"I understand," he said.
"There is a difference. Put her on your radio station; help her, help your protectress."
"A paradox," Herb Asher said.
"But true. You can do a lot for her. You were right when you thought of the word mutuality. She saved your life last night." Emmanuel lifted his hand. "She was given to you by me."
"I see," he said. He had a.s.sumed that was the case. Emmanuel said, "Sometimes in the equation that the strong protect the weak there is the difficulty in determining who is strong and who is weak. In most ways she is stronger than you, but you can protect her in certain specific ways; you can shelter her back. That is the real law of life: mutual protection. In the final a.n.a.lysis everything is both strong and weak, even the yetzer ha-toy-your yetzer ha-toy. She is a power and she is a person; it is a mystery. You will have time, in the life ahead for you, to fathom that mystery, a little. You will know her better and better. But she knows you now completely; just as Zina has absolute knowledge of me, Linda Fox has absolute knowledge of you. Did you realize that? That the Fox has known you totally, for a very long time?"
"The goat-creature didn"t surprise her," he said.
"Nothing surprises the yetzer ha-toy of a human being," Em- manuel said.
"Will I ever see you again?" Herb Asher asked.
"Not as you see me now. Not as a human figure such as yourself. I am not as you see me; I now shed my human side, that derived from my mother, Rybys. Zina and I will unite in a syzygy which is macrocosmic; we will not have a soma, which is to say, a physical body distinct from the world. The world will be our body, and our mind the world"s mind. It will also be your mind, Herbert. And the mind of every other creature that has chosen its yetzer ha-toy, its good spirit. This is what the rabbis have taught, that each human-but I see you know this; Linda has told you. What she has not told you is a later gift that she holds in store for you: the gift of ultimate exculpation for your life in its entirety. She will be there when you are judged, and the judgment will be of her rather than you. She is spotless, and she will bestow this perfection on you when final scrutiny comes. So fear not; your ultimate salvation is a.s.sured. She would give her life for you, her friend. As Jesus said, "Greater love has no man than that he give up his life for his friends." When she touched the goat- creature she-well, I had better not say.
"She herself died for an instant," Herb Asher said.
"For an instant so brief that it scarcely existed."
"But it did occur. She died and returned. Even though I saw nothing."
"That is so. How did you know?"
Herb Asher said, "I could feel it this morning when I looked at her sleeping; I could feel her love."
Wearing a flowered silk robe, Linda Fox came sleepily into the kitchen; she stopped short when she saw Emmanuel.
"Kyrios," she said quietly. "Du hast den Mensch gerettet," Emmanuel said to her. "Die giftige Schiange bekdmpfte . . . esfreut mich sehr. Danke." Linda Fox said, "Die Absicht ist nur alizukiar. La.s.s mich fragen: wann also ii"ird das Dunkel schwinden?" "Sobald dich fiihrt der Freundschaft Hand ins Heiligtum zum ew "gen Band."
"0 wie?" Linda Fox said. "Dii-" Emmanuel gazed at her. "Wie stark ist nicht dein Zauberton, deine Musik. Sing immer fur alle Mensch en, dureb Ewigkeit. Dabei ist das Dunkel zersh)ren.
"Ja," Linda Fox said, and nodded.
"What I told her," Emmanuel said to Herb Asher, "is that she has saved you. The poisonous snake is overcome and I am pleased. And I thanked her. She said that its intentions were clear to her. And then she asked when the darkness would disappear."
"What did you answer?"
"That is between her and me," Emmanuel said. "But I told her that her music must exist for all eternity for all humans; that is part of it. What matters is that she understands. And she will do what she has to. There is no misunderstanding between her and us. Between her and the Court."
Going to the stove-the kitchen was neat and clean, with everything in its place-Linda Fox pressed b.u.t.tons, then brought out food from the refrigerator. "I"ll fix breakfast," she said.
"I was going to do that," Herb Asher said, chagrined.
"You rest," she said. "You"ve gone through a lot in the last twenty-four hours. Being stopped by the police, having Belial take control of you . . . She turned to smile at him. Even with her hair tousled she was-well, he could not say; what she was for him could not be put into words. At least not by him. Not at this moment. Seeing her and Emmanuel together overwhelmed him. He could not speak; he could only nod.
