Allerton smiled. "That sounds to me as if it might be dangerous doctrine."
"What excuses the poor"ll often seem dyngerous doctrine to the rich, Mr. Rash. Our kind is awful afryde of their kind gettin" a little bit of what they"re longin" for, and especially "ere in America. When we"ve took from them most of the means of "aving a little pleasure lawful, we call it dyngerous if they tyke it unlawful like, and we go to work and pa.s.s laws agynst them. Protectin" them agynst theirselves we sye it is, and we go at it with a gun."
"But we"re talking of----"
"Of the young lydy, sir. Quite so. It"s on "er account as I"m syin"
what I"m syin". You arsk me if I think she"ll go to the bad in cyse we turn "er out, and I sye that----"
Allerton started. "There"s no question of our turning her out. She"s sick of it."
"Then that"d be my point, wouldn"t it, sir? If she goes because she"s sick of it, why, then, natural like, she"ll look somewhere else for what--for what she didn"t find with us. You may call it goin" to the bad, but it"ll be no more than tryin" to find in a wrong wye what life "as denied "er in a right one."
Allerton, who had never in his life been asked to bear moral responsibility, was uneasy at this philosophy, changing the subject abruptly.
"Where did she get the clothes?"
"Me and "er, Mr. Rash, went to Margot"s this mornin" and bought a bunch of "em."
"The deuce you did! And you used my name?"
"No, sir," Steptoe returned, with dignity, "I used mine. I didn"t give no "andle to gossip. I pyde for the things out o" some money I "ad in "and--my own money, Mr. Rash--and "ad "em all sent to me. I thought as we was mykin" a mistyke the young lydy"d better look proper while we was mykin" it; and I knew Mr. Rash"d feel the syme."
The situation was that in which the _faineant_ king accepts the act of the mayor of the palace because it is Hobson"s choice. Moreover, he was willing that she should have the clothes. If she wouldn"t take money she would at least apparently take them, which, in a measure, would amount to the same thing. He was dwelling on this bit of satisfaction when Steptoe continued.
"And as long as the young lydy remynes with us, Mr. Rash, I thought it"d be discreeter like not to "ave no more women pokin" about, and tryin" to find out what "ad better not be known. It mykes it simpler as she "erself arsks to be called Miss Gravely----"
"Oh, she does?"
"Yes, sir; and that"s what I"ve told William and Golightly, the waiter and the chef, is "er nyme. It mykes it all plyne to "em----"
"Plain? Why, they"ll think----"
"No, sir. They won"t think. When it comes to what"s no one"s business but your own women thinks; men just haccepts. They tykes things for granted, and don"t feel it none of their affair. Mr. Rash"ll "ave noticed that there"s a different kind of honor among women from what there is among men. I don"t sye but what the women"s is all right, only the men"s is easier to get on with."
There being no response to these observations Steptoe made ready to withdraw. "And shall you stye "ome for breakfast, sir?"
"I"ll see in the morning."
"Very good, sir. I"ve locked up the "ouse and seen to everythink, if you"ll switch off the lights as you come up. Good-night, Mr. Rash."
"Good-night."
Chapter XIV
While this conversation was taking place Letty, in the back spare room, was conducting a ceremonial too poignant for tears. There were tears in her heart, but her eyes only smarted.
Taking off the blue-black tea-gown, she clasped it in her arms and kissed it. Then, on one of the padded silk hangers, she hung it far in the depths of the closet, where it wouldn"t scorch her sight in the morning.
Next she arrayed herself in a filmy breakfast thing, white with a copper-colored sash matching some of the tones in her hair and eyes, and simple with an angelic simplicity. Standing before the long mirror she surveyed herself mournfully. But this robe too she took off, kissed, and laid away.
Lastly she put on the blue-green costume, with the turquoise and jade embroidery. She put on also the hat with the feather which shaded itself from green into monkshood blue. She put on a veil, and a pair of white gloves. For once she would look as well as she was capable of looking, though no one should see her but herself.
Viewing her reflection she grew frightened. It was the first time she had ever seen her personal potentialities. She had long known that with "half a chance" she could emerge from the coc.o.o.n stage of the old gray rag and be at least the equal of the average; but she hadn"t expected so radical a change. She was not the same Letty Gravely. She didn"t know what she was, since she was neither a "star" nor a "lady,"
the two degrees of elevation of which she had had experience. All she could feel was that with the advantages here presented she had the capacity to be either. Since, apparently, the becoming a lady was now excluded from her choice of careers, "stardom" would still have been within her reach, only that she was not to get the necessary "half a chance." That was the bitter truth of it. That was to be the result of her walking on blades. All the same, as walking on blades would help her prince she was resolved to walk on them. For her mother"s sake, even for Judson Flack"s, she had done things nearly as hard, when she had not had this incentive.
