"Yes," she said....
He comprehended something of the struggle she was having with herself, and respected it. If he had consulted his own inclinations, he would have turned and marched off without another word. But for her sake he lingered. Let her have the satisfaction (he bade himself) of knowing that she had done her duty at their leave-taking.
She caught him suddenly by the shoulders with both her hands. Her eyes sought his with a wistful courage he could not but admire.
"You know I"m grateful...."
"Don"t think of it that way--though I"m glad you are."
"You"re a good man," she said brokenly.
He knew himself too well to be able to reply.
"You mustn"t worry about me, now. You"ve made things easy for me. I can take care of myself, and ... I shan"t forget whose name I bear."
He muttered something to the effect that he was sure of that.
She released his shoulders and stood back, searching his face with tormented eyes. Abruptly she offered him her hand.
"Good-by," she said, her lips quivering--"Good-by, good friend!"
He caught the hand, wrung it clumsily and painfully and ... realized that the train was in motion. He had barely time to get away....
He found himself on the station platform, stupidly watching the rear lights dwindle down the tracks and wondering whether or not hallucinations were a phase of his malady. A sick man often dreams strange dreams....
A voice behind him, cool with a trace of irony, observed:
"I"d give a good deal to know just what particular brand of d.a.m.n"
foolishness you"ve been indulging in, this time."
He whirled around to face Peter Stark--Peter quietly amused and very much the master of the situation.
"You needn"t think," said he, "that you have any chance on earth of escaping my fond attentions, Hugh. I"ll go to the ends of the earth after you, if you won"t let me go with you. I"ve fixed it up with Nelly to wait until I bring you home, a well man, before we get married; and if you refuse to be my best man--well, there won"t be any party. You can make up your mind to that."
V
WILFUL MISSING
It was one o"clock in the morning before Whitaker allowed himself to be persuaded; fatigue reenforced every stubborn argument of Peter Stark"s to overcome his resistance. It was a repet.i.tion of the episode of Mary Ladislas recast and rewritten: the stronger will overcame the admonitions of a saner judgment. Whitaker gave in. "Oh, have your own way," he said at length, unconsciously iterating the words that had won him a bride. "If it must be...."
Peter put him to bed, watched over him through the night, and the next morning carried him on to New Bedford, where they superintended the outfitting of Peter"s yacht, the _Adventuress_. Beyond drawing heavily on his bank and sending Drummond a brief note, Whitaker failed to renew communication with his home. He sank into a state of semi-apathetic content; he thought little of anything beyond the business of the moment; the preparations for what he was pleased to term his funeral cruise absorbed him to the exclusion of vain repinings or anxiety for the welfare of his advent.i.tious wife. Apparently his sudden disappearance had not caused the least ripple on the surface of life in New York; the newspapers, at all events, slighted the circ.u.mstance unanimously: to his complete satisfaction.
Within the week the _Adventuress_ sailed.
She was five months out of port before Whitaker began to be conscious that he was truly accursed. There came a gradual thickening of the shadows that threatened to eclipse his existence. And then, one day as they dined with the lonely trader of an isolated station in the D"Entrecasteaux Islands, he fell from his chair as if poleaxed. He regained consciousness only to shiver with the chill of the wind that"s fanned by the wings of death. It was impossible to move him. The agonies of the d.a.m.ned were his when, with exquisite gentleness, they lifted him to a bed....
Stark sailed in the _Adventuress_ before sundown of the same day, purposing to fetch a surgeon from Port Moresby. Whitaker said a last farewell to his friend, knowing in his soul that they would never meet again. Then he composed himself to die quietly. But the following morning brought a hapchance trading schooner to the island, and with it, in the estate of supercargo, a c.r.a.pulous Scotch gentleman who had been a famous specialist of London before drink laid him by the heels. He performed an heroic operation upon Whitaker within an hour, announced by nightfall that the patient would recover, and the next day sailed with his ship to end his days in some abandoned Australian boozing-ken--as Whitaker learned in Sydney several months later.
In the same place, and at the same time, he received his first authentic news of the fate of the _Adventuress_. The yacht had struck on an uncharted reef, in heavy weather, and had foundered almost immediately.
