"When I wished for the Secretaryship, my dear Glencore," said he, "I fancied the office as it used to be in olden times, when one played the great game of diplomacy with kings and ministers for antagonists, and the world at large for spectators; when consummate skill and perfect secrecy were objects of moment, and when grand combinations rewarded one"s labor with all the certainty of a mathematical problem. Every move on the board could be calculated beforehand, no disturbing influences could derange plans that never were divulged till they were accomplished. All that is past and gone; our Const.i.tution, grown every day more and more democratic, rules by the House of Commons. Questions whose treatment demands all the skill of a statesman and all the address of a man of the world come to be discussed in open Parliament; correspondence is called for, despatches and even private notes are produced; and while the State you are opposed to revels in the security of secrecy, _your_ whole game is revealed to the world in the shape of a blue-book.
"Nor is this all: the debaters on these nice and intricate questions, involving the most far-reaching speculation of statesmanship, are men of trade and enterprise, who view every international difficulty only in its relation to their peculiar interests. National greatness, honor, and security are nothing,--the maintenance of that equipoise which preserves peace is nothing,--the nice management which, by the exhibition of courtesy here, or of force there, is nothing compared to alliances that secure us ample supplies of raw material, and abundant markets for manufactures. Diplomacy has come to this!"
"But you must have known all this before you accepted office; you had seen where the course of events led to, and were aware that the House ruled the country."
"Perhaps I did not recognize the fact to its full extent. Perhaps I fancied I could succeed in modifying the system," said Upton, cautiously.
"A hopeless undertaking!" said Glencore.
"I"m not quite so certain of that," said Upton, pausing for a while as he seemed to reflect. When he resumed, it was in a lighter and more flippant tone: "To make short of it, I saw that I could not keep office on these conditions, but I did not choose to go out as a beaten man. For my pride"s sake I desired that my reasons should be reserved for myself alone; for my actual benefit it was necessary that I should have a hold over my colleagues in office. These two conditions were rather difficult to combine, but I accomplished them.
"I had interested the King so much in my views as to what the Foreign Office ought to be that an interchange of letters took place, and his Majesty imparted to me his fullest confidence in disparagement of the present system. This correspondence was a perfect secret to the whole Cabinet; but when it had arrived at a most confidential crisis, I suggested to the King that Cloudeslie should be consulted. I knew well that this would set the match to the train. No sooner did Cloudeslie learn that such a correspondence had been carried on for months without his knowledge, views stated, plans promulgated, and the King"s pleasure taken on questions not one of which should have been broached without his approval and concurrence, than he declared he would not hold the seals of office another hour. The King, well knowing his temper, and aware what a terrific exposure might come of it, sent for me, and asked what was to be done. I immediately suggested my own resignation as a sacrifice to the difficulty and to the wounded feelings of the Duke.
Thus did I achieve what I sought for. I imposed a heavy obligation on the King and the Premier, and I have secured secrecy as to my motives, which none will ever betray.
"I only remained for the debate of the other night, for I wanted a little public enthusiasm to mark the fall of the curtain."
"So that you still hold them as your debtors?" asked Glencore.
"Without doubt, I do; my claim is a heavy one."
"And what would satisfy it?"
"If my health would stand England," said Upton, leisurely, "I"d take a peerage; but as this murky atmosphere would suffocate me, and as I don"t care for the latter without the political privileges, I have determined to have the "Garter.""
"The Garter! a blue ribbon!" exclaimed Glencore, as though the insufferable coolness with which the pretension was announced might justify any show of astonishment.
"Yes; I had some thoughts of India, but the journey deters me,--in fact, as I have enough to live on, I "d rather devote the remainder of my days to rest, and the care of this shattered const.i.tution." It is impossible to convey to the reader the tender and affectionate compa.s.sion with which Sir Horace seemed to address these last words to himself.
"Do you ever look upon yourself as the luckiest fellow in Europe, Upton?" asked Glencore.
"No," sighed he; "I occasionally fancy I have been hardly dealt with by fortune. I have only to throw my eyes around me, and see a score of men, richer and more elevated than myself, not one of whom has capacity for even a third-rate task, so that really the self-congratulation you speak of has not occurred to me."
"But, after all, you have had a most successful career--"
"Look at the matter this way, Glencore; there are about six--say six men in all Europe--who have a little more common sense than all the rest of the world: I could tell you the names of five of them." If there was a supreme boastfulness in the speech, the modest delivery of it completely mystified the hearer, and he sat gazing with wonderment at the man before him.
CHAPTER XLV. SOME SAD REVERIES
"Have you any plans, Glencore?" asked Upton, as they posted along towards Dover.
"None," was the brief reply.
"Nor any destination you desire to reach?"
"Just as little."
