Seeing him, Adeline suffered a warm shot of air to the brain. What would others say if they knew that the Blackhurst dinner table was host to such behavior? She glanced sideways at Thomas and the footman, each focused on the distant wall. But Adeline wasn"t fooled, she knew that behind their glazed expressions their minds were busy: judging, noting, preparing to tell their counterparts in other houses about the slipping standards at Blackhurst Manor.
Adeline sat stiffly in her place, waited as the footman placed her soup in front of her. She took a small mouthful and burned her tongue. Watched as Linus, head bowed, continued his inspection of the photographic prints. The little patch at the very crown of his head was thinning. It looked like a sparrow had been at work, laying the first scanty threads for a new nest.
"The girl is here?" he said, without looking up.
Adeline felt her skin p.r.i.c.kle: the wretched girl. "She is."
"You"ve seen her?"
"Of course. She has been accommodated upstairs."
Finally he lifted his head, took a sip of his wine. Then another. "And is she...is she like...?"
"No," Adeline"s voice was cold. "No, she is not." In her lap, her fists balled tight.
Linus exhaled shortly, broke a piece of bread and began to eat it. He spoke with his mouth full, surely just to spite her. "Mansell said as much."
If anyone was to blame for the girl"s arrival it was Henry Mansell. Linus may have sought Georgiana"s return, but it was Mansell who"d kept the hope alive. The detective, with his thick moustache and fine pince-nez, had taken Linus"s money and sent him frequent reports. Every night Adeline had prayed that Mansell would fail, that Georgiana would stay away, that Linus would learn to let her go.
"Your trip went well?" said Adeline.
No answer. His eyes were on the prints again.
Adeline"s pride prevented another sideways glance at Thomas. She composed her features in a mask of contented calm and attempted another spoonful of soup, cooler by now. Linus"s rejection of Adeline was one thing-he"d begun his drift soon after their marriage-but his complete denial of Rose was something other. She was his child; his blood coursed through her veins, the blood of his n.o.ble family. How he could remain so detached, Adeline couldn"t fathom.
"Dr. Matthews has been again today," she said. "Another infection."
Linus looked up, eyes drawn with the familiar veil of disinterest. Ate another mouthful of bread.
"Nothing too serious, thank goodness," said Adeline, buoyed by his lifted gaze. "No need for grave concern."
Linus swallowed his piece of bread. "I head for France tomorrow," he said blankly. "There"s a gate at Notre Dame..." His sentence faded away. Commitment to keeping Adeline informed of his movements only went so far.
Adeline"s left brow peaked slightly before she caught it and ironed it smooth. "Lovely," she said, winding her lips back into a tight smile, smothering the image from nowhere, of Linus in the little boat, camera pointed at a figure dressed all in white.
TWENTY-SEVEN.
TREGENNA, 1975.
THERE it was, the black rock of William Martin"s story. From the top of the cliff, Nell watched as white sea froth swirled about the base before rushing inside the cave and being sucked back out on the tide. It didn"t take much to imagine the cove as the site of thrashing storms and sinking ships and midnight smuggling raids. it was, the black rock of William Martin"s story. From the top of the cliff, Nell watched as white sea froth swirled about the base before rushing inside the cave and being sucked back out on the tide. It didn"t take much to imagine the cove as the site of thrashing storms and sinking ships and midnight smuggling raids.
Across the cliff top a line of trees stood soldierlike, blocking Nell"s view of the house at Blackhurst, her mother"s house.
She dug her hands deeper into the pockets of her coat. The wind was strong up here and it took all her strength to maintain balance. Her neck was numb, her cheeks simultaneously warm with chafing and cool with the breeze. She turned to follow the path of flattened gra.s.s back from the cliff edge. The road didn"t come this far and the way was narrow. Nell went cautiously: her knee was swollen and bruised after the rather impromptu entrance she"d made to the Blackhurst estate the previous day. She"d gone intending to deliver a letter saying that she was an antiques dealer visiting from Australia, and requesting that she might come and see the house at a time convenient to its owners. But as she"d stood by the tall metal gates, something had overcome her, a need every bit as strong as that to breathe. The next she knew she"d abandoned all dignity and was clambering gracelessly up the gate, seeking footholds in the decorative metal curls.
Ridiculous behavior for a woman half her age, but that was as it was. To stand so close to her family home, her own birthplace, and be denied as much as a glimpse was intolerable. It was only regrettable that Nell"s physical dexterity had been no match for her tenacity. She"d been embarra.s.sed and grateful in equal measure when Julia Bennett chanced upon her trespa.s.s attempt. Thankfully the new owner of Blackhurst had accepted Nell"s explanation and invited her to take a look.
