Her mother, who lay stretched at ease on a pillowed couch, shook her head.
"I"m not sorry about the baby--she"s a darling--but you needn"t think I"m going to be called "grandmother," Cecily. A grandmother is a person who settles down. I don"t expect to settle down. My life has been hard.
I struggled and strove through all those awful years after your father--left me. I educated you and Bob. And now you"ve both married well, and I"ve a bit of money ahead from my little book. For the first time in my life I can have leisure and pretty clothes; for the first time in my life I feel young; and then, absolutely without warning, you come back from Europe with your beautiful Surprise, and expect me to live up to it--"
"Oh, no!" Cecily protested.
"Yes, you do," insisted little Mrs. Beale. She sat up and gazed at her daughter accusingly. With the lace of her boudoir cap framing her small, fair face, she looked really young--as young almost as the demure Cecily, who, in less coquettish garb, was taking her new motherhood very seriously.
"Yes, you do," Mrs. Beale repeated. "I know just what you expect of me.
You expect me to put on black velvet and old lace and diamonds. I shan"t dare to show you my new afternoon frock--it"s _red_, Cecily, geranium _red_; I shan"t dare to wear even the tiniest slit in my skirts; I shan"t dare to wear a Bulgarian sash or a Russian blouse, or a low neck--without expecting to hear some one say, disapprovingly, "And she"s a _grandmother_!"" She paused, and Cecily broke in tumultuously:
"I should think you"d be proud of--the baby."
"No, I"m not proud." Mrs. Beale thrust her toes into a pair of silver-embroidered Turkish slippers and stood up. "I"m not proud just at this moment, Cecily. You see--there"s Valentine Landry."
"Mother--!"
"Now please don"t say it that way, Cecily. He"s half in love with me, and I"m beginning to like him, awfully. I"ve never had a bit of romance in my life. I married your father when I was too young to know my own mind, and he was much older than I. Then came the years of struggle after he went away.... I was a good wife and a good mother. I worshiped you and Bob, and I gave my youth for you. I never thought of any other man while your father lived, even though he did not belong to me. And now he is dead. You"ll never know--I hope you may _never_ know--what drudgery means as I have known it. I"ve written my poor little screeds when I was half-dead with fatigue; I"ve been out in cold and rain to get news; I"ve interviewed all sorts of people when I"ve hated them and hated the work. And if now I want to have my little fling, why not?
Everybody effervesces some time. This is my moment--and you can"t expect me to spoil it by playing the devoted grandmother."
The baby was wailing, a little hungry call, which made her mother take her up and say, hastily: "It"s time to feed her. You won"t mind, mother?"
"Yes, I _do_ mind," said the little lady. "I don"t like that Madonna effect, with the baby in your arms. It makes me feel horribly frivolous and worldly, Cecily. But it doesn"t change my mind a bit."
After a pause, the Madonna-creature asked, "Who is Valentine Landry?"
Mrs. Beale had her saucy little cap off, and was brushing out her thin, light locks in which the gray showed slightly. But she stopped long enough to explain. "He isn"t half as sentimental as his name. I met him in Chicago at the Warburtons", just before I made a success of my book.
I was very tired, and he cheered me a lot. He"s from Denver, and he made his money in mines. He hasn"t married, because he hasn"t had time. We"re awfully good friends, but he doesn"t know my age. He knows that I have a daughter, but not a grand-daughter. He thinks of me as a young woman--not as a grandmother-creature in black silk and mitts--"
"_Mother_! n.o.body expects you to wear black silk and mitts--"
"Well, you expect me to have a black-silk-and-mitt mind. You know you are thinking this very minute that there is no idiot like an old one--Cecily--"
The girl flushed. "I don"t think you are quite kind, mother."
Mrs. Beale laughed and forgot to be cynical. "I know what you"d like to have me, dearie, but this is my moment of emanc.i.p.ation." She crossed the room and looked down at the tiny bit of humanity curled like a kitten in the curve of her daughter"s arm. "I"m not going to be your grandmother, yet, midget," she announced, with decision. Then, "Cecily, I think when she"s old enough I shall have her call me--Cupid--"
And laughing in the face of her daughter"s horrified protest, the mutinous grandparent retired precipitately to her own room.
Three hours later, Mrs. Cissy Beale went forth to conquer, gowned in a restaurant frock of shadow lace topped by a black tulle hat.
Valentine Landry, greeting her in Cecily"s white-and-gold drawing-room, was breezy and radiant. "You"re as lovely as ever," he said, as he took her hand; "perhaps a bit lovelier because you are glad to see me."