"Such a state as yours, then, I take it, is about the best thing going in life. Every move one makes is attended with so many adverse considerations,--every goal so separated from us by unforeseen difficulties,--that an existence, even without what is called an object, has certain great advantages."
"I am curious to hear them," said the other, half cynically.
"For myself," said Upton, not accepting the challenge, "the brief intervals of comparative happiness I have enjoyed have been in periods when complete repose, almost torpor, has surrounded me, and when the mere existence of the day has engaged my thoughts."
"What became of memory all this while?"
"Memory!" said Upton, laughing, "I hold my memory in proper subjection.
It no more dares obtrude upon me uncalled for than would my valet come into my room till I ring for him. Of the slavery men endure from their own faculties I have no experience."
"And, of course, no sympathy for them."
"I will not say that I cannot compa.s.sionate sufferings, though I have not felt them."
"Are you quite sure of that?" asked Glencore, almost sternly; "is not your very pity a kind of contemptuous sentiment towards those who sorrow without reason,--the strong man"s estimate of the weak man"s sufferings?
Believe me, there is no true condolence where there is not the same experience of woe!"
"I should be sorry to lay down so narrow a limit to fellow-feeling,"
said Upton.
"You told me a few moments back," said Glencore, "that your memory was your slave. How, then, can you feel for one like me, whose memory is his master? How understand a path that never wanders out of the shadow of the past?"
There was such an accent of sorrow impressed upon these words that Upton did not desire to prolong a discussion so painful; and thus, for the remainder of the way, little was interchanged between them. They crossed the strait by night, and as Upton stole upon deck after dusk, he found Glencore seated near the wheel, gazing intently at the lights on sh.o.r.e, from which they were fast receding.
"I am taking my last look at England, Upton," said he, affecting a tone of easy indifference.
"You surely mean to go back again one of these days?" said Upton.
"Never, never!" said he, solemnly. "I have made all my arrangements for the future,--every disposition regarding my property; I have neglected nothing, so far as I know, of those claims which, in the shape of relationship, the world has such reverence for; and now I bethink me of myself. I shall have to consult you, however, about this boy," said he, faltering in the words. "The objection I once entertained to his bearing my name exists no longer; he may call himself Ma.s.sy, if he will. The chances are," added he, in a lower and more feeling voice, "that he rejects a name that will only remind him of a wrong!"
"My dear Glencore," said Upton, with real tenderness, "do I apprehend you aright? Are you at last convinced that you have been unjust? Has the moment come in which your better judgment rises above the evil counsels of prejudice and pa.s.sion--"
"Do you mean, am I a.s.sured of her innocence?" broke in Glencore, wildly.
"Do you imagine, if I were so, that I could withhold my hand from taking a life so infamous and dishonored as mine? The world would have no parallel for such a wretch! Mark me, Upton!" cried he, fiercely, "there is no torture I have yet endured would equal the bare possibility of what you hint at."
"Good Heavens! Glencore, do not let me suppose that selfishness has so marred and disfigured your nature that this is true. Bethink you of what you say. Would it not be the crowning glory of your life to repair a dreadful wrong, and acknowledge before the world that the fame you had aspersed was without stain or spot?"
"And with what grace should I ask the world to believe me? Is it when expiating the shame of a falsehood that I should call upon men to accept me as truthful? Have I not proclaimed her, from one end of Europe to the other, dishonored? If _she_ be absolved, what becomes of _me?_"
"This is unworthy of you, Glencore," said Upton, severely; "nor, if illness and long suffering had not impaired your judgment, had you ever spoken such words. I say once more, that if the day came that you could declare to the world that her fame had no other reproach than the injustice of your own unfounded jealousy, that day would be the best and the proudest of your life."
"The proud day that published me a calumniator of all that I was most pledged to defend,--the deliberate liar against the obligation of the holiest of all contracts! You forget, Upton,--but I do not forget,--that it was by this very argument you once tried to dissuade me from my act of vengeance. You told me--ay, in words that still ring in my ears--to remember that if by any accident or chance her innocence might be proven, I could never avail myself of the indication without first declaring my own unworthiness to profit by it; that if the Wife stood forth in all the pride of purity, the Husband would be a scoff and a shame throughout the world!"
"When I said so," said Upton, "it was to turn you from a path that could not but lead to ruin; I endeavored to deter you by an appeal that interested even your selfishness."
"Your subtlety has outwitted itself, Upton," said Glencore, with a bitter irony; "it is not the first instance on record where blank cartridge has proved fatal!"
"One thing is perfectly clear," said Upton, boldly, "the man who shrinks from the repair of a wrong he has done, on the consideration of how it would affect himself and his own interests, shows that he cares more for the outward show of honor than its real and sustaining power."