"I have them in check."
"Are you--certain?"
"I think I may be--now."
"Yet," she said timidly, "you lost one fight--since you knew me."
The dull red mantling his face wrung her heart. She turned impulsively and laid both hands on his shoulders. "That chance I would take, with all its uncertainty, all the dread inheritance you have come into. I love you enough for that; and if it turned out that--that you could not stem the tide, even with me to face it with you; and if the pity of it, the grief of it, killed me, I would take that chance--if you loved me through it all.
But there is something else. Hush; let me have my say while I find the words--something else you do not understand.
Turn your face a little; please don"t look at me. This is what you do not know--that, in three generations, every woman of my race has--gone wrong.
Every one! and I am beginning--with such a marriage!
deliberately, selfishly, shamelessly, perfectly conscious of the frivolous, erratic blood in me, aware of the race record behind me.
"Once, when I knew nothing--before I--I met you--I believed such a marriage would not only permit me mental tranquillity, but safely anchor me in the harbour of convention, leaving me free to become what I am fashioned to become--autocrat and arbiter in my own world. And now!
and now! I don"t know--truly I don"t know what I may become. Your love forces my hand. I am displaying all the shallowness, falseness, pettiness, all the mean, and cruel and callous character which must be truly my real self.
Only I shall not marry you! You are not to run the risk of what I might prove to be when I remember in bitterness all I have renounced. If I married you I should remember, unreconciled, what you cost me. Better for you and for me that I marry him, and let him bear with me when I remember that he cost me you!"
She bent over, almost double, closing her eyes with small clenched hands; and he saw the ring shimmering in the sunshine, and her hair, heavily, densely gold, and the white nape of her neck, and the tiny close-set ears, and the curved softness of cheek and chin; every smooth, childlike contour and mould--rounded arms, slim, flowing lines of body and limb--all valued at many millions by her as her own appraiser.
Suddenly, deep within him, something seemed to fail, die out--perhaps a tiny newly lighted flame of unaccustomed purity, the dawning flicker of aspiration to better things. Whatever it was, material, spiritual, was gone now, and where it had glimmered for a night, the old accustomed twilit doubt crept in--the same dull acquiescence--the same uncertainty of self, the familiar lack of will, of incentive, the congenial tendency to drift; and with it came weariness--perhaps reaction from the recent skirmishes with that master-vice.
"I suppose," he said in a dull voice, "you are right."
"No, I am wrong--wrong!" she said, lifting her lovely face and heavy eyes. "But I have chosen my path.
And you will forget."
"I hope so," he said simply.
"If you hope so, you will."
He nodded, unconvinced, watching a flock of sand-pipers whirling into the cove like a gray snow-squall and fearlessly settling on the beach.
After a while, with a long breath: "Then it is settled," she concluded.
If she expected corroboration from him she received none; and perhaps she was not awaiting it. She sat very still, her eyes lost in thought.
And Mortimer, peeping down at them over the thicket above, yawned impatiently and glanced about him for the most convenient avenue of self-effacement when the time arrived.
CHAPTER VII PERSUASION
The days of the house-party at Shotover were numbered. A fresh relay of guests was to replace them on Monday, and so they were making the most of the waning week on lawn and marsh, in covert and blind, or motoring madly over the State, or riding in parties to Vermillion Light. Tennis and lawn bowls came into fashion; even water polo and squash alternated on days too raw for more rugged sport.
And during all these days Beverly Plank appeared with unflagging persistence and a.s.siduity, until his familiar, big, round head and patient, delft-blue, Dutch eyes became a matter of course at Shotover, indoors and out.
It was not that he was either accepted, tolerated, or endured; he was simply there, and n.o.body took the trouble to question his all-pervading presence until everybody had become too much habituated to him to think about it at all.
The accomplished establishment of Beverly Plank was probably due as much to his own obstinate and good-tempered persistence as to Mrs. Mortimer.
He was a Harvard graduate--there are all kinds of them--enormously wealthy, and though he had no particular personal tastes to gratify, he was willing and able to gratify the tastes of others. He did whatever anybody else did, and did it well enough to be amusing; and as lack of intellectual development never barred anybody from any section of the fashionable world, it seemed fair to infer that he would land where he wanted to, sooner or later.
