Widowed, imprisoned, lost to his own life, Charlie Lumschbogen did not do well in prison. He killed a cellmate, he crippled a guard, he a.s.saulted a turnkey. He was rea.s.signed without trial, in this nation in balance, to the maximum security VR wing on the Rock. Life, without possibility of parole, sharing s.p.a.ce with other dead sticks of furniture.
"They don"t seem particularly unhappy, Warden."
"Well, Senator, that"s only because they"re in virtual reality. There...that one...he just twitched, did you see that?"
"No, I"m afraid I missed it. What is he in for?"
"Ran a child p.o.r.nography ring in Utah. Specialized in snuff films. Quite the monster."
"I see he"s in there with an art deco credenza."
"Yes, Maples of London. Very nice piece; I"d say about 1934. Once the Department allocates the funds for a proper estate here on the grounds, I"ll be moving most of these pieces to proper sites."
"Um. Yes, of course. Well, that pretty much depends on how my report turns out, whether or not the Speaker will recognize the bill."
"Well, I"m certainly hoping you"ll think I"ve done a good job here. It"s not easy, you know. No staff, just me and the machines, and a technician or two."
"And you say every one of these men and women is suffering a worse sentence than the old style...where they sat in cells or worked on chain gangs or made license plates?"
"Absolutely, Senator. And may I say, apropos of nothing but my admiration, I think your new hairdo is infinitely more appealing than the way you wore it last time you visited. Makes you look taller."
"If you don"t mind, Warden..."
"Oh, yes, sorry. Well, they just float there till they die, but it"s in no way "cruel and unusual punishment" because we do absolutely nothing to them. No corporal punishment, no denial of the basics to sustain life. We just leave them locked in their own heads, cortically tapped to relive one scene from their past, over and over."
"And how is it, again, that you do that...?"
"The technicians call it a moebius memory. Loop thalamic patterning. When they first come in we send them through cerebral indexing, drain out everything they remember, and most of what they don"t; and then we codify, integrate, select the one moment from their past that most frightens or horrifies or saddens them. Then, boom, into a null-g cubicle, with a proleptic copula imbedded in their gliomas. It"s all like a dream. A very very bad dream that goes on forever. Punishment to fit the crime."
"We are a nation in balance."
"Kindlier. Gentler. More humane. But still, in need of that large, new house, here on the grounds."
"We"ll see, Warden."
Charlie Lunchbucket loved his mother. More than anyone. She had sat beside him night and day through the whooping cough. She made him cinnamon toast for breakfast. She defended him when the third grade teacher said he was incorrigible. He loved his mother. I They had been driving to Ashtabula. The truck had been hauling lumber, and as it pa.s.sed them, there on the narrow back country road along the river, the back end of the flatbed had swung out, and his mother had swerved to avoid getting sideswiped.
The car had run off the road, over the berm, down the steep embankment, through the brittle woods, and plunged into the river. But only the front end had gone in. Not enough to bring water into the car. Charlie had come to, and it was dark. The roof of the car had collapsed when the trunk of the shattered tree had fallen on them. He tried to move, and could not. He called out for his mother. "Mommy," he called. But there was no answer. He could not move. Something heavy lay across him, and he was trapped in the corner of the door and the seat.
All that night he lay there, crying, calling for his mother, but she was gone. And when daylight came, he woke, thirsty and hungry and cold and frightened, and as he opened his eyes he was staring into the dead face of his mother, the steering wheel having crushed her chest. She was lying across him, pinning him. He could not move, and he could not look away. He stared into the open eyes and blackened mouth of his mother.
They found the car four days later. It had been August.
It had been stifling. The windows had been rolled up. But the flies had gotten in. They had laid their eggs. And other things had come. When they found the car, Charlie Lunchbucket was out of his head. Eight years old. Worst time of his life.
Floating in a clean white-tiled room, dark and cool. The memory plays and replays and plays yet again, without end, without release. They get what they deserve. We are a nation of laws. We are a compa.s.sionate people. We have abolished capital punishment. No one hears, but occasionally the fat bald dying thing in the null-g cubicle whispers mommy and, once, in a year some while ago, there was a tear that dried almost immediately. We are a nation in balance.
IIIWORLDSOF LOVE.
"Friends are those into whose souls you"ve looked, and therein glimpsed a oneness with yourself. They are a part of you, and you a part of them. They own a piece of you."
The Harlan Ellison Hornbook, Installment #21, Los Angeles Free Press, 1973 In the preceding stories, it seemed inevitable, even natural, to find death a recurrent image. Perhaps its absence would have seemed out of place. And so, in these stories of love, we can expect romanticism, sentimentality, pa.s.sion and all happiness, right?
Wrong. We find death, despair, disappointment.
But these are stories about love. Really.
Love and death, and love and suffering-combinations that have fascinated the world"s greatest writers, giving us a legacy of reality and fantasy that is the essence of the human spirit. As a balm, love may ease the pain of death or, as some have speculated, even transcend it. It can also metamorphose into a twisted shadow of itself-possessive, consuming and dangerous. More than any other human emotion, love can reveal the purity of the human heart or rip that very heart to pieces in its desperation for fulfillment.
