The cab-driver dropped Eddie at the building in Co-Op City, thanked him for the dollar tip, and drove off. Eddie just stood for a moment, zipper bag in one hand, his jacket hooked over a finger of the other and slung back over his shoulder. Here he shared a two-bedroom apartment with his brother. He stood for a moment looking up at it, a monolith with all the style and taste of a brick Saltines box. The many windows made it look like a prison cellblock to Eddie, and he found the view as depressing as Roland-the other other-did amazing.
Never, even as a child, did I see a building so high, Roland said. Roland said. And there are so And there are so many many of them! of them!
Yeah, Eddie agreed. Eddie agreed. We live like a bunch of ants in a hill. It may look good to you, but I"ll tell you, Roland, it gets old. It gets old in a hurry. We live like a bunch of ants in a hill. It may look good to you, but I"ll tell you, Roland, it gets old. It gets old in a hurry.
The blue car cruised by; the pizza truck turned in and approached. Eddie stiffened and felt Roland stiffen inside him. Maybe they intended to blow him away after all.
The door? Roland asked. Roland asked. Shall we go through? Do you wish it? Shall we go through? Do you wish it? Eddie sensed Roland was ready-for anything-but the voice was calm. Eddie sensed Roland was ready-for anything-but the voice was calm.
Not yet, Eddie said. Eddie said. Could be they only want to talk. But be ready. Could be they only want to talk. But be ready.
He sensed that was an unnecessary thing to say; he sensed that Roland was readier to move and act in his deepest sleep than Eddie would ever be in his most wide-awake moment.
The pizza truck with the smiling kid on the side closed in. The pa.s.senger window rolled down and Eddie waited outside the entrance to his building with his shadow trailing out long in front of him from the toes of his sneakers, waiting to see which it would be-a face or a gun.
4.
The second time Roland left him had been no more than five minutes after the Customs people had finally given up and let Eddie go.
The gunslinger had eaten, but not enough; he needed to drink; most of all he needed medicine. Eddie couldn"t yet help him with the medicine Roland really needed (although he suspected the gunslinger was right and Balazar could... if Balazar wanted to), but simple aspirin might at least knock down the fever that Eddie had felt when the gunslinger stepped close to sever the top part of the tape girdle. He paused in front of the newsstand in the main terminal.
Do you have aspirin where you come from?
I have never heard of it. Is it magic or medicine?
Both, I guess.
Eddie went into the newsstand and bought a tin of Extra-Strength Anacin. He went over to the snack bar and bought a couple of foot-long dogs and an extra-large Pepsi. He was putting mustard and catsup on the franks (Henry called the foot-longs G.o.dzilla-dogs) when he suddenly remembered this stuff wasn"t for him. For all he knew, Roland might not like like mustard and catsup. For all he knew, Roland might be a veggie. For all he knew, this c.r.a.p might kill Roland. mustard and catsup. For all he knew, Roland might be a veggie. For all he knew, this c.r.a.p might kill Roland.
Well, too late now, Eddie thought. When Roland spoke-when Roland Eddie thought. When Roland spoke-when Roland acted acted-Eddie knew all this was really happening. When he was quiet, that giddy feeling that it must be a dream-an extraordinarily vivid dream he was having as he slept on Delta 901 inbound to Kennedy-insisted on creeping back.
Roland had told him he could carry the food into his own world. He had already done something similar once, he said, when Eddie was asleep. Eddie found it all but impossible to believe, but Roland a.s.sured him it was true.
Well, we still have to be d.a.m.ned careful, Eddie said. Eddie said. They"ve got two Customs guys watching me. Us. Whatever the h.e.l.l I am now. They"ve got two Customs guys watching me. Us. Whatever the h.e.l.l I am now.
I know we have to be careful, Roland returned. Roland returned. There aren"t two; there are five. There aren"t two; there are five. Eddie suddenly felt one of the weirdest sensations of his entire life. He did not move his eyes but felt them Eddie suddenly felt one of the weirdest sensations of his entire life. He did not move his eyes but felt them moved. Roland moved. Roland moved them. moved them.
A guy in a muscle shirt talking into a telephone.
A woman sitting on a bench, rooting through her purse.
A young black guy who would have been spectacularly handsome except for the harelip which surgery had only partially repaired, looking at the tee-shirts in the newsstand Eddie had come from not long since.
There was nothing wrong about any of them on top, but Eddie recognized them for what they were nonetheless and it was like seeing those hidden images in a child"s puzzle, which, once seen, could never be unseen. He felt dull heat in his cheeks, because it had taken the other other to point out what he should have seen at once. He had spotted only two. These three were a little better, but not that much; the eyes of the phoneman weren"t blank, imagining the person he was talking to but aware, actually to point out what he should have seen at once. He had spotted only two. These three were a little better, but not that much; the eyes of the phoneman weren"t blank, imagining the person he was talking to but aware, actually looking, looking, and the place where Eddie was... that was the place to which the phone-man"s eyes just happened to keep returning. The purse-woman didn"t find what she wanted or give up but simply went on rooting endlessly. And the shopper had had a chance to look at every shirt on the spindle-rack at least a dozen times. and the place where Eddie was... that was the place to which the phone-man"s eyes just happened to keep returning. The purse-woman didn"t find what she wanted or give up but simply went on rooting endlessly. And the shopper had had a chance to look at every shirt on the spindle-rack at least a dozen times.
All of a sudden Eddie felt five again, afraid to cross the street without Henry to hold his hand.
Never mind, Roland said. Roland said. And don"t worry about the food, either. And don"t worry about the food, either. I"ve eaten bugs while they were still lively enough for some of them to go running down my throat. I"ve eaten bugs while they were still lively enough for some of them to go running down my throat.
Yeah, Eddie replied, Eddie replied, but this is New York. but this is New York.
He took the dogs and the soda to the far end of the counter and stood with his back to the terminal"s main concourse. Then he glanced up in the left-hand corner. A convex mirror bulged there like a hypertensive eye. He could see all of his followers in it, but none was close enough to see the food and cup of soda, and that was good, because Eddie didn"t have the slightest idea what was going to happen to it.
Put the astin on the meat-things. Then hold everything in your hands.
Aspirin.
Good. Call it flutergork if you want, pr... Eddie. Just do it.
He took the Anacin out of the stapled bag he had stuffed in his pocket, almost put it down on one of the hot-dogs, and suddenly realized that Roland would have problems just getting what Eddie thought of as the poison-proofing-off the tin, let alone opening it.
He did it himself, shook three of the pills onto one of the napkins, debated, then added three more.
Three now, three later, he said. he said. If there If there is is a later. a later.
All right. Thank you.
Now what?
Hold all of it.
Eddie had glanced into the convex mirror again. Two of the agents were strolling casually toward the snack-bar, maybe not liking the way Eddie"s back was turned, maybe smelling a little prestidigitation in progress and wanting a closer look. If something was going to happen, it better happen quick.
He put his hands around everything, feeling the heat of the dogs in their soft white rolls, the chill of the Pepsi. In that moment he looked like a guy getting ready to carry a snack back to his kids... and then the stuff started to melt. melt.
He stared down, eyes widening, widening, until it felt to him that they must soon fall out and dangle by their stalks.
He could see the hotdogs through the rolls. He could see the Pepsi through the cup, the ice-choked liquid curving to conform to a shape which could no longer be seen.
Then he could see the red Formica counter through the foot-longs and the white wall through the Pepsi. His hands slid toward each other, the resistance between them growing less and less... and then they closed against each other, palm to palm. The food... the napkins... the Pepsi-Cola... the six Anacin... all the things which had been between his hands were gone.
Jesus jumped up and played the fiddle, Eddie thought numbly. He flicked his eyes up toward the convex mirror. Eddie thought numbly. He flicked his eyes up toward the convex mirror.
The doorway was gone... just as Roland was gone from his mind.
Eat hearty, my friend, Eddie thought... but Eddie thought... but was was this weird alien presence that called itself Roland his friend? That was far from proved, wasn"t it? He had saved Eddie"s bacon, true enough, but that didn"t mean he was a Boy Scout. this weird alien presence that called itself Roland his friend? That was far from proved, wasn"t it? He had saved Eddie"s bacon, true enough, but that didn"t mean he was a Boy Scout.
All the same, he he liked Roland. Feared him... but liked him as well. liked Roland. Feared him... but liked him as well.
Suspected that in time he could love him, as he loved Henry.
Eat well, stranger, he thought. he thought. Eat well, stay alive... and come back. Eat well, stay alive... and come back.
Close by were a few mustard-stained napkins left by a previous customer. Eddie balled them up, tossed them in the trash-barrel by the door on his way out, and chewed air as if finishing a last bite of something. He was even able to manufacture a burp as he approached the black guy on his way toward the signs pointing the way to LUGGAGE LUGGAGE and and GROUND TRANSPORTATION GROUND TRANSPORTATION.
