"I"m a leaning tower," replied the old lady, whose vein of humor ran through all her thoughts, "but I"m leaning on what won"t fail me. Nestle down by my side, dear child. You are shivering, and this extra blanket will do us both good. Now be comfortable, and believe with me that nothing in the universe can or will harm you."
"Poor Mara!" Ella sighed.
"Yes, I"ve been watching and grieving over her. I never saw any face more expressive of suffering than hers. I don"t understand her unless--unless--well, time will show, that is, if there is much more time for me."
"Oh, cousin, we never could spare you!"
"That is what I used to think about my husband, but he always went when sailing orders came, and I survived. I feel to-night as if he and the boys were just waiting off sh.o.r.e, if this tossing and pitching earth can be called sh.o.r.e, for me to join them."
Captain Bodine sat through the shock without moving a muscle. His eyes rested wistfully on Mara. With an indescribable pang he saw that in the supreme moment of general terror her eyes turned not to him but to Clancy, and that she made a half involuntary movement as if to go to him. The glance, the act, combined with what had gone before, were too significant, and Bodine buried his face in his hands that she might not see his trouble. She knew it all the more surely, yet felt how powerless she was to console him.
"Oh, my blind, blind folly!" she groaned inwardly. "If I had been true to my heart, I might be caring for Owen instead of that woman who left him to die, and my father"s friend acting like a father toward us both. I wanted to be so heroic and self-sacrificing, and I"ve only sacrificed those I love most."
Mrs. Hunter was so fully under the influence of anodynes as not to be cognizant of what was taking place, and Bodine, soldier-like, was not long in reaching his decision. Rising, he went aside with Dr. Devoe, and said, "Miss Wallingford is keeping up from the sheer force of will. Nothing but your command can induce her to yield and take such rest as can be obtained here. I do not think you can interpose too soon. I will watch Mrs.
Hunter."
Mara had indeed reached the limit of endurance, and the physician quickly detected the fact. He took her by the hand and arm, and gently raised her to her feet as he said, "I am autocrat here. Even kings and generals must obey their doctor. So I shall ask no permission to place you beside Mrs.
Bodine. She and rest can do you more good than I can. Captain Bodine and I will look after Mrs. Hunter."
Mara gave the veteran a grateful glance and yielded. Then she buried her face in Mrs. Bodine"s neck, and was silent until she slept from physical exhaustion.
Miss Ainsley, with mult.i.tudes of others, yielded to her terror at the pa.s.sing of the midnight earthquake. She shrieked and half rose in her wild impulse to fly. Then apparently forgetting Clancy she piteously begged Dr.
Devoe to give her something that would certainly bring oblivion for a few hours at least. He good-naturedly complied. When the opiate began to take effect she was placed on the mattress beside Mrs. Hunter, and was soon in stupor. Clancy had so far recovered that he was able to sit up, and he felt that he should watch beside the girl who he believed had been so devoted to him in his unconsciousness.
Dr. Devoe in excuse for Miss Ainsley said, "We can"t make too much allowance to-night for every one. Many strong men are utterly overcome and nauseated by these, shocks. No wonder women cannot face them."
"I think Miss Ainsley has borne up wonderfully," Clancy replied.
"Oh, yes, as well as the average. It"s a question of nerves with the majority."
Clancy sat down and looked with pity at the beautiful face and dishevelled hair. "Poor girl!" he thought, "she did her best by me. Indeed, I had scarcely thought her capable of such devotion. By all that"s honorable I"m bound to her now. Well, eventually I can give her a truer affection, for she has ceased to be merely a part of my ambitious scheme. By our own acts Mara and I are separated, and, however deep our grief may be, it must be hidden from all."
Thus he and Captain Bodine sat on either side of the pallet, each immersed in painful thought, oblivious of the strange scenes enacted all around them. They did not feel then that they could speak to each other.
The veteran was perplexed, and his proud spirit also labored under a deep sense of wrong. It was evident that he had been deceived by Mara, and that all along she had loved the man so near to him, loved him better than her own life. Why had she concealed the fact? Why had she been so cold and harsh toward Clancy himself until the awful events of the night and peril to life had overpowered her reserve and revealed her heart? He could think of no other explanation than that afforded by the unconscious girl over whom Clancy watched. He had heard of the young man"s devotion to Miss Ainsley, and, from what he had seen, believed that they were affianced. He was too just and large in his judgment to think Mara"s course toward him was due to pique and wounded pride, and he was not long in arriving at a very fair explanation of her motives and action. Keenly intelligent and mature in years he was beyond the period of pa.s.sionate and inconsiderate resentment. Moreover his love for the orphan girl was so true, and the memory of her father and mother so dear to him, that he was able to rise n.o.bly above mere self, and resolve to become the most loyal of friends, a protector against her very self. "Now I think of it," he mused, "she has never said she loved me, although she permitted me to think she did. Even when I declared my love she only said, "Life offers me nothing better than to be your wife." That no doubt was true as she meant it, for she then thought this man here was lost to her. She did not welcome my love when she first recognized it, but soon her spirit of self-sacrifice came in, and she reasoned that since she could not be happy in herself, she would make me happy. From the very first I believed that this spirit could lead her to deception for the sake of others, and I have not been sufficiently on my guard against it. Yet how could I suspect this Clancy, whom she so repelled and contemned, and who was devoting himself to another woman?
