"You are the Adversary," he said, puzzled, "but you are not Belial."
"Belial is in a cage at the Washington, D.C. zoo," Zina said. "In my realm. As an example of extraterrestrial life-a deplor- able example. A thing from Sirius, from the fourth planet in the Sirius System. People stand around gaping at him in wonder."
He laughed.
"You think I"m joking. I"ll take you to the zoo. I"ll show you."
"I think you"re serious." Again he laughed; it delighted him. "The Evil One in a cage at the zoo-what, with his own temper- ature and gravity and atmosphere, and imported food? An exotic life form?"
"He"s angry as h.e.l.l about it," Zina said.
"I"m sure he is. What do you have planned for me, Zina?"
She said, soberly, "The truth, Yahweh. I will show you the truth before you leave here. I would not cage the Lord our G.o.d. You are free to roam my land; you are free here, Yahweh, en- tirely. I give you my word."
"Vapors," he said. "The bond of a zina."
After some difficulty she found a slot in which to park her flycar. "Okay," she said. "Let"s stroll around looking at the cherry blossoms. Yahweh; their color is mine, their pink. That is my hallmark. When that pink light is seen, I am near."
"I know that pink," he said. "It is the human phosphene response to full-spectrum white, to pure sunlight."
As she locked up the flycar she said, "See the people."
He looked about him. And saw no one. The trees, heavy with blossoms, lined the Tidal Basin in a great semicircle. But, despite the parked cars, no persons walked anywhere.
"Then this is a fraud," he said. Zina said, "You are here, Yahweh, so that I can postpone your great and terrible day. I do not want to see the world scourged. I want you to see what you do not see. Only the two of us are here; we are alone. Gradually I will unfold my realm to you, and, when I am done, you will withdraw your curse on the world. I have watched you for years, now. I have seen your dislike of the human race and your sense of its worthlessness. I say to you, It is not worthless; it is not worthy to die-as you phrase it in your pompous fashion. The world is beautiful and I am beautiful and the cherry blossoms are beautiful. The robot teller at the savings and loan-even it is beautiful. The power of Belial is mere occlusion, hiding the real world, and if you attack the real world, as you have come to Earth to do, then you will destroy beauty and kindness and charm. Remember the crushed dog dying in the ditch at the side of the road? Remember what you felt about him; remember what you knew him to be. Remem- ber the inscription that Elias composed for that dog and that dog"s death. Remember the dignity of that dog, and at the same time remember that the dog was innocent. His death was mandated by cruel necessity. A wrong and cruel necessity. The dog-"
"I know," he said.
"You know what? That the dog was wrongly treated? That he was born to suffer unjust pain? It is not Belial that slew the dog, it is you, Yahweh, the Lord of Hosts. Belial did not bring death into the world because there has always been death; death goes back a billion years on this planet, and what became of that dog -that is the fate of every creature you have made. You cried over that dog, did you not? I think at that point you understood, but now you have forgotten. If I were to remind you of anything I would remind you of that dog and of how you felt; I would want you to remember how that dog showed you the Way. It is the way of compa.s.sion, the most n.o.ble way of all, and I do not think you genuinely have that compa.s.sion, I really don"t. You are here to destroy Belial, your adversary, not to emanc.i.p.ate mankind; you are here to wage war. Is that a fit thing for you to do? I wonder. Where is the peace that you promised man? You have come with a sword and millions will die; it will be the dying dog multiplied millions of times. You cried for the dog, you cried for your mother and even Belial, but I say, If you want to wipe away all the tears, as it says in Scripture, go away and leave this world because the evil of this world, what you call "Belial" and your "Adversary" is a form of illusion. These are not bad people. This is not a bad world. Do not make war on it but bring it flowers." Reaching, she broke off a sprig of cherry blossoms; she extended it to him, and, reflexively, he accepted it.
"You are very persuasive," he said.
"It is my job," she said. "I say these things because I know these things. There is no deceit in you and there is no deceit in me, but just as you curse, I play. Which of us has found the Way? For two thousand years you have bided your time until you could slip back into Belial"s fortress to overthrow him. I suggest that you find something else to do. Walk with me and we will see flowers. It is better. And the world will prosper as it always has. This is the springtime. It is now that flowers grow, and with me there is dancing also, and the sound of bells. You heard the bells and you know that their beauty is greater than the power of evil. In some ways their beauty is greater than your own power, Yahweh, Lord of Hosts. Do you not agree?"
"Magic," he said. "A spell."
"Beauty is a spell," she said, "and war is reality. Do you want the sobriety of war or the intoxication of what you see now, here in my world? We are alone now, but later on people will appear; I will repopulate my realm. But I want this moment to speak to you plainly. Do you know who I am? You do not know who I am, but finally I will lead you step by step back to your throne, you the Creator, and then you will know who I am. You have guessed but you have not guessed right. There are many guesses left for you-you who know everything. I am not Holy Wisdom and I am not Diana; I am not a zina; I am not Pallas Athena. I am something else. I am the spring queen and yet I am not that either; these are, as you put it, vapors. What I am, what I truly am, you will have to ferret out on your own. Now let"s walk."
