Nate b.u.t.ton suddenly produced a worn leather briefcase I hadn"t noticed before. He pulled his chair back, placed the briefcase on his lap, and started to open it. "Here, let me show you what I have."
"Maybe I can save you some time, Dr. b.u.t.ton," I said quickly. "You said you thought you might be able to help me, or that we could help each other. What makes you figure that?"
b.u.t.ton rested his large hands on top of the briefcase and leaned toward me in a conspiratorial manner. His black eyes now seemed very bright as they reflected the light of the flickering candle. "I know what I"m about to tell you will sound incredible, and there are still a number of questions I don"t have answers for. Nevertheless, I"m sure I know what"s been killing those people."
In the silence that followed his announcement, I glanced at Harper, then back at b.u.t.ton. Off to the right, somewhere in the kitchen, somebody dropped a tray of gla.s.ses. "Would you be talking about those werewolf killings?" "Why, yes," the cryptozoologist replied, looking surprised and somewhat taken aback. "Of course. However, needless to say, it"s not a werewolf."
"Needless to say. Just what makes you th-"
"I"m virtually certain it"s a lobox."
"A who?"
"A lobox," he repeated, opening the flap of the briefcase and putting his right hand inside. "I have some-"
"Dr. b.u.t.ton, just what makes you think I"m interested in those killings?"
He stopped with his hand halfway out of the briefcase, stared at me, and slowly blinked. He seemed almost startled by my question. "But aren"t you investigating them?"
"No. What on earth gave you that idea?"
He flushed again, obviously embarra.s.sed, then turned to Harper, as if she might have the answer. When she merely c.o.c.ked her head to one side and smiled sweetly at him, he turned back to me, shook his head slightly. "I just a.s.sumed ... an investigator of your stature in this little town out here in the middle of nowhere, only a few miles from where the last killing took place ..."
"You a.s.sumed wrong, b.u.t.ton. My reason for being here has nothing to do with the killings. I"m engaged in personal business."
"Oh, I see," the man said in a small voice, clearly disappointed and embarra.s.sed. Much to my relief, he slid his hand out of his briefcase, closed the flap. "Well," he said, addressing the candle in the middle of the table, "now I"m afraid I feel a little foolish."
"Think nothing of it," I said, raising my hand to signal for the check. "Now, if you"ll excuse us, we have to-"
"What"s a lobox?" Harper asked.
b.u.t.ton looked hopefully at Harper, uncertainly at me. "If you have to go . . ."
"We have time," Harper said sweetly.
b.u.t.ton eagerly reached back into his briefcase, drew out what appeared to be an eight-by-ten photograph. Whatever it showed, I was going to have to wait my turn to see it; he handed the picture to Harper. "That"s a lobox."
I watched Harper"s face in the candlelight as she studied the photograph b.u.t.ton had given her. Her eyes widened, and she absently nodded her head in what seemed to be appreciation. Finally, she handed the photograph across the table to me.
It was a photo of what seemed to be one of the eerie and hauntingly beautiful cave paintings from Lascaux, in France, but I couldn"t be certain; I owned a book on the paintings and had leafed through it on a number of occasions when contemplating my own mortality, but the painting I was looking at was unfamiliar to me. The light from the camera"s flash had wiped out the ochers and blacks at the edges of the painting, but in the center was a stylized drawing of the head of a beast. Except for the eyes, which seemed almost human, and the great fangs, which had certainly been exaggerated, it might have been the head of a wolf. All about the fierce head, puny stick figures representing men ran in terror.
b.u.t.ton produced more photographs, more prehistoric depictions of the wolflike beast he had called a lobox. In one, a lobox had a stick figure by the throat. Another depicted its great claws, with one protruding from the rear of the black leather pad on its paw, making the full set of claws appear almost like a raptor"s talons. Clearly, the Cro-Magnon who were responsible for the cave paintings had not hunted this creature; it had hunted them. Except for one painting, which had a quite different feel from the others, almost comical, and which looked like a lobox trying to stand on its head, what projected from the paintings was the experience of sheer terror our ancestors had felt before this creature. I handed the photographs back to b.u.t.ton as I felt the hairs rise on the back of my neck.
"Canis lobox," b.u.t.ton said in a low, tense voice.
I"ll take the one trying to stand on its head."