Perhaps she partially deceived herself as well as me. The affection probably struck root years since when she and Clancy were friends. He outgrew it; she has not, as she has learned to night, if not before. He went to her aid because he was friendly in spite of her apparent bitterness toward him, which perhaps he understood better than I. Possibly Mrs. Hunter may have broken their relations, for there is no doubt about her feelings. Well, time must unravel the snarl. It would now seem that he is devoted to this girl here, and she to him as far as she can be to any one. What he will think when he learns that she ran shrieking away and left him, while Mara, reckless of life itself, stood by him to the last, I cannot know. If he loves her he will forgive her, for no man can blame a woman for succ.u.mbing to the terror of this night. Possibly at some distant day Mara may still think that life offers her nothing better than to be my wife; but she shall be free, free as air, and know, too, that I know all."
Thus Bodine communed with himself after a habit learned long ago in the presence of danger.
Clancy also was confronted by possible results of his action, the fear of which enabled his cool, resolute nature to rise above all other fear. He resolved to go at once to Aun" Sheba, and caution her against speaking of the scenes in which she, with Mara, and himself had taken part.
CHAPTER XLIV
HOPE TURNED INTO DREAD
Clancy was guided by the voice of Aun" Sheba, the wailing of Sissy, and the groans and unearthly sounds to which Uncle Sheba was giving utterance.
The adjacent fire was so far subdued that only a red glow in the sky above marked the spot. The stars shone in calm, mocking serenity on the wide scene of human distress and fear. "Alas," he thought, "what atoms we are; and what an atom is this earth itself! It would seem that faith is the simplest, yet mightiest effort of the mind at such a time," and he paused till Aun" Sheba should be more free to listen to him.
Mr. Birdsall, with his youngest child in his arms, had been exhorting those of his people near him, but his words had been of little effect in quieting Sissy and Uncle Sheba. The latter had concluded that he would not wait till the coming winter before again ""speriencin "ligion," and his uncouth appeals to Heaven were but the abject expression of animal fear.
Aun" Sheba had lost her patience with both him and her daughter, and was expostulating vigorously. "I"se asham on you, Sissy," she said. "Wot good de "ligion you "fess do you, I"d like ter know? Ain"t Vilet in Hebin?
Ain"t you got de bes husban bawn? Ain"t de oder chil"n heah? Now ef you"se "ligion any good "tall, be quiet an tankful dat you bettah off dan hun"erds. Unc., you kin pray all you wants, but ef you specs de Lawd ter listen you"se got ter pray like a man an not like a hog dat wants his dinnah. You"se "sturbin everybody wuss dan you did wen you got sot on. I won hab it said my folks made a rumpus in dis time ob trouble. You"se got ter min me, Mr. Buggone, or I"se hab you took out de squar."
Uncle Sheba was never so far gone in his fears but that he shrunk from facing anything worse, and so he subsided into low inarticulate groans.
Sissy was not so tractable, for her weeping was largely nervous and hysterical. She had an affectionate emotional nature, but was far from being gifted with the strength of mind and character possessed by her mother and husband.
"Aun" Sheba," said Clancy kindly, "your daughter needs something to quiet her nerves. I will bring it to her." He soon returned with medicine from the doctor, and under its influence the bereaved mother became calmer and wept softly by her dead child.
Clancy drew Aun" Sheba a little apart so that others could not hear, even if any were disposed to listen at this time of intense preoccupation. "You have been a friend indeed to-night," he said. "I must ask another proof of your good-will. The earthquake has brought trouble enough, but I fear that Mara and I have brought greater trouble upon ourselves. Probably you"ve seen enough to explain what I mean."
"I"se seen a heap, Ma.r.s.e Clancy."
"Well, you are Mara"s old nurse. She loves and trusts you. She is engaged to Captain Bodine."
"She ain"t mar"ed to "im."
"She feels herself bound, and has said that if I was a true Southern gentleman I would not interfere. This is bad enough, but there"s worse still. I thought she was lost to me--you know about it, I reckon."
