Chapter 6.
SHANA WATTED PATIENTLY while the ground squirrel poked the very tip of its nose out of the crevice that hid its burrow. She would never have believed there was a ground squirrel burrow in in the crevice if Alara hadn"t pledged her that it was there; the crack was hardly wide enough for her to slip her flattened hand into it. But Alara had a.s.sured them it was there, and when Foster Mother told them something, Shana knew it was the truth. the crevice if Alara hadn"t pledged her that it was there; the crack was hardly wide enough for her to slip her flattened hand into it. But Alara had a.s.sured them it was there, and when Foster Mother told them something, Shana knew it was the truth.
Sun glared down on all of them from very near the zenith. The top of Shana"s head felt awfully hot, and sweat trickled down the back of her neck. Shana would have liked to bring the squirrel out faster, but the minds of tiny rodents like the squirrel were too small and simple for her to influence, or even hear. And besides, Shana had the feeling that Foster Mother would not have approved if she"d used her powers to bring the squirrel out into the open before it was ready. They were supposed to be learning something from the squirrel-and figuring out what what it was they were supposed to be learning was as much a part of the lesson as the learning itself. it was they were supposed to be learning was as much a part of the lesson as the learning itself.
A bit more of the squirrel"s nose eased into the open air. Shana sat absolutely still, trying not to breathe. Whiskers twitched, and the head emerged as far as the eyes. There wasn"t even a hint of breeze to bring their scent to him, so even though he was obviously timid, he had nothing to alarm him.
The squirrel peered around suspiciously. His whiskers twitched again as he eyed Shana and Keman, clearly mistrusting their presence despite their immobility.
More of the head emerged, hair by hair-then, suddenly, the ground squirrel was not only entirely out of his hole, but several arm-lengths away from the entrance to the burrow. Shana blinked in surprise; she hadn"t even seen him begin to move. One moment he had been inside the crevice, all except for his head-the next, he"d been a blur of motion that had ended under the sajus-bush upwind of Keman.
She could hardly see him there, in the dappled and broken shade of the bush; his coloration of spots and lines on a fawn-brown background hid him perfectly. He looked just like a brown rock spattered with sunlight and shadow. Now I know why I never see them until they jump out from underfoot Now I know why I never see them until they jump out from underfoot , she thought wonderingly. I , she thought wonderingly. I thought those stripes would make him easy to see thought those stripes would make him easy to see . .
And it was obvious now why she could never catch one; as quickly as this squirrel had moved, from one spot of cover into another, only a very canny hunter would be able to intercept him.
The squirrel remained under the bush, completely motionless, until their continued immobility convinced him that they were no threat. Only then did he inch his way out into the sunlight and investigate the pile of pine nuts they"d put out as bait.
His stubby little tail went straight up as he sniffed and realized what bounty he had just found. He began stuffing them into his mouth as fast as his little paws could grab them, looking for all the world like Myre with a choice catch of fish. They had put out far more nuts than he could possibly carry; his cheek pouches were bulging so far that Shana could make out the individual nuts, and still he kept trying to fit one more in.
She couldn"t help it; she giggled. And faster than a bolt of lightning, he was streaking across the yellow-brown, sunbaked earth, heading for the safety of his burrow. He actually ran over Keman"s foot to get there, something he probably wouldn"t have done if Shana hadn"t frightened him.
:That will do, children,: Alara said clearly in Shana"s mind. Shana leapt to her feet, glad to be moving again after her forced immobility. She truly hated having to sit still, even for lessons.
"I bet I beat you!" she shouted to her foster brother, and launched herself across the sand.
She raced Keman back to the lair, trying to use the advantages of her small size and speed to compensate for the fact that he could leap over obstacles she had to detour around. This time she beat him, though not by much; only the fact that she was able to squeeze between two boulders that he had to climb over gave her the extra edge she needed to defeat him.
Foster Mother was waiting for them in the shade of the stone gazebo. The lacy shadows cast by the intricate stonework looked very pretty on Alara"s shining scales. Shana was glad Foster Mother had made the gazebo big enough for them all to sit in. She slid onto her own little bench. It had been fun watching her use magic to work the stone. Shana hoped she could do stone-shaping that pretty when she was bigger. She"d hate to be like Ahshlea; all he could make were ugly flat blocks. Ugh. No wonder he lives on a ledge Ugh. No wonder he lives on a ledge . .
Keman flopped down onto the cool floor beside her, panting. She nudged him with her foot, and he mock-snapped at it, grinning, before turning his attention to his mother.
"So," Alara said gravely, as she fixed her enormous golden eyes on Shana until the girl stopped squirming in her seat. "What was it that you saw?"