"Obviously done by a lesser artist," b.u.t.ton replied, looking slightly pained at what he might have considered my irreverence. "Until now, Canis lobox was considered only a mythical- "speculative" is the word I prefer-creature. These photographs are recent, because the drawings were only recently discovered at Lascaux, very deep down in the network of caves, far below the level where most of the other paintings are found. Because of their location, some scientists are speculating that the paintings of Canis lobox may have had religious significance to the Cro-Magnon who produced them sixteen thousand years ago. These are the only known depictions of this creature, unique among mammals for the claw at the rear of its footpad. There"s a very spa.r.s.e fossil record that hints at the prior existence of such an animal, but that record is far from conclusive. Many of us now feel that these paintings confirm that it lived. Because of the special placement of the paintings in the cave, it could mean that prehistoric man viewed the creature as some kind of terrible G.o.d.
"The lobox flourished across North America in the Quaternary period, beginning forty thousand years ago. It was the age of the great mammals. Lobox coexisted with mastodons, mammoths, saber-toothed cats, and other creatures that we"re much more familiar with. Lobox was a cousin to the great dire wolves, and descended from the same ancestor-Tomarctus-as present-day wolves and dogs. Its closest modern-day relative, besides the wolf, is a breed of dog called the kuvasz, which was originally bred hundreds of years ago, in Europe, to protect sheep herds from wolves. But the lobox was very special; no other creature in any of the Lascaux cave paintings is depicted in this much detail, or evokes such a feeling of sheer terror on the part of the artist. Using a little imagination to extrapolate from the small fossil record, it may be easy to see why this animal was so feared."
b.u.t.ton once again reached into his briefcase, withdrew two pieces of paper, handed one to Harper and one to me. It was an artist"s rendition of how a lobox might have appeared, drawn from a variety of angles. The animal certainly looked fierce enough to me. It resembled something that could have been a cross between a wolf and a Great Dane, with the wolfs spindly legs and large paws, and the Great Dane"s huge rib cage and muscular withers. But no wolf or dog possessed this creature"s broad snout and gaping nostrils. Obviously enhanced by the artist"s imagination, the yellow eyes of the beast were very bright, shining with a distinctly humanlike quality that was very much like that in the photograph of the painting that was sixteen thousand years old.
"The reason for the lack of an extensive fossil record," b.u.t.ton continued, excitement building in his voice, "is that they didn"t get caught in tar pits, like the one at La Brea, for example, even though they were probably larger than dire wolves. The speculation is that they were simply a lot smarter than the animals that did get trapped in fossil-producing places like tar pits. If a fossil fragment of a lobox skull is any indication, its brain pan was relatively large in proportion to its body weight-approximately the same ratio as the porpoise. The lobox was probably second in intelligence only to Cro-Magnon, and may have been smarter than Neanderthal; in fact, there are a few scientists who believe that the lobox may have played a very large role in wiping out Neanderthal. It certainly had the keenest sense of smell of any creature that"s ever lived. Elephants are believed to detect specific odors from as far as four or five miles away; the lobox may have had an olfactory range twice that. It must have been like a kind of ultimate bloodhound, and it apparently had a taste for human flesh."
I grunted, handed the sketch back to b.u.t.ton. "You"re saying you think one of these is responsible for the killings?"
"Yes," the cryptozoologist replied tersely. He raised his sharp chin slightly, in an almost defiant gesture. "I do."
"Uh . . . where do you suppose this critter came from?"
Now he lowered his chin as well as his gaze. "That"s something I haven"t quite worked out yet," he said quietly.
"Well, it"s certainly an interesting theory," I said evenly, trying to be polite. Nate b.u.t.ton seemed to me to be an obvious world-cla.s.s crackpot, and I wondered how he"d lasted as long as he had in the highly critical academic community, where even lesser fools are not suffered with much good humor.
"Interesting, but highly unlikely," Harper-who, at least in the past, had not herself displayed much fondness for fools-said with disarming sweetness. "Now, let me get this straight, Dr. b.u.t.ton. You believe that a creature called a lobox, which if it actually did exist at all has been extinct for more than ten thousand years, has been running around ripping up people all across the Midwest? Even a.s.suming that a few members of the species did survive, where have they been keeping themselves all these millennia? You certainly can"t believe they"ve been hiding out in the wheat and corn fields. I can see how a Sasquatch or yeti might remain hidden in the Pacific Northwest or the Himalayas, but where could something like the lobox hide out in Kansas? And why has it only recently started to eat people? And, of course, there would have to be more than one, unless you also believe in spontaneous regeneration. There would be mommy loboxes, and daddy loboxes, and little baby loboxes running around. Why hasn"t anybody spotted even one? Really, Dr. b.u.t.ton. Do forgive me if I seem to belabor the obvious."
