Dale noticed that there was no bookcase, and he could not detect more than six books anywhere lying about. Perhaps there were some in the chiffonier. He would have expected to find quite a little library at a house tenanted by this sort of man.
"What do you think of that?" And Mr. Osborn handed him the small round box which he had been turning. "I amuse myself so. It"s my hobby."
"You don"t feel the want to read of an evening?"
"No, I"m not a book-worm. But one has to do something; so I took up this. If folk chaff me"--and Mr. Osborn smiled and nodded his head--"well, I tell them that infinitely better people than I have done carpentering in their time. Of course they don"t always follow the allusion."
Dale himself did not follow it. He understood that this was light and airy conversation provided by Mr. Osborn for the amiable purpose of putting him at his ease. He had taken off the slouch hat and loose coat that had made him look like some rough shepherd or herdsman; and now, as he sat stiffly on a chair, showing his jacket, breeches, and gaiters, he looked like a farmer who had come to buy or to sell stock.
His manner was altogether businesslike when, after clearing his throat, he explained the actual reason of the visit. If it would not be troubling Mr. Osborn too much, he desired to obtain information about Baptist tenets, adult baptism, total immersion, and so on. Mr.
Osborn, declaring that it was no trouble, and in an equally businesslike manner, gave him the information.
"Is there anything else I can tell you?"
"I am afraid of putting you out."
"Not in the least."
"Well, then, if you"re sure I don"t trespa.s.s--Mr. Osborn, the kind way you"re receiving me makes me venturesome. I see an ash-tray over there, proving you sometimes favor the weed. Would you mind if I took a whiff of tobacco--a pipe?"
"Why, surely not."
"You won"t join me?"
"No, thanks. But I"ll tell you what I will do;" and Mr. Osborn emitted a chuckle. "I"ll go on with my boxes, if you"ll allow me."
"I should greatly prefer it."
"You know, I can listen just as well, while I"m fiddling away at my nonsense."
"I find," said Dale, as he filled his pipe, "that I rely on smoking more and more. Seems with me to steady the nerves and clear the brain.
I know there are others that it just fuddles."
"Exactly."
Mr. Osborn had gone back to the lathe, and the pleasantly soothing whir of the wheels was heard again, while a fountain of the finest possible shavings began to spin in the air. For a few moments Dale watched him at his work. His gray hair flopped about queerly; he made rapid precise movements; and he talked as though he still had his eyes on one, although his back was turned.
"There are matches at your elbow, Mr. Dale--on that shelf--beside the flower-pot."
"Thanks, Mr. Osborn."
He wore a loose blue flannel coat, and Dale wondered if this was a garment that he had bought years ago to play cricket in. Perhaps he had belonged to a University. It was quite clear that he must have had an extremely lib"ral education to start with. And Dale thought again what he had thought just now in the porch--that one ought to be precious careful in dealing with a man of such natural and acquired powers.
However, the fact that Mr. Osborn was continuing his work, and yet, as he had promised, at the same time listening properly, made the interview easier and Dale more comfortable. He recovered his self-confidence, and after puffing out a sufficient cloud of smoke, talked weightily and didactically.
"I am desirous not to exaggerate; but I would like to state that I was well impressed by my experience of your ritual--if that is the correct term. I seemed to find what I had not found elsewhere. If I may speak quite openly, I would say it appeared to me there wasn"t an ounce of humbug in your service."
"Oh, I hope not."
"Now, in the event of a person wishing to become a member--in short, to embrace the Baptist faith entirely, there are one or two points that I"d like to have cleared up."
Then Dale asked a lot of questions; and the pastor, seeming to go on with the work, answered over his shoulder, or looking round for an instant only.
Dale wished to learn all about the method of receiving adults; he asked also if anything in the nature of confession or absolute submission to the priest would be required. And the pastor said, "No, nothing of the sort." Such a person must of course bring a cleansed and purified heart to the ceremony, or it would be the very worst kind of humbug for him to present himself at all. But that was a matter which concerned him and G.o.d, who reads all hearts and knows all secrets. Mr. Osborn said it had never been the practise of Baptist ministers to insinuate themselves into the private secrets of their flocks. They left that to the Roman Catholics.
