My double answered me quietly, "It isn"t over. It isn"t over yet, Harry. As long as you hold yourself responsible for Justin"s death and Elaine"s fall, it still colors everything you think and do."
I didn"t answer myself.
"She"s still alive," my double said. "You know she is."
"She died in the fire," I said. "She was unconscious. She couldn"t have lived through it."
"You"d have known if she died. And they never found a second set of bones."
"She died in the fire!" I screamed. "She"s dead."
"Until you stop pretending," my double said, appearing before me, "and try to face reality, you"re not going to be able to heal. You"re not going to be able to trust anyone. Which reminds me ..."
My double gestured, and Tera West appeared as I had seen her crouched behind the garbage bin at the rear of the gas station, naked, her body lean, feral, leaves and bits of bracken in her hair, her amber eyes gleaming with cold, alien intelligence. "Why in the h.e.l.l h.e.l.l are you trusting are you trusting her her?"
"I haven"t had much choice," I snapped. "In case you haven"t noticed, things have been sort of desperate lately."
"You know she"s not human," my double said. "You know she was at the scene of the crime, at Marcone"s restaurant, where Spike was torn up. You know she has some kind of hold on a group of young people, the favorite targets of the creatures of the Nevernever. In fact, you can be pretty d.a.m.n sure that she is a shape-shifter of one kind or another, who isn"t telling you the whole truth, but still comes asking for your help."
"Like I can throw stones for not telling the whole truth," I said.
Hngh, my double said in answer. "But you haven"t confronted her about what she isn"t telling you. Those kids. Who the h.e.l.l were they, and what were they doing? What is she getting them into? And why was she keeping it a secret from MacFinn? He didn"t recognize the names when you dropped them." my double said in answer. "But you haven"t confronted her about what she isn"t telling you. Those kids. Who the h.e.l.l were they, and what were they doing? What is she getting them into? And why was she keeping it a secret from MacFinn? He didn"t recognize the names when you dropped them."
"All right, all right," I said. "I was going to talk to her anyway. As soon as I wake up."
My double chuckled. "If things are that leisurely. These murders are still happening, and they"re starting to pile up. Are you serious about doing something about them?"
"You know that I am."
My double nodded firmly. "I"m glad we agree on something. Let"s look at some facts. MacFinn couldn"t have committed all the murders. Most particularly, he couldn"t have committed the most important murder-the industrialist, Marcone"s partner. He and his bodyguard were killed the night after the full moon. And Spike was wiped out the night before the full moon. MacFinn doesn"t have any control over his shape-shifting. He couldn"t have been the one to pull off those murders."
"So who could have?" I asked.
"His fiancee. The men were ripped apart by an animal."
"But the FBI lab said that it wasn"t a true wolf that did it."
"Werewolves are slightly different from real wolves," my double said.
"How do you know that?" I demanded.
"I"m the intuition, remember?" my double said. "Think about it. If you were going to change yourself into a wolf, do you think you could hold that image in your head, perfectly exact? Do you think you could make all the millions of subtle, tiny changes in skeletal and muscular structure? Magic doesn"t just work-a mind has to direct it, shape it. Your emotions, your feelings toward wolves would color it, too-change the image and the shape. Ask Bob, next chance you get. I"m sure he"ll tell you I"m right."
"Okay, okay," I said. "I"ll buy that. But the FBI said that there was more than one set of tooth marks and prints, too."
"MacFinn explains some of them. During last month"s full moon, he probably killed some people when his circle went ka-blooey."
"And the group Tera had-they called themselves the Alphas-could explain the rest of them, if they were shape-shifters. "
"Now you"re catching on," my double said, approval in his tone. "You"re smarter than you look."
"Do you think they were behind spoiling MacFinn"s containment circle? The fancy one with all the silver and stuff?"
"They had the knowledge to do it, through Tera. Tera could have let them in, providing opportunity," my double said.
"But they didn"t have a motive," I said. "Why would they have done it?"
"Because Tera told them to, maybe?"