To my considerable surprise, b.u.t.ton began to nod almost enthusiastically; he actually seemed to prefer Harper"s scathing critique of what pa.s.sed for his thinking to my polite, if somewhat condescending, attempt to simply brush him off. He abruptly swiveled around to face her, offering me his back.
"I completely understand your reservations, Miss Rhys-Whitney," b.u.t.ton said in his odd, piping, nasal tone. "Believe me, I"m well aware of the problems inherent in my theory. I know it may sound preposterous, and I can"t really answer any of your excellent questions; all I"m left with is evidence that the thing doing the killings is a lobox."
"The killer"s human," I said in a flat tone to the man"s back.
b.u.t.ton turned around, once more reached into his briefcase, took out more photographs, and laid them out over the tablecloth. They were Polaroids, or copies of Polaroids, that had apparently been taken at one of the killing sites, and were gruesome. They showed a victim, a man, whose throat had been torn away, almost decapitating him. In addition, there was a crater in his belly from which his torn innards were spilling, almost as if a grenade had exploded in the man"s stomach, blowing out his guts. I thought it was rather tactless to show the photos to two people who"d just finished dinner, but I"d grown accustomed over the years to such unpretty sights, and when I glanced up at the woman on the other side of the table, her face displayed no shock or horror, only interest.
"These are photos taken at the site of the first killing, in Missouri," he said tersely. "As you can see, there are some faint tracks next to the body."
"Where did you get them?"
b.u.t.ton sniffed loudly. "I took them myself, Dr. Frederickson, as part of my initial investigation. You may be surprised to learn that I"m a highly respected zoologist, and I do what might be termed forensic zoology. Despite what I know to be your initial reaction to me, I"m not a crackpot. Police departments around the country-indeed, around the world-think enough of my talents to call me in to consult when there appears to have been a death caused by some animal which they can"t identify. I was first called in by the Missouri state police because, understandably, they couldn"t figure out what kind of an animal had done this. You"ll observe that the flesh and intestines in the stomach wound appear to have been pulled out, rather than slashed or shredded, almost as if the stomach had been cored. There are claw marks around the periphery of the wound, although you can"t see them well in the photographs. In order to pull flesh out in that manner, a kind of opposable, or posterior, talon or claw is required in order to grip-think of the talons of an eagle or a hawk. However, this man obviously wasn"t killed by any bird. Then what was it that killed him? No known large mammal has this kind of claw configuration. The only large creature that ever lived that is thought to have had an opposable claw on its footpads is the one I have described to you. The tracks you see in the photograph show an elevated area at the rear of the paw that could contain a retractable claw. Add to that the hair and saliva samples that can"t be matched to any known, living animal. What you end up with is what I think killed this man, as well as the seven others killed in a similar fashion: a lobox. Given the background and information I"ve just supplied to you, Dr. Frederickson, what would you have said?"
"You have my attention, Dr. b.u.t.ton. By now the FBI is seriously at work on the matter. What do they think killed these people?"
The cryptozoologist pursed his lips, slowly shook his head. "The FBI came in after the second killing-and they cut me out; they wouldn"t allow me to visit that killing site, and they"ve banned me from the other killing sites as well. By the time I"m able to get on a site, it"s already been completely worked over, evidence gathered and taken away, or obliterated. I"ve been searching for tracks and other signs around the peripheries of the killing sites, but that kind of work is almost impossibly difficult- like searching for needles in a corn field, if you will. In addition, the FBI refuses to share with me their lab a.n.a.lyses of the later hair and saliva samples they must have found. Frankly, I"m at a loss to understand their refusal to cooperate with me. It"s almost as if they"re trying to cover up the fact that there could be a lobox loose, and which is a danger to every man, woman, and child living in this area."
"Is the FBI aware of your theory about this creature?"
"Of course. I told them what I thought it was."
"In that case, Dr. b.u.t.ton, I think I can explain the FBI"s att.i.tude and behavior. The FBI doesn"t have much time or patience for tracking "hidden animals," especially those that have been extinct for fifteen thousand years."
"But to actually bar me from the other sites-"
"The bureau isn"t going to want it known that they"ve accepted advice from a cryptozoologist-even if they consider what you"ve told them vital, and I"m pretty sure that"s the case. They took what you had to offer them and then cut you out because they don"t want to be a.s.sociated with you in any stories that appear in the press. That"s one reason."
b.u.t.ton shook his head. "They wouldn"t listen to anything I had to say."
"I think you"re wrong. My bet is that they consider what you told them extremely important. In fact, it told them what not to look for-in this case, they can rule out the possibility that any of those people could have been killed by an animal. They"re hunting a serial killer, b.u.t.ton. Count on it."
Nate b.u.t.ton stared at me for some time, breathing noisily through his mouth. He looked thoroughly bewildered. "That"s insane," he said at last. "You"re telling me the FBI is searching for a human killer precisely because I told them all the evidence points to a lobox?"
"You"ve got it."
"Are you mocking me, Frederickson?"
"No. You have to understand that the bureau people aren"t for a moment going to take seriously the possibility that the men were killed by an extinct animal from prehistoric times, and you helped them rule out the possibility of any other animal-boars, bears, rabid dogs, what have you. What that leaves is a human- but a human with very specialized knowledge of paleontology and zoology. How many people would even know about a lobox, much less leave a corpse that could make another specialist like yourself believe a lobox had done the killing? Do you see?"
The cryptozoologist slowly shook his head, but I couldn"t tell whether he was indicating that he didn"t understand what I was getting at, or simply rejected it.
"They questioned you very closely about your colleagues, didn"t they?"
He looked surprised. He licked his lips, closed his mouth, swallowed. "As a matter of fact, they did. They even demanded the subscription list for the journal I edit. At the time, I thought they wanted it just so that they could consult other experts . . . Oh, my G.o.d."
"Now you"re beginning to get the picture, Dr. b.u.t.ton. Their first and foremost suspect would have been you after you laid all this business about the lobox on them, but you must have had an airtight alibi at the time of the Missouri killing and when the second victim was found. Still, you can bet they know what you"ve had for breakfast, lunch, and dinner on every day since then when a victim has been found. So you"re no longer a suspect, but they are hunting someone else with your same interests and expertise. They bar you from the sites because they don"t want to be a.s.sociated with you, but also because they now want to keep as many details secret as possible; it helps them screen out false confessions."
"I hadn"t thought of that," b.u.t.ton said distantly. "Perhaps you"re right. It"s just that. . . . Why would a killer go to the considerable trouble of making his murders look like the work of an extinct prehistoric creature virtually n.o.body outside a small field of specialists has ever heard of?"
"Well," I said with a shrug, "that"s certainly a good question, and a debating point for your side. I do know that you can never tell what"s really going on inside the mind of a serial killer. This one"s apparently an academic, scholarly type who"s using his deep grounding in paleontology to amuse himself while he thinks he"s baffling the experts."
"Frankly, your theory doesn"t sound any more plausible than mine," b.u.t.ton said tersely, and sniffed. "In order to create paw prints, fang marks, and body wounds like those I observed at the Missouri site, a man would have to go to considerable trouble; even then, he would have no guarantee that an expert like myself would come along, recognize the signs, and say that the killing was the work of a lobox."
Harper brushed a strand of gray hair back from her eyes, said to b.u.t.ton: "You don"t think that Robby"s scenario is more credible than the notion of an extinct creature suddenly coming back to life, popping up out of nowhere in the middle of the United States?"
The cryptozoologist took a handkerchief out of one of the pockets in his safari jacket, blew his nose loudly, carefully wiped it, put the handkerchief back in his pocket. Then he looked at Harper. "Maybe it didn"t "pop up out of nowhere," Miss Rhys-Whitney."
"Then where did it come from, Dr. b.u.t.ton?"
"Perhaps from the north-Canada, Minnesota, perhaps even down from Alaska. It could be a throwback, a single mutant. There is a phenomenon known as "reverse breeding." It"s a practice usually indulged in by scientists or specialist breeders, but it"s possible that it could have happened naturally, in the wild. In upstate New York, at a place called the Catskill Game Farm, there"s a large herd of small, striped horses. They"re members of a species that was extinct for close to a hundred thousand years before some scientists began a reverse breeding program with a selected group of modern-day horses. They bred for hidden, submerged genetic traits; when there were offspring that showed even a partial trace of the traits they were looking for, they matched those offspring. The result is a herd of "prehistoric" horses, which you can see with your own eyes.
"It"s just possible that a lobox was created in this manner by accident, a wolf breeding with a dog-perhaps a kuvasz. One offspring in the resulting litter was this animal, a freak of nature; it may not be a purebred lobox, but the genetic inheritance was strong enough for it to have developed the lobox"s distinctive claw at the rear of the footpad. It was born far to the north, then migrated south, away from the cold, and only recently settled into this pattern of hunting and killing its . . . natural prey."
