Pr- Oh. Bathroom. Head.
If they think I"ve got dope they"ll think I"m trying to dump it.
But Eddie understood that part didn"t matter. They wouldn"t exactly break down the door, because that might scare the pa.s.sengers. And they"d know you couldn"t flush two pounds of c.o.ke down an airline toilet and leave no trace. Not unless the voice was really telling the truth... that there was some safe place. But how could there be? But how could there be?
Never mind, d.a.m.n you! MOVE!
Eddie moved. Because he had finally come alive to the situation. He was not seeing all Roland, with his many years and his training of mingled torture and precision, could see, but he could see the faces of the stews-the real real faces, the ones behind the smiles and the helpful pa.s.sing of garment bags and cartons stowed in the forward closet. He could see the way their eyes flicked to him, whiplash quick, again and again. faces, the ones behind the smiles and the helpful pa.s.sing of garment bags and cartons stowed in the forward closet. He could see the way their eyes flicked to him, whiplash quick, again and again.
He got his bag. He got his jacket. The door to the jetway had been opened, and people were already moving up the aisle. The door to the c.o.c.kpit was open, and here was the Captain, also smiling... but also looking at the pa.s.sengers in first cla.s.s who were still getting their things together, spotting him-no, targeting targeting him-and then looking away again, nodding to someone, tousling a youngster"s head. him-and then looking away again, nodding to someone, tousling a youngster"s head.
He was cold now. Not cold turkey, just cold. He didn"t need the voice in his head to make him cold. Cold-sometimes that was okay. You just had to be careful you didn"t get so cold you froze.
Eddie moved forward, reached the point where a left turn would take him into the jetway-and then suddenly put his hand to his mouth.
"I don"t feel well," he murmured. "Excuse me." He moved the door to the c.o.c.kpit, which slightly blocked the door to the first cla.s.s head, and opened the bathroom door on the right.
"I"m afraid you"ll have to exit the plane," the pilot said sharply as Eddie opened the bathroom door. "It"s-"
"I believe I"m going to vomit, and I don"t want to do it on your shoes," Eddie said, "or mine, either."
A second later he was in with the door locked. The Captain was saying something. Eddie couldn"t make it out, didn"t want want to make it out. The important thing was that it was just talk, not yelling, he had been right, no one was going to start yelling with maybe two hundred and fifty pa.s.sengers still waiting to deplane from the single forward door. He was in, he was temporarily safe... but what good was it going to do him? to make it out. The important thing was that it was just talk, not yelling, he had been right, no one was going to start yelling with maybe two hundred and fifty pa.s.sengers still waiting to deplane from the single forward door. He was in, he was temporarily safe... but what good was it going to do him?
If you"re there, he thought, he thought, you better do something very quick, whoever you are. you better do something very quick, whoever you are.
For a terrible moment there was nothing at all. That was a short moment, but in Eddie Dean"s head it seemed to stretch out almost forever, like the Bonomo"s Turkish Taffy Henry had sometimes bought him in the summer when they were kids; if he were bad, Henry beat the s.h.i.t out of him, if he were good, Henry bought him Turkish Taffy. That was the way Henry handled his heightened responsibilities during summer vacation.
G.o.d, oh Christ, I imagined it all, oh Jesus, how crazy could I have b- Get ready, a grim voice said. a grim voice said. I can"t do it alone. I can COME FORWARD but I can"t make you COME THROUGH. You have to do it with me. Turn around. I can"t do it alone. I can COME FORWARD but I can"t make you COME THROUGH. You have to do it with me. Turn around.
Eddie was suddenly seeing through two pairs of eyes, feeling with two sets of nerves (but not all the nerves of this other person were here; parts of the other were gone, freshly gone, screaming with pain), sensing with ten senses, thinking with two brains, his blood beating with two hearts.
He turned around. There was a hole in the side of the bathroom, a hole that looked like a doorway. Through it he could see a gray, grainy beach and waves the color of old athletic socks breaking upon it.
He could hear the waves.
He could smell salt, a smell as bitter as tears in his nose.
Go through.
Someone was thumping on the door to the bathroom, telling him to come out, that he must deplane at once.