The incentive nerved her to take off the blue-green costume, kissing it a last farewell, and laying it to rest, as a mother a dead baby in its coffin. Into the closet went the bits of lingerie from the consignment just arrived from Paris, and the other spoils of the day.
When everything was buried she shut the door upon it, as in her heart she was shutting the door on her poor little fledgling hopes. Nothing remained to torment her vision, or distract her from what she had to do. The old gray rag and the battered black hat were all she had now to deal with.
She slept little that night, since she was watching not for daylight but for that first stirring in the streets which tells that daylight is approaching. Having neither watch nor clock the stirring was all she had to go by. When it began to rumble and creak and throb faintly in and above the town she got up and dressed.
So far had she travelled in less than forty-eight hours that the old gray rag, and not the blue-green costume, was now the disguise. In other words, once having tasted the prosperous she had found it the natural. To go back to poverty was not merely hard; it was contrary to all spontaneous dictates. Dimly she had supposed that in reverting to the harness she had worn she would find herself again; but she only discovered that she was more than ever lost.
Very softly she unlocked her door to peep out at the landing. The house was ghostly and still, but it was another sign of her development that she was no longer afraid of it. s.p.a.ce too had become natural, while dignity of setting had seemed to belong to her ever since she was born. Turning her back on these conditions was far more like turning her back on home than it had been when she walked away from Judson Flack"s.
She crept out. It was so dark that she was obliged to wait till objects defined themselves black against black before she could see the stairs. She listened too. There were sounds, but only such sounds as all houses make when everyone is sleeping. She guessed, it was pure guessing, that it must be about five o"clock.
She stole down the stairs. The necessity for keeping her mind on moving noiselessly deadened her thought to anything else. She neither looked back to what she was leaving behind, nor forward to what she was going to. Once she had reached the street it would be time enough to think of both. She had the fact in the back of her consciousness, but she kept it there. Out in the street she would feel grief for the prince and his palace, and terror at the void before her; but she couldn"t feel them yet. Her one impulse was to escape.
At the great street door she could see nothing; but she could feel.
She found the key and turned it easily. As the door did not then yield to the k.n.o.b she fumbled till she touched the chain. Slipping that out of its socket she tried the door again, but it still refused to open.
There must be something else! Rich houses were naturally fortresses!
She discovered the bolt and pulled it back.
Still the door was fixed like a rock. She couldn"t make it out. A lock, a chain, a bolt! Surely that must be everything! Perhaps she had turned the key the wrong way. She turned it again, but only with the same result. She found she could turn the key either way, and still leave the door immovable.
Perhaps she didn"t pull it hard enough. Doors sometimes stuck. She pulled harder; she pulled with her whole might and main. She could shake the door; she could make it rattle. The hanging chain dangled against the woodwork with a terrifying clank. If anyone was lying awake she would sound like a burglar--and yet she must get out.
Now that she was balked, to get out became an obsession. It became more of an obsession the more she was balked. It made her first impatient, and then frantic. She turned the key this way and that way.
She pulled and tugged. The perspiration came out on her forehead. She panted for breath; she almost sobbed. She knew there was a "trick" to it. She knew it was a simple trick because she had seen Steptoe perform it on the previous day; but she couldn"t find out what it was.
The effort made her only the more desperate.
She was not crying; she was only gasping--in raucous, exhausted, nervous sobs. They came shorter and harder as she pitted her impotence against this unyielding pa.s.sivity. She knew it was impotence, and yet she couldn"t desist; and she couldn"t desist because she grew more and more frenzied. It was the kind of frenzy in which she would have dashed herself wildly, vainly against the force that blocked her with its pitiless resistance, only that the whole hall was suddenly flooded with a blaze of light.
It was light that came so unexpectedly that her efforts were cut short. Even her hard gasps were silenced, not in relief but in amazement. She remained so motionless that she could practically see herself, thrown against this brutal door, her arms spread out on it imploringly.
Seconds that seemed like minutes went by before she found strength to detach herself and turn.
Amazement became terror. On the halfway landing of the stairs stood a figure robed in scarlet from head to foot, with flying indigo lapels.
He was girt with an indigo girdle, while the ma.s.s of his hair stood up as in tongues of forked black flame. The countenance was terrible, in mingled perplexity and wrath.
She saw it was the prince, but a prince transformed by condemnation.
"What on earth does this mean?"