Harper shook her head, rested her elbows on the table, placed her fingertips together to form an arch. "The killings have taken place hundreds of miles apart."
"Ah, but we don"t know what a lobox"s natural hunting range is, Miss Rhys-Whitney. If this creature has inherited the speed and intelligence we believe was possessed by its ancestors, then it could range over an extremely broad area, and it would be very wily. Even if it were sighted, it might be mistaken for a large dog." b.u.t.ton paused,. took a deep breath through his open mouth, shuddered slightly. "If it"s a lobox, or anything like a lobox, it is a most formidable creature. Perhaps the only natural enemy humankind has ever had. And if it"s able to breed successfully with wolves or dogs ..."
Nate b.u.t.ton turned back toward me, and for a moment the reflection of candlelight danced in his eyes" dark depths. Suddenly, I felt sorry for the man, as I realized how much emotion the cryptozoologist had invested in his quest to be the first to unmask this ultimate in hidden animals, a prehistoric creature rambling over the Great Plains, stopping on occasion to rip up and eat some unfortunate human.
"The prehistoric horses you mentioned are the result of years of work by humans, Dr. b.u.t.ton," I said quietly. "The herd represents generation after generation of offspring that are the result of very careful reverse breeding. What do you suppose the odds are against the spontaneous mutation that would create a lobox?"
"Astronomical, to be sure," b.u.t.ton said with a small sigh as he gathered the photos and sketches off the table and shoved them back into his worn leather briefcase. He made no effort now to hide his deep disappointment at my total lack of enthusiasm for his idea. "Perhaps you"re right, Dr. Frederickson; perhaps the killing thing will turn out to be human after all. I"ve very much enjoyed meeting the two of you, and now I won"t take up any more of your evening."
As b.u.t.ton rose from his chair, Harper rubbed her foot against my leg under the table. It felt like an electric shock, and I barely managed to stifle a groan.
"Good night, Dr. b.u.t.ton," Harper said evenly as she looked at me and raised an eyebrow provocatively. Her shoeless foot was working its way up my leg, past my knee, wriggling against my thighs. "Good luck with your search."
b.u.t.ton merely waved with his free hand as he made his way toward the exit.
"Well, Robby," she continued in her low, husky voice, "I think he was an interesting fellow, don"t you?"
"Uh . . . yeah." Harper had now rested her foot in my groin, and I was starting to sweat. "Whatever you say, my dear."
"I say it"s time we went to bed."
"Right. You"re going to have to stand and walk right in front of me when I get up, or I"m going to be seriously embarra.s.sed."
"It can be arranged."
Our lovemaking that night was well worth the wait.
Chapter Five.
We flew to Topeka the next morning, rented a car, and drove south to Dolbin, where World Circus had set up for the week on the county fairgrounds. We arrived too late to catch the matinee performance under the Big Top, and we bided our time by wandering over the grounds. I would have liked to view the animals, perhaps say h.e.l.lo to my old friend Mabel, but a number of posted signs and the presence of security guards made it clear that visitors were not welcome in the penning areas.
As we approached a water spigot near one of these areas, Harper abruptly stopped, squatted down. She opened her leather purse, took out what appeared to be a wooden pillbox with an enameled cover that had perhaps a half dozen tiny holes punched in it. Next she produced a sealed plastic refrigerator bag, and I was rather startled to see that it contained a strange mix of dead flies and small, live beetles. The last item to come out of her purse was a small sponge encased in plastic wrap. She set the wooden box down on the ground, slid the top back a fraction of an inch, shook an ounce or so of the anteater"s trail mix into the opening, closed it again. She straightened up, wetted the sponge under the spigot, squeezed a few drops of water through the holes in the cover of the box.
"Feeding time," she said brightly, smiling at me. "What"s the matter, Robby? You look very strange."
"I may look very strange, love, but you are very strange."
"Why, thank you."
"Harper, what the h.e.l.l have you got in that box?"
"Oh, I always bring a little friend with me when I travel," she said in the same bright tone as she wiped excess water off the top of the wooden box with a tissue, then replaced box, plastic bag, and sponge in her purse. "For some reason, having said little friend always makes me feel more secure. Does it make you nervous?"
"You make me nervous, Harper. You"ve always made me nervous."
"Come on, sweet thing," she said, slinging her purse over her shoulder, grabbing my hand and leading me toward the midway, which was set up on six or seven acres at the northern end of the fairgrounds. "First I want to ride on the Ferris wheel, and then you can buy me some cotton candy."