Meanwhile, Mrs. Mortimer led him about with the confidence that was her perquisite; and the chances were that in due time he would have house-parties of his own at Black Fells--not the kind he had wisely denied himself the pleasure of giving, with such neighbours as the Ferralls to observe, but the sort he desired. However, there were many things to be accomplished for him and by him before he could expect to use his great yacht and his estates and his shooting boxes and the vast granite mansion recently completed and facing Central Park just north of the new palaces built on the edges of the outer desert where Fifth Avenue fringes the hundreds.
Meanwhile, he had become in a measure domesticated at Shotover, and Shotover people gradually came to ride, drive, and motor over the Fells, which was a good beginning, though not necessarily a promise for anything definite in the future.
Mortimer, riding a huge chestnut--he could still wedge himself into a saddle--had now made it a regular practice to affect the jocular early-bird squire, and drag Plank out of bed. And Plank, in no position to be anything but flattered by such sans gene, laboriously and gratefully splashed through his bath, wallowed amid the breakfast plates, and mounted a hunter for long and apparently aimless gallops with Mortimer.
His acquaintance among people who knew Mortimer being limited, he had no means of determining the latter"s social value except through hearsay and a toadying newspaper or two. Therefore he was not yet aware of Mortimer"s perennial need of money; and when Mortimer laughingly alluded to his poverty, Plank accepted the proposition in a purely comparative sense, and laughed, too, his thrifty Dutch soul untroubled by misgivings.
Meanwhile, Mortimer had come, among other things, on information; how much, and precisely of what nature, he was almost too much ashamed to admit definitely, even to himself. Still, the idea that had led him into this sudden intimacy with Plank, vague or not, persisted; and he was always hovering on the edge of hinting at something which might elicit a responsive hint from the flattered master of Black Fells.
There was much about Plank that was unaffected, genuine, even simple, in one sense; he cared for people for their own sakes; and only stubborn adherence to a dogged ambition had enabled him to dispense with the society of many people he might easily have cultivated and liked--people nearer his own sort; and that, perhaps, was the reason he so readily liked Mortimer, whose coa.r.s.e fibre soon wore through the polish when rubbed against by a closer, finer fibre. And Plank liked him aside from grat.i.tude; and they got on famously on the basis of such mutual recognition. Then, one day, very suddenly, Mortimer stumbled on something valuable--a thread, a mere clew, so astonishing that for an instant it absolutely upset all his unadmitted theories and calculations.
It was nothing--a vague word or two--a forced laugh--and the scared silence of this man Plank, who had blundered on the verge of a confidence to a man he liked.
A moment of amazement, of half-incredulous suspicion, of certainty; and Mortimer pounced playfully upon him like a tiger--a big, fat, friendly, jocose tiger:
"Plank, is that what you"re up to!"
"Up to! Why, I never thought of such a--"
"Haw! haw!" roared Mortimer. "If you could only see your face!"
And Beverly Plank, red as a beet, comfortably suffused with rea.s.surance under the reaction from his scare, attempted to refute the other"s conclusions: "It doesn"t mean anything, Mortimer. She"s just the handsomest girl I ever saw. I know she"s engaged. I only admired her a lot."
"You"re not the only man," said Mortimer blandly, still striving to reconcile his preconceived theories with the awkward half-confession of this great, red-fisted, hulking horseman riding at his stirrup.
"I wouldn"t have her dream," stammered Plank, "that I had ever thought of such a--"
"Why not? It would only flatter her."
"Flatter a woman who is engaged to marry another man!" gasped Plank.
"Certainly. Do you think any woman ever had enough admiration in this world?" asked Mortimer coolly. "And as for Sylvia Landis, she"d be tickled to death if anybody hinted that you had ever admired her."
"Good Lord!" exclaimed Plank, alarmed; "You wouldn"t make a joke of it!
you wouldn"t be careless about such a thing! And there"s Quarrier! I"m not on joking terms with him; I"m on most formal terms."
"Quarrier!" sneered the other, flicking at his stirrup with his crop.
"He"s on formal terms with everybody, including himself. He never laughed on purpose in his life; once a month only, to keep his mouth in; that"s his limit. Do you suppose any woman would stand for him if a better man looked sideways at her?" And, reversing his riding crop, he deliberately poked Mr. Plank in the ribs.
"A--a better man!" muttered Plank, scarce crediting his ears.
"Certainly. A man who can make good, is good; but a man who can make better is it with the ladies--G.o.d bless "em!" he added, displaying a heavy set of teeth.
Beverly Plank knew perfectly well that, in the comparison so delicately suggested by Mortimer, his material equipment could be scarcely compared to the immense fortune controlled by Howard Quarrier; and as he thought it, his reflections were put into words by Mortimer, airily enough: