture. Every one"s asking every one about it all day, and every one"s telling every one where they put it last. I"m sure it"s rather smudgy about the twentieth page. I"ve a strong impression, too, that the second volume is lost-has been packed in the bag of some departing guest; and yet everybody has the impression that somebody else has read to the end. You see therefore that the beautiful book plays a great part in our existence. Why should I take the occasion of such distinguished honours to say that I begin to see deeper into Gustave Flaubert"s doleful refrain about the hatred of literature? I refer you again to the perverse const.i.tution of man.
"The Princess is a ma.s.sive lady with the organisation of an athlete and the confusion of tongues of a valet de place. She contrives to commit herself extraordinarily little in a great many languages, and is entertained and conversed with in detachments and relays, like an inst.i.tution which goes on from generation to generation or a big building contracted for under a forfeit. She can"t have a personal taste any more than, when her husband succeeds, she can have a personal crown, and her opinion on any matter is rusty and heavy and plain-made, in the night of ages, to last and be transmitted. I feel as if I ought to "tip" some custode for my glimpse of it. She has been told everything in the world and has never perceived anything, and the echoes of her education respond awfully to the rash footfall-I mean the casual remark-in the cold Valhalla of her memory. Mrs. Wimbush delights in her wit and says there"s nothing so charming as to hear Mr. Paraday draw it out. He"s perpetually detailed for this job, and he tells me it has a peculiarly exhausting effect. Every one"s beginning-at the end of two days-to sidle obsequiously away from her, and Mrs. Wimbush pushes him again and again into the breach. None of the uses I have yet seen him put to infuriate me quite so much. He looks very f.a.gged and has at last confessed to me that his condition makes him uneasy-has even promised me he"ll go straight home instead of returning to his final engagements in town.
Last night I had some talk with him about going to-day, cutting his visit short; so sure am I that he"ll be better as soon as he"s shut up in his lighthouse. He told me that this is what he would like to do; reminding me, however, that the first lesson of his greatness has been precisely that he can"t do what he likes. Mrs. Wimbush would never forgive him if he should leave her before the Princess has received the last hand. When I hint that a violent rupture with our hostess would be the best thing in the world for him he gives me to understand that if his reason a.s.sents to the proposition his courage hangs woefully back. He makes no secret of being mortally afraid of her, and when I ask what harm she can do him that she hasn"t already done he simply repeats: "I"m afraid, I"m afraid!
Don"t enquire too closely," he said last night; "only believe that I feel a sort of terror. It"s strange, when she"s so kind! At any rate, I"d as soon overturn that piece of priceless Sevres as tell her I must go before my date." It sounds dreadfully weak, but he has some reason, and he pays for his imagination, which puts him (I should hate it) in the place of others and makes him feel, even against himself, their feelings, their appet.i.tes, their motives. It"s indeed inveterately against himself that he makes his imagination act. What a pity he has such a lot of it! He"s too beastly intelligent. Besides, the famous reading"s still to come off, and it has been postponed a day to allow Guy Walsingham to arrive.
It appears this eminent lady"s staying at a house a few miles off, which means of course that Mrs. Wimbush has forcibly annexed her. She"s to come over in a day or two-Mrs. Wimbush wants her to hear Mr. Paraday.
"To-day"s wet and cold, and several of the company, at the invitation of the Duke, have driven over to luncheon at Bigwood. I saw poor Paraday wedge himself, by command, into the little supplementary seat of a brougham in which the Princess and our hostess were already ensconced.
If the front gla.s.s isn"t open on his dear old back perhaps he"ll survive.
Bigwood, I believe, is very grand and frigid, all marble and precedence, and I wish him well out of the adventure. I can"t tell you how much more and more your att.i.tude to him, in the midst of all this, shines out by contrast. I never willingly talk to these people about him, but see what a comfort I find it to scribble to you! I appreciate it-it keeps me warm; there are no fires in the house. Mrs. Wimbush goes by the calendar, the temperature goes by the weather, the weather goes by G.o.d knows what, and the Princess is easily heated. I"ve nothing but my acrimony to warm me, and have been out under an umbrella to restore my circulation. Coming in an hour ago I found Lady Augusta Minch rummaging about the hall. When I asked her what she was looking for she said she had mislaid something that Mr. Paraday had lent her. I ascertained in a moment that the article in question is a ma.n.u.script, and I"ve a foreboding that it"s the n.o.ble morsel he read me six weeks ago. When I expressed my surprise that he should have bandied about anything so precious (I happen to know it"s his only copy-in the most beautiful hand in all the world) Lady Augusta confessed to me that she hadn"t had it from himself, but from Mrs. Wimbush, who had wished to give her a glimpse of it as a salve for her not being able to stay and hear it read.