"The squirrel was very careful," Shana replied promptly. "He didn"t come out until he was absolutely sure he was safe."
"Yes," Alara said, nodding. "And what did he do to make sure he was safe?"
"He checked for scent first," Keman answered, the end of his tail twitching a little. "Even when he was down in the burrow, he was checking for scent. He didn"t even start to look around until after he thought there was nothing close to him."
"Then he stuck just his head out and looked all around," Shana continued. "Anything that was new he sat and watched to see if it was going to move at all. That was us; we didn"t move, so he must have figured we weren"t going to." She thought for a moment, watching the bright spots of sunlight on the white stone of the gazebo making negative-lace patterns. "Probably a hunter would have gotten tired of waiting and taken a chance on jumping on him once he got his whole head out of the burrow."
"But if we had had moved, he could have been right down the burrow before we could blink," Keman finished, lifting his head from his foreclaws. moved, he could have been right down the burrow before we could blink," Keman finished, lifting his head from his foreclaws.
"Do you see why he is so hard to catch?" Alara asked. "Even though he is not a terribly intelligent beast?"
Keman nodded; Shana pursed her lips in thought.
"He"s not very smart," she said at last, "but he"s really careful and he"s fast. That makes up for smart, I guess."
"It can," Alara acknowledged. "And the adult ground squirrel you"ve seen is a survivor-for every adult, there are ten little ones who never learned to be careful enough and became prey for other animals. You should both watch this particular squirrel, and see how he uses his speed and agility to protect himself-and try to think of ways in which his behavior could become a trap. Keman, you must learn how to imitate that behavior and avoid the traps; Shana, you must learn how he thinks so that you will be able to sense his tiny thoughts and become one with him."
This time both Keman and Shana nodded. In order to learn to hear the squirrel"s mind, she was going to have to learn to think like him. She hadn"t known that.
"Now, you"ve had your lessons in languages, and you"ve had your lesson with the ground squirrel," Alara said, smiling indulgently on both of them. "Can either of you think of any questions for me, before I go scry for storms?"
Shana recalled, belatedly, the elven children"s book she was supposed to have read. "Why aren"t there any human books?" Shana asked. "I know as much human as elven, so why aren"t there any books?"
A shadow pa.s.sed behind her foster mother"s eyes. "It is said that the elven lords did not want their slaves to learn to read or write," Alara told her, her smile fading. "They felt that if their slaves could only pa.s.s things on by word of mouth, there was less chance of rebellion. So there are no books written in the human tongue, and in fact, it is also said that tongue died out. Most humans spoke a mixture of elven and human, and many spoke only pure elven."
"Are there books from the Kin?" Keman wanted to know. "I"ve seen the carvings, but do we have real books?"
"Yes," Alara told him. "A few, and all handwritten, done when the writers were in other forms. And most of them were written by shamans. I"ll show you the written language later, when you"ve mastered written elven."
Spoken human, elven-human, elven and Kin. Shana sighed. It seemed like an awful lot to learn. But if she was going to go out into the world like Foster Mother did, she"d need to know all of them. Keman was learning all of them too, and he was older than she was. She wondered what a human looked like, or an elven lord-were they like the Kin, only smaller, or maybe different colored?
She looked up from her musing to see that Alara was watching her thoughtfully. With a start of guilt, she wondered if Alara knew she hadn"t done her reading lesson yet. Shana nodded, trying to hide her guilt. I"d better think of an excuse before she asks me I"d better think of an excuse before she asks me ... ...
But Alara did not ask if Shana had finished her lessons. Instead, she said, "That will be all for today. We"ll concentrate more on languages tomorrow. But in the meantime, both of you study the little ground squirrel, and bring what you learn to me tonight after dinner."
Shana escaped the confines of the gazebo with a feeling of reprieve.
Alara watched her foster daughter scamper away across the hard-baked ground and experienced mingled emotions: pride, and guilt. The child grew more attractive with every pa.s.sing day-a lithe, lean girt, surefooted and athletic, a remarkable combination of frailty and toughness. Her fine-textured skin had darkened to a warm brown from constant exposure to the sun, and her bright green eyes sparkled with humor more often than not. From her elven father, she inherited delicate bones and a beautifully sculpted face with high cheekbones and a determined chin. From her mother, she took her dark, deep-auburn hair that shone in the sun like old copper. Her little tunics of patchwork dragon-skin gleamed against her sun-gilded limbs as if she wore a corselette of enameled metalwork.
She had become indispensable to Alara, and even those of the Kin most opposed to her presence agreed grudgingly that she was both attractive and useful. With her small size and clever hands, there were many things she could do that the Kin could not, unless they shifted-and fully half of the Kin in this Lair preferred not to shift to anything as small as a human child.
