Chapter 490 I’m Just a Pa.s.serby
“This person is really puzzling. When happiness should be his, he could not take it, but after I died, now he becomes desperate and is regretful.”
Ning Xueyan could not tell what this feeling was and only felt that this was very boring. “In this world, it is useless to only have regrets about many things.”
And she was no longer the same Ning Ziying who was so obedient to Xia Yuhang back then.
She turned around and happened to avoid Xia Yuhang’s eagerly stretched hand. With clear watery eyes, she looked at Xia Yuhang extremely coldly, and the look in her eyes could be called piercing cold. “What are you doing, Eldest Brother-in-law? Do you still have the vain hope of getting the consort of Prince Yi’s Manor? Ning Ziying is already dead. Didn’t you see the dead bones in the lotus pond, Eldest Brother-in-law?”
These words successfully stopped Xia Yuhang’s hand. Immediately, the impulse caused by his excitement was frozen as if he had been drenched in snow. He shivered in coldness and suddenly came to his senses, but he took two steps back in panic before he could stand firm. With a bit of pleading in his eyes, he looked at Ning Xueyan and opened his mouth wide, but he could not utter a word for a while.
“You really need to wake up, Eldest Brother-in-law. I’m Ning Xueyan, the wife’s daughter of the Lord Protector’s Manor, and I’m going to marry Prince Yi. Sister Ning Ziying has already been a pile of dead bones. If you didn’t see the pile of dead bones, you can go to the Ministry of Justice to take a closer look.”
Ning Xueyan looked at Xia Yuhang coldly and spoke. Her watery eyes were cold, without a trace of gentleness.
“Although this pair of eyes are similar to hers, she is not her. That pair of eyes were gentle and soft, and I could always see another affectionate me in them, but this pair of eyes are so cold that they can almost freeze all my blood, and I can only see an almost wretched me in this pair of eyes.
“A pale face and a haggard look!
“No, it can’t be her! How could it be her? How could I feel that those ridiculous small movements are like hers and so she is her? I am really crazy!”
He felt so much pain in his heart that he could not even breathe. In those eyes that had awakened him many times, there was no affection for him, but only b.l.o.o.d.y hatred, which could almost tear his heart into pieces. He firmly grasped the trunk on the side, and the rough tree bark stuck into his palm, but he did not feel the pain.
The stunning, gentle girl in his memory had become a dead skeleton, so how could he be willing to accept it?
He was not willing to accept it. How could she be gone like this? She was sure to be reborn in this world, and he would never leave her. Ning Xueyan had eyes similar to hers and the same small movements as hers, so she should be her rebirth. He thought she was her.
He could not use any reason to prove it, but he could feel that she was the person in his heart, and she was always there!
Therefore, he plotted against her in Ning Yuling’s incident by taking the opportunity to help Third Prince handle his affairs. He wanted her desperately. As long as she entered the Xia Manor and became his woman, no matter how much Third Prince wanted her, he would work out ways to hide her and never let anyone find her all his life.
She belonged to him, she would never die, and the dead skeleton must be fake. How could his Ying’er die? How could she, who was so beautiful and lovely and also treated him well, leave him and go away…
“Eldest Brother-in-law, I don’t want to know what you want to do. The affairs between you and Ning Ziyan and Ning Ziying are all yours, and they have nothing to do with me. What I do is just complain about the grievances of Sister Ziying. I believe that Sister Ziying will regret that she wrongly believed you in the underworld. ‘A wolf with a wicked heart’ is just used to address your character, right? I heard my grandmother say that Ziying’s ident.i.ty was extraordinary, and you made the betrothal with her probably because of this reason, right?”
Ning Xueyan glanced sideways at Xia Yuhang. Beneath the long eyelashes were clear and peaceful watery eyes, which were extremely cold, and every word she said was more like a wedge that was being driven into his heart.
“Will she regret making the betrothal with me? So she regrets it!” Thinking that such a beautiful woman would truly leave him, he had an incomparable panic. “How can it be? It can’t be! She will never leave me. She will never be willing to leave me, so she should always be by my side.”
“No… not because of this reason… I did love her, I…” Xia Yuhang shook his head vigorously and could almost not restrain himself from wanting to refute Ning Xueyan’s accusation.
“What’s the use of telling me these words, Eldest Brother-in-law? I’m just a pa.s.serby!” Ning Xueyan looked at Xia Yuhang’s face proudly. After saying these words softly, she glanced at Xia Yuhang contemptuously this time, then she smiled at him and turned away.
“No matter what kind of mood you have now, regret or sadness, they are all gone. Now you are just a pa.s.serby.”
“Since Xia Yuhang looked at me with unclear intentions a few times before, I have felt that Xia Yuhang probably suspected me. But what’s the big deal of suspecting me? I am still Ning Xueyan. Who can imagine that the previous Ning Ziying would get reborn from the newly dead Ning Xueyan when she died? This idea is too weird. No one will believe it.”
“The reason why Xia Yuhang feels that I am Ning Ziying is only his wishful thinking.” What Xia Yuhang said just now made her see him more clearly. When he wanted to marry Ning Ziyan, Ning Ziying was the stone in his way. Perhaps he did not think about kicking the stone to pieces, but he would kick her away, so whether she would live or die, he did not care as much as he did now.
Three years pa.s.sed. Maybe he had some feelings about her, but these small feelings were not comparable to taking the Lord Protector’s Manor as his backer, so when she lost her value, he simply kicked her away.