It had been such an odd feeling, seeing inside the house. Strange, but not in the way she"d expected. Nell had been speechless with antic.i.p.ation. She"d walked across the entrance hall, climbed the stairs, peered around doorways, telling herself over and over: your mother sat here, your mother walked here, your mother loved here; and she had waited for the enormity to hit her. For some wave of knowing to launch itself from the house"s walls and crash over her, for some deep part of herself to recognize that she was home. But no such knowingness had come. A foolish expectation, of course, and not like Nell at all. But there it was. Even the most pragmatic person fell victim at times to a longing for something other. At least she could now add texture to the memories she was trying to rebuild; imagined conversations would take place in real rooms.
In the long, shimmery gra.s.s Nell spied a stick just the right length. There was something immeasurably pleasant in walking with such a stick; it added a sense of industry to a person"s journey. Not to mention it would take some pressure off her swollen knee. She reached to pick it up and continued carefully down the slope, past the tall stone wall. There was a sign on the front gate, just above that which threatened trespa.s.sers. For Sale, For Sale, it read, and then a phone number. it read, and then a phone number.
This, then, was the cottage belonging to the Blackhurst estate, the one Julia Bennett had mentioned the day before, and that William Martin had wished burned to the ground, that had stood witness to things that "weren"t right," whatever they might be. Nell leaned against the gate. There didn"t look to be much threatening about it. The garden was overgrown and the approaching dusk spilled into every corner, settled for the night in cool, dim pockets. A narrow path led towards the cottage before scurrying left at the front door and continuing its windy way through the garden. By the far wall stood a lonely statue plastered with green lichen. A small naked boy in the middle of a garden bed, wide eyes turned eternal on the cottage.
No, not a garden bed, the boy stood in a fish pond.
The correction came swiftly and certainly, surprising Nell so that she held tighter to the locked gate. How did she know?
Then before her eyes the garden changed. Weeds and brambles, decades in the growing, receded. Leaves lifted from the ground, revealing paths and flower beds and a garden seat. Light was permitted entry once more, tossed dappled across the surface of the pond. And then she was in two places at once: a sixty-five-year-old woman with a sore knee, clinging to a rusty gate, and a little girl, long hair plaited down her back, sitting on a tuft of soft, cool gra.s.s, toes dangling in the pond...
The plump fish bobbed to the surface again, golden belly shining, and the little girl laughed as he opened his mouth and nibbled her big toe. She loved the pond, had wanted one at home, but Mamma had been fearful that she"d fall in and drown. Mamma was often fearful, especially where the little girl was concerned. If Mamma knew where they were today, she"d be very cross. But Mamma didn"t know, she was having one of her bad days, was lying in the dark of her boudoir with a damp flannel on her forehead.
A noise and the little girl looked up. The lady and Papa had come back outside. They stood for a moment and Papa said something to the lady, something the little girl couldn"t hear. He touched her arm and the lady started walking slowly forwards. She was watching the little girl in a strange way, a way that reminded her of the boy statue who stood by the pond all day, never so much as blinking. The lady smiled, a magical smile, and the little girl pulled her feet from the pond and waited, waited, wondering what the lady would say...
A rook flew close overhead and with it time was restored. The brambles and creepers re-formed, leaves dropped and the garden was once more a damp, moist place at the mercy of the dusk. The boy statue green with age, just as he should be.
Nell was aware of an ache in her knuckles. She loosened her grip on the gate and watched the rook, broad wings beating the air as he soared towards the top of the Blackhurst trees. In the west a flock of clouds had been lit from behind and glowed pink in the darkening sky.
Nell glanced dazedly at the cottage garden. The little girl was gone. Or was she?
As Nell dug the stick in before her and started back towards the village, a peculiar sense of duality, not unwelcome, followed her all the way.
TWENTY-EIGHT.
BLACKHURST M MANOR, 1900.
NEXT morning, as pale wintry light rippled the gla.s.s of the nursery windows, Rose smoothed the ends of her long, dark hair. Mrs. Hopkins had brushed it until it shone, just the way Rose liked, and it sat perfectly against the lace of her very finest dress, the one that Mamma had sent for from Paris. Rose was feeling tired and a little tetchy, but that was her wont. Little girls with weak const.i.tutions weren"t expected to be happy all the time and Rose had no intention of performing against type. If she were honest, she rather liked having people walk on eggsh.e.l.ls around her: it made her feel a little less miserable when others were similarly stifled. Besides, Rose had good reason for weariness today. She had lain awake all night, tossing and turning like the princess with her pea, only it hadn"t been a lump in the mattress that had kept her awake, rather Mamma"s astonishing news. morning, as pale wintry light rippled the gla.s.s of the nursery windows, Rose smoothed the ends of her long, dark hair. Mrs. Hopkins had brushed it until it shone, just the way Rose liked, and it sat perfectly against the lace of her very finest dress, the one that Mamma had sent for from Paris. Rose was feeling tired and a little tetchy, but that was her wont. Little girls with weak const.i.tutions weren"t expected to be happy all the time and Rose had no intention of performing against type. If she were honest, she rather liked having people walk on eggsh.e.l.ls around her: it made her feel a little less miserable when others were similarly stifled. Besides, Rose had good reason for weariness today. She had lain awake all night, tossing and turning like the princess with her pea, only it hadn"t been a lump in the mattress that had kept her awake, rather Mamma"s astonishing news.