I frowned and nodded. "She is a creature of the Nevernever. Who knows what"s going through her-its head. It doesn"t necessarily have to be understandable by human logic."
My double shook his head. "I don"t buy that. I saw the way she looked at MacFinn-and how she sacrificed herself to divert the FBI and the police so that he could escape. Your instincts are telling you that she is in love with MacFinn, and that she wouldn"t act against him."
"Yeah. You told me that about Elaine, too," I shot back, another pang of memory going through my chest.
"That was a long time ago," my double said defensively. "I"ve had time to get keener since then. And less easy to distract."
"All right," I sighed. "So where does that leave us?"
"I don"t think we"ve run into the real killers yet. The ones who ruined MacFinn"s circle and whacked the mob guys on the non-full-moon nights."
I squinted at my double. "You think so?"
He nodded and stroked his beard again. "Unless the Alphas are doing it without Tera knowing, and they look a little too bright eyed and bushy tailed to be doing that. I think it"s someone else entirely. Someone trying to set up MacFinn and take him out of the picture."
"But why?"
"Maybe because they didn"t want him putting the Northwest Pa.s.sage Project through. Or, gee, maybe because he"s a freaking werewolf, Harry, and someone caught on to it and wanted him dead. You know that there are organizations who would do that-some of the Venatori Umbrorum, members of the White Council, others who are in the know."
"But you don"t think I"ve seen them, yet?"
"I don"t think you"ve picked them out from the background," my double said. "Keep your eyes open, all right? Which brings us to the next topic of discussion."
"Does it?"
My double nodded. "Threat a.s.sessment. You"ve got all kinds of things staring you right in the face, and you"re not noticing them. I don"t want you to get killed because you"re too distracted. " He glanced to one side, frowned, and said, "We"re almost out of time."
"We wouldn"t be if you weren"t such a wisea.s.s."
"Bite me," my double said. "Don"t forget Marcone. You p.i.s.sed him off by not taking the deal he offered you. He thinks the killers are coming after him next, and he might be right. He"s scared, and scared people do stupid things-like trying to off the only man in town who has a chance of stopping what"s going on."
"Let me worry about Marcone," I said.
"I am am you, and I"m worried. Next is the cops. Some of Murphy"s people are dead. There is going to be h.e.l.l to pay once she gets that arm fixed-and someone is going to remember that you were around, and with your luck, they won"t remember that you kept even more people from dying. You see Murphy and the police again, you"d better be careful or you"re going to get shot to death resisting arrest." you, and I"m worried. Next is the cops. Some of Murphy"s people are dead. There is going to be h.e.l.l to pay once she gets that arm fixed-and someone is going to remember that you were around, and with your luck, they won"t remember that you kept even more people from dying. You see Murphy and the police again, you"d better be careful or you"re going to get shot to death resisting arrest."
"I"ll be careful," I said.
"One more thing," my double said. "You have forgotten about Parker and the Streetwolves entirely. Parker needs you dead if he"s going to remain in control of his people."
"Yeah. You"d have thought he"d have been more on the ball than this."
"Exactly," my double said. "You"ve been hiding and away from your apartment for a while-but you show up in public again, and you can bet that Parker will be on your trail. And think think. He knew the real deal between you and Marcone, and he"s a petty thug in Chicago. There"s probably a connection between them, and you"ve been too dumb to think of it."
"Stars above," I muttered. "It"s not as if the situation is very complicated. No pressure, right?"
"At least you"re willing to deal with it now, instead of just closing your eyes and pretending that they can"t see you. Be careful, Harry. It"s a real mess, and you"re the only one who can clean it up."
"Who are you, my mother?" I asked.
My double snapped his fingers. "That reminds me, right. Your mother-" He broke off, glancing up and around him, an expression of frustration coming over his face. "Oh, h.e.l.l."
And then someone was shaking my unwounded shoulder, shaking me roughly awake. I blinked open my eyes in shock, and all the pains of my body came flooding back into me with renewed energy and agony. My brain reeled for a few minutes, trying to shift gears.