Dale heartily commended the Baptist custom. He said that much of his objection to religion had been caused by what he read of the Roman Catholic faith. As a responsible man he could never bring himself to that abject submission to another man, however you sanctified and tricked out the other man; besides, no one of mature age cares to make a complete confession of his past life. There must always be things that he could not force himself to disclose--follies, indiscretions, perhaps the grievous mistakes which he himself wants to forget, knowing that improvement lies in determination for better conduct, and not in brooding on past failure.
Mr. Osborn looked round, and used a gentle deprecating tone.
"You speak of your objection to religion; but, Mr. Dale, you are a singularly religious man. You are, really."
"I will postpone that part of it, if you please"--and Dale became rather stiff again--"but with the intention of adverting to it later.
What I wish first to lay at rest is something in regard to the hymns employed on the occasion of my attendance. The numbers were one hundred and twenty-six, six hundred and fifty-nine, and one hundred and ten. Now I ask you as man to man, feeling sure you"ll give me a straight answer: Were those hymns specially selected for the reason that I had chanced to drop in?"
Mr. Osborn stopped work, looked round quickly, and his face was all bright and eager.
"No. But did you feel there was a special message to you in them?"
"I wouldn"t put it quite like that," said Dale guardedly.
"Because it so often happens. It has happened again and again--to my own knowledge."
"You"ll understand, Mr. Osborn, that I didn"t take them as any way personal to myself--certainly not any way offensive; but it occurred to me that it might perhaps be the habit whenever a stranger dropped in to pick out hymns of strength, with a view to shaking him and warming him up, as it were."
The pastor resumed his work. "Those hymns were given out the day before--Sat.u.r.day. Sister Eldridge had asked for one hundred and twenty-six; number six hundred and fifty-nine was, as far as I remember, also bespoken; and I chose number one hundred and ten myself--because it is a great favorite of mine. So you see, Mr. Dale, at the time we settled on those hymns, we did not know that you were coming--and perhaps you did not know it yourself."
"I did not know it," said Dale.
"Tell me," said Mr. Osborn, "how doubt has a.s.sailed you."
"Ah, there you put me a puzzling one;" and Dale puffed at his pipe laboriously.
"You oughtn"t to doubt, you know. You have what men prize--wife, children, and home. You thrive, and the world smiles on you."
"Yes, I"m more than solvent. I hope to leave Mrs. Dale and the babes secure."
"But you don"t feel secure yourself?"
"I banked a matter of seven hundred last year."
"You know I didn"t mean that." Mr. Osborn worked briskly, and sent the shavings almost to the ceiling. "But still--lots of men have told me that material prosperity renders faith easy and doubt difficult.
That"s the awful danger of trouble--the danger of thinking that G.o.d has deserted us. It"s easiest to recognize His hand when all"s going well with us. That"s our poor human nature. And then when our sorrows come, it"s the devil"s innings, and he"ll whisper: "Where"s G.o.d now?
He isn"t treating you very kindly, is He, in return for all your praying and kneeling and believing?""
"Yes, that just hits the nail on the head. It was what I said--at a period when trouble fell upon me. It was how the doubt came in and the belief went out. And nowadays, when, as you mention, things run smooth and I know I"ve much to be thankful for, the doubt holds firm. For one thing prob"bly, I read a great deal; I"ve crammed my head with science; can"t ever have enough of it. But, of course, I"m but an ignorant man compared with you."
"Oh, no."
"Yes. I bow down to education--whenever I meet it. I needn"t apologize--because I hadn"t many advantages. I try to make up by application. I read, and I"m always thinking--and having mastered the rudiments of science, I can look with some comprehension at the whole scheme of nature. With the result that, viewing my own affairs in the same spirit that I view the whole bag of tricks, I ask myself that same old question of _Q. I. Bono._"