After Mamma had left the bedroom, Rose had fallen to pondering the precise nature of the stain on her family"s good name, exactly what sort of drama had erupted after her Aunt Georgiana"s flight from home and family. All night she had wondered about her wicked aunt, and the thoughts had not evaporated with the dawn. During breakfast, and later while Mrs. Hopkins dressed her, even now as she waited in the nursery, her mind was so engaged. She was watching the firelight flickering against the pale hearth bricks, wondering whether the dusky orange shadows resembled the door to h.e.l.l through which her aunt must surely have pa.s.sed, when suddenly-footsteps in the hallway!
Rose jumped a little in her seat, smoothed the lamb"s wool blanket across her knees, and quickly arranged her face along the lines of placid perfection she"d learned from Mamma. Cherished the little thrill that worked its way down her spine. Oh, what an important task it was! The a.s.signment of a protegee. Her very own wayward orphan to remake in her own image. Rose had never had a friend before, nor been allowed a pet of any kind (Mamma had grave concerns about rabies). And despite Mamma"s words of caution, she harbored great hopes for this cousin of hers. She would be turned into a lady, would become a companion for Rose, someone to mop Rose"s brow when she was ill, stroke her hand when she was peevish, brush her hair when she was bothered. And she would be so grateful for Rose"s instruction, so happy to have been granted insight into the ways of ladies, that she would do exactly as Rose ordered. She would be the perfect friend-one who never argued, never behaved tiresomely, never so much as ventured a disagreeable opinion.
The door opened, the fire sputtered crossly at the disturbance and Mamma strode into the room, blue skirts swishing. There was an agitation to Mamma"s manner today that piqued Rose"s interest, something in the set of her chin that suggested her misgivings about the project were greater and more varied than she had revealed. "Good morning, Rose," she said rather curtly.
"Good morning, Mamma."
"Allow me to present your cousin," the slightest pause, "Eliza."
And then, from somewhere behind Mamma"s skirts, was thrust forth the skinny sapling Rose had glimpsed from the window the day before.
Rose couldn"t help it, she drew back a little into the safe arms of her chair. Her gaze slid from top to bottom, taking in the child"s short, s.h.a.ggy hair, the ghastly attire (breeches!), her k.n.o.bbly knees and scuffed boots. The cousin said nothing, merely stared in a wide-eyed way Rose found exceptionally rude. Mamma was right. This girl (for surely she wasn"t expected to think of her as a cousin!) had been deprived of even the most basic education on manners.
Rose recaptured her flagging composure. "How do you do?" Her tone was a little weak, but a nod from Mamma a.s.sured her that she had performed well. She awaited a return greeting, but none was forthcoming. Rose glanced at Mamma, who indicated that she should push on regardless. "And tell me, Cousin Eliza," she tried again, "are you enjoying your time here with us?"
Eliza blinked at her as one might a curious, foreign animal in the London Zoo, then nodded.
Another set of footsteps in the hall and Rose was granted brief respite from the challenge of summoning up further pleasantries to converse with this strange, silent cousin.
"I"m sorry to interrupt you, my lady," came Mrs. Hopkins"s voice from the door, "only Dr. Matthews is downstairs in the morning room. He says he"s brought the new tincture you were asking after."
"Have him leave it for me, Mrs. Hopkins. I have other business to attend to at present."
"Of course, my lady, and I suggested as much to Dr. Matthews, but he was most definite about giving it to you himself."
Mamma"s eyelashes performed the slightest of flutters, so subtle that only one whose life"s work had involved observation of her moods would have noticed. "Thank you, Mrs. Hopkins," she said grimly. "Advise Dr. Matthews that I will be down directly."
As Mrs. Hopkins"s footsteps disappeared down the hallway, Mamma turned to the cousin and said, in a clear, authoritative voice, "You will sit silently on the rug and listen carefully as Rose instructs you. Do not move. Do not speak. Do not touch a thing."
"But, Mamma-" Rose had not expected to be left alone so soon.
"Perhaps you will begin your lessons by giving your cousin some guidance as to proper dress."
"Yes, Mamma."
And then the billowing blue skirts were receding again, the door was closed and the room"s fire ceased spitting. Rose met the cousin"s gaze. They were alone together and the work would begin.
