CHARLOTTE PERKINS GILMAN AUTHOR, OWNER & PUBLISHER
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Volume 1. No. 7 MAY, 1910 Copyright for 1910 C. P. Gilman
Having made pockets, we need not carry so many things in our hands.
Having made books, we need not carry so many things in our heads.
BRAIN SERVICE
We offer our hearts to G.o.d, contrite and broken; Why not offer our brains, whole and alive?
Why follow the grovelling words wailing old races have spoken?
Bow and submit, when we ought to resist and strive!
What is this "heart" that you offer? A circulator, An organ that quivers and starts at the fears of the hour.
Why not offer your head? And hold it straighter?
Bring to the service of G.o.d your n.o.blest power?
When we learn to credit Him with our great ideals, and greater-- When we all stand up at last, stop kissing the rod-- When we bring the brains of to-day to seek and serve the Creator-- G.o.d will look better to us, and we shall look better to G.o.d.
WHEN I WAS A WITCH
If I had understood the terms of that one-sided contract with Satan, the Time of Witching would have lasted longer--you may be sure of that. But how was I to tell? It just happened, and has never happened again, though I"ve tried the same preliminaries as far as I could control them.
The thing began all of a sudden, one October midnight--the 30th, to be exact. It had been hot, really hot, all day, and was sultry and thunderous in the evening; no air stirring, and the whole house stewing with that ill-advised activity which always seems to move the steam radiator when it isn"t wanted.
I was in a state of simmering rage--hot enough, even without the weather and the furnace--and I went up on the roof to cool off. A top-floor apartment has that advantage, among others--you can take a walk without the mediation of an elevator boy!
There are things enough in New York to lose one"s temper over at the best of times, and on this particular day they seemed to all happen at once, and some fresh ones. The night before, cats and dogs had broken my rest, of course. My morning paper was more than usually mendacious; and my neighbor"s morning paper--more visible than my own as I went down town--was more than usually salacious. My cream wasn"t cream--my egg was a relic of the past. My "new" napkins were giving out.
Being a woman, I"m supposed not to swear; but when the motorman disregarded my plain signal, and grinned as he rushed by; when the subway guard waited till I was just about to step on board and then slammed the door in my face--standing behind it calmly for some minutes before the bell rang to warrant his closing--I desired to swear like a mule-driver.
At night it was worse. The way people paw one"s back in the crowd! The cow-puncher who packs the people in or jerks them out--the men who smoke and spit, law or no law--the women whose saw-edged cart-wheel hats, swashing feathers and deadly pins, add so to one"s comfort inside.
Well, as I said, I was in a particularly bad temper, and went up on the roof to cool off. Heavy black clouds hung low overhead, and lightning flickered threateningly here and there.
A starved, black cat stole from behind a chimney and mewed dolefully.
Poor thing! She had been scalded.
The street was quiet for New York. I leaned over a little and looked up and down the long parallels of twinkling lights. A belated cab drew near, the horse so tired he could hardly hold his head up.
Then the driver, with a skill born of plenteous practice, flung out his long-lashed whip and curled it under the poor beast"s belly with a stinging cut that made me shudder. The horse shuddered too, poor wretch, and jingled his harness with an effort at a trot.
I leaned over the parapet and watched that man with a spirit of unmitigated ill-will.
"I wish," said I, slowly--and I did wish it with all my heart--"that every person who strikes or otherwise hurts a horse unnecessarily, shall feel the pain intended--and the horse not feel it!"
It did me good to say it, anyhow, but I never expected any result. I saw the man swing his great whip again, and--lay on heartily. I saw him throw up his hands--heard him scream--but I never thought what the matter was, even then.
The lean, black cat, timid but trustful, rubbed against my skirt and mewed.
"Poor Kitty" I said; "poor Kitty! It is a shame!" And I thought tenderly of all the thousands of hungry, hunted cats who stink and suffer its a great city.
Later, when I tried to sleep, and up across the stillness rose the raucous shrieks of some of these same sufferers, my pity turned cold.
"Any fool that will try to keep a cat in a city!" I muttered, angrily.
Another yell--a pause--an ear-torturing, continuous cry. "I wish," I burst forth, "that every cat in the city was comfortably dead!"
A sudden silence fell, and in course of time I got to sleep.
Things went fairly well next morning, till I tried another egg. They were expensive eggs, too.
"I can"t help it!" said my sister, who keeps house.
"I know you can"t," I admitted. "But somebody could help it. I wish the people who are responsible had to eat their old eggs, and never get a good one till they sold good ones!"
"They"d stop eating eggs, that"s all," said my sister, "and eat meat."
"Let "em eat meat!" I said, recklessly. "The meat is as bad as the eggs! It"s so long since we"ve had a clean, fresh chicken that I"ve forgotten how they taste!"
"It"s cold storage," said my sister. She is a peaceable sort; I"m not.
"Yes, cold storage!" I snapped. "It ought to be a blessing--to tide over shortages, equalize supplies, and lower prices. What does it do?
Corner the market, raise prices the year round, and make all the food bad!"
My anger rose. "If there was any way of getting at them!" I cried.
"The law don"t touch "em. They need to be cursed somehow! I"d like to do it! I wish the whole crowd that profit by this vicious business might taste their bad meat, their old fish, their stale milk--whatever they ate. Yes, and feel the prices as we do!"
"They couldn"t you know; they"re rich," said my sister.
"I know that," I admitted, sulkily. "There"s no way of getting at "em.
But I wish they could. And I wish they knew how people hated "em, and felt that, too--till they mended their ways!"
When I left for my office I saw a funny thing. A man who drove a garbage cart took his horse by the bits and jerked and wrenched brutally. I was amazed to see him clap his hands to his own jaws with a moan, while the horse philosophically licked his chops and looked at him.
The man seemed to resent his expression, and struck him on the head, only to rub his own poll and swear amazedly, looking around to see who had hit him. the horse advanced a step, stretching a hungry nose toward a garbage pail crowned with cabbage leaves, and the man, recovering his sense of proprietorship, swore at him and kicked him in the ribs. That time he had to sit down, turning pale and weak. I watched with growing wonder and delight.
A market wagon came clattering down the street; the hard-faced young ruffian fresh for his morning task. He gathered the ends of the reins and brought them down on the horse"s back with a resounding thwack. The horse did not notice this at all, but the boy did. He yelled!
I came to a place where many teamsters were at work hauling dirt and crushed stone. A strange silence and peace hung over the scene where usually the sound of the lash and sight of brutal blows made me hurry by. The men were talking together a little, and seemed to be exchanging notes. It was too good to be true. I gazed and marvelled, waiting for my car.
It came, merrily running along. It was not full. There was one not far ahead, which I had missed in watching the horses; there was no other near it in the rear.