"It must be far lovelier to know that you have the power to tell all your thoughts to the whole world, and that the world will understand them and be interested in them," Elisabeth persisted.
"I don"t think so. I should like to fall in love with a man who was so much better than I, that I could lean on him and learn from him in everything; and I should like to feel that whatever goodness or cleverness there was in me was all owing to him, and that I was nothing by myself, but everything with him."
"I shouldn"t. I should like to feel that I was so good and clever that I was helping the man to be better and cleverer even than he was before."
"I should like all my happiness and all my interest to centre in that one particular man," said Felicia; "and to feel that he was a fairy prince, and that I was a poor beggar-maid, who possessed nothing but his love."
"Oh! I shouldn"t. I would rather feel that I was a young princess, and that he was a warrior, worn-out and wounded in the battle of life; but that my love would comfort and cheer him after all the tiresome wars that he"d gone through. And as for whether he"d lost or won in the wars, I shouldn"t care a rap, as long as I was sure that he couldn"t be happy without me."
"You and I never think alike about things," said Felicia sadly.
"You old darling! What does it matter, as long as we agree in being fond of each other?"
At eighteen Elisabeth said farewell to Fox How with many tears, and came back to live at the Willows with Miss Farringdon. While she had been at school, Christopher had been first in Germany and then in America, learning how to make iron, so that they had never met during Elisabeth"s holidays; therefore, when he beheld her transformed from a little girl into a full-blown young lady, he straightway fell in love with her. He was, however, sensible enough not to mention the circ.u.mstance, even to Elisabeth herself, as he realized, as well as anybody, that the nephew of Richard Smallwood would not be considered a fitting mate for a daughter of the house of Farringdon; but the fact that he did not mention the circ.u.mstance in no way prevented him from dwelling upon it in his own mind, and deriving much pleasurable pain and much painful pleasure therefrom. In short, he dwelt upon it so exclusively and so persistently that it went near to breaking his heart; but that was not until his heart was older, and therefore more capable of being broken past mending again.
Miss Farringdon and the people of Sedgehill were alike delighted to have Elisabeth among them once more; she was a girl with a strong personality; and people with strong personalities have a knack of making themselves missed when they go away.
"It"s nice, and so it is, to have Miss Elisabeth back again," remarked Mrs. Bateson to Mrs. Hankey; "and it makes it so much cheerfuller for Miss Farringdon, too."
"Maybe it"ll only make it the harder for Miss Farringdon when the time comes for Miss Elisabeth to be removed by death or by marriage; and which"ll be the best for her--poor young lady!--the Lord must decide, for I"m sure I couldn"t pa.s.s an opinion, only having tried one, and that nothing to boast of."
"I wonder if Miss Farringdon will leave her her fortune," said Mrs.
Bateson, who, in common with the rest of her cla.s.s, was consumed with an absorbing curiosity as to all testamentary dispositions.
"She may, and she may not; there"s no prophesying about wills. I"m pleased to say I can generally foretell when folks is going to die, having done a good bit of sick-nursing in my time afore I married Hankey; but as to foretelling how they"re going to leave their money, I can no more do it than the babe unborn; nor n.o.body can, as ever I heard tell on."
"That"s so, Mrs. Hankey. Wills seem to me to have been invented by the devil for the special upsetting of the corpse"s memory. Why, some of the peaceablest folks as I"ve ever known--folks as wouldn"t have scared a lady-cow in their lifetime--have left wills as have sent all their relations to the right-about, ready to bite one another"s noses off.
Bateson often says to me, "Kezia," he says, "call no man honest till his will"s read." And I"ll be bound he"s in the right. Still, it would be hard to see Miss Elisabeth begging her bread after the way she"s been brought up, and Miss Farringdon would never have the conscience to let her do it."
"Folks leave their consciences behind with their bodies," said Mrs.
Hankey; "and I"ve lived long enough to be surprised at nothing where wills are concerned."
"That is quite true," replied Mrs. Bateson. "Now take Miss Anne, for instance: she seemed so set on Miss Elisabeth that you"d have thought she"d have left her a trifle; but not she! All she had went to her sister, Miss Maria, who"d got quite enough already. Miss Anne was as sweet and gentle a lady as you"d wish to see; but her will was as hard as the nether millstone."
"There"s nothing like a death for showing up what a family is made of."
"There isn"t. Now Mr. William Farringdon"s will was a very cruel one, according to my ideas, leaving everything to his niece and nothing to his son. True, Mr. George was but a barber"s block with no work in him, and I"m the last to defend that; and then he didn"t want to marry his cousin, Miss Maria, for which I shouldn"t blame him so much; if a man can"t choose his own wife and his own newspaper, what can he choose?--certainly not his own victuals, for he isn"t fit. But if folks only leave their money to them that have followed their advice in everything, most wills would be nothing but a blank sheet of paper."
"And if they were, it wouldn"t be a bad thing, Mrs. Bateson; there would be less sorrow on some sides, and less c.r.a.pe on others, and far less unpleasantness all round. For my part, I doubt if Miss Farringdon will leave her fortune to Miss Elisabeth, and her only a cousin"s child; for when all is said and done, cousins are but elastic relations, as you may say. The well-to-do ones are like sisters and brothers, and the poor ones don"t seem to be no connection at all."
"Well, let"s hope that Miss Elisabeth will marry, and have a husband to work for her when Miss Farringdon is dead and gone."
"Husbands are as uncertain as wills, Mrs. Bateson, and more sure to give offence to them that trust in them; besides, I doubt if Miss Elisabeth is handsome enough to get a husband. The gentry think a powerful lot of looks in choosing a wife."