They walked along the path, by the water and the trees.
"We are friends, you and I," Emmanuel said. "I tend to listen to you.""
"Then postpone your great and terrible day. There is nothing good in death by fire; it is the worst death of all. You are the solar heat that destroys the crops. For four years we have been to- gether, you and I. I have watched as your memory returned and I have regretted its return. You afflicted that miserable woman who was your mother; you sickened your own mother whom you say you love, whom you cried over. Instead of making war against evil, cure the dying dog in the ditch and wipe away thereby your own tears. I hated to see you cry. You cried because you regained your own nature and comprehended that nature. You cried because you realized what you are."
He said nothing.
"The air smells good," Zina said.
"Yes," he said.
"I will bring the people back," she said. "One by one, until they are all around us. Look at them and when you see one whom you would slay, tell me and I will banish that person once more. But you must look at the person whom you would slay-you must see in that person the crushed and dying dog. Only then do you have the right to slay that person; only when you cry are you ent.i.tled to destroy. You understand?"
"Enough," he said.
"Why didn"t you cry over the dog before the car crushed him? Why did you wait until it was too late? The dog accepted his situation but I do not. I advise you; I am your guide. I say, It is wrong what you do. Listen to me. Stop it!"
He said, "I have come to lift their oppression."
"You are impaired. I know that; I know what happened in the G.o.dhead, the original crisis. It is no secret to me. In this condi- tion you seek to lift their oppression through a great and terrible day. Is that reasonable? Is that how you free the prisoners?"
"I must break the power of-"
"Where is that power? The government? Bulkowsky and Harms? They are idiots; they are a joke. Would you kill them? The talion law that you laid down; I say: You have learnt how it was said: Eye for eye and tooth for tooth. But I say this to you: offer the wicked man no resistance.
"You must live by your own words; you must offer your Adversary Belial no resistance. In my realm his power is not here; he is not here. What is here is a sport in a cage at a public zoo. We feed it and give it water and atmosphere and the right temperature; we try to make the thing as comfortable as possible. In my realm we do not kill. There is, here, no great and terrible day, nor will there ever be. Stay in my realm or make my realm your realm, but spare Belial; spare everyone. And then you will not have to cry, and the tears will, as you promised, be wiped away. Emmanuel said, "You are Christ."
Laughing, Zina said, "No, I am not."
"You quote him." "Even the devil can cite Scripture." Around them groups of people appeared, in light, summery clothing. Men in their shirtsleeves, women in frocks. And, he saw, all the children.
"The fairy queen," he said. "You beguile me. You lead me from the path with sparks of light, dancing, singing, and the sound of bells; always the sound of bells."
"The bells are blown by the wind," Zina said. "And the wind speaks the truth. Always. The desert wind. You know that; I have watched you listen to the wind. The bells are the music of the wind; listen to them."
He heard, then, the fairy bells. They echoed distantly; many bells, small ones, not church bells but the bells of magic. It was the most beautiful sound he had ever heard.
"I cannot, myself, produce that sound," he said to Zina. "How is it done?"
"By wakefulness," Zina said. "The bell-sounds wake you up. They rouse you from sleep. You roused Herb Asher from his sleep by a crude introjection; I awaken by means of beauty."
Gentle spring wind blew about them, the vapors of her realm.
CHAPTER 13.
Tohimself Emmanuel said, I am being poisoned. The vapors of her realm poison me and vitiate my will.
"You are wrong," Zina said.
"I feel less strong."
"You feel less indignation. Let"s go and get Herb Asher. I want him with us. I will narrow down the area of our game; I will arrange it especially for him."
"In what way?"
"We will contest for him," Zina said. "Come." She beckoned to the boy to follow her.
In the c.o.c.ktail lounge Herb Asher sat with a gla.s.s of Scotch and water in front of him. He had been waiting an hour but the evening entertainment had not begun. The c.o.c.ktail lounge was filled with people. Constant noise a.s.sailed his ears. But, for him, this was worth it, despite the rather large cover charge. Rybys, across from him, said, "I just don"t understand what you see in her."
"She"s going to go a long way," Herb said, "if she gets any kind of a break at all." He wondered if record company scouts came here to the Golden Hind. I hope so, he said to him- self.
"I"d like to leave. I don"t feel well. Could we go?"
"I"d prefer not to."
Rybys sipped at her tall mixed drink fitfully. "So much noise," she said, her voice virtually inaudible. He looked at his watch. "It"s almost nine. Her first set is at nine."
"Who is she?" Rybys said.
"She"s a new young singer," Herb Asher said. "She"s adapted the lute books of John Dowland for-"
"Who"s John Dowland? I never heard of him."
"Late-sixteenth-century England. Linda Fox has modernized his lute songs; he was the first composer to write for solo voice; before that four or more people sang . . . the old madrigal form. I can"t explain it; you have to hear her."
