Why met he not with Iseult from the West, Or better still, Iseult of Brittany?
Perchance indeed quite ladyless were best.
Alas, my maids, you loved not overmuch Queen Guenevere, uncertain as sunshine In March; forgive me! for my sin being such, About my whole life, all my deeds did twine,
Made me quite wicked; as I found out then, I think; in the lonely palace where each morn We went, my maids and I, to say prayers when They sang ma.s.s in the chapel on the lawn.
And every morn I scarce could pray at all, For Launcelot"s red-golden hair would play, Instead of sunlight, on the painted wall, Mingled with dreams of what the priest did say;
Grim curses out of Peter and of Paul; Judging of strange sins in Leviticus; Another sort of writing on the wall, Scored deep across the painted heads of us.
Christ sitting with the woman at the well, And Mary Magdalen repenting there, Her dimmed eyes scorch"d and red at sight of h.e.l.l So hardly "scaped, no gold light on her hair.
And if the priest said anything that seemed To touch upon the sin they said we did, (This in their teeth) they looked as if they deem"d That I was spying what thoughts might be hid
Under green-cover"d bosoms, heaving quick Beneath quick thoughts; while they grew red with shame, And gazed down at their feet: while I felt sick, And almost shriek"d if one should call my name.
The thrushes sang in the lone garden there: But where you were the birds were scared I trow: Clanging of arms about pavilions fair, Mixed with the knights" laughs; there, as I well know,
Rode Launcelot, the king of all the band, And scowling Gauwaine, like the night in day, And handsome Gareth, with his great white hand Curl"d round the helm-crest, ere he join"d the fray;
And merry Dinadan with sharp dark face, All true knights loved to see; and in the fight Great Tristram, and though helmed you could trace In all his bearing the frank n.o.ble knight;
And by him Palomydes, helmet off, He fought, his face brush"d by his hair, Red heavy swinging hair; he fear"d a scoff So overmuch, though what true knight would dare
To mock that face, fretted with useless care, And bitter useless striving after love?
O Palomydes, with much honour bear Beast Glatysaunt upon your shield, above
Your helm that hides the swinging of your hair, And think of Iseult, as your sword drives through Much mail and plate: O G.o.d, let me be there A little time, as I was long ago!
Because stout Gareth lets his spear fall low, Gauwaine and Launcelot, and Dinadan Are helm"d and waiting; let the trumpets go!
Bend over, ladies, to see all you can!
Clench teeth, dames, yea, clasp hands, for Gareth"s spear Throws Kay from out his saddle, like a stone From a castle-window when the foe draws near: Iseult! Sir Dinadan rolleth overthrown.
Iseult! again: the pieces of each spear Fly fathoms up, and both the great steeds reel; Tristram for Iseult! Iseult! and Guenevere!
The ladies" names bite verily like steel.
They bite: bite me, Lord G.o.d! I shall go mad, Or else die kissing him, he is so pale, He thinks me mad already, O bad! bad!
Let me lie down a little while and wail."
"No longer so, rise up, I pray you, love, And slay me really, then we shall be heal"d, Perchance, in the aftertime by G.o.d above."
"Banner of Arthur, with black-bended shield
Sinister-wise across the fair gold ground!
Here let me tell you what a knight you are, O sword and shield of Arthur! you are found A crooked sword, I think, that leaves a scar
On the bearer"s arm, so be he thinks it straight, Twisted Malay"s crease beautiful blue-grey, Poison"d with sweet fruit; as he found too late, My husband Arthur, on some bitter day!
O sickle cutting hemlock the day long!
That the husbandman across his shoulder hangs, And, going homeward about evensong, Dies the next morning, struck through by the fangs!
Banner, and sword, and shield, you dare not die, Lest you meet Arthur in the other world, And, knowing who you are, he pa.s.s you by, Taking short turns that he may watch you curl"d,
Body and face and limbs in agony, Lest he weep presently and go away, Saying: I loved him once, with a sad sigh, Now I have slain him, Lord, let me go too, I pray.
[Launcelot _falls_.
Alas! alas! I know not what to do, If I run fast it is perchance that I May fall and stun myself, much better so, Never, never again! not even when I die."
LAUNCELOT, _on awaking_.
"I stretch"d my hands towards her and fell down, How long I lay in swoon I cannot tell: My head and hands were bleeding from the stone, When I rose up, also I heard a bell."
SIR GALAHAD, A CHRISTMAS MYSTERY
SIR GALAHAD, A CHRISTMAS MYSTERY
It is the longest night in all the year, Near on the day when the Lord Christ was born; Six hours ago I came and sat down here, And ponder"d sadly, wearied and forlorn.
The winter wind that pa.s.s"d the chapel door, Sang out a moody tune, that went right well With mine own thoughts: I look"d down on the floor, Between my feet, until I heard a bell
Sound a long way off through the forest deep, And toll on steadily; a drowsiness Came on me, so that I fell half asleep, As I sat there not moving: less and less
I saw the melted snow that hung in beads Upon my steel-shoes; less and less I saw Between the tiles the bunches of small weeds: Heartless and stupid, with no touch of awe
Upon me, half-shut eyes upon the ground, I thought: O Galahad! the days go by, Stop and cast up now that which you have found, So sorely you have wrought and painfully.
Night after night your horse treads down alone The sere damp fern, night after night you sit Holding the bridle like a man of stone, Dismal, unfriended: what thing comes of it?
And what if Palomydes also ride, And over many a mountain and bare heath Follow the questing beast with none beside?
Is he not able still to hold his breath
With thoughts of Iseult? doth he not grow pale With weary striving, to seem best of all To her, "as she is best," he saith? to fail Is nothing to him, he can never fall.
For unto such a man love-sorrow is So dear a thing unto his constant heart, That even if he never win one kiss, Or touch from Iseult, it will never part.
And he will never know her to be worse Than in his happiest dreams he thinks she is: Good knight, and faithful, you have "scaped the curse In wonderful-wise; you have great store of bliss.
Yea, what if Father Launcelot ride out, Can he not think of Guenevere"s arms, round Warm and lithe, about his neck, and shout Till all the place grows joyful with the sound?
And when he lists can often see her face, And think, "Next month I kiss you, or next week, And still you think of me": therefore the place Grows very pleasant, whatsoever he seek.
But me, who ride alone, some carle shall find Dead in my arms in the half-melted snow, When all unkindly with the shifting wind, The thaw comes on at Candlemas: I know