That accounted for the pride.
Though there were those Shana would rather not have done anything anything for, Alara could usually convince her to do so to keep the peace. She was stubborn, but not stupid. She knew very well that there were still those of the Kin who felt she had no place here-though she did not know why. for, Alara could usually convince her to do so to keep the peace. She was stubborn, but not stupid. She knew very well that there were still those of the Kin who felt she had no place here-though she did not know why.
And that accounted for the guilt.
Alara knew she should tell the child... and she couldn"t bring herself to. But if she didn"t, Shana was going to find out on her own. And then what was Alara going to tell her?
There was no doubt in Alara"s mind that the child was as bright as any of the Kin. If Shana had been born a dragon, Alara would have had no hesitation in officially training the girl as a shaman. As things stood, however, all Alara could do was to teach her fosterling alongside Keman, and see where Shana"s inclinations led her. One thing was certain; the child"s mental abilities were already impressive. And when Shana came into her full halfblood powers at p.u.b.erty, Alara was not prepared to wager much on any individual coming against her.
Sometimes Alara wished she could trade Shana for Myre. This was one of those times, she thought, as she slid out of the gazebo and into the glaring sunlight, her belly-scales rasping a little on the stone steps. Alara was so exasperated with her second offspring that she hardly knew what to do with the child. Myre was lazy, self-centered-nothing moved her but her own interests. She lied constantly, and was surprised when her mother caught her. But worst of all, she was stupid. She did things without thinking. Myre should have been born a human; she"d have made a perfect concubine. And Shana should have been born into the Kin.
And that only brought Alara full circle back to her original worry, and the shadow of the mountain above her seemed to fall on her thoughts as well as her body. How was she to tell Shana that the girl wasn"t a dragon?
Alara paused at the foot of the mountain behind her gazebo, and made certain the scrying-crystal in the pouch- around her neck was secure. She tucked her wings in close to her body, took just enough time to lengthen and strengthen her claws, and began the climb, setting her claws into the first of hundreds of tiny cracks she would use to climb to the top.
It was a trek she had made any number of times in the past. Some of the shamans preferred to scry deep in the hearts of their lairs, surrounded by countless crystals, and buried in the silence of the caves. But Alara found it easier to read the paths of the air as high up in the sky as possible, with the wind on her skin and the sun warming her and filling her with energy.
She moved up the rocky side of the mountain as easily as one of Keman"s lizards climbing a wall. And why not? She had learned to climb like this by studying them. Like the lizards, she could climb near-vertical surfaces, so long as there were cracks and crevices she could wedge her claws into.
Today she had chosen to climb, rather than fly, because climbing left her free to think.
There was plenty of time to tell the child that she was not of the Kin. If Alara waited, Shana wouldn"t be as devastated by the idea-her training in meditation would make the bad news easier to bear. She might even be able to be philosophical about it. After all, she was the child of Alara"s heart, though not her body. And Alara had told the girl that often enough.
But she would make such a good shaman...
As good as Keman. He He would be a shaman, even if his sister wouldn"t. She came out of her thoughts long enough to look about and judge how far she had to go. She was about halfway up the side of the peak, and here the climbing slowed, as she sought toeholds in smoother rock. How strange it was that the child Alara meditated for had no gift for shamanism, the child she bore in her youth was gifted, but not outstandingly so, and the child that was not of the Kin at all would be a fit apprentice for Father Dragon himself if only she were of draconic blood and breeding. Alara sighed. Well, it was said that no learning is ever wasted. There was no point in permitting Shana to run about like a wild thing, one of Keman"s pets, however much the others would prefer that Alara do so. It would be a crime to waste so fine a mind as hers. would be a shaman, even if his sister wouldn"t. She came out of her thoughts long enough to look about and judge how far she had to go. She was about halfway up the side of the peak, and here the climbing slowed, as she sought toeholds in smoother rock. How strange it was that the child Alara meditated for had no gift for shamanism, the child she bore in her youth was gifted, but not outstandingly so, and the child that was not of the Kin at all would be a fit apprentice for Father Dragon himself if only she were of draconic blood and breeding. Alara sighed. Well, it was said that no learning is ever wasted. There was no point in permitting Shana to run about like a wild thing, one of Keman"s pets, however much the others would prefer that Alara do so. It would be a crime to waste so fine a mind as hers.
She put all other thoughts aside for the moment, as she reached the top, hooked her claws over the final outcropping, and pulled herself up onto the little rock k.n.o.b that crowned the peak. She spread her wings to catch the sun, grateful for the warmth and energy, for the wind whipping around her had a cold bite to it, and there was nothing up here to shelter her from its force.