"Couldn"t find a shirt you liked?" Eddie asked.
"I beg your pardon?" the black guy turned from the American Airlines departures monitor he was pretending to study.
"I thought maybe you were looking for one that said PLEASE FEED ME, I AM A U.S. GOVERNMENT EMPLOYEE," Eddie said, and walked on.
As he headed down the stairs he saw the purse-rooter hurriedly snap her purse shut and get to her feet.
Oh boy, this is gonna be like the Macy"s Thanksgiving Day parade.
It had been one f.u.c.k of an interesting day, and Eddie didn"t think it was over yet.
5.
When Roland saw the lobster-things coming out of the waves again (their coming had nothing to do with tide, then; it was the dark that brought them), he left Eddie Dean to move himself before the creatures could find and eat him.
The pain he had expected and was prepared for. He had lived with pain so long it was almost an old friend. He was appalled, however, by the rapidity with which his fever had increased and his strength decreased. If he had not been dying before, he most a.s.suredly was now. Was there something powerful enough in the prisoner"s world to keep that from happening? Perhaps. But if he didn"t get some of it within the next six or eight hours, he thought it wouldn"t matter. If things went much further, no medicine or magic in that world or any other would make him well again.
Walking was impossible. He would have to crawl.
He was getting ready to start when his eye fixed upon the twisted band of sticky stuff and the bags of devil-powder. If he left the stuff here, the lobstrosities would almost surely tear the bags open. The sea-breeze would scatter the powder to the four winds. Which is where it belongs, Which is where it belongs, the gunslinger thought grimly, but he couldn"t allow it. When the time came, Eddie Dean would be in a long tub of trouble if he couldn"t produce that powder. It was rarely possible to bluff men of the sort he guessed this Balazar to be. He would want to see what he had paid for, and until he saw it Eddie would have enough guns pointed at him to equip a small army. the gunslinger thought grimly, but he couldn"t allow it. When the time came, Eddie Dean would be in a long tub of trouble if he couldn"t produce that powder. It was rarely possible to bluff men of the sort he guessed this Balazar to be. He would want to see what he had paid for, and until he saw it Eddie would have enough guns pointed at him to equip a small army.
The gunslinger pulled the twisted rope of glue-string over to him and slung it over his neck. Then he began to work his way up the beach.
He had crawled twenty yards-almost far enough to consider himself safe, he judged-when the horrible (yet cosmically funny) realization that he was leaving the doorway behind came to him. What in G.o.d"s name was he going through this for?
He turned his head and saw the doorway, not down on the beach, but three feet behind him. For a moment Roland could only stare, and realize what he would have known already, if not for the fever and the sound of the Inquisitors, drumming their ceaseless questions at Eddie, Where did you, how did you, why did you, when did you Where did you, how did you, why did you, when did you (questions that seemed to merge eerily with the questions of the scrabbling horrors that came crawling and wriggling out of the waves: (questions that seemed to merge eerily with the questions of the scrabbling horrors that came crawling and wriggling out of the waves: Dad-a-chock? Dad-a-chum? Did-a-chick? Dad-a-chock? Dad-a-chum? Did-a-chick?), as mere delirium. Not so.
Now I take it with me everywhere I go, he thought, he thought, just as he does. It comes with us everywhere now, following like a curse you can never get rid of. just as he does. It comes with us everywhere now, following like a curse you can never get rid of.
All of this felt so true as to be unquestionable... and so did one other thing.
If the door between them should close, it would be closed forever.
When that happens, Roland thought grimly, Roland thought grimly, he must be on this side. With me. he must be on this side. With me.
What a paragon of virtue you are, gunslinger! the man in black laughed. He seemed to have taken up permanent residence inside Roland"s head. the man in black laughed. He seemed to have taken up permanent residence inside Roland"s head. You have killed the boy; that was the sacrifice that enabled you to catch me and, I suppose, to create the door between worlds. Now you intend to draw your three, one by one, and condemn all of them to something you would not have for yourself: a lifetime in an alien world, where they may die as easily as animals in a zoo set free in a wild place. You have killed the boy; that was the sacrifice that enabled you to catch me and, I suppose, to create the door between worlds. Now you intend to draw your three, one by one, and condemn all of them to something you would not have for yourself: a lifetime in an alien world, where they may die as easily as animals in a zoo set free in a wild place.
