Malcourt yawned.
Presently Portlaw began in a babyish-irritated voice: "I"ve buried the deuce and trey of diamonds, and blocked myself--"
"Oh, _shut_ up!" said Malcourt, who was hastily scribbling a letter to Virginia Suydam.
He did not post it, however, until he reached New York, being very forgetful and busy in taking money away from the exasperated Portlaw through the medium of double dummy. Also he had a girl, a kitten, and other details to look after, and several matters to think over. So Virginia"s letter waited.
Virginia waited, too. She had several headaches to keep inquiring friends at a distance, for her eyes were inclined to redness in those days, and she developed a p.r.o.nounced taste for the solitude of the chapel and churchly things.
So when at length the letter arrived, Miss Suydam evaded Constance and made for the beach; for it was her natural instinct to be alone with Malcourt, and the instinct unconsciously included even his memory.
Her maid was packing; Constance Palliser"s maid was also up to her chin in lingerie, and Constance hovered in the vicinity. So there was no privacy there, and that was the reason Virginia evaded them, side-stepped Gussie Vetchen at the desk, eluded old Cla.s.son in the palm room, and fled like a ghost through the empty corridors as though the deuce were at her heels instead of in her heart.
The heart of Virginia was cutting up. Alone in the corridors she furtively glanced at the letter, kissed the edge of the envelope, rolled and tucked it away in her glove, and continued her flight in search of solitude.
The vast hotel seemed lonely enough, but it evidently was too populous to suit Miss Suydam. Yet few guests remained, and the larger caravansary was scheduled to close in another day or two, the residue population to be transferred to "The Breakers."
The day was piping hot but magnificent; corridor, piazza, colonnade, and garden were empty of life, except for a listless negro servant dawdling here and there. Virginia managed to find a wheel-chair under the colonnade and a fat black boy at the control to propel it; and with her letter hidden in her glove, and her heart racing, she seated herself, parasol tilted, chin in the air, and the chair rolled noiselessly away through the dazzling sunshine of the gardens.
On the beach some barelegged children were wading in the surf"s bubbling ebb, hunting for king-crabs; an old black mammy, wearing ap.r.o.n and scarlet turban, sat luxuriously in the burning sand watching her thin-legged charges, and cooking the "misery" out of her aged bones.
Virginia could see n.o.body else, except a distant swimmer beyond the raft, capped with a scarlet kerchief. This was not solitude, but it must do.
So she dismissed her chair-boy and strolled out under the pier. And, as n.o.body was there to interrupt her she sat down in the sand and opened her letter with fingers that seemed absurdly helpless and unsteady.
"On the train near Jupiter Light," it was headed; and presently continued:
"I am trying to be unselfishly honest with you to see how it feels. First--about my loving anybody. I never have; I have on several occasions been prepared to bestow heart and hand--been capable of doing it--and something happened every time. On one of these receptive occasions the thing that happened put me permanently out of business. I"ll tell you about that later.
"What I want to say is that the reason I don"t love you is not because I can"t, but because I won"t! You don"t understand that.
Let me try to explain. I"ve always had the capacity for really loving some woman. I was more or less lonely and shy as a child and had few playmates--very few girls of my age. I adored those I knew--but--well, I was not considered to be a very desirable playmate by those parents who knew the Malcourt history.
"One family was nice to me--some of them. I usually cared a great deal for anybody who was nice to me.
"The point of all this biography is that I"m usually somewhat absurdly touched by the friendship of an attractive woman of my own sort--or, rather, of the sort I might have been. That is my att.i.tude toward you; you are amiable to me; I like you.
"Now, why am I not in love with you? I"ve told you that it"s because I will not let myself be in love with you. Why?
"Dear--it"s just because you _have_ been nice to me. Do you understand? No, you don"t. Then--to go back to what I spoke of--I am not free to marry. I am married. Now you know. And there"s no way out of it that I can see.
"If I were in love with you I"d simply take you. I am only your friend--and I can"t do you that injury. Curious, isn"t it, how such a blackguard as I am can be so fastidious!
"But that"s the truth. And that, too, may explain a number of other matters.
"So you see how it is, dear. The world _is_ full of a number of things. One of them signs himself your friend,
"LOUIS MALCOURT."
