"I dare say you will," he replied. "You Andersons are full of surprises.... But I wish you would not do any more for me. I am like a dog. The kinder you are to me the more I love you.... How dreadful to go away to war--to violence and blood and death--to all that"s brutalizing--with my heart and mind full of love for a n.o.ble girl like you!--If I come to love you any more I"ll not be a man."
To Lenore he looked very much of a man, so tall and lithe and white-faced, with his eyes of fire, his simplicity, and his tragic refusal of all that was for most men the best of life. Whatever his ideal, it was magnificent. Lenore had her chance then, but she was absolutely unable to grasp it. Her blood beat thick and hot. If she could only have been sure of herself! Or was it that she still cared too much for herself? The moment had not come. And in her tumult there was a fleeting fury at Dorn"s blindness, at his reverence of her, that he dare not touch her hand. Did he imagine she was stone?
"Let us say good night," she said. "You are worn out. And I am--not just myself. To-morrow we"ll be--good friends.... Father will take you to your room."
Dorn pressed the hand she offered, and, saying good-night, he followed her to the hall. Lenore tapped on the door of her father"s study, then opened it.
"Good night, dad. I"m going up," she said. "Will you look after Kurt?"
"Sure. Come in, son," replied her father.
Lenore felt Dorn"s strange, intent gaze upon her as she pa.s.sed him.
Lightly she ran up-stairs and turned at the top. The hall was bright and Dorn stood full in the light, his face upturned. It still wore the softer expression of those last few moments. Lenore waved her hand, and he smiled. The moment was natural. Youth to youth! Lenore felt it. She marveled that he did not. A sweet devil of wilful coquetry possessed her.
"Oh, did you say you wouldn"t go?" she softly called.
"I said only good night," he replied.
"If you _don"t_ go, then you will never be General Dorn, will you? What a pity!"
"I"ll go. And then it will be--"Private Dorn--missing. No relatives,""
he replied.
That froze Lenore. Her heart quaked. She gazed down upon him with all her soul in her eyes. She knew it and did not care. But he could not see.
"Good night, Kurt Dorn," she called, and ran to her room.
Composure did not come to her until she was ready for bed, with the light out and in her old seat at the window. Night and silence and starlight always lent Lenore strength. She prayed to them now and to the spirit she knew dwelt beyond them. And then she whispered what her intelligence told her was an unalterable fact--Kurt Dorn could never be changed. But her sympathy and love and pa.s.sion, all that was womanly emotion, stormed at her intelligence and refused to listen to it.
Nothing short of a great shock would divert Dorn from his tragic headlong rush toward the fate he believed unalterable. Lenore sensed a terrible, sinister earnestness in him. She could not divine its meaning.
But it was such a driving pa.s.sion that no man possessing it and free to the violence of war could ever escape death. Even if by superhuman strife, and the guidance of Providence, he did escape death, he would have lost something as precious as life. If Dorn went to war at all--if he ever reached those blood-red trenches, in the thick of fire and shriek and ferocity--there to express in horrible earnestness what she vaguely felt yet could not define--then so far as she was concerned she imagined that she would not want him to come back.
That was the strength of spirit that breathed out of the night and the silence to her. Dorn would go to war as no ordinary soldier, to obey, to fight, to do his duty; but for some strange, unfathomable obsession of his own. And, therefore, if he went at all he was lost. War, in its inexplicable horror, killed the souls of endless hordes of men.
Therefore, if he went at all she, too, was lost to the happiness that might have been hers. She would never love another man. She could never marry. She would never have a child.
So his soul and her happiness were in the balance weighed against a woman"s power. It seemed to Lenore that she felt hopelessly unable to carry the issue to victory; and yet, on the other hand, a tumultuous and wonderful sweetness of sensation called to her, insidiously, of the infallible potency of love. What could she do to save Dorn"s life and his soul? There was only one answer to that. She would do anything. She must make him love her to the extent that he would have no will to carry out this desperate intent. There was little time to do that. The gradual growth of affection through intimacy and understanding was not possible here. It must come as a flash of lightning. She must bewilder him with the revelation of her love, and then by all its incalculable power hold him there.
