CHAPTER 26
Minutes went by, and finally, the star went a little bit beyond my last ‘star’, that I had sent out. By this time, sweat had formed on my forehead and my spiritual essence had run very low.
As I took a deep breath, I smiled. When I had first started doing this, the stars would only fly up to the edge of the capital. But now, they reached beyond the outer towns outside of the capital and I could see what was beyond that. It was a very big land, and I had finally seen some magical beasts! The vast land reached for miles!
Suddenly, something touched my face and in defence, I grabbed it in haste.
Normally, I was alone, so seeing the man beside me, startled me!
I let go and made an apologetic face, “Sorry.”
He gave a small laugh and wiped her face gently, “You worked hard.”
Such a caring tone startled me further!
I let him continue, while I silently sat there. I felt my face go red and my heart beat quicken…
Feeling him look at me so intently, I got nervous. I wasn’t new at all with men, but it had been so long since I’d been so close to one to feel this way!
After he finished, he put the handkerchief away and stared at me.
“How old are you?”
I bit my lip, looking away. I half was stunned to his sudden question and half still trying to calm my racing heart beat down.
Why does he need to know?
He didn’t interrupt my silence, as I pondered whether or not I would tell him.
Do I answer to how old my soul is or body? It’d probably freak him out if I said 44…
“…Thirteen.”
I’ve had a bad feeling about this year…I am originally the thirteenth young miss, that was born on a black Friday…And now, I’m thirteen years old.
No doubt, with the feelings I’ve had. Impending imminent doom!
Letting out a long, sad sigh, I evoked curiosity into the man beside me. “What’s wrong.”
I let out a small laugh, “…I have…I’m bad luck. You should probably stay away from me.”
Bringing my knees in, I hugged them. I no longer wanted to see him or talk. I was pretty sure that my instincts weren’t the only thing that brought bad luck…I had begun to think that even I was bad luck for males!
In my previous life, I hadn’t believed it at first, but so many things happened to men that were close to me, even ones I was friends with!
These things ranged from being unable to hear for the rest of their lives, to as far as cancer and even death for at least two of them…
After the second one died, I’d had enough. I thought of it as helping the male population out, that I don’t get close to any of them anymore.
“Who tells you this?”
I sincerely wanted to hysterically laugh, but I didn’t. I shook my head instead, still not looking at him.
His hand on my chin, made me flinch, and I was forced to look at him.
I had talked about my instincts and premonitions in my past life. No one really believed me! I have no idea what happened after I died, but I had told at least two people about my impending death by car. I wanted to know what they thought, after they had found out…
I knew it was stupid talk, who in their right mind would think that someone could live by their instincts? There were many people that hardly knew what they were…
Many times, I had felt like I was different. Perhaps I was really the only one that felt this kind of stuff. Perhaps, this ‘Instinct, good and bad luck’ only happened to me.
I would never think that this was a gift, when the bad luck I got from it was quite astronomical…But, they did somewhat determine my life!
So, what was I to do but come to terms with this! I had to accept and adapt to my instincts and call them master…What I did realize was, over so much time of living, I feel like I’m not too bad of a person and I like who I am. When I do follow what my instincts tell me, it is quite good! Things tend to go my way!
Even when I lose it and go ‘bad’, my instincts are with me all the way, helping me…
It’s very hard to explain and harder to want to tell people, because of how many hadn’t believed me about them before.
The man’s eyes were in front of me, while I was thinking all this, they seemed to look straight through me! They were warm and cosy, making me like them very much…
But, my cold eyes did not show any kind of signs of melting.
As we continued to stare, I wondered towards my heart potentially melting, except I remembered about the last scheme with Gabriella. If that hadn’t happened, I might not have run away, staying out at night, drinking alcohol and being alone with a man. And since then, I seemed to have started to revert back to my old self, of only depending on myself…
If he stared at me before that…Perhaps, I would have started to melt…