CHAPTER XXV
NOT EVEN LOVE CAN FIND A WAY
Standing in the middle of the room, her closed hand resting upon a table upon which she leaned as if for support, was Laure d"Aumenier.
The old Marquis had not noticed it, nor did the young man; that is, the eye of neither took in the details, but both had been conscious of the general effect, for the young Countess had dressed herself in her most becoming gown, one that had been newly made for her in Paris before the journey to the south of France and that she had never worn before.
She had spent a miserable night and day. When she had talked with her uncle a short time before, the effects of her sleeplessness and anguish had been plainly apparent. But there, within that room, her color coming to her face, her eyes shining with excitement and emotion, she looked as fresh and as beautiful as the springtime without.
It was her right hand that rested on the table, and as Marteau approached her left instinctively sought her heart. In his emotion he looked at her with steady, concentrated glance, so keen, so piercing, as if he sought to penetrate to the very depths of her heart, that she could scarcely sustain his gaze. He, too, had forgot cares and anxieties, antic.i.p.ation, hopes, dreams; in his excitement and surprise everything had gone from him but her presence. Here was the woman he loved, looking at him in such a way, with such an air and such a bearing, her hand upon her heart--was that heart beating for him? Was she trying to still it, to control it, because----
His approach was slow, almost terribly deliberate, like the movement of the old Guard under Dorsenne--_Le Beau Dorsenne_!--against the heights of Pratzen on the glorious yet dreadful day of Austerlitz. His advance was irresistible, but unhurried, as if there must be a tremendous clash of arms in a moment to which haste could lend nothing, from the dignity and splendor of which hurry would detract. At another time the woman might have shrunk back faltering, she might have voiced a protest, or temporized, but now, in the presence of death itself, as it were, she stood steady waiting for him. Enjoying the luxury of looking upon him unrestrained, her heart going out to him as he drew nearer, nearer, nearer, she found herself tremblingly longing for his actual touch.
Now his arms went out to her, she felt them slowly fold around her, and then, like a whirlwind released, he crushed her against his breast, and, as she hung there, her throbbing heart making answer to the beating of his own, he kissed her again, again, again. Her heart almost stopped its beating. Beneath the fire of his lips her face burned. Her head drooped at last, her tense body gave way, she leaned upon him heavily, glad for the support of his strong arms.
"Laure," he whispered, "my little Laure, you love me. Oh, my G.o.d, you love me. It was true, then. I did not dream it. My ears did not mock me."
"Yes, yes," said the woman at last. "Whoever you are, whatever you are, wherever you go, I love you."
"And was it to tell me this that you came?"
"Yes. But not for this alone."
"What else?"
"I would have you live."
"For you?"
"For me."
"As your husband?"
"And if that were possible would you----"
"Yes, yes, would I what?"
"Give up the Eagle?"
"My G.o.d!" said the man, loosening his clasp of her a little and holding her a little away that he might look at her. "Does your love tempt me to dishonor?"
"I do not know," said the woman piteously. "I am confused. I cannot think aright. Oh, Marteau, Jean, with whom I played as a child, think of me. I cannot bear to see you dead outside there. I cannot look upon a soldier without thinking of it. The rattling of the carts in the streets sounds in my ear like shots. Don"t, don"t die. You must not."
"And, if I lived, would you love me?"
"So long as the good G.o.d gives me the breath of life."
"With the love of youth and the love of age?"
"Aye, for eternity."
"And would you be my wife?"
"Your wife?" said the woman, her face changing. "It would be joy beyond all, but I could not."
"Why not?"
"I--you know I am promised to another," she went on desperately, "and but that I might see you I repeated the promise. Otherwise my uncle would never have permitted me this blessed privilege. I told him that I would marry anybody if he would only let me see you--alone--for a moment, even. What difference, so long as I could not be yours? I came to tell you that I loved you, and because of that to beg you to live, to give up that Eagle. What is it, a mere casting of metal, valueless. Don"t look at me with that hard, set face. Let me kiss the line of your lips into softness again. I cannot be your wife, but at least you will live. I will know that somewhere you think of me."
"And would death make a difference? High in the highest heaven, should I be so fortunate as to achieve it, I would think of you; and, if I were to be sent to the lowest h.e.l.l, I could forget it all in thinking of you."
"Yes, yes, I know how you love, because----"
"Because why?"
"I won"t hesitate now. It may be unmaidenly, but I know, because I, too----"
"Laure!" cried the man, sweeping her to him again.
"I think I loved you when we were boy and girl together," said the woman, throwing everything to the winds in making her great confession.
"I know I loved you that night in the chateau, although I would not admit it, and I treated you so cruelly. And when they told me you were dead, then, then, my heart broke. And when you came here and I saw you two men together--oh, I had made the contrast in my imagination--but last night I saw and now I see. Oh, you will live, live. What is honor compared to a woman"s heart? See, I am at your feet. You will not break me. You will live. Something may happen. I am not married yet. The Emperor may come back."
"The boy, Pierre, said last night that it was rumored----"
"Yes, he gave me a message. I almost forgot it." She held out the violet crushed in her fevered palm. "He said to tell you that the violet has bloomed."
"Does he mean----?"
"I know not what he means."
"It is but an a.s.surance begot of hope," said Marteau.
"And if it were so?"
"He comes too late. Rise, my lady. It is not meet for you to kneel.
Let me lift you up, up to my heart. I cannot give up the Eagle. That I have won your love is the most wonderful thing in all the world. It pa.s.ses my understanding, the understanding of man, but I should forfeit it if I should permit myself this shame."
"Then I will do it, I will betray you," said the little Countess desperately. "I alone know where that Eagle is. I will get it. I will bargain with my uncle for your life. Marteau, listen. Do you wish to condemn me to death? I will not, I cannot, survive you. I will not be thrust into that other"s arms. I did not know, I did not realize what it was--before. But since I have been here, since you have held me to your heart, since you have kissed me--no, I cannot. It would be desecration--horror. Let me go. I will tell."
"Dearest Laure," said the man, holding her tighter, "think, be calm, listen. It needs not that I a.s.sure you of my love. I have proved it.
I lie here with the stigma of shame, the basest of accusations in the hearts of those who know of our meeting at night, to save you from suspicion even."
"Not my uncle, not the Marquis. He says there is something back of it all. He knows you are not a thief."
"It takes a d"Aumenier to understand a Marteau," said the young man proudly.
"And I am a d"Aumenier, too," said the woman.