It was her father"s wish; it would be the salvation of Dorn; it meant all to her. But if to keep him there would make him a slacker, Lenore swore she would die before lifting her lips to his. The government would rather he stayed to raise wheat than go out and fight men. Lenore saw the sanity, the cardinal importance of that, as her father saw it. So from all sides she was justified. And sitting there in the darkness and silence, with the cool wind in her face, she vowed she would be all woman, all sweetness, all love, all pa.s.sion, all that was feminine and terrible, to keep Dorn from going to war.
CHAPTER XIX
Lenore awakened early. The morning seemed golden. Birds were singing at her window. What did that day hold in store for her? She pressed a hand hard on her heart as if to hold it still. But her heart went right on, swift, exultant, throbbing with a fullness that was almost pain.
Early as she awakened, it was, nevertheless, late when she could direct her reluctant steps down-stairs. She had welcomed every little suggestion and task to delay the facing of her ordeal.
There was merriment in the sitting-room, and Dorn"s laugh made her glad.
The girls were at him, and her father"s pleasant, deep voice chimed in.
Evidently there was a controversy as to who should have the society of the guest. They had all been to breakfast. Mrs. Anderson expressed surprise at Lenore"s tardiness, and said she had been called twice.
Lenore had heard nothing except the birds and the music of her thoughts.
She peeped into the sitting-room.
"Didn"t you bring me anything?" Kathleen was inquiring of Dorn.
Dorn was flushed and smiling. Anderson stood beaming upon them, and Rose appeared to be inclined toward jealousy.
"Why--you see--I didn"t even know Lenore had a little sister," Dorn explained.
"Oh!" exclaimed Kathleen, evidently satisfied. "All Lenorry"s beaux bring me things. But I believe I"m going to like you best."
Lenore had intended to say good morning. She changed her mind, however, at Kathleen"s nave speech, and darted back lest she be seen. She felt the blood hot in her cheeks. That awful, irrepressible Kathleen! If she liked Dorn she would take possession of him. And Kathleen was lovable, irresistible. Lenore had a sudden thought that Kathleen would aid the good cause if she could be enlisted. While Lenore ate her breakfast she listened to the animated conversation in the sitting-room. Presently her father came in.
"h.e.l.lo, Lenore! Did you get up?" he greeted her, cheerily.
"I hardly ever did, it seems.... Dad, the day was something to face,"
she said.
"Ah-huh! It"s like getting up to work. Lenore, the biggest duty of life is to hide your troubles.... Dorn looks like a human bein" this mornin".
The kids have won him. I reckon he needs that sort of cheer. Let them have him. Then after a while you fetch him out to the wheat-field.
Lenore, our harvestin" is half done. Every day I"ve expected some trick or deviltry. But it hasn"t come yet."
"Are any of the other ranchers having trouble?" she inquired.
"I hear rumors of bad work. But facts told by ranchers an" men who were here only yesterday make little of the rumors. All that burnin" of wheat an" timber, an" the destruction of machines an" strikin" of farm-hands, haven"t hit Golden Valley yet. We won"t need any militia here, you can bet on that."
"Father, it won"t do to be over-confident," she said, earnestly. "You know you are the mark for the I.W.W. sabotage. If you are not careful--any moment--"
Lenore paused with a shudder.
"La.s.s, I"m just like I was in the old rustlin" days. An" I"ve surrounded myself with cowboys like Jake an" Bill, an" old hands who pack guns an"
keep still, as in the good old Western days. We"re just waitin" for the I.W.W."s to break loose."
"Then what?" queried Lenore.
"Wal, we"ll chase that outfit so fast it"ll be lost in dust," he replied.
"But if you chase them away, it "ll only be into another state, where they"ll make trouble for other farmers. You don"t do any real good."
"My dear, I reckon you"ve said somethin" strong," he replied, soberly, and went out.
Then Kathleen came bouncing in. Her beautiful eyes were full of mischief and excitement. "Lenorry, your new beau has all the others skinned to a frazzle," she said.
For once Lenore did not scold Kathleen, but drew her close and whispered: "Do you want to please me? Do you want me to do _everything_ for you?"
"I sure do," replied Kathleen, with wonderful eyes.