"I don"t know why you should alter your plans," she said quietly.
Lady Kelsey looked at her compa.s.sionately, but did not insist. She felt somehow that Lucy was of different clay from herself, and for all her exquisite gentleness, her equanimity and pleasant temper, she had never been able to get entirely at close quarters with her. She would have given much to see Lucy give way openly to her grief; and her arms would have been open to receive her, if her niece had only flung herself simply into them. But Lucy"s spirit was broken. With the extreme reserve that was part of her nature, she put all her strength into the effort to behave in the world with decency; and dreading any attempt at commiseration, she forced herself to be no less cheerful than usual. The strain was hardly tolerable. She had set all her hopes of happiness upon Alec, and he had failed her. She thought more of her brother and her father than she had done of late, and she mourned for them both as though the loss she had sustained were quite recent. It seemed to her that the only thing now was to prevent herself from thinking of Alec, and with angry determination she changed her thoughts as soon as he came into them.
Presently something else occurred to her. She felt that she owed some reparation to Bobbie: he had seen the truth at once, and because he had pointed it out to her, as surely it was his duty to do, she had answered him with bitter words. He had shown himself extraordinarily kind, and she had been harsh and cruel. Perhaps he knew that she was no longer engaged to marry Alec MacKenzie, and he must guess the reason; but since the night of the dance he had not been near them. She looked upon what Alec had told her as addressed to her only, and she could not repeat it to all and sundry. When acquaintances had referred to the affair, her manner had shown them quickly that she did not intend to discuss it. But Robert Boulger was different. It seemed necessary, in consideration of all that had pa.s.sed, that he should be told the little she knew; and then she thought also, seized on a sudden with a desire for self-sacrifice, that it was her duty perhaps to reward him for his long devotion. She might at least try to make him a good wife; and she could explain exactly how she felt towards him. There would be no deceit. Her life had no value now, and if it really meant so much to him to marry her, it was right that she should consent. And there was another thing: it would put an irrevocable barrier between herself and Alec.
Lady Kelsey was accustomed to ask a few people to luncheon every Tuesday, and Lucy suggested that they should invite Bobbie on one of these occasions. Lady Kelsey was much pleased, for she was fond of her nephew, and it had pained her that she had not seen him. She had sent a line to tell him that Lucy was no longer engaged, but he had not answered. Lucy wrote the invitation herself.
_My Dear Bobbie:_
_Aunt Alice will be very glad if you can lunch with us on Tuesday at two. We are asking d.i.c.k, Julia Crowley, and Canon Spratte. If you can come, and I hope you will, it would be very kind of you to arrive a good deal earlier than the others; I want to talk to you about something._
_Yours affectionately,_ _Lucy._
He answered at once.
_My Dear Lucy:_
_I will come with pleasure. I hope half-past one will suit you._
_Your affectionate cousin,_ _Robert Boulger._
"Why haven"t you been to see us?" she said, holding his hand, when at the appointed time he appeared.
"I thought you didn"t much want to see me."
"I"m afraid I was very cruel and unkind to you last time you were here,"
she said.
"It doesn"t matter at all," he said gently.
"I think I should tell you that I did as you suggested to me. I asked Alec MacKenzie pointblank, and he confessed that he was guilty of George"s death."
"I"m very sorry," said Bobbie.
"Why?" she asked, looking up at him with tear-laden eyes.
"Because I know that you were very much in love with him," he answered.
Lucy flushed. But she had much more to say.
"I was very unjust to you on the night of that dance. You were right to speak to me as you did, and I was very foolish. I regret what I said, and I beg you to forgive me."
"There"s nothing to forgive, Lucy," he said warmly. "What does it matter what you said? You know I love you."
"I don"t know what I"ve done to deserve such love," she said. "You make me dreadfully ashamed of myself."
He took her hand, and she did not attempt to withdraw it.
"Won"t you change your mind, Lucy?" he said earnestly.
"Oh, my dear, I don"t love you. I wish I did. But I don"t and I"m afraid I never can."
"Won"t you marry me all the same?"
"Do you care for me so much as that?" she cried painfully.
"Perhaps you will learn to love me in time."
"Don"t be so humble; you make me still more ashamed. Bobbie, I should like to make you happy if I thought I could. It seems very wonderful to me that you should want to have me. But I must be honest with you. I know that if I pretend I"m willing to marry you merely for your sake I"m deceiving myself. I want to marry you because I"m afraid. I want to crush my love for Alec. I want to make it impossible for me ever to weaken in my resolve. You see, I"m horrid and calculating, and it"s very little I can offer you."
"I don"t care why you"re marrying me," he said. "I want you so badly."
"Oh, no, don"t take me like that. Let me say first that if you really think me worth having, I will do my duty gladly. And if I have no love to give, I have a great deal of affection and a great deal of grat.i.tude.
I want you to be happy."
He went down on his knees and kissed her hands pa.s.sionately.
"I"m so thankful," he murmured. "I"m so thankful."
Lucy bent down and gently kissed his hair. Two tears rolled heavily down her cheeks.
Five minutes later Lady Kelsey came in. She was delighted to see that her nephew and her niece were apparently once more on friendly terms; but she had no time to find out what had happened, for Canon Spratte was immediately announced. Lady Kelsey had heard that he was to be offered a vacant bishopric, and she mourned over his disappearance from London. He was a spiritual mentor who exactly suited her, handsome, urbane, attentive notwithstanding her mature age, and well-connected. He was just the man to be a bishop. Then Mrs. Crowley appeared. They waited a little, and presently d.i.c.k was announced. He sauntered in jauntily, unaware that he had kept the others waiting a full quarter of an hour; and the party was complete.
No gathering could be tedious when Canon Spratte was present, and the conversation proceeded merrily. Mrs. Crowley looked ravishing in a summer frock, and since she addressed herself exclusively to the handsome parson it was no wonder that he was in a good humour. She laughed appreciatively at his facile jests and gave him provoking glances of her bright eyes. He did not attempt to conceal from her that he thought American women the most delightful creatures in the world, and she made no secret of her opinion that ecclesiastical dignitaries were often fascinating. They paid one another outrageous compliments. It never struck the good man that these charms and graces were displayed only for the purpose of vexing a gentleman of forty, who was eating his luncheon irritably on the other side of her. She managed to avoid talking to d.i.c.k Lomas afterwards, but when she bade Lady Kelsey farewell, he rose also.
"Shall I drive you home?" he asked.
"I"m not going home, but if you like to drive me to Victoria Street, you may. I have an appointment there at four."
They went out, stepped into a cab, and quite coolly d.i.c.k told the driver to go to Hammersmith. He sat himself down by her side, with a smile of self-satisfaction.
"What on earth are you doing?" she cried.
"I want to have a talk to you."
"I"m sure that"s charming of you," she answered, "but I shall miss my appointment."
"That"s a matter of complete indifference to me."
"Don"t bother about my feelings, will you?" she replied, satirically.
"I have no intention of doing so," he smiled.
Mrs. Crowley was obliged to laugh at the neatness with which he had entrapped her. Or had he fallen into the trap which she had set for him?
She really did not quite know.