Now Xia Yuhang just didn’t think that he lived happily, so he remembered the past again. Then, those small feelings were infinitely amplified so that he thought Ning Xueyan was Ning Ziying, but he would only think so wildly when he had an unclear mind.
Although he had an unclear mind, he guessed it right. But Ning Xueyan would never tell it to him.
But strangely, Ning Xueyan didn’t think that Xia Yuhang knew Ning Ziying’s ident.i.ty; otherwise, he would have cared about her meaningful words. She never denied that Xia Yuhang was a smart, scheming person. Today it was the first time she had witnessed such an emotionally disturbed Xia Yuhang.
Previously, Ning Xueyan had a little doubt. If Xia Yuhang had known her real ident.i.ty, he should not have simply asked Madam Ling and her daughter to kill her. After all, the ident.i.ty of the former dynasty’s princess she had in her previous life would perhaps bring him unexpected gains.
After thinking like this, she made some things clear to herself. Xia Yuhang probably didn’t know the ident.i.ty of Ning Ziying, or the betrothal was just made by mistake, and her father was still alive at that time. Although he could not be counted as a senior official in the capital, he and Minister Xia were good friends, and the two families also kept a close relationship.
That should be the reason why the betrothal was made. Since the two families maintained a close relationship, the Xia Family also knew that her mother and the empress of the former dynasty were close and then suspected that there were some things in her hands. That was the reason why Xia Yuhang rummaged through her belongings, and it was even the biggest reason for sending her dowry to the Xia Manor first.
After thinking it through, she could not help but have a small knowing smile and slowly exhaled the air she had been holding in her chest.
She became relaxed bit by bit, stood still, and looked up at her Bright Frost Garden, which was not far away. In it, people came and went and carried her dowry items out one by one, and red ribbons were tied to each of them. She saw that Lanning and her few partners were busy with something, and every one of them had a smile. Although they were busy, they were happy.
Now she was Ning Xueyan, and she was no longer Ning Ziying who could not even protect those around her. In this life, since G.o.d pitied her and let her get reborn, she would never live so incompetently and timidly as she used to, and she would never die so miserably as she used to. To those who harmed her, she would never show mercy.
In this life, she would never be at the mercy of the Lord Protector’s Manor and lose her life.
Mother Han was asking the servants to put strips of red silk on the dowry items. When she saw Ning Xueyan standing there from a distance, she hurriedly left the others, ran over with a smile, and asked with concern, “You are back, Miss. Go in and have a rest. Lunch will be ready in a while. Now you must be tired from going around.”
When Lanning came here just now, she asked her and learned that Ning Xueyan had sent her back because she wanted to be quiet for a while. Then, she was a little worried. Now when she saw Ning Xueyan come back in a good condition, she was happy.
“Well, I’ll go in now.” Looking at Mother Han’s smiling face, Ning Xueyan had a gentle smile and felt the warmth in her heart. The chill at that moment seemed to have pa.s.sed away. All this was not a dream, and she was Ning Xueyan indeed. Everything that happened in the past had really pa.s.sed…
Xia Yuhang calmed down after Ning Xueyan had gone for a while. Looking at the direction where she was going, he put his hand down from the tree trunk slowly. The rough bark made several holes in his hand, and blood dropped down from a few places. When he raised his hand and stared at it quietly, he had a wry smile.
“After all, I just had a dream. She is gone!
“If it were her, how could she have been willing to see that I was so sad? Once before, I was accidentally stabbed by a thorn on the branch, she carefully picked it out for me, but now, even when I was stabbed like this, she did not appear!”
Some hope in his heart was lost, and he slowly fell into a quiet, cold realm. “If everything could go back to the past now, I would only want to have her. To have her, I can give up everything.”
“Eldest Young Master, His Highness invited you to go hurriedly for something urgent and asked you if you could go out now.” The young male servant quickly ran over. When he saw Xia Yuhang standing there, he was relieved. Just now, Eldest Young Master asked him to leave with an excuse. He did not know where Xia Yuhang had gone. After looking for him for a long time, he suddenly had a brain wave and remembered this place.
He did not know why the Eldest Young Master would visit here every time he came to the Lord Protector’s Manor.
When he looked for him and came here, he found him as he expected. The Eldest Young Master happened to be standing here.
“Let’s go!” Xia Yuhang turned around, and his expression had returned to his usual calmness. No one could expect that a person like him would also lose control of his emotions like this. “Go and say goodbye to Lord Protector in a while, and tell him that I left for something.”
“Will this make the marquis unhappy, Eldest Young Master?” the young male servant said uneasily.
“Why should he be unhappy? This is the family of my concubines’ parents, not the family of my wife’s parents. I came here today because my two concubines are from the Lord Protector’s Manor. Coming or not coming is reasonable!”
Xia Yuhang spoke lightly, and his eyes were cold.
“How could we explain it to the two concubines?” the young male servant touched his head and asked. Since Xia Yuhang came here this time as a marital relative, Ning Yuling and Ning Ziyan also came with him. In fact, the young male servant did not understand his master. Since the wife of his master had become a concubine, even if Eldest Young Master did not come, no one would gossip, but unexpectedly, Eldest Young Master came.
But when he came, he didn’t even have lunch, and what he said sounded extremely unpleasant. “What do you mean, Eldest Young Master?”