"When she asked me whether I was Miss Cardross."
The slow colour again burned his bronzed skin. He made no reply, nor did she await any after a silent consideration of his troubled face.
"Where did you hear about me?" she asked.
She had partly turned in her seat, resting both gloved hands on the crook of her folded sunshade, and leaning a little toward him.
"Don"t ask me," he said; "whatever I heard I heard unwillingly--"
"You _have_ heard?"
He did not answer.
The remainder of the journey was pa.s.sed in silence. On the road they met Mrs. Cardross and Jessie Carrick driving to a luncheon; later, Gray pa.s.sed in his motor with his father.
"I have an idea that you and I are to lunch alone," said Hamil as they reached the house; and so it turned out, for Malcourt was going off with Portlaw somewhere and Cecile was dressing for Virginia"s luncheon.
"Did you care to go with me to the Ascott-O"Hara function?" asked Shiela, pausing on the terrace. Her voice was listless, her face devoid of animation.
"I don"t care where I go if I may go with you," he said, with a new accent of intention in his voice which did not escape her.
She went slowly up the stairs untying her long veil as she mounted.
Cecile in a bewildering hat and gown emerged upon the terrace before Shiela reappeared, and found Hamil perched upon the coquina bal.u.s.trade, poring over a pocketful of blue-prints; and she said very sweetly: "Good-bye, my elder brother. Will you promise to take the best of care of our little sister Shiela while I"m away?"
"The very best," he said, sliding feet foremost to the terrace.
"Heavens, Cecile, you certainly are bewitching in those clothes!"
"It is what they were built for, brother," she said serenely. "Good-bye; we won"t shake hands on account of my gloves.... Do be nice to Shiela.
She isn"t very gay these days--I don"t know why. I believe she has rather missed you."
Hamil tucked her into her chair, the darky pedalled off; then the young man returned to the terrace where presently a table for two was brought and luncheon announced as Shiela Cardross appeared.
Hamil displayed the healthy and undiscriminating appet.i.te of a man who is too busy mentally and physically to notice what he eats and drinks; Shiela touched nothing except fruit. She lighted his cigarette for him before the coffee, and took one herself, turning it thoughtfully over and over between her delicately shaped fingers; but at a glance of inquiry from him:
"No, I don"t," she said; "it burns my tongue. Besides I may some day require it as a novelty to distract me--so I"ll wait."
She rose a moment later, and stood, distrait, looking out across the sunlit world. He at her elbow, head bent, idly watched the smoke curling upward from his cigarette.
Presently, as though moved by a common impulse, they turned together, slowly traversed the terrace and the long pergola all crimson and white with bougainvillia and jasmine, and entered the jungle road beyond the courts where carved seats of coquina glimmered at intervals along the avenue of oaks and palmettos and where stone-edged pools reflected the golden green dusk of the semi-tropical foliage above.
On the edge of one of these basins the girl seated herself; without her hat and gloves and in a gown which exposed throat and neck she always looked younger and more slender to him, the delicate modelling of the neck and its whiteness was accentuated by the silky growth of the brown hair which close to the nape and brow was softly blond like a child"s.
The frail, amber-tinted little dragon-flies of the South came hovering over the lotus bloom that edged the basin; long, narrow-shaped b.u.t.terflies whose velvet-black wings were barred with brilliant stripes of canary yellow fluttered across the forest aisle; now and then a giant papilio sailed high under the arched foliage on tiger-striped wings of chrome and black, or a superb b.u.t.terfly in pearl white and malachite green came flitting about the sparkle-berry bloom.
The girl nodded toward it. "That is a scarce b.u.t.terfly here," she said.
"Gray would be excited. I wish we had his net here."
"It is the _Victorina_, isn"t it?" he asked, watching the handsome, nervous-winged creature which did not seem inclined to settle on the white flowers.
"Yes, the _Victorina steneles_. Are you interested?"
"The generation I grew up with collected," he said. "I remember my cabinet, and some of the names. But I never saw any fellows of this sort in the North."
"Your memory is good?"
"Yes," he said, "for what I care about"--he looked up at her--"for those I care about my memory is good, I never forget kindness--nor confidence given--nor a fault forgiven."
She bent forward, elbows on knees, chin propped on both linked hands.
"Do you understand now," she said, "why I could not afford the informality of our first meeting? What you have heard about me explains why I can scarcely afford to discard convention, does it not, Mr.
Hamil?"
She went on, her white fingers now framing her face and softly indenting the flushed skin:
"I don"t know who has talked to you, or what you have heard; but I knew by your expression--there at the swimming-pool--that you had heard enough to embarra.s.s you and--and hurt me very, very keenly."
"Calypso!" he broke out impulsively; but she shook her head. "Let _me_ tell you if it must be told, Mr. Hamil.... Father and mother are dreadfully sensitive; I have only known about it for two years; two years ago they told me--had to tell me.... Well--it still seems hazy and incredible.... I was educated in a French convent--if you know what that means. All my life I have been guarded--sheltered from knowledge of evil; I am still unprepared to comprehend--... And I am still very ignorant; I know that.... So you see how it was with me; a girl awakened to such self-knowledge cannot grasp it entirely--cannot wholly convince herself except at moments--at night. Sometimes--when a crisis threatens--and one has lain awake long in the dark--"
She gathered her knees in her arms and stared at the patch of sunlight that lay across the hem of her gown, leaving her feet shod in gold.
"I don"t know how much difference it really makes to the world. I suppose I shall learn--if people are to discuss me. How much difference does it make, Mr. Hamil?"
"It makes none to me--"
"The world extends beyond your pleasant comradeship," she said. "How does the world regard a woman of no origin--whose very name is a charity--"
"Shiela!"
"W-what?" she said, trying to smile; and then slowly laid her head in her hands, covering her face.
She had given way, very silently, for as he bent close to her he felt the tearful aroma of her uneven breath--the feverish flush on cheek and hand, the almost imperceptible tremor of her slender body--rather close to him now.
When she had regained her composure, and her voice was under command, she straightened up, face averted.
"You are quite perfect, Mr. Hamil; you have not hurt me with one misguided and well-intended word. That is exactly as it should be between us--must always be."
"Of course," he said slowly.
She nodded, still looking away from him. "Let us each enjoy our own griefs unmolested. You have yours?"
"No, Shiela, I haven"t any griefs."
"Come to me when you have; I shall not humiliate you with words to shame your intelligence and my own. If you suffer you suffer; but it is well to be near a friend--not _too_ near, Mr. Hamil."
"Not too near," he repeated.
"No; that is unendurable. The counter-irritant to grief is sanity, not emotion. When a woman is a little frightened the presence of the unafraid is what steadies her."
She looked over her shoulder into the water, reached down, broke off a blossom of wild hyacinth, and, turning, drew it through the b.u.t.ton-hole of his coat.