I was sitting in the pa.s.senger seat of Susan"s car. We were rolling down an expressway, somewhere, but rain was clouding the view of the skyline so that I couldn"t orient myself to where we were. The glowing numbers of the dashboard clock said that it was only a few minutes after nine. I"d had less than half an hour"s sleep. There was an old beach towel wrapped around my wounded foot, and my face felt cool, as though someone had wiped it clean.
"Is he awake?" Susan said, her voice high and panicky. "Is he awake?"
"I"m awake," I said blearily, blinking open my eyes. "Sort of. What? This better be good."
"It is not good," Tera said from the backseat. "If you have any power left, wizard, you should prepare to use it. We are being followed."
Chapter Twenty-one Twenty-one I rubbed at my eyes and mumbled some vague curse at whoever was following us. "Okay, okay. Give me a minute." rubbed at my eyes and mumbled some vague curse at whoever was following us. "Okay, okay. Give me a minute."
"Harry," Susan said. "I"m almost on empty. I don"t know if we have have a minute." a minute."
"It never rains," I moaned.
Tera frowned at me. "It is raining now." She turned to Susan. "I do not think he is coherent."
I snorted and looked around blearily. "It"s a figure of speech. h.e.l.l"s bells, you really don"t know anything anything about humans, do you? about humans, do you?
"Are you sure there"s someone following us?"
Tera glanced back at the traffic behind us. "Two cars back. And three cars behind that one. Two vehicles are following us."
"How can you tell?" I asked.
Tera turned those odd amber eyes back to me. "They move like predators. They move well. And I feel them."
I narrowed my eyes. "Feel them? On an instinctual level?"
Tera shrugged. "I feel them," she repeated. "They are dangerous."
The taste of blood was still in my mouth, annoying input, like static on a phone. Of all the people who might be chasing me in cars, I could only think of a few who would trigger the supernatural senses of an inhuman being. I thought that it might be a pretty good idea to listen to what my dapper double had to say. "Susan," I said, "I want you to get off the expressway."
Her dark eyes flashed beneath the streetlights as she looked at me, then down at her fuel gauge. "I have to in the next couple of miles anyway. What do you want me to do?"
"Pull off, and get to a gas station."
She flashed me another nervous look, and I had the time to note that she was gorgeous, like some sort of Latin G.o.ddess. Of course, I might have been a little less than entirely objective. "Then what?" she said.
I checked my foot and idly took off my remaining boot, so that my hips would be parallel with the floor while I was standing. "Call the police."
"What?" Susan exclaimed and guided her car off the freeway and down an exit ramp.
I felt around in the jumpsuit"s tool pouch, until I came out with the little sports bottle with my second potion in it. "Just do it," I said. "Trust me on this one."
"Wizard," Tera said, her voice still utterly calm. "There is no one but you who can help my fiance."
I shot Tera an annoyed glance. "I"ll meet you where you hold your Cub Scout meetings."
"Harry?" Susan said. "What are you talking about?" She pulled the car down the exit ramp, onto a one-way access road.
"I understand what you"re doing," Tera said. "I would do the same for my mate."
"Mate?" Susan said indignantly. "Mate? I am most certainly Susan said indignantly. "Mate? I am most certainly not not his-" his-"
I didn"t get to hear the rest of what Susan said, because I grabbed my blasting rod in one hand, the potion in the other, opened the door to the car, unfastened my seat belt, and rolled out onto the shoulder of the road.
I know, I know. It sounds really stupid in retrospect, even to me. But it made a sort of chivalrous, c.o.c.kamamie sense at the time. I was pretty sure that Parker and his cronies in the Streetwolves were shadowing us, and I had a precise idea of how dangerous they could be. I had to a.s.sume that they were even worse during the full moon. Susan had no idea of the level of danger she was in, and if I stayed near her I would only draw her more deeply into it. And Tera-I still didn"t trust Tera. I wasn"t sure that I wanted her fighting at my back.