Virginia"s eyes remained on the written page long after she had finished reading. They closed once or twice, opened again, blue-green, expressionless. Looking aloft after a while she tried to comprehend that the sky was still overhead; but it seemed to be a tricky, unsteady, unfamiliar sky, wavering, crawling across s.p.a.ce like the wrinkled sea beneath it. Confused, she turned, peering about; the beach, too, was becoming unstable; and, through the sudden rushing darkness that obscured things, she tried to rise, then dropped full length along the sand.
A few seconds later--or perhaps minutes, or perhaps hours--she found herself seated perfectly conscious, mechanically drying the sea-water from her wet face; while beside her knelt a red-capped figure in wet bathing-dress, both hands br.i.m.m.i.n.g with sea-water which ran slowly between the delicate fingers and fell, sparkling.
"Do you feel better?" asked Shiela gently.
"Yes," she said, perfectly conscious and vaguely surprised. Presently she looked down at her skirts, groped about, turned, searching with outstretched fingers. Then her eyes fell on the letter. It lay on the sand beside her sunshade, carefully weighted with a sh.e.l.l.
Neither she nor the girl beside her spoke. Virginia adjusted her hat and veil, sat motionless for a few moments, then picked up the water-stained letter and, rolling it, placed it in her wet glove. A slow flame burned in her pallid cheeks; her eyes remained downcast.
Shiela said with quick sympathy: "I never fainted in my life. Is it painful?"
"No--it"s only rather horrid.... I had been walking in the sun. It is very hot on the beach, I think; don"t you?"
"Very," said the girl gravely.
Virginia, head still bent, was touching her wet lace waist with her wetter gloves.
"It was very good of you," she said, in a low voice--"and quite stupid of me."
Shiela straightened to her full height and stood gravely watching the sea-water trickle from her joined palms. When the last shining drop had fallen she looked questioningly at Miss Suydam.
"I"m a little tired, that is all," said Virginia. She rose rather unsteadily and took advantage of Shiela"s firm young arm, which, as they progressed, finally slipped around Miss Suydam"s waist.
Very slowly they crossed the burning sands together, scarcely exchanging a word until they reached the Cardross pavilion.
"If you"ll wait until I have my shower I"ll take you back in my chair,"
said Shiela. "Come into my own dressing-room; there"s a lounge."
Virginia, white and haggard, seated herself, leaning back languidly against the wall and closing her heavy eyes. They opened again when Shiela came back from the shower, knotting in the girdle of her snowy bath-robe, and seated herself while her maid unloosed the thick hair and rubbed it till the brown-gold l.u.s.tre came out like little gleams of sunlight, and the ends of the burnished tresses crisped and curled up on the smooth shoulders of snow and rose.
Virginia"s lips began to quiver; she was fairly flinching now under the pitiless contrast, fascinated yet shrinking from the splendid young creature before her, resting there aglow in all the vigourous beauty of untainted health.
And from the mirror reflected, the clear eyes smiled back at her, seeming to sear her very soul with their untarnished loveliness.
"Suppose you come and lunch with me?" said Shiela. "I happen to be quite alone. My maid is very glad to do anything for you. Will you come?"
"Yes," said Virginia faintly.
An hour later they had luncheon together in the jasmine arbour; and after that Virginia lay in the hammock under the orange-trees, very still, very tired, glad of the silence, and of the soft cool hand which covered hers so lightly, and, at rare intervals, pressed hers more lightly still.
Shiela, elbow on knee, one arm across the hammock"s edge, chin cupped in her other palm, sat staring at vacancy beside the hammock where Virginia lay. And sometimes her partly doubled fingers indented her red lower lip, sometimes they half framed the oval face, as she sat lost in thought beside the hammock where Virginia lay so pale and still.
Musing there in the dappled light, already linked together by that subtle sympathy which lies in silence and in a common need of it, they scarcely stirred save when Shiela"s fingers closed almost imperceptibly on Virginia"s hand, and Virginia"s eyelids quivered in vague response.
In youth, sadness and silence are near akin. That was the only kinship they could claim--this slim, pale scion of a worn-out line, and the nameless, parentless girl beside her. This kinship was their only bond--unadmitted, uncomprehended by themselves; kinship in love, and the sadness of it; in love, and the loneliness of it; love--and the long hours of waiting; night, and the tears of it.
The sun hung low behind the scented orange grove before Virginia moved, laying her thin cheek on Shiela"s hand.
"Did you see--that letter--in the sand?" she whispered.