Go through, d.a.m.n you!
Eddie, moaning, stepped toward the doorway... stumbled... and fell into another world.
13.
He got slowly to his feet, aware that he had cut his right palm on an edge of sh.e.l.l. He looked stupidly at the blood welling across his lifeline, then saw another man rising slowly to his feet on his right.
Eddie recoiled, his feelings of disorientation and dreamy dislocation suddenly supplanted by sharp terror; this man was dead and didn"t know it. His face was gaunt, the skin stretched over the bones of his face like strips of cloth wound around slim angles of metal almost to the point where the cloth must tear itself open. The man"s skin was livid save for hectic spots of red high on each cheekbone, on the neck below the angle of jaw on either side, and a single circular mark between the eyes like a child"s effort to replicate a Hindu caste symbol.
Yet his eyes-blue, steady, sane-were alive and full of terrible and tenacious vitality. He wore dark clothes of some homespun material; the shirt, its sleeves rolled up, was a black faded almost to gray, the pants something that looked like bluejeans. Gunbelts crisscrossed his hips, but the loops were almost all empty. The holsters held guns that looked like.45s-but.45s of an incredibly antique vintage. The smooth wood of their handgrips seemed to glow with their own inner light.
Eddie, who didn"t know he had any intention of speaking-anything to say-heard himself saying something nevertheless. "Are you a ghost?"
"Not yet," the man with the guns croaked. "The devil-weed. Cocaine. Whatever you call it. Take off your shirt."
"Your arms-" Eddie had seen them. The arms of the man who looked like the extravagant sort of gunslinger one would only see in a spaghetti western were glowing with lines of bright, baleful red. Eddie knew well enough what lines like that meant. They meant blood-poisoning. They meant the devil was doing more than breathing up your a.s.s; he was already crawling up the sewers that led to your pump.
"Never mind my f.u.c.king arms!" the pallid apparition told him.
"Take off your shirt and get rid of it!"
He heard waves; he heard the lonely hoot of a wind that knew no obstruction; he saw this mad dying man and nothing else but desolation; yet from behind him he heard the murmuring voices of deplaning pa.s.sengers and a steady m.u.f.fled pounding.
"Mr. Dean!" That voice, That voice, he thought, he thought, is in another world. is in another world. Not really doubting it; just trying to pound it through his head the way you"d pound a nail through a thick piece of mahogany. "You"ll really have to-" Not really doubting it; just trying to pound it through his head the way you"d pound a nail through a thick piece of mahogany. "You"ll really have to-"
"You can leave it, pick it up later," the gunslinger croaked. "G.o.ds, don"t you understand I have to talk talk here? It hurts! here? It hurts! And there is no time, you idiot! And there is no time, you idiot!"
There were men Eddie would have killed for using such a word... but he had an idea that he might have a job killing this man, even though the man looked like killing might do him good.
Yet he sensed the truth in those blue eyes; all questions were canceled in their mad glare.
Eddie began to unb.u.t.ton his shirt. His first impulse was to simply tear it off, like Clark Kent while Lois Lane was tied to a railroad track or something, but that was no good in real life; sooner or later you had to explain those missing b.u.t.tons. So he slipped them through the loops while the pounding behind him went on.
He yanked the shirt out of his jeans, pulled it off, and dropped it, revealing the strapping tape across his chest. He looked like a man in the last stages of recovery from badly fractured ribs.
He snapped a glance behind him and saw an open door... its bottom jamb had dragged a fan shape in the gray grit of the beach when someone-the dying man, presumably-had opened it. Through the doorway he saw the first-cla.s.s head, the basin, the mirror... and in it his own desperate face, black hair spilled across his brow and over his hazel eyes. In the background he saw the gunslinger, the beach, and soaring seabirds that screeched and squabbled over G.o.d knew what.
He pawed at the tape, wondering how to start, how to find a loose end, and a dazed sort of hopelessness settled over him. This was the way a deer or a rabbit must feel when it got halfway across a country road and turned its head only to be fixated by the oncoming glare of headlights.
It had taken William Wilson, the man whose name Poe had made famous, twenty minutes to strap him up. They would have the door to the first-cla.s.s bathroom open in five, seven at most.