"Yes, I knows now. I was a blin ole fool an tink it was wuckin" so hard dat made her po"ly."
"Oh, we have both made such fatal mistakes! I, like a fool, when I believed she would never speak to me again, entangled myself also. Now, Aun" Sheba, what I wish is that you say nothing to any one of what you have seen and heard. We"ve got to do what"s honorable at every cost to ourselves."
"Dus wot"s hon"ble mean dat Missy Mara got ter mar"y Ma.r.s.e Bodine an you de limpsey-slimpsey one wot say you "serted her?"
"Nothing else seems to be left for us."
""Pears ter me, Ma.r.s.e Clancy, you an Missy Mara gittin orful muxed up in wot"s hon"ble. I"se only got wot folks calls hoss-sense, but it"s dead agin you bofe. Take you now. Fust you got ter tell de gal lies, den lies to her fader an de minister wot jines you, and de hull worl. Missy Mara ud hab ter lie like de debil, too, an you bofe go on lyin "miscuously.
Anyhow, you"se hab ter act out de lies ef you didn"t say "em. "Ud dat be hon"ble wen all de time you"se yearnin fer each oder?"
"Oh, Aun" Sheba, it"s hard enough without such words as yours!"
"Ob corse it"s hard. It orter be, fer it"s agin de Lawd an natur. Ma.r.s.e Clancy, took keer wot you do, an wot you let Missy Mara do. My "sperience teach me a heap. S"pose I doan" know de dif"ence "tween Unc. dar an a man like Kern? I was young an foolish once, an mar"ed Unc. kase he was good lookin den, an mo" kase he ax me. Well, I"se made de bes on it, an I"se gwine ter make de bes on it; but if de yearth crack right open heah, as like "nuff "twill "fo" mawnin, I"d jump right down in de crack "fo" I"d do it ober ag"in. You"se on de safe side ob de crack yit, so be keerful. I knows woman folks soon as I claps my eyes on dem. Miss Mara quar in her notions "bout de Norf--she was brung up to "em--but dere"s nuff woman in my honey lam" to make a tousan ob dis yere limpsey-slimpsey one."
Clancy clinched his hands in mental distress as he listened to the hard sense and unerring judgment of the sagacious old woman.
"I"m in terrible perplexity," he said, "for there is so much truth in your words. How can I escape the consequences of my own acts? Think how Miss Ainsley stood by me in my unconsciousness! When I revived--"
"Dar now, Ma.r.s.e Clancy, you"se been fooled. She stood by hersef. De fac am, she didn"t stan "tall, but run like a deer, hollerin fer all she"s wuth. Wen you swoonded, Missy Mara cotch you in her arms. I eben run away, an lef my honey lam" mysef, but I come back sudden, an dar she was a hol"n you head in her lap right uner a big bildin dat ud a squashed her. I drag you pa.s.s dat, an den Ma.r.s.e Bodine jes ordered me an Missy to go to de squar. He spoke stern an strong as if we his sogers. An Missy Mara look "im in de eyes an say, you--dat"s you, Ma.r.s.e Clancy--may be dead, or you may be dyin, an dat she can"t leab you an she won leab you. She got de grit ob true lub, an dere"ll neber be any runin away in her heart. Wot you an Ma.r.s.e Bodine gwine ter do "bout sich lub as dat? "Fo" de Lawd my honey lam" die ef you an Ma.r.s.e Bodine "sist on bein so orful hon"ble. She ain"t one dem kin" dat takes a husban like dey takes a breakfas kase its ready."
Clancy was so profoundly moved by what he heard that he turned away to hide his emotion. After a moment he said: "You have been true and faithful, Aun" Sheba. You won"t be sorry. Please do as I have asked." And he hastened away.
"Reckon I put a spoke in dat hon"ble bizness," Aun" Sheba soliloquized.
"Like "nuff I put another in. Doan cotch me hep"n along any sich foolishness. I gibs no promise, an I"se gwine ter make my honey lam" happy spite hersef." Then she took one of her grandchildren, and soothed it to sleep.
The slow hours dragged wearily on; the majority of the white people quieted down to patient, yet fearful waiting; crying children, one after another, dropped off to sleep; parents and friends watched over them and one another, conversing in low tones or praying silently for the Divine mercy, never before felt to be so essential. The negroes were more demonstrative, and their loud prayers and singing of hymns continued without abatement or hindrance. The expressions of some were so extravagant and uncouth as to grate harshly on all natures possessing any refinement; but when such men as Mr. Birdsall exhorted or prayed, there were but few among the whites who did not listen reverently, and in their hearts acknowledge the substantial truth of the words spoken and their need of the pet.i.tions offered.