Far below her lay the Lair, the largest of its buildings reduced to the size of Shana"s toys. All about her, rocky crags lifted golden-brown spires to the blue sky, seeming to move as cloud shadows raced across their creviced and ridged faces.
Alara loved the solitude she found up here, as well as the sense of absolute freedom. It was easy for her to forget herself, her troubles, and all her petty vexations, and open herself to the wider world.
She could wait to tell Shana, she decided, taking her crystal from its pouch and laying it where it would best catch and hold the sunlight. A few more days or even months wouldn"t matter. She could wait until Shana was older, and could understand.
Shana thought briefly of the book that awaited her attention back in her cavelet in the lair-but the sun was so bright, and the wind so fresh- She"d read it later, when it was too hot to play, she promised her guilty conscience. She ran off after Keman, who had gone off down the canyon towards the trail leading away from the Lair.
Keman was waiting for her at the entrance to a path that led up into a dry wash they often used to play hide-and-seek in. She scrambled over a boulder, skinned her knee, and ignored it, as she hurried to catch up to him.
But today he was not in the mood to play.
"I want to show you something," he said, his tail twitching as it often did when he was excited or nervous about something. He looked back over his shoulder at her; his enormous blue-green eyes blinked at her anxiously. "You know Mother took me off by myself yesterday-well, she showed me how to shift. Really Really shift, and not just change the shape of my claws or something. Size-shift shift, and not just change the shape of my claws or something. Size-shift and and shape-shift." shape-shift."
"I thought so," Shana said in excitement and satisfaction, skipping along beside him. "Everybody your age is learning. Are you any good at it? Rovylern is pretty awful, he was showing off while you were gone and he got all muddled, he ended up as sort of half three-horn and half lurcher, and he couldn"t shift down at all. He looked pretty stupid. It took him forever to get himself sorted out. I laughed so hard my sides hurt."
"He didn"t know you were watching, did he?" Keman asked, his voice betraying apprehension. His eyes darkened. "He doesn"t like me and he hates you, and if he thought you saw him mess up like that he"d be awfully mad. Especially if he knew you were laughing at him.""
"He didn"t see me," Shana hastened to a.s.sure him, pushing her hair out of her eyes. "I was hiding up in the rocks, I thought I"d keep an eye on him and Myre while you were gone, in case they decided to play a trick on you or something."
"Oh, good." Keman sighed. "Well, anyway, you"re ahead of Myre in everything else. I thought that now I know how to shift properly, I can probably show you how so you can shift back to Kin. Then Myre won"t be able to corner you anymore. Here, this is quiet enough." He indicated a shadowy little cul-de-sac with his nose, and turned around to face Shana, his expression hopeful.
"Really?" Shana stopped dead in her tracks, her heart pounding with sudden excitement. "Do you really think you can teach me? Oh, Fire and Rain! If I could shift, I wouldn"t have to hide from the others anymore, either! Oh Keman!"
She threw her arms around his neck, unable to say anything else for sheer excitement.
"I"ll bet I can teach you to spark, too," Keman said with gleeful satisfaction, his ears and spinal crest rising and quivering. "Then you can give Myre a good one, right where she deserves it."
"I bet I can too." Shana let go of her foster brother and found herself a rock to perch on. "All right," she said, "I"m ready. Show me!"
"Well, the first thing is just shape-shifting. You find that place Mother showed us, right in your middle where all the energy comes from." He closed his eyes for a moment, tightly, concentrating. "Then, when you"ve got it, you think of what you want to shift to, and you squeeze hard on the place, then let it go all of a sudden-like this-"
As Shana watched, Keman seemed to ripple, and then to blur, as if she were seeing him from underwater. It made her a little sick to watch, and she closed her eyes for a moment.
When she opened them again, there was a lurcher in Keman"s place, but a lurcher with blue-green, scaled skin instead of gray, leathery hide. There was a second ripple, this time as if he were in the middle of a patch of heat-haze-and then he was properly gray and leathery.
Shana jumped to her feet and applauded enthusiastically.
: I can"t talk right in this shape I can"t talk right in this shape,: Keman complained in her mind. :I guess I"ll have to talk to you this way until I change back. It makes you tired, you know, I won"t be able to shift back for a little bit. It"s kind of like running a race; you can"t just jump up and run another one right away :I guess I"ll have to talk to you this way until I change back. It makes you tired, you know, I won"t be able to shift back for a little bit. It"s kind of like running a race; you can"t just jump up and run another one right away .: .: "That"s all right," Shana said quickly. "I don"t mind talking to you that way. Now what was it I do first? Find the energy center?"