"I am glad," she a.s.sured him; "and it is so nice to have you come before the summer is at an end. We can have a ride out into Westchester, and come back by daylight to dinner."
"And no chaperons?"
"No." She was looking up at him a little wistfully. "We know each other too well to have to drag in a lot of people, don"t we? It is the men whom women trust with whom they go alone."
He met her glance gravely. "Do you know," he said, "that you have the sweetest way of putting things? A man simply has to come up to your expectations. He"d as soon think of disappointing a baby as of disappointing you."
His selection of a simile was unfortunate. Mrs. Beale"s eyes became fixed upon a refractory b.u.t.ton of her glove.
"Please help me," she said; "your fingers are stronger," and as he bent above her hand she forgot the baby, forgot her new estate, forgot everything except the joy she felt at having his smooth gray head so close to her own.
When he had her safely beside him in his big car he asked, "What made you run away from me in Chicago?"
"My daughter came home from Europe."
"I can"t quite think of you with a grown daughter."
"Cecily"s a darling." Mrs. Beale"s voice held no enthusiasm.
Landry, noting her tone, looked faintly surprised. "You and she must have great good times together."
"Oh, yes--"
Mrs. Beale wished that he wouldn"t talk about Cecily. Cecily had married before good times were possible. They had never played together--she and the little daughter for whom she had toiled and sacrificed.
Landry"s voice broke in upon her meditations: "I should like to meet Cecily."
Mrs. Beale switched him away from the topic expeditiously. He should not see her as yet in the bosom of her family. _He should not_. He should not see Cecily with her air of mature motherliness. He should not see Victor, Cecily"s husband, who was ten years older than Cecily and only ten years younger than herself. He should not hear her big son Bob call her "Grandma." He should not gaze upon the pretty deference of Bob"s little wife toward the queen-dowager!
Dining later opposite Landry in a great golden palace, Cissy seemed like some gay tropical bird. In her new and lovely clothes she was very pretty, very witty, almost girlishly charming. Yet Landry was conscious of a vague feeling of disappointment. She had been more serenely satisfying in Chicago--not so brilliantly hard, not so persistently vivacious. How could he know that the change was one of desperation?
Cissy, as grandmother, felt that she must prove, even to herself, that she was not yet a back number.
With this rift in the lute of their budding romance, they ate and drank and went to the play and had what might otherwise have been an enchanted ride home in the moonlight. But when Landry said "Good-night"
Cissy felt the loss of something in his manner. His greeting that afternoon had had in it something almost of tenderness; his farewell was commonplace and slightly constrained.
As Mrs. Beale went through the dimly lighted hall to her room, she met Cecily in a flowing garment, pacing back and forth with the baby in her arms.
"She isn"t well," Cecily whispered, as the little lady in the lace frock questioned her. "I don"t know whether I ought to call a doctor or not."
Mrs. Beale poked the tiny mite with an expert finger. "I"ll give her a drink of hot water with a drop of peppermint in it," she said, "as soon as I get my hat off, and you"d better go back to bed, Cecily; you aren"t well enough to worry with her."
Cecily looked relieved. "I was worried," she confessed. "It"s nurse"s night out and Victor had to go to a board meeting unexpectedly--and with you away--I lost my nerve. It seemed dreadful to be alone, mother."
Mrs. Beale knew how dreadful it was. She had carried the wailing Cecily in her arms night after night in the weeks which followed the crushing knowledge of her husband"s infidelity. But she had carried a heavier burden than the child--the burden of poverty, of desertion, of an unknown future.
But these things were not to be voiced. "You go to bed, Cecily," she said. "I"ll look after her."
Walking the floor later with the baby in her arms, Mrs. Beale"s mind was on Landry. "Heavens! if he could see me now!" was her shocked thought, as she stopped in front of a mirror to survey the picture she made.
Her hair was down and the grayest lock of all showed plainly. She had discarded frills and furbelows and wore a warm gray wrapper. She looked nice and middle-aged, yet carried, withal, a subtle air of girlishness--would carry it, in spite of storm or stress, until the end, as the sign and seal of her undaunted spirit.
The baby stirred in her arms, and again Mrs. Beale went back and forth, crooning the lullaby with which she had once put her own babies to bed.
In the morning the baby was much better, but Mrs. Beale was haggard. She stayed in bed until eleven o"clock, however. Cecily, coming in at twelve, found her ready to go out. In response to an inquiry, Mrs. Beale spoke of a luncheon engagement with Valentine Landry.