"Cursed be the hour when that man was born!" he said in an awful whisper.
Then Mona"s despair came upon her like a torrent, and she wept long. In the bitterness of her heart she cried:
"Cursed indeed, cursed forever! Dan, Dan, you must kill him--you must kill that man!"
But at the sound of that word from her own lips the spirit of revenge left her on the instant, and she cried, "No, no, not that." Then she went down on her knees and made a short and piteous prayer for forgiveness for her thought. "O Father," she prayed, "forgive me. I did not know what I said. But Ewan is dead! O Father, our dear Ewan is murdered. Some black-hearted man has killed him. Vengeance is Thine.
Yes, I know that. O Father, forgive me. But to think that Ewan is gone forever, and that base soul lives on. Vengeance is Thine; but, O Father, let thy vengeance fall upon him. If it is Thy will, let Thy hand be on him. Follow him, Father; follow him with Thy vengeance--"
She had flung herself on her knees by the settle, her upturned eyes wide open, and her two trembling hands held above her head. Dan stood beside her, and as she prayed a deep groan came up from his heart, his breast swelled, and his throat seemed to choke. At last he clutched her by the shoulders and interrupted her prayer, and cried, "Mona, Mona, what are you saying--what are you saying? Stop, stop!"
She rose to her feet. "I have done wrong," she said, more quietly. "He is in G.o.d"s hands. Yes, it is for G.o.d to punish him."
Then Dan said, in a heart-rending voice:
"Mona, he did not mean to kill Ewan--they fought--it was all in the heat of blood."
Once more he tried to avoid her gaze, and once more, pale and immovable, she watched his face.
"Who is he?" she asked, with an awful calmness.
"Mona, turn your face away from me, and I will tell you," he said.
Then everything swam about her, and her pale lips grew ashy.
"Don"t you know?" he asked in a whisper.
She did not turn her face, and he was compelled to look at her now. His glaring eyes were fixed upon her.
"Don"t you know?" he whispered again, and then, in a scarcely audible voice, he said, "It was I, Mona."
At that she grew cold with horror. Her features became changed beyond recognition. She recoiled from him, stretched her trembling hands before her as if to keep him off.
"Oh, horror! Do not touch me!" she cried, faintly, through the breath that came so hard.
"Do not spare me, Mona," he said in a great sob. "Do not spare me. You do right not to spare me. I have stained my hands with your blood."
Then she sank to the settle, and held her head, while he stood by her and told her all--all the bitter, blundering truth--and bit by bit she grasped the tangled tale, and realized the blind pa.s.sion and pain that had brought them to such a pa.s.s, and saw her own unwitting share in it.
And he on his part saw the product of his headstrong wrath, and the pitiful grounds for it, so small and so absurd as such grounds oftenest are. And together these shipwrecked voyagers on the waters of life sat and wept, and wondered what evil could be in h.e.l.l itself if man in his blindness could find the world so full of it.
And Dan cursed himself and said:
"Oh, the madness of thinking that if either were gone the other could ever again know one hour"s happiness with you, Mona. Ay, though the crime lay hidden, yet would it wither and blast every hour. And now, behold, at the first moment, I am bringing my burden of sin, too heavy for myself, to you. I am a coward--yes, I am a coward. You will turn your back upon me, Mona, and then I shall be alone."
She looked at him with infinite compa.s.sion, and her heart surged within her as she listened to his voice of great agony.
"Ah me! and I asked G.o.d to curse you," she said. "Oh, how wicked that prayer was! Will G.o.d hear it? Merciful Father, do not hear it. I did not know what I said. I am a blind, ignorant creature, but Thou seest and knowest best. Pity him, and forgive him. Oh, no, G.o.d will not hear my wicked prayer."
Thus in fitful outbursts she talked and prayed. It was as if a tempest had torn up every tie of her soul. Dan listened, and he looked at her with swimming eyes.
"And do you pray for me, Mona?" he said.
"Who will pray for you if I do not? In all the world there will not be one left to speak kindly of you if I speak ill. Oh, Dan, it will become known, and every one will be against you."
"And can you think well of him who killed your brother?"
"But you are in such sorrow; you are so miserable."
Then Dan"s great frame shook wofully, and he cried in his pain--"Mercy, mercy, have mercy! What have I lost? What love have I lost?"
At that Mona"s weeping ceased; she looked at Dan through her lashes, still wet, and said in another tone:
"Dan, do not think me unmaidenly. If you had done well, if you had realized my hopes of you, if you had grown to be the good and great man I longed to see you, then, though I might have yearned for you, I would rather have died with my secret than speak of it. But now, now that all this is not so, now that it is a lost faith, now that by G.o.d"s will you are to be abased before the whole world--oh, do not think me unmaidenly, now I tell you, Dan, that I love you, and have always loved you."
"Mona!" he cried, in a low, pa.s.sionate tone, and took one step toward her and held out his hands. There was an unspeakable language in her face.
"Yes; and that where you go I must go also, though it were to disgrace and shame--"
She had turned toward him lovingly, yearningly, with heaving breast.
With a great cry he flung his arms about her, and the world of pain and sorrow was for that instant blotted out.
But all the bitter flood came rushing back upon them. He put her from him with a strong shudder.
"We are clasping hands over a tomb, Mona. Our love is known too late. We are mariners cast on a rock within a cable"s length of harbor, but cut off from it by a cruel sea that may never be pa.s.sed. We are hopeless within sight of hope. Our love is known in vain. It is a vision of what might have been in the days that are lost forever. We can never clasp hands, for, O G.o.d! a cold hand is between us, and lies in the hand of both."
Then again she fell to weeping, but suddenly she arose as if struck by a sudden idea.
"You will be taken," she said; "how can I have forgotten it so long? You must fly from the island. You must get away to-night. To-morrow all will be discovered."
"I will not leave the island," said Dan, firmly. "Can you drive me from you?" he said, with a suppliant look. "Yes, you do well to drive me away."
"My love, I do not drive you from me. I would have you here forever. But you will be taken. Quick, the world is wide."
"There is no world for me save here, Mona. To go from you now is to go forever, and I would rather die by my own hand than face such banishment."
"No, no, not that; never, never that. That would imperil your soul, and then we should be divided forever."
"It is so already, Mona," said Dan, with solemnity. "We are divided forever--as the blessed are divided from the d.a.m.ned."
"Don"t say that, don"t say that."
"Yes, Mona," he said, with a fearful calmness, "we have thought of my crime as against Ewan, as against you, myself, the world, and its law.
But it is a crime against G.o.d also, and surely it is the unpardonable sin."
"Don"t say that, Dan. There is one great anchor of hope."
"What is that, Mona?"