The Tower, Roland thought wildly. Roland thought wildly. Once I"ve gotten to the Tower and done whatever it is I"m supposed to do there, accomplished whatever fundamental act of restoration or redemption for which I was meant, then perhaps they- Once I"ve gotten to the Tower and done whatever it is I"m supposed to do there, accomplished whatever fundamental act of restoration or redemption for which I was meant, then perhaps they- But the shrieking laughter of the man in black, the man who was dead but lived on as the gunslinger"s stained conscience, would not let him go on with the thought.
Neither, however, could the thought of the treachery he contemplated turn him aside from his course.
He managed another ten yards, looked back, and saw that even the largest of the crawling monsters would venture no further than twenty feet above the high-tide line. He had already managed three times that distance.
It"s well, then.
Nothing is well, the man in black replied merrily, the man in black replied merrily, and you know it. and you know it.
Shut up, the gunslinger thought, and for a wonder, the voice actually did. the gunslinger thought, and for a wonder, the voice actually did.
Roland pushed the bags of devil-dust into the cleft between two rocks and covered them with handfuls of spa.r.s.e saw-gra.s.s. With that done he rested briefly, head thumping like a hot bag of waters, skin alternately hot and cold, then rolled back through the doorway into that other world, that other body, leaving the increasingly deadly infection behind for a little while.
6.
The second time he returned to himself, he entered a body so deeply asleep that he thought for a moment it had entered a comatose state... a state of such lowered bodily function that in moments he would feel his own consciousness start down a long slide into darkness.
Instead, he forced his body toward wakefulness, punched and pummelled it out of the dark cave into which it had crawled. He made his heart speed up, made his nerves re-accept the pain that sizzled through his skin and woke his flesh to groaning reality.
It was night now. The stars were out. The popkin-things Eddie had brought him were small bits of warmth in the chill.
He didn"t feel like eating them, but eat them he would. First, though...
He looked at the white pills in his hand. Astin, Astin, Eddie called it. No, that wasn"t quite right, but Roland couldn"t p.r.o.nounce the word as the prisoner had said it. Medicine was what it came down to. Medicine from that other world. Eddie called it. No, that wasn"t quite right, but Roland couldn"t p.r.o.nounce the word as the prisoner had said it. Medicine was what it came down to. Medicine from that other world.
If anything from your world is going to do for me, Prisoner, Roland thought grimly, Roland thought grimly, I think it"s more apt to be your potions than your popkins. I think it"s more apt to be your potions than your popkins.
Still, he would have to try it. Not the stuff he really needed-or so Eddie believed-but something which might reduce his fever.
Three now, three later. If there is a later.
He put three of the pills in his mouth, then pushed the cover-some strange white stuff that was neither paper nor gla.s.s but which seemed a bit like both-off the paper cup which held the drink, and washed them down.
The first swallow amazed him so completely that for a moment he only lay there, propped against a rock, his eyes so wide and still and full of reflected starlight that he would surely have been taken for dead already by anyone who happened to pa.s.s by. Then he drank greedily, holding the cup in both hands, the rotted, pulsing hurt in the stumps of his fingers barely noticed in his total absorption with the drink.
Sweet! G.o.ds, such sweetness! Such sweetness! Such- One of the small flat icecubes in the drink caught in his throat. He coughed, pounded his chest, and choked it out. Now there was a new pain in his head: the silvery pain that comes with drinking something too cold too fast.
He lay still, feeling his heart pumping like a runaway engine, feeling fresh energy surge into his body so fast he felt as if he might actually explode. Without thinking of what he was doing, he tore another piece from his shirt-soon it would be no more than a rag hanging around his neck-and laid it across one leg. When the drink was gone he would pour the ice into the rag and make a pack for his wounded hand. But his mind was elsewhere.
Sweet! it cried out again and again, trying to get the sense of it, or to convince itself there it cried out again and again, trying to get the sense of it, or to convince itself there was was sense in it, much as Eddie had tried to convince himself of the sense in it, much as Eddie had tried to convince himself of the other other as an actual being and not some mental convulsion that was only another part of himself trying to trick him. as an actual being and not some mental convulsion that was only another part of himself trying to trick him.
Sweet! Sweet! Sweet!
The dark drink was laced with sugar, even more than Marten-who had been a great glutton behind his grave ascetic"s exterior-had put in his coffee mornings and at "Downers.
Sugar... white... powder...