"He loves you very much," Emmanuel said to her.
"Yes," she said, somberly.
"Seifr~ihlich," Emmanuel said to her. Linda said to Herb Asher, "He"s telling me to be happy. I am happy. Are you?"
"I-" He hesitated. She asked ii"hen the darkness vi"ould dis- appear, he remembered. The darkness has not disappeared. The poisonous snake is overcome but the darkness remains.
"Always be joyful," Emmanuel said.
"OK," Herb Asher said. "I will."
At the stove Linda Fox fixed breakfast and he thought he heard her sing. It was hard for him to tell, because he carried in hismind the beauty of her tunes. It was always there. "She is singing," Emmanuel said. "You are right." Singing, she put on coffee. The day had begun.
"That thing on the roof," Herb Asher said. But Emmanuel had disappeared, now; only he himself and Linda Fox remained.
"I"ll call the city," Linda Fox said. "They"ll haul it away. They have a machine that does that. Hauls away the poisonous snake. From the lives of people and the roofs of houses. Turn on the radio and get the news. There will be wars and rumors of wars. There will be great upheavals. The world-we"ve seen only a little part of it. And then let"s call Elijah about the radio sta- tion."
"No more string versions of South Pacific," he said.
"In a little while," Linda Fox said, "things will be all right. It came out of its cage and it is going back."
He said, "What if we lose?"
"I can see ahead," Linda said. "We will win. We have al- ready won. We have always already won, from the beginning, from before creation. What do you take in your coffee? I forget."
Later, he and Linda Fox went back up on the roof to view the remains of Belial. But to his surprise he saw not the carca.s.s of a wizened goat-thing~ instead he saw what looked like the remains of a great luminous kite that had crashed and lay in ruins all across the roof. Somberly, he and Linda gazed at it as it lay broken every- where, vast and lovely and destroyed. In pieces, like damaged light.
"This is how he was once," Linda said. "Originally. Before he fell. This was his original shape. We called him the Moth. The Motl1 that fell slowly, over thousands of years, intersecting the Earth, like a geometrical shape descending stage by stage until nothing remained of its shape."
Herb Asher said, "He was very beautiful."
He was the morning star," Linda said. "The brightest star in the heavens. And now nothing remains of him but this."
"How he has fallen," Herb Asher said.
"And everything else with him," she said. Together they went back downstairs to call the city. To have the machine come along to haul the remains away.
"Will he ever be again as he once was?" Herb Asher said.
"Perhaps," she said. "Perhaps we all may be." And then she sang for Herb Asher one of the Dowland songs. It was the song the Fox traditionally sang on Christmas day, for all the planets. The most tender, the most haunting song that she had adapted from John Dowland"s lute books.
When the poor cripple by the pool did lie Full many years in misery and pain, No sooner he on Christ had set his eye, But he was well, and comfort came again.
"Thank you," Herb Asher said. Above them the city machine worked, gathering up the re- mains of Belial. Gathering together the broken fragments of what had once been light.
About the Author.
Philip K. d.i.c.k came to prominence with his early short stories in the 1950s but is best known for his novels. The first, The Solar Lottery, gained him a strong reputation and he has continued to produce a body of important work up through the present day. He is generally regarded in England and Europe as the leading American SF writer. He is best known for his 1963 Hugo winner, The Man in the High CastleHe has lived for many years in California where he briefly attended university. Before he started to write science fiction, he ran a record store dealing in cla.s.sical music and worked in radio. He currently lives in Santa Ana. He has been married five times and has three children.
NOVELS BY PHILIP K. d.i.c.k.
Clans of the Alphane Moon
Confessions of a c.r.a.p Artist
The Cosmic Puppets
Counter-Clock World
The Crack in s.p.a.ce
Deus Irae (with Roger Zelazny) (with Roger Zelazny)
The Divine Invasion
Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep?
Dr. Bloodmoney
Dr. Futurity
Eye in the Sky
Flow My Tears, the Policeman Said
Galactic Pot-Healer
The Game-Players of t.i.tan
The Man in the High Castle
The Man Who j.a.ped
Martian Time-Slip
A Maze of Death
Now Wait for Last Year
Our Friends from Frolix 8
The Penultimate Truth