Of her entire company, a solitary sailor managed to cling to a life-raft until picked up, a week after the wreck, by a tramp steamship on whose decks he gasped out his news and his life in the same breaths.
Whitaker hunted up an account of the disaster in the files of a local newspaper. He read that the owner, Peter Stark, Esq., and his guest, H.
M. Whitaker, Esq., both of New York, had gone down with the vessel.
There was also a cable despatch from New York detailing Peter Stark"s social and financial prominence--evidence that the news had been cabled Home. To all who knew him Whitaker was as dead as Peter Stark.
Sardonic irony of circ.u.mstance, that had robbed the sound man of life and bestowed life upon the moribund! Contemplation wrought like a toxic drug upon Whitaker"s temper, until he was raving drunk with the black draught of mutiny against the dictates of an Omnipotence capable of such hideous mockeries of justice. The iron bit deep into his soul and left corrosion there....
"There is a world outside the one you know To which for curiousness "Ell can"t compare; It is the place where wilful missings go, As we can testify, for we are there."
Kipling"s lines buzzed through his head more than once in the course of the next few years; for he was "there." They were years of such vagabondage as only the South Seas countenance: neither unhappy nor very strenuous, not yet scarred by the tooth of poverty. Whitaker had between four and five thousand dollars in traveller"s checks which he converted into cash while in Sydney. Memory of the wreck of the _Adventuress_ was already fading from the Australian mind; no one dreamed of challenging the signature of a man seven months dead. And as certainly and as quietly as the memory, Whitaker faded away; Hugh Morten took his place, and Sydney knew him no more, nor did any other parts wherein he had answered to his rightful name.
The money stayed by him handsomely. Thanks to a strong const.i.tution in a tough body (now that its malignant demon was exorcised) he found it easy to pick up a living by one means or another. Indeed, he played many parts in as many fields before joining hands with a young Englishman he had grown to like and entering upon what seemed a forlorn bid for fortune. Thereafter he prospered amazingly.
In those days his anomalous position in the world troubled him very little. He was a Wilful Missing and a willing. The new life intrigued him amazingly; he lived in open air, in virgin country, wresting a fortune by main strength from the reluctant grasp of Nature. He was one of the first two men to find and mine gold in paying quant.i.ties in the Owen Stanley country.... Now that Peter Stark was dead, the ties of interest and affection binding him to America were both few and slender.
His wife was too abstract a concept, a shadow too vague in his memory, to obtrude often upon his reveries. Indeed, as time went on, he found it anything but easy to recall much about the physical appearance of the woman he had married; he remembered chiefly her eyes; she moved mistily across the stage of a single scene in his history, an awkward, self-conscious, unhappy, childish phantasm.
Even the consideration that, fortified by the report of his death, she might have married again, failed to disturb either his slumbers or his digestion. If that had happened, he had no objection; the tie that bound them was the emptiest of forms--in his understanding as meaningless and as powerless to make them one as the printed license form they had been forced to procure of the State of Connecticut. There had been neither love nor true union--merely pity on one side, apathy of despair on the other. Two souls had met in the valley of the great shadow, had paused a moment to touch hands, had pa.s.sed onward, forever out of one another"s ken; and that was all. His "death" should have put her in command of a fair competence. If she had since sought and found happiness with another man, was there any logical reason, or even excuse, for Whitaker to abandon his new and pleasant ways of life in order to return and shatter hers?
He was self-persuaded of his generosity toward the girl.
Casuistry of the Wilful Missing!...
It"s to be feared he had always a hard-headed way of considering matters in the light of equity as distinguished from the light of ethical or legal morality. This is not to be taken as an attempt to defend the man, but rather as a statement of fact: even as the context is to be read as an account of some things that happened rather than as a morality....
When at length he did make up his mind to go Home, it wasn"t because he felt that duty called him; plain, everyday, human curiosity had something to do with his determination--a desire to see how New York was managing to get along without him--together with a dawning apprehension that there was an uncomfortable amount of truth in the antiquated bromidiom about the surprising littleness of the world.