Mrs. Bateson took up the cudgels on Elisabeth"s behalf. "She mayn"t be exactly handsome--I don"t pretend as she is; but she has a wonderful way of dressing herself, and looking for all the world like a fashion-plate; and some men have a keen eye for clothes."
"I think nothing of fine clothes myself. Saint Peter warns us against braiding of hair and putting on of apparel; and when all"s said and done it don"t go as far as a good complexion, and we don"t need any apostle to tell us that--we can see it for ourselves."
"And as for cleverness, there ain"t her like in all Mershire," continued Mrs. Bateson.
"Bless you! cleverness never yet helped a woman in getting a husband, and never will; though if she"s got enough of it, it may keep her from ever having one. I don"t hold with cleverness in a woman myself; it has always ended in mischief, from the time when the woman ate a bit of the Tree of Knowledge, and there was such a to-do about it."
"I wish she"d marry Mr. Christopher; he worships the very ground she walks on, and she couldn"t find a better man if she swept out all the corners of the earth looking for one."
"Well, at any rate, she knows all about him; that is something. I always say that men are the same as kittens--you should take "em straight from their mothers, or else not take "em at all; for, if you don"t, you never know what bad habits they may have formed or what queer tricks they will be up to."
"Maybe the manager"s nephew ain"t altogether the sort of husband you"d expect for a Farringdon," said Mrs. Bateson thoughtfully; "I don"t deny that. But he"s wonderful fond of her, Mr. Christopher is; and there"s nothing like love for smoothing things over when the oven ain"t properly heated, and the meat is done to a cinder on one side and all raw on the other. You find that out when you"re married."
"You find a good many things out when you"re married, Mrs. Bateson, and one is that this world is a wilderness of care. But as for love, I don"t rightly know much about it, since Hankey would always rather have had my sister Sarah than me, and only put up with me when she gave him the pa.s.s-by, being set on marrying one of the family. I"m sure, for my part, I wish Sarah had had him; though I"ve no call to say so, her always having been a good sister to me."
"Well, love"s a fine thing; take my word for it. It keeps the men from grumbling when nothing else will; except, of course, the grace of G.o.d,"
added Mrs. Bateson piously, "though even that don"t always seem to have much effect, when things go wrong with their dinners."
"That"s because they haven"t enough of it; they haven"t much grace in their hearts, as a rule, haven"t men, even the best of them; and the best of them don"t often come my way. But as for Miss Elisabeth, she isn"t a regular Farringdon, as you may say--not the real daughter of the works; and so she shouldn"t take too much upon herself, expecting dukes and ironmasters and the like to come begging to her on their bended knees. She is only Miss Farringdon"s adopted daughter, at best; and I don"t hold with adopted children, I don"t; I think it is better and more natural to be born of your own parents, like most folk are."
"So do I," agreed Mrs. Bateson; "I"d never have adopted a child myself.
I should always have been expecting to see its parents" faults coming out in it--so different from the peace you have with your own flesh and blood."
Mrs. Hankey groaned. "Your own flesh and blood may take after their father; you never can tell."
"So they may, Mrs. Hankey--so they may; but, as the Scripture says, it is our duty to whip the old man out of them."
"Just so. And that"s another thing against adopted children--you"d hesitate about punishing them enough; I don"t fancy as you"d ever feel the same pleasure in whipping "em as you do in whipping your own. You"d feel you ought to be polite-like, as if they was sort of visitors."
"My children always took after my side of the house, I"m thankful to say," said Mrs. Bateson; "so I hadn"t much trouble with them."
"I wish I could say as much; I do, indeed. But the Lord saw fit to try me by making my son Peter the very moral of his father; as like as two peas they are. And when you find one poor woman with such a double portion, you are tempted to doubt the workings of Providence."
Mrs. Bateson looked sympathetic. "That"s bad for you, Mrs. Hankey!"
"It is so; but I take up my cross and don"t complain. You know what a feeble creature Hankey is--never doing the right thing; and, when he does, doing it at the wrong time; well, Peter is just such another. Only the other day he was travelling by rail, and what must he do but get an attack of the toothache? Those helpless sort of folks are always having the toothache, if you notice."
"So they are."
"Peter"s toothache was so bad that he must needs take a dose of some sleeping-stuff or other--I forget the name--and fell so sound asleep that he never woke at the station, but was put away with the carriage into a siding. Fast asleep he was, with his handkerchief over his face to keep the sun off, and never heard the train shunted, nor nothing."
"Well, to be sure! Them sleeping-draughts are wonderful soothing, as I"ve heard tell, but I never took one on "em. The Lord giveth His beloved sleep, and His givings are enough for them as are in health; but them as are in pain want something a bit stronger, doubtless."
"So it appears," agreed Mrs. Hankey. "Well, there lay Peter fast asleep in the siding, with his handkerchief over his face. And one of the porters happens to come by, and sees him, and jumps to the conclusion that there"s been a murder in the train, and that our Peter is the corpse. So off he goes to the station-master and tells him as there"s a murdered body in one of the carriages in the siding; and the station-master"s as put out as never was."
Mrs. Bateson"s eyes and mouth opened wide in amazement and interest.
"What a tale, to be sure!"
"And then," added Peter"s mother, growing more dramatic as the story proceeded, "the station-master sends for the police, and the police sends for the crowner, so as everything shall be decent and in order; and they walks in a solemn procession--with two porters carrying a shutter--to the carriage where Peter lies, all as grand and nice as if it was a funeral."
"I never heard tell of such a thing in my life--never!"
"Then the station-master opens the door with one of them state keys which always take such a long time to open a door which you could open with your own hands in a trice--you know "em by sight."