In the rain Malling walked home as he had come. But now it was deep in the night and his depression had deepened. He was a self-reliant man, and not easily felt himself small, though he was not conceited. To-night he felt diminished. The worm-sensation overcame him. That such a man as Chichester should have been able to convey to him such a sensation was strange, yet it was from Chichester that this mental chastis.e.m.e.nt had come. For a moment Chichester had towered, and at that moment Malling surely had dwindled, shrunk together, like a sheet of paper exposed to the heat of a flame.
But that Chichester should have had such an effect on him--Malling!
If Mr. Harding was going down the hill, Chichester surely was not. He had changed drastically since Malling had known him two years ago. In power, in force, he had gained. He now conveyed the impression of a man capable, if he chose, of imposing himself on others. Formerly he had been the wax that receives the impress. But whereas formerly he had been a contented man, obviously at peace with himself and with the world, now he was haunted by some great anxiety, by some strange grief, or perhaps even by some fear.
"Few men know how terrible the face of the truth can be."
Chichester had said that.
Was he one of the few men?
And was that why now, as Malling walked home in the darkness and rain, he felt himself humbled, diminished?
For Malling loved knowledge and thought men should live by it. Had truth a Medusa face, still would he have desired to look into it once, would have been ready to endure a subsequent turning to stone.
That Chichester should perhaps have seen what he had not seen--that troubled him, even humbled him.
Some words of Professor Stepton came back to his mind: "If there"s anything in it, development will take place in the link." And those last words: "If in doubt, study Lady Sophia."
Mailing was in doubt. Why not follow Stepton"s advice? Why not study Lady Sophia?
He resolved to do it. And with the resolve came to him a sense of greater well-being. The worm-sensation departed from him. He lifted his head and walked more briskly.
V
On the night following the dinner in Hornton Street, Malling went to the Covent Garden Opera House to hear "La Traviata." The well-worn work did not grasp the attention of a man who was genuinely fond of the music of Richard Strauss, with its almost miraculous intricacies, and who was willingly captive to Debussy. He looked about the house from his stall, and very soon caught sight of Lady Mansford, Lady Sophia"s sister-in-law, in a box on the Grand Tier. Malling knew Lady Mansford. He resolved to pay her a visit, and as soon as the curtain was down, and Tetrazzini had tripped before it, smiling not unlike a good-natured child, he made his way upstairs, and asked the attendant to tap at a door on which was printed, "The Earl of Mansford." The man did so, and opened the door, showing a domestic scene highly creditable to the much maligned British aristocracy--Lord Mansford seated alone with his wife, in evidently amicable conversation.
After a few polite words he made Malling sit down beside her, and, saying he would have a cigarette in the foyer, he left them together.
Lady Mansford was a pretty, dark woman, of the slightly irresponsible and little-bird type. She willingly turned her charmingly dressed head and chirped when noticed, and she was generally noticed because of her beauty. Now she chirped of Ceylon, where Malling had been, and then, more vivaciously, of Parisian milliners, where she had been. From these allied subjects Malling led her on to a slightly different topic--religion.
"I went to St. Joseph"s last Sunday week," he presently said.
"St. who--what?" said Lady Mansford, who was busy with her opera-gla.s.ses, and had just noticed that Lady Sindon, a bird-like rival of hers, had changed the color of her hair, fortunately to her--Lady Sindon"s--disadvantage.
"To St. Joseph"s, to hear your brother-in-law preach."
"It doesn"t do at all," murmured Lady Mansford. "It makes her look Chinese."
"You said--?"
"Mollie Sindon. But what were you talking about? Do tell me." She laid down her gla.s.ses.
"I was saying that I went to church last Sunday week."
"Why?"
"To hear your brother-in-law preach at St. Joseph"s."
"Marcus!" exclaimed Lady Mansford.
She pursed her lips.
"I don"t go to St. Joseph"s. Poor Sophy! I"m sorry for her."
"I lunched with Lady Sophia after the service."
"Did you? Isn"t it sad?"
"Sad! I don"t quite understand?" said Malling, interrogatively.
"The change in him. Of course people say it"s drink. Such nonsense! But they must say something, mustn"t they?"
"Is Mr. Harding so very much changed?"
"Do you mean to say you didn"t notice it?"
"I never met him till within the last fortnight."
"He"s transformed--simply. He might have risen to anything, with his energy, his ambition, and his connections. And now! But the worst of it is no one can make out why it is. Even Sophia and Isingla.s.s--my husband, you know!--haven"t an idea. And it gets worse every day. Last Sunday I hear his sermon was too awful, a mere muddle of adjectives, such as one hears in Hyde Park, I believe. I never liked Marcus particularly. I always thought him too autocratic, too determined to dominate. He had that poor little Mr. Chichester--his curate--completely under his thumb.
Mr. Chichester couldn"t call his soul his own. He worshiped Marcus. But now they say even he is beginning to think that his G.o.d is of clay. What can it be? Do you think Marcus is losing his mind?"
"Oh, I should hope not," returned Malling, vaguely. "Has it been going on long?"
"Oh, for quite a time. But it all seemed to come on gradually--as things _do_, you know! Poor Sophy has always adored him, and given way to him in everything. In her eyes all that he does is right. She never says a word, I believe, but she must be suffering the tortures of--_you_ know! There"s Winnie Rufford coming in! How astonishingly young she looks. Were you at the Huntingham"s ball? Well--"
Lady Mansford twittered no more about the Harding menage. But Malling felt that his visit had not been fruitless.
After the opera he went to a party in Grosvenor Street where again he managed to produce talk of the Hardings. It seemed that Lady Mansford had not exaggerated very much. Among those who knew the Hardings a change in the rector of St. Joseph"s had evidently been generally noticed.
Malling took in to supper a Mrs. Armitage, a great friend of Lady Sophia"s, and she made no secret of the fact that Lady Sophia was greatly distressed.
"I thought she would have been here to-night," Mrs. Armitage said. "But she isn"t. I suppose she felt she couldn"t face it. So many of his congregation are here, or so many who were in his congregation."
"The church was crammed to the doors last Sunday week when he preached,"
observed Malling.
"Was it? Curiosity, I suppose. It certainly can"t have been the intellectual merit of the sermon. I heard it was quite deplorable. But last Sunday"s, I was told, was worse still. No continuity at all, and the church not full. People say the curate, Mr. Chichester, who often preaches in the evening, is making a great effect, completely cutting out his rector. And he used to be almost unbearably dull."
"Will you have a quail?"
"Please. You might give me two. My doctor says if I sit up late--thank you!"
"I"ve never heard Mr. Chichester preach," said Malling.