Harlan has perhaps never come closer to the purity of the heart than with "In Lonely Lands" (1959). It is all the more remarkable to find that to do this he has singled out the darkness of the Martian night and the remoteness of an alien soul. Stranger still, he has chosen not a scene of s.e.xual longing or pa.s.sion but a moment in which we all know, instinctively, we travel with only what we carry in our heart. If love can transcend the limitations of our physicality, I can imagine no more simple or loving method than we find here.
In "The Time of the Eye" (1959), this purity is twisted. What can be n.o.bly sought and n.o.bly motivated can also be misplaced, even caricatured. Love-so full of pa.s.sion and driving obsession-can prevent us from identifying those other forms that pa.s.sion and obsession can take, the drives that mimic love. This story of a man suddenly given purpose, protective, responding to forms, reminds us how these chameleon masks of love conceal all kinds of ugliness, fueled by loneliness, fed by need. When love ceases to be pure and n.o.ble, what does it do with all that pa.s.sion and force? And what residue does it leave behind?
With this great attention to love, it is to be expected that Harlan would eventually turn to the eternal question: What Is True Love? "Grail" (1981) looks determinedly for the answer, but the search is certainly an odd one, moving as it does through traps of death, deception, theft and horrors that are, really, just too awful to be described. Yet for all its grisliness, this story is vitally concerned with what a human being may be willing to do to discover what love is.
"We must think new thoughts; we must love as we have never even suspected we can love; and if there is honor to violence, we must get it on at once, have done with it, try to live with our guilt for having so done, and move on."
"The Waves in Rio," Introduction to THE BEAST THAT SHOUTED LOVE AT THE HEART OF THE WORLD, Avon, 1969 In Lonely Lands
He clasps the crag with crooked hands;Close to the sun in lonely lands,Ring"d with the azure world he stands.
ALFRED, LORD TENNYSON.
Pederson knew night was falling over Syrtis Major; blind, still he knew the Martian night had arrived; the harp crickets had come out. The halo of sun"s warmth that had kept him golden through the long day had dissipated, and he could feel the chill of the darkness now. Despite his blindness there was an appreciable changing in the shadows that lived where once, long ago, there had been sight.
"Pretrie," he called into the hush, and the answering echoes from the moon valleys answered and answered, Pretrie, Pretrie, Pretrie, down and down, almost to the foot of the small mountain.
"I"m here, Pederson old man. What do you want of me?"
Pederson relaxed in the pneumorack. He had been tense for some time, waiting. Now he relaxed. "Have you been to the temple?"
"I was there. I prayed for many turnings, through three colors."
It had been many years since Pederson had seen colors. But he knew the Martian"s religion was strong and stable because of colors. " And what did the blessed Jilka foretell, Pretrie?"
"Tomorrow will be cupped in the memory of today. And other things." The silken overtones of the alien"s voice were soothing. Though Pederson had never seen the tall, utterly ancient Jilkite, he had pa.s.sed his arthritic, spatulate fingers over the alien"s hairless, teardrop head, had seen by feeling the deep round sockets where eyes glowed, the pug nose, the thin, lipless gash that was mouth. Pederson knew this face as he knew his own, with its wrinkles and sags and protuberances. He knew the Jilkite was so old no man could estimate it in Earth years.
"Do you hear the Gray Man coming yet?"
Pretrie sighed, a lung-deep sigh, and Pederson could hear the inevitable crackling of bones as the alien hunkered down beside the old man"s pneumorack.
"He comes but slowly, old man. But he comes. Have patience."
"Patience," Pederson chuckled ruminatively. "I got that, Pretrie. I got that and that"s about all. I used to have time, too, but now that"s about gone. You say he"s coming?"
"Coming, old man. Time. Just time."
"How are the blue shadows, Pretrie?"
"Thick as fur in the moon valleys, old man. Night is coming."
"Are the moons out?"
There was a breathing through wide nostrils-ritualistically slit nostrils-and the alien replied, "None yet this night. Tayseff and Teei are below the horizon. It grows dark swiftly. Perhaps this night, old man."
"Perhaps," Pederson agreed.
"Have patience."
Pederson had not always had patience. As a young man, the blood warm in him, he had fought with his Presby-Baptist father, and taken to s.p.a.ce. He had not believed in Heaven, h.e.l.l, and the accompanying rigors of the All-Church. Not then. Later, but not then.
To s.p.a.ce he had gone, and the years had been good to him. He had aged slowly, healthily, as men do in the dark places between dirt. Yet he had seen the death, and the men who had died believing, the men who had died not believing. And with time had come the realization that he was alone, and that some day, one day, the Gray Man would come for him.
He was always alone, and in his loneliness, when the time came that he could no longer tool the great ships through the star-s.p.a.ces, he went away.