It didn"t take much sight-seeing to establish that World Circus was well managed, a cla.s.s act-at least as far as the midway and food concessions were concerned. The grounds were relatively litter-free, the mechanical rides all showed indications of proper maintenance, and the food stalls were clean. There were none of the seedy peep shows one finds in so many rural road shows, and I saw no evidence of cheating at any of the game stalls. A few inquiries later, we learned that the rides, games, and food concessions were all locally franchised, administered separately from the circus itself; a number of different booking agents were used all along the circus"s great, circuitous route. n.o.body we talked to knew any of the actual circus performers or roustabouts, since these people invariably kept to themselves. Still, all the concessionaires seemed happy with the arrangement and went to some lengths to police themselves; while insisting on honest, clean operations, World Circus paid a slightly higher percentage of profits than other road shows that came through the area, and the concessionaires were anxious to remain in good graces. Word of mouth was good, and attendance at the circus had tripled from the year before.
This was all very depressing. I"d been hoping to find a failing operation, a deteriorating mud show whose discouraged owners might be more than willing to dump it all off on anyone who made them a reasonable buy offer. What I"d found instead was a lean and efficiently run circus that might well be turning a small profit, if the costs for the performing talent weren"t too high.
And I found myself growing depressed about other things. Wherever we walked, we immediately became the center of attention. People openly gawked at the dwarf and the beautiful woman, and not a few of the stares were hostile, as if the fact that we might be attracted to each other was a violation of some natural law. A few times I tried to remove my hand from Harper"s, but she only tightened her grip as she kept up a constant stream of chatter, seemingly oblivious to the starers. In my frame of mind, her gesture took on heroic proportions. Falling in love with Harper Rhys-Whitney, I thought, was most definitely something I did not need. Through no fault of hers, she made me feel small and needy; her perfection only served to magnify, at least in my mind, my own imperfection. It was, of course, all quite neurotic, the kinds of unhealed scars we all carry with us from our childhood-but there it was, a terrible, and growing, insecurity. And I feared it was already too late to do anything about it. I was apparently still not sufficiently emotionally healthy to accept the love of a woman without risk of destroying myself with the gift.
I had the distinct feeling that I was being watched-which, I told myself, was absurd, since I was so obviously being watched. But I also sensed that we were being followed, and that was something different altogether. I abruptly turned around a few times, but in the crush of people it was impossible to pick out any one individual who might be tailing us.
Wandering around a circus midway set up in a vast field in the heart of rural Kansas, I was reminded yet again that a hole opened in my heart whenever I left New York City, with its crush of anonymity, and traveled into America"s interior. The fields of Kansas reminded me too much of my childhood home in Nebraska. Out through that hole in my heart flowed my self-confidence; all that was left was a bilious, sour cloud of self-consciousness and paranoia. It was a lousy feeling, only exacerbated by the lovely creature holding my hand, and with whom I was sharing a bed. In my present frame of mind, I considered Harper-or, to be more precise, what I was feeling for Harper-all the more dangerous to my spiritual well-being. Being a dwarf was occasionally a pain, but I"d learned to deal with it; being a self-pitying dwarf was intolerable to me. It made me anxious to get on with my business in Kansas so that I could get back to where I felt safe, perhaps taking Harper with me. Yet I knew I couldn"t afford to be-or seem-in a hurry. I owed it to Phil to try to keep myself together long enough to make the strongest effort of which I was capable in order to try to buy back his circus for him.
The evening show under the Big Top began at eight. At seven-thirty we wandered back in the direction of the enormous canvas tent, along with a crowd of what I estimated to be upwards of eight or nine hundred people. It wasn"t at all a bad turnout, especially considering the fact that it was a weeknight and many of the families, most with small children, had undoubtedly driven a considerable distance over a countryside that was being terrorized by a vicious, insane killer.
As we got into the line that had formed in front of the ticket booth, I once again had the feeling that we were being observed, followed. I abruptly turned to my left, found myself staring into a pair of mud-brown eyes that framed a large, bulbous nose illuminated by networks of flaming, alcohol-ruptured veins. He was a big man, with a potbelly and legs that were slightly bowed, as if bending under the man"s considerable weight. He looked like a roustabout, or perhaps the kind of thuggish security guard often hired by shows to remain in the background and provide muscle in case of trouble with town rowdies. Our gazes locked and held, and then the potbellied man flushed a deep red that almost matched the broken veins in his nose, turned, and walked quickly away.