He was in Melbourne at that time, with Lynch, his partner. Having prospered and laid by a lump of money, they had planned to finance their holdings in the traditional fashion--that is, to let in other people"s money to do the work, while they rested and possessed their souls and drew dividends on a controlling interest. Capital in Melbourne had proved eager and approachable; the arrangement they desired was quickly consummated; the day the papers were signed, Whitaker pa.s.sed old friends in the street. They were George Presbury and his wife--Anne Forsythe that was--self-evident tourists, looking the town over between steamers.
Presbury, with no thought in his b.u.mptious head of meeting Hugh Whitaker before the Day of Judgment, looked at and through him without a hint of recognition; but his wife was another person altogether. Whitaker could not be blind to the surprise and perplexity that shone in her eyes, even though he pretended to be blind to her uncertain nod; long after his back alone was visible to her he could feel her inquiring stare boring into it.
The incident made him think; and he remembered that he was now a man of independent fortune and of newly idle hands as well. After prolonged consideration he suddenly decided, told Lynch to look out for his interests and expect him back when he should see him, and booked for London by a Royal Mail boat--all in half a day. From London Mr. Hugh Morten crossed immediately to New York on the _Olympic_, landing in the month of April--nearly six years to a day from the time he had left his native land.
He discovered a New York almost wholly new--an experience almost inevitable, if one insists on absenting one"s self even for as little as half a decade. Intimations of immense changes were borne in upon Whitaker while the steamer worked up the Bay. The Singer Building was an unfamiliar sky-mark, but not more so than the Metropolitan Tower and the Woolworth. The _Olympic_ docked at an impressive steel-and-concrete structure, new since his day; and Whitaker narrowly escaped a row with a taxicab chauffeur because the fellow smiled impertinently when directed to drive to the Fifth Avenue Hotel.
A very few hours added amazingly to the catalogue of things that were not as they had been: a list so extensive and impressive that he made up his mind to maintain his incognito for a few days, until familiar with the ways of his home. He was quick to perceive that he would even have to forget most of the slang that had been current in his time, in addition to unlearning all he had picked up abroad, and set himself with attentive ears p.r.i.c.ked forward and an open mind to master the new, strange tongue his countrymen were speaking, if he were to make himself intelligible to them--and them to him, for that matter.
So he put up at the Ritz-Carlton, precisely as any foreigner might be expected to do, and remained Hugh Morten while he prowled around the city and found himself. Now and again in the course of his wanderings he encountered well-remembered faces, but always without eliciting the slightest gleam of recognition: circ.u.mstances that only went to prove how thoroughly dead and buried he was in the estimation of his day and generation.
Nothing, indeed, seemed as he remembered it except the offerings in the theatres. He sat through plays on three successive nights that sent him back to his hotel saddened by the conviction that the tastes of his fellow-countrymen in the matter of amus.e.m.e.nts were as enduring as adamant--as long-enduring. Some day (he prophesied) New York would be finished and complete; then would come the final change--its name--because it wouldn"t be New York unless ever changing; and when that was settled, the city would know ease and, for want of something less material to occupy it, begin to develop a soul of its own--together with an inclination for something different in the way of theatrical entertainment.
But his ultimate and utter awakening to the truth that his home had outgrown him fell upon the fourth afternoon following his return, when a total but most affable gentleman presented himself to Whitaker"s consideration with a bogus name and a genuine offer to purchase him a drink, and promptly attempted to enmesh him in a confidence game that had degenerated into a vaudeville joke in the days when both of them had worn knickerbockers. Gently but firmly entrusting the stranger to the care of a convenient policeman, Whitaker privately admitted that he was outcla.s.sed, that it was time for him to seek the protection of his friends.
He began with Drummond. The latter, of course, had moved his offices; no doubt he had moved them several times; however that may be, Whitaker had left him in quiet and contracted quarters in Pine Street; he found him independently established in an imposing suite in the Woolworth Building.
Whitaker gave one of Mr. Hugh Morten"s cards to a subdued office-boy.
"Tell him," he requested, "that I want to see him about a matter relating to the estate of Mr. Whitaker."