""Is that the piece he"s to read," I asked, "when Guy Walsingham arrives?"
""It"s not for Guy Walsingham they"re waiting now, it"s for Dora Forbes,"
Lady Augusta said. "She"s coming, I believe, early to-morrow. Meanwhile Mrs. Wimbush has found out about him, and is actively wiring to him. She says he also must hear him."
""You bewilder me a little," I replied; "in the age we live in one gets lost among the genders and the p.r.o.nouns. The clear thing is that Mrs.
Wimbush doesn"t guard such a treasure so jealously as she might."
""Poor dear, she has the Princess to guard! Mr. Paraday lent her the ma.n.u.script to look over."
""She spoke, you mean, as if it were the morning paper?"
"Lady Augusta stared-my irony was lost on her. "She didn"t have time, so she gave me a chance first; because unfortunately I go to-morrow to Bigwood."
""And your chance has only proved a chance to lose it?"
""I haven"t lost it. I remember now-it was very stupid of me to have forgotten. I told my maid to give it to Lord Dorimont-or at least to his man."
""And Lord Dorimont went away directly after luncheon."
""Of course he gave it back to my maid-or else his man did," said Lady Augusta. "I dare say it"s all right."
"The conscience of these people is like a summer sea. They haven"t time to look over a priceless composition; they"ve only time to kick it about the house. I suggested that the "man," fired with a n.o.ble emulation, had perhaps kept the work for his own perusal; and her ladyship wanted to know whether, if the thing shouldn"t reappear for the grand occasion appointed by our hostess, the author wouldn"t have something else to read that would do just as well. Their questions are too delightful! I declared to Lady Augusta briefly that nothing in the world can ever do so well as the thing that does best; and at this she looked a little disconcerted. But I added that if the ma.n.u.script had gone astray our little circle would have the less of an effort of attention to make. The piece in question was very long-it would keep them three hours.
""Three hours! Oh the Princess will get up!" said Lady Augusta.
""I thought she was Mr. Paraday"s greatest admirer."
""I dare say she is-she"s so awfully clever. But what"s the use of being a Princess-"
""If you can"t dissemble your love?" I asked as Lady Augusta was vague.
She said at any rate she"d question her maid; and I"m hoping that when I go down to dinner I shall find the ma.n.u.script has been recovered."
CHAPTER X.
"It has _not_ been recovered," I wrote early the next day, "and I"m moreover much troubled about our friend. He came back from Bigwood with a chill and, being allowed to have a fire in his room, lay down a while before dinner. I tried to send him to bed and indeed thought I had put him in the way of it; but after I had gone to dress Mrs. Wimbush came up to see him, with the inevitable result that when I returned I found him under arms and flushed and feverish, though decorated with the rare flower she had brought him for his b.u.t.ton-hole. He came down to dinner, but Lady Augusta Minch was very shy of him. To-day he"s in great pain, and the advent of ces dames-I mean of Guy Walsingham and Dora Forbes-doesn"t at all console me. It does Mrs. Wimbush, however, for she has consented to his remaining in bed so that he may be all right to-morrow for the listening circle. Guy Walsingham"s already on the scene, and the Doctor for Paraday also arrived early. I haven"t yet seen the author of "Obsessions," but of course I"ve had a moment by myself with the Doctor. I tried to get him to say that our invalid must go straight home-I mean to-morrow or next day; but he quite refuses to talk about the future. Absolute quiet and warmth and the regular administration of an important remedy are the points he mainly insists on. He returns this afternoon, and I"m to go back to see the patient at one o"clock, when he next takes his medicine. It consoles me a little that he certainly won"t be able to read-an exertion he was already more than unfit for. Lady Augusta went off after breakfast, a.s.suring me her first care would be to follow up the lost ma.n.u.script. I can see she thinks me a shocking busybody and doesn"t understand my alarm, but she"ll do what she can, for she"s a good-natured woman. "So are they all honourable men." That was precisely what made her give the thing to Lord Dorimont and made Lord Dorimont bag it. What use _he_ has for it G.o.d only knows. I"ve the worst forebodings, but somehow I"m strangely without pa.s.sion-desperately calm. As I consider the unconscious, the well-meaning ravages of our appreciative circle I bow my head in submission to some great natural, some universal accident; I"m rendered almost indifferent, in fact quite gay (ha-ha!) by the sense of immitigable fate. Lady Augusta promises me to trace the precious object and let me have it through the post by the time Paraday"s well enough to play his part with it. The last evidence is that her maid did give it to his lordship"s valet. One would suppose it some thrilling number of _The Family Budget_. Mrs. Wimbush, who"s aware of the accident, is much less agitated by it than she would doubtless be were she not for the hour inevitably engrossed with Guy Walsingham."