.-Right. Just like Mother showed us both when we were learning about thought-exchanging. Remember?: "I think so," Shana said. "All right, I find that place, and think of the animal I want to be, and squeeze-"
"You squeeze what?"
Shana and Keman both jumped; Keman blurred again, and was back to his own shape by the time his younger sister Myrenateli came around the boulder that hid them from the main trail. Her pale green and yellow coloration was unmistakable; there wasn"t another dragonet of the Kin in the entire Lair with those colors. "You squeeze what?" she asked again, petulantly, her yellow-green eyes narrowed unpleasantly with suspicion.
"Nothing," Keman said quickly, before Shana could think of anything to tell the younger dragon. "Nothing, Myre. We"re just playing a game."
Shana winced. Fire and Rain, that"s the worst thing to tell her. Now she"ll be certain we"re hiding something Fire and Rain, that"s the worst thing to tell her. Now she"ll be certain we"re hiding something . .
"If it"s nothing, how can you be playing it?" Myre demanded. "I want to play, too! Mother said you had to play with me! Mother said you leave me out of everything!"
Shana was fairly certain her foster mother hadn"t said anything of the sort, but Keman looked guilty. She decided she"d better intervene before he said something stupid and they were stuck with Myre for the rest of the afternoon.
"It"s a-a special exercise Mother showed us," Shana improvised. If there"s one thing Myre hates, it"s exercise If there"s one thing Myre hates, it"s exercise . "You put your hands together like this, then squeeze-" . "You put your hands together like this, then squeeze-"
She put her hands palm-to-palm at about chest-level, and pushed as hard as she could, to demonstrate.
"It"s supposed to make your arms really strong," Keman said glibly, following Shana"s lead. Shana felt a burst of thankfulness towards Foster Mother, who had thought up these particular exercises and drilled Shana in them. "It keeps you from hurting yourself exercising because you"re only working against yourself, see?"
Myre watched them both squeezing and letting go, a crease of puzzlement forming along her nose as she wrinkled it.
"I thought you said you were playing a game," she complained. "That doesn"t look like any kind of fun to me. I think you"re both making a loon out of me!"
"Well, it is kind of a game," Shana said. "Only it isn"t, you know? Why would we want to make a loon out of you, anyway?"
You take care of that quite well on your own, you pain, she thought spitefully.
Myre shook her head, and her spinal crest flattened. "No, I don"t see, and I think it"s stupid," she snorted. "What"s it supposed to be for? What do you need to have your arms strong for, anyway?"
To hit you back when you tease me, Shana thought, but wisely kept her mouth shut.
"So-uh-we can c-c-climb the mountain with Mother," Keman stammered, obviously trying to think of something quickly. Myre did not look convinced.
"Youdon"t need to climb to get up the mountain," Myre sneered. "You can fly. This little rat is the only one that has to climb. And I don"t know why Mother wants you you on the mountain, anyway, either of you. on the mountain, anyway, either of you. I"m I"m the one that"s supposed to be a shaman. I"m the one with the right name. And I never get to go anywhere, I never get to do anything, Mother just likes you best because you"re older. You get everything you want just because you"re her favorite!" the one that"s supposed to be a shaman. I"m the one with the right name. And I never get to go anywhere, I never get to do anything, Mother just likes you best because you"re older. You get everything you want just because you"re her favorite!"
"I do not!" Keman replied, stunned at this injustice. "I never-"
"Then how come you you get to go on the mountain and I don"t?" get to go on the mountain and I don"t?"
"Because I"m old enough-" Keman began, when Myre interrupted him with a cry of thwarted triumph, bouncing on all four claws, her spinal crest as flat as it could go.
"See! See! I told you so! You get everything you want, just because you"re older! You even get to have pets and I don"t!"
"You could have pets if you wanted them-" Keman began unwisely. And as Shana had feared from the beginning, Myre seized on his words-and on her her . .
"Good! I want her!" her!" The dragonet grabbed Shana by the arm and pulled at her, with a great deal of unnecessary roughness, making her stumble and land sprawling at Myre"s feet, bruising both hands and reskinning her knee. The dragonet grabbed Shana by the arm and pulled at her, with a great deal of unnecessary roughness, making her stumble and land sprawling at Myre"s feet, bruising both hands and reskinning her knee.
"Myre!" Keman snapped, shoving the dragonet away. "You leave her alone! Shana is not not a pet!" a pet!"
"Is too!" Myre sneered, s.n.a.t.c.hing at Shana, who tried to crawl out of the way of her claws. "And I want her!"