"Good-bye, my wife--my wife--my wife--. Good-bye, my wife!"
Diana must have fallen asleep. The opening of the door of the motor roused her.
William had turned on the lights, lifted out the rug, and stood with it flung over his arm, waiting for her to step out.
Half dazed, she took up her hat and smoothed her tumbled hair.
She glanced at the seat beside her, almost expecting to see David.
Then she remembered, and quickly stepped out of the motor.
The great doors of Riverscourt stood wide. A ruddy light from the blazing log fire in the hall, streamed out over the newly fallen snow.
Old Rodgers, deferential, yet very consciously paternal, his hands shaking with suppressed excitement, stood just within.
The housekeeper, expectant and alert, a bow of white satin ribbon in a prominent position in her cap, waited at the foot of the wide oak staircase.
The poodle, his tufts tied up with white ribbon, moved forward to greet his mistress; then advanced gravely into the portico, and inspected the empty motor. The poodle"s heart was in the grave of Uncle Falcon.
Weddings did not interest him. But the non-arrival of the bridegroom--who had once, with a lack of discrimination quite remarkable, even in a human being, mistaken him for Mrs. Marmaduke Vane--seemed a fact which required verification and investigation. The poodle returned, smiling, from his inspection of the empty interior of the motor. He had not paid much attention to the lengthy discussions in the servants" hall. But this much he knew. Old Rodgers had won his bet.
The housekeeper would have to pay. This pleased the poodle, who resented the fact that the housekeeper had first trimmed her own cap, and then tied him up with the remnants;--adding to this obvious slight, a callous disregard of his known preference for green or crimson, where the colour of his bows was concerned.
As Diana entered the house, the old clock in the hall began to strike six; distant Westminster chimes sounded from an upper landing; an unseen cuckoo jerked out its note six times, then slammed its door; while the old clock, measured and sonorous, refusing to be either hurried or interrupted, slowly finished its six strokes.
Diana flung her cloak to Rodgers, and ordered tea in the library. Then, with a greeting to her housekeeper, she pa.s.sed upstairs to her own room.
Mrs. David Rivers had come home.
CHAPTER XXIII
UNCLE FALCON WINS
Diana dined alone at the little round table in the big dining-room. She wore the white satin gown she had worn on the evening of Christmas-day, when David dined with her. The table decoration was lilies of the valley and Parma violets.
After dinner she went to the library, restless and lonely, yet glad to be alone; thankful she had postponed to the morrow, the return of Mrs.
Marmaduke Vane.
On her writing-table, in a silver frame, stood the photograph of a special chum of hers, a man with whom she frequently played tennis in summer, and rode in winter; a good-looking fellow, with the appearance of an all round sportsman. His gay friendly eyes looked out at her with an air of easy comradeship, as she paused for a moment beside the table.
Diana was fond of this portrait of Ronald Ingram. It always stood on her writing-table. But, this evening, she suddenly took it up, and put it, face downwards, into a drawer. It had served to remind her that she possessed no photograph of David.
She moved over to the fireplace, tall and lovely, perfectly gowned, surrounded by all the luxury she loved--yet indescribably desolate.
She stood, wrapped in thought, warming her hands at the fire; then sank into Uncle Falcon"s armchair, in which she had sat while she and David discussed their intended marriage.
Did she need a portrait of David?
Hardly. He was so vividly pictured in her mental vision.
She could see him in the pulpit of the little church at Brambledene--keen, eager, inspired; full of his subject; the dark eyes shining in his thin worn face.
She could see him in the vestry, seated on the high stool; boyish, shy; very much taken aback by her unexpected entry.
She could see him at the piano in the drawing-room, completely unconscious of his surroundings; enveloped in the music he himself was making.
She could see him seated opposite to her in the chair now empty, a look of strange detachment upon his tired face, as with infinite tact and gentleness he explained to her why he felt able, after all, to accede to her request; never departing from his own standpoint in the matter; yet making the thing as easy for her as possible.