"If she"s so good, why isn"t she on TV?" Rybys said. Herb said, "She will be."
Lights on the stage began to glow. Three musicians leaped up onto it and began fussing with the audio system. Each had in his possession a vibrolute. A hand touched Herb Asher on the shoulder. "Hi."
Glancing up he saw a young woman whom he did not know. But, he thought, she seems to know me. "I"m sorry-" he began.
"May we sit down?" The woman, pretty, wearing a floral print top and jeans, a mail-pouch purse over her shoulder, drew a chair back and seated herself beside Herb Asher. "Sit down, Manny," she said to a small boy who stood awkwardly near the table. What a beautiful child, Herb Asher thought. How did he get in here? There aren"t supposed to be any minors in here.
"Are these friends of yours?" Rybys said. The pretty, dark-haired young woman said, "Herb hasn"t seen me since college. How are you, Herb? Don"t you recognize me?" She held out her hand to him, and, reflexively, he took it. And then, as he shook her hand, he remembered her. They had been in school together, in a poly-sci course.
"Zina," he said, delighted. "Zina Pallas."
"This is my little brother," Zina said, motioning the boy to sit down. "Manny. Manny Pallas." To Rybys she said. "Herb hasn"t changed a bit. I knew it was him when I saw him. You"re here to see Linda Fox? I"ve never heard her; they say she"s real good."
"Very good," Herb said, pleased at her support.
"h.e.l.lo, Mr. Asher," the boy said.
"Glad to meet you, Manny." He shook hands with the boy. "This is my wife, Rybys."
"So you two are married," Zina said. "Mind if I smoke?" She lit a cigarette. "I keep trying to quit but when I quit I start eating a lot and get as fat as a pig."
"Is your purse genuine leather?" Rybys said, interested.
"Yes." Zina pa.s.sed it over to her.
"I"ve never seen a leather purse before," Rybys said.
"There she is," Herb Asher said. Linda Fox had appeared on the stage; the audience clapped.
"She looks like a pizza waitress," Rybys said. Zina, taking her purse back, said, "If she"s going to make it big she"s going to have to lose some weight. I mean, she looks all right, but-"
"What is this thing you have about weight?" Herb Asher said, irritated. The boy, Manny, spoke up. "Herbert, Herbert."
"Yes?" He bent to hear.
"Remember," the boy said. Puzzled, he started to say Remember what? but then Linda Fox took hold of the microphone, half shut her eyes, and began to sing. She had a round face, and almost a double chin, but her skin was fair, and, most important to him of all, she had long eyelashes that flickered as she sang-they fascinated him and he sat spellbound. Linda wore an extremely low-cut gown and even from where he sat he could see the outline of her nipples; she had on no bra.
Shall I sue? shall I seek for grace? Shall I pray? shall I prove? Shall I strive to a heavenly joy With an earthly love? Audibly, Rybys said, "I hate that song. I have heard her before."
Several people hissed at her to be quiet.
"Not by her, though," Rybys said. "She isn"t even original. That song- She piped down, but she was not happy. When the song ended, and the audience had begun to clap, Herb Asher said to his wife, "You never heard "Shall I Sue" before. n.o.body else sings it but Linda Fox."
"You just like to gape at her nipples," Rybys said. To Herb Asher the little boy said, "Would you take me to the men"s room, Mr. Asher?"
"Now?" he said, dismayed. "Can"t you wait until she"s through singing?"
The boy said, "Now, Mr. Asher."
With reluctance he led Manny through the maze of tables to the doors at the rear of the lounge. But before they had entered the men"s room Manny stopped him.
"You can see her better from here," Manny said. It was true. He was now much closer to the stage. He and the boy stood together in silence as Linda Fox sang "Weep You No More Sad Fountains."
When the song ended, Manny said, "You don"t remember, do you? She has enchanted you. Wake up, Herbert Asher. You know me well, and I know you. Linda Fox does not sing her songs at an obscure c.o.c.ktail lounge in Hollywood; she is famous throughout the galaxy. She is the most important entertainer of this decade. The chief prelate and the procurator maximus invite her to-"
"She"s going to sing again," Herb Asher interrupted. He barely heard the boy"s words and they made no sense to him. A babbling boy, he thought, making it hard for me to hear Linda Fox. Just what I need. After the song had ended, Manny said, "Herbert, Herbert; do you want to meet her? Is that what you want?"
"What?" he murmured, his eyes-his attention-fixed on Linda Fox. G.o.d, he thought; what a figure she has. She"s practi- cally falling out of her dress. He thought, I wish my wife was built like that.
"She will come this way," Manny said, "when she finishes. Stand here, Herb Asher, and she will pa.s.s directly by you."
"You"re joking," he said.
"No," Manny said. "You will have what you want most in the world . . . that which you dreamed of as you lay on your bunk in your dome."
"What dome?" he said. Manny said, " "How you have fallen from heaven, bright morning star, felled-"
"You mean one of those colony-planet domes?" Herb Asher said.
"I can"t make you listen, can I?" Manny said. "If I could say to you-"