"I can"t get this s.h.i.t off," he told the swaying man in front of him. "I don"t know who you are or where I am, but I"m telling you there"s too much tape and too little time."
14.
Deere, the co-pilot, suggested Captain McDonald ought to lay off pounding on the door when McDonald, in his frustration at 3A"s lack of response, began to do so.
"Where"s he going to go?" Deere asked. "What"s he going to do? Flush himself down the john? He"s too big."
"But if he"s carrying-" McDonald began.
Deere, who had himself used cocaine on more than a few occasions, said: "If he"s carrying, he"s carrying heavy. He can"t get rid of it."
"Turn off the water," McDonald snapped suddenly.
"Already have," the navigator (who had also tooted more than his flute on occasion) said. "But I don"t think it matters. You can dissolve what goes into the holding tanks but you can"t make it not there." They were cl.u.s.tered around the bathroom door, with its OCCUPIED OCCUPIED sign glowing jeerily, all of them speaking in low tones. "The DEA guys drain it, draw off a sample, and the guy"s hung." sign glowing jeerily, all of them speaking in low tones. "The DEA guys drain it, draw off a sample, and the guy"s hung."
"He could always say someone came in before him and dumped it," McDonald replied. His voice was gaining a raw edge. He didn"t want to be talking about this; he wanted to be doing something about it, even though he was acutely aware that the geese were still filing out, many looking with more than ordinary curiosity at the flight-deck crew and stewardesses gathered around the bathroom door. For their part, the crew were acutely aware that an act that was-well, overly overt-could provoke the terrorist boogeyman that now lurked in the back of every air-traveller"s mind. McDonald knew his navigator and flight engineer were right, he knew that the stuff was apt to be in plastic bags with the scuzzball"s prints on them, and yet he felt alarm bells going off in his mind. Something was not right about this. Something inside of him kept screaming Fast one! Fast one! Fast one! Fast one! as if the fellow from 3A were a riverboat gambler with palmed aces he was all ready to play. as if the fellow from 3A were a riverboat gambler with palmed aces he was all ready to play.
"He"s not trying to flush the john," Susy Douglas said. "He"s not even trying to run the basin faucets. We"d hear them sucking air if he was. I hear something, but-"
"Leave," McDonald said curtly. His eyes flicked to Jane Dorning. "You too. We"ll take care of this."
Jane turned to go, cheeks burning.
Susy said quietly: "Jane bird-dogged him and I spotted the bulges under his shirt. I think we"ll stay, Captain McDonald. If you want to bring charges of insubordination, you can. But I want you to remember that you may be raping the h.e.l.l h.e.l.l out of what could be a really big DEA bust." out of what could be a really big DEA bust."
Their eyes locked, flint sparking off steel.
Susy said, "I"ve flown with you seventy, eighty times, Mac. I"m trying to be your friend."
McDonald looked at her a moment longer, then nodded. "Stay, then. But I want both of you back a step toward the c.o.c.kpit."
He stood on his toes, looked back, and saw the end of the line now just emerging from tourist cla.s.s into business. Two minutes, maybe three.
He turned to the gate agent at the mouth of the hatch, who was watching them closely. He must have sensed some sort of problem, because he had unholstered his walkie-talkie and was holding it in his hand.
"Tell him I want customs agents up here," McDonald said quietly to the navigator. "Three or four. Armed. Now."
The navigator made his way through the line of pa.s.sengers, excusing himself with an easy grin, and spoke quietly to the gate agent, who raised his walkie-talkie to his mouth and spoke quietly into it.
McDonald-who had never put anything stronger than aspirin into his system in his entire life and that only rarely-turned to Deere. His lips were pressed into a thin white line like a scar.
"As soon as the last of the pa.s.sengers are off, we"re breaking that s.h.i.thouse door open," he said. "I don"t care if Customs is here or not. Do you understand?"
"Roger," Deere said, and watched the tail of the line make its way into first cla.s.s.
15.
"Get my knife," the gunslinger said. "It"s in my purse."