"PUT THAT down. Put it down at once." Things were not going at all as Rose had imagined. The girl would not listen, would not obey, did not fall into line even when Rose raised the threat of Mamma"s wrath. For five whole minutes now Eliza had been wandering around the nursery, picking things up, inspecting them, putting them down again. No doubt leaving sticky fingerprints everywhere. At this moment she was shaking the kaleidoscope that some great-aunt or another had sent for Rose"s birthday one year. "That"s precious," Rose said sourly. "I insist that you leave it. You"re not even doing it right." down. Put it down at once." Things were not going at all as Rose had imagined. The girl would not listen, would not obey, did not fall into line even when Rose raised the threat of Mamma"s wrath. For five whole minutes now Eliza had been wandering around the nursery, picking things up, inspecting them, putting them down again. No doubt leaving sticky fingerprints everywhere. At this moment she was shaking the kaleidoscope that some great-aunt or another had sent for Rose"s birthday one year. "That"s precious," Rose said sourly. "I insist that you leave it. You"re not even doing it right."
Too late, Rose realized she had said the wrong thing. Now the cousin was coming towards her, holding out the kaleidoscope. Coming so close Rose could glimpse the dirt beneath her fingernails, the dreaded dirt that Mamma promised would make her ill.
Rose was horrified. She shrank back against her chair, head spinning. "No," she managed to say, "shoo. Get away."
Eliza stopped at the arm of the chair, seemed about to perch herself right there on the velvet.
"Get away, I said!" Rose flapped a pale, weak hand. Did it not understand the Queen"s English? "You mustn"t sit right by me."
"Why not?"
So it did have words. "You"ve been outside. You"re not clean. I could catch something." Rose collapsed back against the cushion. "I"m awfully dizzy now, and it"s all your fault."
"It"s not my fault," said Eliza plainly. Not even the tiniest note of proper supplication. "I"m dizzy, too. It"s because this room"s as hot as a furnace."
She was dizzy, too? Rose was speechless. Dizziness was her own special weapon to deploy. And what was the cousin doing now? She was on her feet again, moving towards the nursery window. Rose watched, eyes wide with fear. Surely she didn"t intend to- "I"ll just get this open." Eliza jiggled the first lock loose. "Then we"ll be all right."
"No," Rose felt terror surge within her. "No!"
"You"ll feel much better."
"But it"s winter. It"s come over all dark and cloudy outside. I might catch a chill."
Eliza shrugged. "You might not."
Rose was so shocked by the girl"s cheek that indignation outweighed fear. She adopted Mamma"s voice. "I demand that you stop."
Eliza wrinkled her nose, seemed to be digesting this instruction. As Rose held her breath, the cousin"s hands dropped from the window lock. She shrugged again, but the gesture was somehow less impertinent this time. As she wandered back towards the center of the room, Rose thought she detected a pleasing despondence in the set of Eliza"s shoulders. Finally, the girl stopped in the center of the rug and pointed to the cylinder in Rose"s lap. "Can you show me how it works? The telescope? I couldn"t see through it."
Rose exhaled, weary, relieved and increasingly confused by this strange creature. Really, to have turned her attention back to the silly trinket again, just like that! Still, the cousin had been obedient and surely that deserved some small encouragement..."First of all," she said primly, "it"s not a telescope at all. It"s a kaleido kaleidoscope. You"re not supposed to see through it. You look inside and the pattern changes." She held it up and performed the action before laying the toy on the floor and rolling it towards her cousin.
Eliza picked it up and put it to her eye, turned the end. As the pieces of colored gla.s.s rattled this way and that, her mouth spread into a wide smile, which broadened until she was laughing.
Rose blinked with surprise. She hadn"t heard much laughter before, only the servants occasionally when they thought she wasn"t near. The sound was lovely. A happy, light, girlish sound, quite at odds with her cousin"s appearance.
"Why do you wear those clothes?" said Rose.
Eliza continued to peer through the kaleidoscope. "Because they"re mine," she said eventually. "They belong to me."
"They look as if they belong to a boy."
"Once upon a time they did. Now they"re mine."
This was a surprise. Things were becoming more curious with each pa.s.sing minute. "Which boy?"
There came no answer, just the jiggling of the kaleidoscope.
"I said, which boy?" A little louder this time.
Slowly, Eliza lowered the toy.
"It"s very bad manners to ignore people, you know."
"I"m not ignoring you," said Eliza.
"Then why don"t you answer?"
Another shrug.
"It"s rude to lift your shoulders like that. When someone speaks to you, you must provide them with an answer. Now tell me, why were you ignoring my question?"
Eliza looked up and stared at her. As Rose watched, something seemed to change in her cousin"s face. A light that hadn"t been there before seemed now to glow behind her eyes. "I didn"t speak, because I didn"t want her her to know where I was." to know where I was."
"Her? Who?"
Carefully, slowly, Eliza came a little closer. "The Other Cousin."