"And while I"m idly biting my nails through the creeping years some level-headed Southerner will quietly woo and win her. I would deserve to lose her, should I take such a course."
"You certainly would have to take that risk; but perhaps you will incur greater risks by too hasty action."
"Be sincere with me now, Mrs. Willoughby. I don"t believe you women like timid, pusillanimous men. How could I appear otherwise to Miss Bodine if I should withdraw, like a growling bear into winter quarters, there to hibernate indefinitely? The period wouldn"t be life to me, scarcely tolerable existence. What could she know about my motives and feelings? I tell you my love is as sacred as my faith in G.o.d. I"m proud of it, rather than ashamed. I wish her to know it, no matter what the result may be, and I don"t care if all the world knows it, too."
"You mean to tell your father then?"
"Certainly, at the proper time."
"Suppose you find him utterly opposed to it all?"
"I do not think I shall; not when he sees my happiness is at stake. He may fume over it for a time, but when he comes to know Ella she"ll disarm him.
Why, it"s just as clear to me as that I see you, that she could make the old gentleman happier than he has been for over a quarter of a century."
"My poor young friend! I wish I could share in your sanguine feelings."
"Oh, I"m not so very sanguine about her. What she will do worries me far more than what the old people will do."
"Well, you are right there. The old people are the outworks, she the citadel, which you can never capture unless she chooses to surrender."
"That"s true, but I don"t believe she ever would surrender to a man who was afraid to approach even the outworks."
Mrs. Willoughby laughed softly as she admitted, "Perhaps you are right."
"If I"m not, my whole manhood is at fault," he replied earnestly. "Please tell me, haven"t I decided on the right, honorable course--on what would seem honorable to Captain Bodine and to Ella also?"
"Yes, if you _will_ act now you can take no other."
"Well, won"t you please approve of it?"
"Mr. Houghton, I"m not going to be timid and pusillanimous either. Since you are of age, and will take a perfectly honorable course, I will stand by you as a friend. I will still counsel you, if you so wish, for I fear that your troubles have only begun."
"I thank you from my heart," he said, seizing her hand and pressing it warmly. "I do need and wish your counsel, for I have very little tact. I can sail a boat better than I can manage an affair like this."
"Will you make me one solemn promise?"
"Yes, if I can."
"Then pledge me your word that you will not lose your temper with either Captain Bodine or your father."
"Oh, I think I can easily do that," he said good-humoredly.
"You don"t know, you can"t imagine, how you may be tried."
"Well, it"s a sensible thing you ask, and I"ve sense enough to know it. I pledge you my word. If I break it, it will be because I"m pushed beyond mortal endurance."
"Mr. Houghton," she said, almost sternly, "you must not break it, no matter what is said or what happens. You would jeopardize everything if you did. You might lose Ella"s respect."
He drew a long breath. "You make me feel as if I were going into a very doubtful battle," he said thoughtfully.
"It is a very doubtful battle. It certainly will be a hard, and probably a long one, and you will lose it if you don"t keep cool."
"I can be very firm, I suppose."
"Yes, as firm and decided as you please, as long as you are quiet and gentlemanly in your words. Let me say one thing more," she added, very gravely. "If you enter on this affair, and then, in any kind of weakness or fickleness, give it up, I shall despise you, and so will all in this city who know about it. Count the cost. I"m too true a Southerner to look at you again if you trifle with a Southern girl. Your father will offer you great inducements to abandon this folly, as he will term it."
He flushed deeply, but only said, in quiet emphasis, "If I ever give up, except for reasons satisfactory to you, I shall despise myself far more than you can despise me."
"And you give me your word that you will keep your temper to the very end?"
"Yes, Heaven helping me, I will."
"Heaven speed you then, my friend."
CHAPTER XXIX
CONSTERNATION
Young Houghton was like a high-mettled steed, from which the curb had been removed. His temperament, even more than the impatience of youth, led him to chafe at delay, and Ella appeared so lovely, so exactly to his mind, that he had a nervous dread lest others should equally appreciate her, and forestall his effort to secure her affection. He resolved, therefore, that not an hour should be lost, and so went directly back to his father"s counting-rooms.
Bodine was writing as usual at his desk, and Houghton looked at him with an apprehension thus far unknown in his experience. But he did not hesitate. "Captain Bodine," he said, with a little nervous tremor in his voice, "will you be so kind as to grant me a private interview this evening?"
The veteran looked at him coldly as he asked, "May I inquire, sir, your object in seeking this interview?"
"I will explain fully when we are alone. I cannot here, but will merely say that my motives are honorable, as you yourself will admit."
Bodine contracted his brows in painful thought for a moment. "I may as well have it out with him at once," was his conclusion. "Very well, sir, I will remain after the office is closed," he said frigidly, then turned to his writing.
George went to his desk in his father"s private room, and there was a very grim, set look on his face also. "I understand you, my future father-in-law," he murmured softly. "You think you are going to end this affair in half an hour. We"ll see."
The afternoon was very warm, and his father said kindly, "Come, George, knock off for to-day. I"m going home and shall try to get a nap before dinner."
"That"s right, father; do so by all means. I have an engagement this evening, so please don"t wait dinner for me." His thought was, "If I"m to keep my temper I can"t tackle more than one the same day; yet I don"t believe my father will be obdurate. If I succeed, the time will come when he"ll thank me with all his heart."
Mr. Houghton had no disposition to control his son in small matters, and the young fellow came and went at his own will. Thus far his frankness and general good behavior had inspired confidence. His tastes had always inclined to athletic, manly sports, and these are usually at variance with dissipation of every kind.
The impatient youth had not long to wait. The clerks soon departed, and the colored janitor entered on his labors. Bodine remained writing quietly until George came and said, "Will you be so kind as to come to the private office?"
The veteran deliberately put his desk in order, and followed the young man without a word. There was still an abundance of light in which to see each other"s faces, and George observed that Bodine"s expression boded ill. He took a seat in silence, and looked at the flushed face of the youth coldly and impa.s.sively.
"Captain Bodine," George began hesitatingly, "you can make this interview very hard for me, and I fear you will do so. Yet you are a gentleman, and I wish to act and speak as becomes one also."
Bodine merely bowed slightly.