He went away, searching for a home, and finally came full-circle to the first world he had known; came home to Mars, where he had been young, where his dreams had been born; Mars, for home is always where a man has been young and happy. Came home where the days were warm and the nights were mild. Came home where men had pa.s.sed but somehow, miraculously, had not sunk their steel and concrete roots. Came home to a home that had changed not at all since he"d been young. And it was time. For blindness had found him, and the slowness that forewarned him of the Gray Man"s visit. Blindness from too many gla.s.ses of vik and Scotch, from too much hard radiation, from too many years of squinting into the vastness. Blind, and unable to earn his keep.
So alone, he had come home; as the bird finds the tree, as the winter-starved deer finds the last bit of bark, as the river finds the sea. He had come there to wait for the Gray Man, and it was there that the Jilkite Pretrie had found him.
They sat together, silently, on the porch with many things unsaid, yet pa.s.sing between them.
"Pretrie?"
"Old man."
"I never asked you what you get out of this. I mean-"
Pretrie reached and the sound of his claw tapping the formica tabletop came to Pederson. Then the alien was pressing a bulb of water-diluted vik into his hand. "I know what you mean, old man. I have been with you close on two harvestings. I am here. Does that not satisfy you?"
Two harvestings. Equivalent to four years Earth-time, Pederson knew. The Jilkite had come out of the dawn one day, and stayed to serve the old blind man. Pederson had never questioned it. One day he was struggling with the coffee pot (he dearly loved old-fashion brewed coffee and scorned the use of the coffee briquettes) and the heat controls on the hutch...the next he had an undemanding, unselfish manservant who catered with dignity and regard to his every desire. It had been a companionable relationship; he had made no great demands on Pretrie, and the alien had asked nothing in return.
He was in no position to wonder or question.
Though he could hear Pretrie"s brothers in the chest-high floss brakes at harvesting time, still the Jilkite never wandered far from the hutch.
Now, it was nearing its end.
"It has been easier with you. I-uh-thanks, Pretrie," the old man felt the need to say it clearly, without embroidery.
A soft grunt of acknowledgment. "I thank you for allowing me to remain with you, old man, Pederson," the Jilkite answered softly.
A spot of cool touched Pederson"s cheek. At first he thought it was rain, but no more came, and he asked, "What was that?"
The Jilkite shifted-with what Pederson took to be discomfort-and answered, " A custom of my race."
"What?" Pederson persisted.
"A tear, old man. A tear from my eye to your body."
"Hey, look..." he began, trying to convey his feelings, and realizing look was the wrong word. He stumbled on, an emotion coming to him he had long thought dead inside himself. "You don"t have to be-uh-you know, sad, Pretrie. I"ve lived a good life. The Gray Man doesn"t scare me." His voice was brave, but it cracked with the age in the cords.
"My race does not know sadness, Pederson. We know grat.i.tude and companionship and beauty. But not sadness. That is a serious lack, so you have told me, but we do not yearn after the dark and the lost. My tear is a thank you for your kindness."
"Kindness?"
"For allowing me to remain with you."
The old man subsided then, waiting. He did not understand. But the alien had found him, and the presence of Pretrie had made things easier for him in these last years. He was grateful, and wise enough to remain silent.
They sat there thinking their own thoughts, and Pederson"s mind winnowed the wheat of incidents from the chaff of life spent.
He recalled the days alone in the great ships, and how he had at first laughed to think of his father"s religion, his father"s words about loneliness: "No man walks the road without companionship, Will," his father had said. He had laughed, declaring he was a loner, but now, with the unnamable warmth and presence of the alien here beside him, he knew the truth.
His father had been correct.
It was good to have a friend. Especially when the Gray Man was coming. Strange how he knew it with such calm certainty, but that was the way of it. He knew, and he waited placidly.
After a while, the chill came down off the hills, and Pretrie brought out the treated shawl. He laid it about the old man"s thin shoulders, where it clung with warmth, and hunkered down on his triple-jointed legs once more.
"I don"t know, Pretrie," Pederson ruminated, later.
There was no answer. There had been no question.
"I just don"t know. Was it worth it all? The time as.p.a.ce, the men I"ve known, the lonely ones who died and the dying ones who were never lonely."
"All peoples know that ache, old man," Pretrie philosophized. He drew a deep breath.
"I never thought I needed anyone. I"ve learned better, Pretrie."
"One never knows." Pederson had taught the alien little; Pretrie had come to him speaking English. It had been one more puzzling thing about the Jilkite, but again Pederson had not questioned it. There had been many s.p.a.cers and missionaries on Mars.
"Everybody needs somebody," Pederson went on.
"You will never know," Pederson agreed in emphasis. Then added, "Perhaps you will."
Then the alien stiffened, his claw upon the old man"s arm. "He comes, Pederson old man."
A thrill of expectancy, and a shiver of near-fright came with it. Pederson"s gray head lifted, and despite the warmth of the shawl he felt cold. So near now. "He"s coming?"
"He is here."
They both sensed it, for Pederson could feel the awareness in the Jilkite beside him; he had grown sensitive to the alien"s moods, even as the other had plumbed his own. "The Gray Man." Pederson spoke the words softly on the night air, and the moon valleys did not respond.