Later in the day I informed my correspondent, for whom indeed I kept a loose diary of the situation, that I had made the acquaintance of this celebrity and that she was a pretty little girl who wore her hair in what used to be called a crop. She looked so juvenile and so innocent that if, as Mr. Morrow had announced, she was resigned to the larger lat.i.tude, her superiority to prejudice must have come to her early. I spent most of the day hovering about Neil Paraday"s room, but it was communicated to me from below that Guy Walsingham, at Prestidge, was a success. Toward evening I became conscious somehow that her superiority was contagious, and by the time the company separated for the night I was sure the larger lat.i.tude had been generally accepted. I thought of Dora Forbes and felt that he had no time to lose. Before dinner I received a telegram from Lady Augusta Minch. "Lord Dorimont thinks he must have left bundle in train-enquire." How could I enquire-if I was to take the word as a command? I was too worried and now too alarmed about Neil Paraday. The Doctor came back, and it was an immense satisfaction to me to be sure he was wise and interested. He was proud of being called to so distinguished a patient, but he admitted to me that night that my friend was gravely ill. It was really a relapse, a recrudescence of his old malady. There could be no question of moving him: we must at any rate see first, on the spot, what turn his condition would take. Meanwhile, on the morrow, he was to have a nurse. On the morrow the dear man was easier, and my spirits rose to such cheerfulness that I could almost laugh over Lady Augusta"s second telegram: "Lord Dorimont"s servant been to station-nothing found. Push enquiries." I did laugh, I"m sure, as I remembered this to be the mystic scroll I had scarcely allowed poor Mr.
Morrow to point his umbrella at. Fool that I had been: the thirty-seven influential journals wouldn"t have destroyed it, they"d only have printed it. Of course I said nothing to Paraday.
When the nurse arrived she turned me out of the room, on which I went downstairs. I should premise that at breakfast the news that our brilliant friend was doing well excited universal complacency, and the Princess graciously remarked that he was only to be commiserated for missing the society of Miss Collop. Mrs. Wimbush, whose social gift never shone brighter than in the dry decorum with which she accepted this fizzle in her fireworks, mentioned to me that Guy Walsingham had made a very favourable impression on her Imperial Highness. Indeed I think every one did so, and that, like the money-market or the national honour, her Imperial Highness was const.i.tutionally sensitive. There was a certain gladness, a perceptible bustle in the air, however, which I thought slightly anomalous in a house where a great author lay critically ill. "Le roy est mort-vive le roy": I was reminded that another great author had already stepped into his shoes. When I came down again after the nurse had taken possession I found a strange gentleman hanging about the hall and pacing to and fro by the closed door of the drawing-room.
This personage was florid and bald; he had a big red moustache and wore showy knickerbockers-characteristics all that fitted to my conception of the ident.i.ty of Dora Forbes. In a moment I saw what had happened: the author of "The Other Way Round" had just alighted at the portals of Prestidge, but had suffered a scruple to restrain him from penetrating further. I recognised his scruple when, pausing to listen at his gesture of caution, I heard a shrill voice lifted in a sort of rhythmic uncanny chant. The famous reading had begun, only it was the author of "Obsessions" who now furnished the sacrifice. The new visitor whispered to me that he judged something was going on he oughtn"t to interrupt.
"Miss Collop arrived last night," I smiled, "and the Princess has a thirst for the inedit."
Dora Forbes lifted his bushy brows. "Miss Collop?"
"Guy Walsingham, your distinguished confrere-or shall I say your formidable rival?"
"Oh!" growled Dora Forbes. Then he added: "Shall I spoil it if I go in?"