CHAPTER 90
It was a little strange, as I had felt a little pain go through me for some reason. What I had felt, was the last remnants of my ‘bad’ side dissipate, only leaving my ‘good’ side once again.
The next day, I didn’t feel so good because of the alcohol, so I took the day off and leisurely slumped around.
I noticed, when I couldn’t help but look at myself once again in the mirror, that my eyes weren’t glowing anymore, they were just a blood red colour.
The day after, I checked my eyes and found that they could go back to being brown, if I used my spiritual essence to change it. After I finished cleansing the rest of me, I did some Martial Arts and some cultivation…It really was a few days of…Nothing!
Even for a whole day of being alone, not one word escaped from my mouth.
For some reason, I had felt like I had spoken enough…Even Naruto wasn’t enough to make me speak! I guessed that I had sort of missed the silence, or something…
I pondered for quite some time, whether or not I would stay as a ‘young master’ or ‘young miss’.
Having been found out twice, really had broken off my want to act as a male. My voice was already something that naturally sounded feminine and I didn’t feel natural, having my muscles so big all the time!
But, for the life of me, I couldn’t find a solution…I guess, at that moment, I was still too lazy and leisurely to figure anything out!
Having accomplished such a big ‘mission’ back at the Rolland Estate, may be the reason I was happily doing and thinking of nothing, for a while…
That night, two things happened, that helped me. I ended up having a nightmare and I finally spoke some words to Naruto. They were apologizes, for waking him up, but they were still spoken words…
Feeling myself once again in the morning, I found that I was finally able to make a choice, about being a male or female.
So, I converted back to being female and had to think of yet another name that I was going to use.
My muscles went smaller, I grew my b.r.e.a.s.t.s again and I used one of my mother’s golden pins to put my hair up in a way I liked it. My clothes were still that of males, but, I really…Really didn’t want to wear female clothes!
Even though I didn’t have them on me, giving me a reason not to wear them…I felt like that I might have to make some kind of feminine bogan dress or something, as a new fashion line to this era!
Beforehand, my male name was going to be Kirito, but now, I was wondering if I could even use that name, being a girl.
Deciding on just going back to my other name, I shrugged.
I was an unknown person, if I use Sahara, it probably won’t bring too much attention…Or will it?
It was strange, how a nightmare could get me back to normal, as I was thinking…Who cares if I use the name Sahara, who cares if I say I’m from some other place!?
OmiG.o.d! That’s it! I’ll get away with wearing male’s clothes if I say I’m from another Haven! I could say it’s how they dress there or something! Oh, and if they ask questions, I could show them my red eyes and say I’m from ‘Red Haven’, Ha! Actually, there probably is a real Red Haven…
Looking out into the distance, I remembered something that I may have forgotten in the last couple of days…I want to do what I want…
Having my name Sahara is easier for me, and if it brings me problems…I’ll deal with it head on! Wearing something that brings me comfort, is what I want!
Being glad that I had spent a while to try and figure all this out, I was finally happy with the decisions I had made…
Breathing in and out, I could feel like a new chapter was starting…
Haha, yeah, the chapter’s called…’She’s coming!’ Or…’Hey, that girl that isn’t normally in the book is here!’
I closed my eyes and felt the slight breeze blow around me.
I had a major goal…That was doing what I want and getting away with it. I had a few minor goal’s…That was learning the ‘Dispersion’ meditation and becoming rich!
Finally feeling like my life was my own again, I couldn’t wait to continue on with it!