He gestured toward a cracked leather bag lying on the sand. It looked more like a big packsack than a purse, the kind of thing you expected to see hippies carrying as they made their way along the Appalachian trail, getting high on nature (and maybe a bomber joint every now and then), except this looked like the real thing, not just a prop for some airhead"s self-image; something that had done years and years of hard-maybe desperate-travelling.
Gestured, but did not point. Couldn"t Couldn"t point. Eddie realized why the man had a swatch of dirty shirting wrapped around his right hand: some of his fingers were gone. point. Eddie realized why the man had a swatch of dirty shirting wrapped around his right hand: some of his fingers were gone.
"Get it," he said. "Cut through the tape. Try not to cut yourself. It"s easy to do. You"ll have to be careful, but you"ll have to move fast just the same. There isn"t much time."
"I know that," Eddie said, and knelt on the sand. None of this was real. That was it, that was the answer. As Henry Dean, the great sage and eminent junkie would have put it, Flip-flop, hippety-hop, offa your rocker and over the top, life"s a fiction and the world"s a lie, so put on some Creedence and let"s get high. Flip-flop, hippety-hop, offa your rocker and over the top, life"s a fiction and the world"s a lie, so put on some Creedence and let"s get high.
None of it was real, it was all just an extraordinarily vivid nodder, so the best thing was just to ride low and go with the flow.
It sure was was a vivid nodder. He was reaching for the zipper-or maybe it would be a Velcro strip-on the man"s "purse" when he saw it was held together by a crisscross pattern of rawhide thongs, some of which had broken and been carefully reknotted-reknotted small enough so they would still slide through the grommetted eyelets. a vivid nodder. He was reaching for the zipper-or maybe it would be a Velcro strip-on the man"s "purse" when he saw it was held together by a crisscross pattern of rawhide thongs, some of which had broken and been carefully reknotted-reknotted small enough so they would still slide through the grommetted eyelets.
Eddie pulled the drag-knot at the top, spread the bag"s opening, and found the knife beneath a slightly damp package that was the piece of shirting tied around the bullets. Just the handle was enough to take his breath away... it was the true mellow gray-white of pure silver, engraved with a complex series of patterns that caught the eye, drew it- Pain exploded in his ear, roared across his head, and momentarily puffed a red cloud across his vision. He fell clumsily over the open purse, struck the sand, and looked up at the pale man in the cut-down boots. This was no nodder. The blue eyes blazing from that dying face were the eyes of all truth.
"Admire it later, prisoner," the gunslinger said. "For now just use it."
He could feel his ear throbbing, swelling.
"Why do you keep calling me that?"
"Cut the tape," the gunslinger said grimly. "If they break into yon privy while you"re still over here, I"ve got a feeling you"re going to be here for a very long time. And with a corpse for company before long."
Eddie pulled the knife out of the scabbard. Not old; more than old, more than ancient. The blade, honed almost to the point of invisibility, seemed to be all age caught in metal.
"Yeah, it looks sharp," he said, and his voice wasn"t steady.
16.
The last pa.s.sengers were filing out into the jetway. One of them, a lady of some seventy summers with that exquisite look of confusion which only first-time fliers with too many years or too little English seem capable of wearing, stopped to show Jane Dorning her tickets. "How will I ever ever find my plane to Montreal?" she asked. "And what about my bags? Do they do my Customs here or there?" find my plane to Montreal?" she asked. "And what about my bags? Do they do my Customs here or there?"
"There will be a gate agent at the top of the jetway who can give you all the information you need, ma"am," Jane said.
"Well, I don"t see why you you can"t give me the information I need," the old woman said. "That jetway thing is still full of people." can"t give me the information I need," the old woman said. "That jetway thing is still full of people."
"Move on, please, madam," Captain McDonald said. "We have a problem."
"Well, pardon me for living," the old woman said huffily, "I guess I just fell off the hea.r.s.e!"
And strode past them, nose tilted like the nose of a dog scenting a fire still some distance away, tote-bag clutched in one hand, ticket-folder (with so many boarding-pa.s.s stubs sticking out of it that one might have been tempted to believe the lady had come most of the way around the globe, changing planes at every stop along the way) in the other.
"There"s a lady who may never fly Delta"s big jets again," Susy murmured.