I wanted to deal with my pursuers myself, to deal with my own mistake myself, and not to make an innocent bystander like Susan pay for it.
So I, uh, sort of threw myself out of the pa.s.senger seat of a moving car.
Don"t look at me like that. I"m telling you, it made sense at the time.
I held out my arms and legs in a circle, as though I were trying to hug a barrel, and then sc.r.a.pe, sc.r.a.pe, rip, b.u.mpity-b.u.mpity-b.u.mpity, whip, whip, whip, and thud. Everything whirled around the whole while. I managed, somehow, to keep my sense of direction, to maintain my momentum largely in a roll, and to angle myself toward the dubious comfort of the thick weeds at the side of the access road. By the time I came to a stop, I was among freshly crushed plants, all damp and cold from the rain, the smell of mud and gas and asphalt and exhaust clogging up my nose.
There was pain, pain everywhere, spreading out from my shoulder and my foot, whirling dizziness, blackness that rode on my eyelids and tried to force them down. I struggled to remember exactly what I had planned on doing when I had thrown open the door to Susan"s car.
It came to me in a moment, and I jerked the squeeze top of the sports bottle open with my teeth and then crushed the plastic bottle, forcing the potion inside it out through the narrow nozzle and into my mouth. Eight ounces of cold coffee, I thought, dimly. Yum.
It tasted like stale cardboard and too-old pizza and burned coffee beans. But as it went down my gullet, I could feel the power in the brew spreading out into me, active and alive, as though I had swallowed a huge, hyperkinetic amoeba. My fatigue quite simply vanished, and energy came rushing into me, like it sometimes does at the end of a really good concerto or overture. The pain receded down to levels that I could manage. The soreness lifted out of my muscles, and my cloudy, cloggy thought processes cleared as though someone had flushed my synapses with jalapeno. My heart rate surged, and then held steady, and I came to the abrupt conclusion that things just weren"t as bad as I had thought they were.
I pushed myself up using my bad arm, just to spite the injury that Agent Benn had dealt me, and brushed myself off. My jumpsuit was torn and there was fresh blood on it, sc.r.a.pes from the asphalt and darkening bruises on my arms and legs that I could already see-annoying little b.a.s.t.a.r.ds. I held them in contempt.
I shook my shield bracelet loose around my left wrist, took my blasting rod in my right hand, and turned toward the access road. I drew in a breath, smelling the odor of the rain on the asphalt, and more distantly the crisp, clean scent of autumn, almost buried by Chicago"s stink. I considered how much I loved the autumn, and composed a brief poem about it as I watched traffic force Susan"s car along and out of sight. I turned my head to view a pair of cars cut frantically across traffic and cruise down the access road. The lead car was a two-ton pickup, one of the really big ones, and Parker sat behind the wheel, looking around wildly until his eyes lit upon me, standing there in the tall weeds beside the road.
I smiled at him and contemplated his shocked expression to my own satisfaction.
Then I drew in a breath, and my renewed will with it, lifted the rod in my right hand, murmured a phrase in a language I didn"t know, and blew the tires off his f.u.c.king truck.
They all went at once, in one satisfying THUMP, complete blowouts resulting from a sudden heating of the air inside the tires-a pretty slick spell to pull on the fly, heating up the air inside of the tires of a moving vehicle. The truck slewed left and right, and I could see Parker frantically rolling the steering wheel in an effort to maintain control. Two people sat in the cab with him, faces I didn"t recognize from here, and they evidently didn"t believe in seat belts. They were tossed about the inside of the truck like toys. The truck careened off the road in a spray of gravel, went past me into the weeds, hit some sort of ditch, and went into a ponderous roll.
There was an enormous crunching sound. Car wrecks, when they happen for real and not on television, are surprisingly noisy. They sound like someone pounding empty trash cans out of shape with a sledgehammer, only louder. Parker"s truck tumbled over twice, crunched into the side of a hill, and lay on its pa.s.senger side.