She could see him in the church of St. Botolph, as he had stood that morning--was it really only that morning?--awaiting her. How strange had been the summons in his eyes, which drew her to his side. Ah, if there had but been _love_ between them, how wonderful a memory would have been that look in David"s eyes!
She could see him in the railway train--in boyishly high spirits, because nothing now stood between him and his departure for his beloved sphere of work--seated opposite to her at the little table in the dining-car, rubbing the mist off the windows with his table napkin, and exclaiming over the beauties of the Hampshire hills and villages.
"Lord _now_ lettest Thou Thy servant depart in peace." Poor David! She had certainly interfered with his peace of mind during the fortnight which had preceded their strange wedding. Well, he had departed in peace, and was undoubtedly gone "to be a light to lighten the Gentiles." And what a difference her money would make to the success of his work.
And then--she could see him as he bent down to her from the top of the gangway, his dark eyes gazing into hers, and said: "Good-bye, my wife."
Surely, for the moment, it had meant something to David to call her his wife? She had never before seen quite such a look in any man"s eyes. Was it fancy, or was there a hunger in them, which seemed to match the ache at her own breast? Sentimental fancy on her own part, no doubt; for had not David said of their wedding service: "It meant no more than we intended it should mean"?
How odious and impossible a state of things, if she--Diana Rivers--who had proposed this marriage, as a mere business transaction--should now be imagining into it sentiment which she had expressly stipulated should never enter therein. If David knew of it, would she not be forced to bow her head in shame, before his clear honest eyes?
No; certainly she needed no photograph of David!
She glanced at the portrait of Uncle Falcon hanging over the mantel-piece; then looked away at once. She was rather afraid of Uncle Falcon to-night. David had said she was to flaunt her victory in Uncle Falcon"s face. She had replied that she might have done so, if _he_ had been going to be with her. David had made no reply; but she had felt him shrink into himself. He had been too honest to express regret to his bride, that his engagements took him elsewhere on his wedding evening; and too kind, to show relief. When she had said: "David, I shall be quite alone at Riverscourt to-night," David had remarked: "Oh, look at the undulating line of those distant hills!"
A little gleam of amus.e.m.e.nt illumined the sad face, resting against the dark leather of Uncle Falcon"s big chair; and, as the firelight played upon it, dimples peeped out. Had she looked up, she would have seen a corresponding twinkle in Uncle Falcon"s amber eyes.
It really was rather funny. David and his table napkin! She knew she had not behaved quite well towards David, who was such a very faithful and very proper person. She felt she should always hate the distant line of undulating hills! If only he had tried to kiss her, and she could have boxed his ears, she would have enjoyed that journey better.
But, the next moment, a rush of tears drowned the gleam of fun in those sweet eyes. She had remembered David"s face, as he said: "Good-bye, my wife." It seemed sacrilege even to _think_ of boxing his ears! How ill he had looked, during those final minutes on the boat. It made it so terribly easy to picture David"s face as it would look when he lay dying--dead.
Diana"s tears fell silently. She, who scarcely ever wept, now found herself weeping without restraint, in a vague, helpless sort of way; and about nothing--that was the foolish part of it--she was crying about absolutely nothing!
"This will never do!" said Diana. "I am being as silly as an _ordinary_ married woman. I must find something sensible to think about."
She rose from her chair, stretched her beautiful arms over her head; then walked across to a table to look for a book. Her eye fell upon a concordance, lying where she had left it on that evening of indecision and perplexity.
Suddenly she remembered words of David"s in his sermon on Christmas-eve.
They came back to her as clearly as if they had that moment been spoken.
"Myrrh, in the Bible," David had said, "stands for other things besides death. We must not pause to do so now; but, sometime, at your leisure, look out each mention of myrrh. You will find it stands for love--love, of the sweetest, tenderest kind; love so complete, that it must bring with it self-abnegation, and a mingling of pain with its bliss."
Yes, David had said this. How suitable that to-night--of all nights--she should do as he had wished.
But, first, she went to the window, drew aside the curtains, and looked out.