Over Bearing
If there are people who exclusively seeing Xiao Zhi, they must be not believing, this kind of elegant man, the kind cold man, and also the general who lead the troops to fight in battle field.
The genius in military, marching line up, and the well-prepared and obtain high martial art skill.
This kind of man, he really beyond the deification, deify till a soldier like Liu Shan not able to thinks about it, his great general could fall in love with such type of girl.
So, when Xiao Zhi asking him : “You say, if a girl is thinking, wanting to born a baby, what she does mean?”
Liu Shan even felt suddenly there was something stuck on his throat, while those thousands of soldiers behind him seem to get chocked too.
That time, they were discussing about the bandits in Chong Zhou province, but who knows, once this general opened his mouth, he spoke out this kind of words.
Liu Shan face pale and seems famished, he didn’t know to answer, he just lowering his head but this big general was surely waiting for his answer.
“This… let this lowly carefully to think about it.” He stammered giving the answer.
“It’s true. It really needs time carefully to think about it.” Xiao Zi said while his hand grabbed the bead which in table, and spreading straight his knees.
“General, don’t we today discussing about the bandits who troubling in Cong Zhou province?” Liu Shan panicky asking. His majesty has made the imperial edict, a month later, big general should stabilized the Cong Zhou situation and swept the rebellion, if not now, discussing how to solve the problem, the consequences will be disastrous.
“The bandits of Cong Zhou, only fifty thousand soldiers are enough to make the area stable.” Xiao Zhi said by nodding-nodding his head.
“ Fifty thousand? Not too little?” Liu Shan not understood his general, while the rest of lower rank general are also shouted in one voice.
“Fifty thousand is more than enough, the rest let me handle it.”
If the general has speak already, the rest lower general couldn’t say anything more, they with Liu Shan, awkwardly withdrawn, they starting to discuss what was going on with their big general.
The army people, mostly is rough fellow, this genteel manner is an issue to discuss, being afraid of, it would be more important than the war.
One of the lower rank general walked near to Liu Shan, “Liu military officer, you say, does our general falls in love with which family of lady, and that lady wants to bear general child.”
Once Liu Shan heard, he thought it reasonable, combines with all of others views, rushing to the front of the general, he said : “General, if a girl wanted to bear the child of a man, it means that she wants to continue the man’s family line.” After he spoke, general hand closed the scriptures that he has reading for half.
“And then?”
“That girl, absolutely loves that man deeply.” After Liu Shan finished, it didn’t even make Xiao Zhi expressed happy feeling but his face turn to be so gloomy.
“Deeply in love?” Xiao Zhi made fist from his left hand, and rolled up the Confucian book, and wrinkle all the pages.
Liu Shan swallow his saliva, he shocked, did he make a wrong guessing?
“So come to speak of, Zhu Yu has someone she madly in love?” very cold voice, very low voice as if it deliberately suppressed.
Liu Shan dumbfounded standing, he never once seen this kind of expression of his general, angry, resentment, hesitated… to the extend, he is jealous!
Who was Zhu Yu that general said? A person that makes the general shown this kind of infected expression, a person who has hard character.
While he seriously thought about it, he heard sound of something falling. Liu Shan raised his head and saw that book which originally held by Xiao Zhi has been squeezing into powdery.
At his mind, he is not familiar with that kind of thing, moreover he doesn’t understand what kind of things makes his general to have shown such emotions.
She is deeply in love with that man… is it the child she means? Who? Who is that man? He crazily wants to know, repressed the anger and resentment in his chest that he never been had before.
Even when he was young, he been ever surrounded by many enemies which sized three times than his troops in battle field, even among his men, he even be betrayed by his men before but he didn’t ever get angry just like now.
But now, he even possesses this kind of anger and resentment emotion. All his body is filled with the boiling blood feeling, it even more than the feeling, wanting to kill other people brutally.
Step by step he walked into the familiar room, relaxing kicking the door opened.
While the person who lying on the bed sleep soundly, he even feeling want to burst out something. Without him, of course she could sleep soundly and ease, while he can’t without her. Once she doesn’t company him, he not able to sleep.
He sat at the edge of the bed, Xiao Zhi staring Chu Zhu Yu sleeping face, raised his finger and strokes her cheek.
The cold touched, making her moan, shaking head to throw off the cold feeling.
Slowly his finger shifting to her nape. The soft silk nape, across the skin, he can feel the flow of the blood under that skin. She is so gentle and demure, only with his little physical strength, she might no longer exist.
“So cold.” Chu Zhu Yu muttered while sleep, her eyes closed. A pair of cold hand touching her, even holding her tighter.
She is sharp person, immediately wakes up. Blinking few times, her eyes not yet fully open, Chu Zhu Yu looking at the person who standing right in front of her, “Why you come so late, I think you won’t come tonight.”
Her voice sounded as if she is making a complain, but this simple words even confused him, stunned him and make him speechless.
“You… waiting for me?” the anger that first time he wanted to burst out suddenly change to the soften mood, the tangled anger mood finally released.
“Come on, get in bed. Outside is so cold.” She patted the empty s.p.a.ce in her bed.
Xiao Zhi lying on the bed and stubbornly asking : “ Are you waiting me?”
“Yes, yes, waiting for you, waiting till drowsy and I felt asleep.”
“I like you waiting for me.” He tightly grabbing on her wrist, “I don’t care who the man is, since today, you are only allowed to wait for me, not allowed to wait other man.”
“What a man?” she confusedly asking. The wind blow colder outside, she quickly wanted to get into her bed and sleep.
“The man that you madly in love.” He grabbed her even tighter, “You cannot love another man.” He is acting as if a rare treasure was taken away by others, the general losing his usual calmness.
“Madly in love? I don’t… ah~” she stroke her nose, and struggle moving him from her wrist, “ Aiya, you let me go a~, being grabbed like this hurt me!”
“Is it hurt?” he pulled her to come closer to his chest, very possessive. His lips gently touching her finger joints, back of her hand.
Chu Zhu Yu face suddenly turn red, the current him, he is radiating dangerous atmosphere surrounded her, she felt not safe and wanted to run away.
But she with her strength is nothing compare to him, while he still takes another hand of hers and kissed it, he deliberately suppressed with a deep voice and remembered, asking : “Can you tell me, whose child do you want to bear?”
Boom!
Chu Zhu Yu face turned redder and her head getting lower, “You… in the middle of night, how can you come to ask me this matter?”
“I don’t allow!” suddenly he used agitate voice, he let go her wrist but embrace her waist.
Desperately pulling her into his arm, “You are mine, I don’t allow you to bear any man child, I don’t allow you to fall in love with any man, disallow you to leave me!”
His series of “allow/disallow”, makes her feel faint.
Struggling to move her body, Chu Zhu Yu just want to push down this person in front her, but the person who hugged her is so big, almost embedded in her flesh. She starting to suspect, her waist will be break by him.
“You released your hand first, my waist is so hurt!” she made a fist from her hand and beating up his shoulder.
Xiao Zhi didn’t move, he just keep on embracing Chu Zhu Yu in his bosom, hoping that she could get into his flesh and blood.
“If you acting this way, I will never want to see you anymore!” She spoke harshly, she confused what is going on with him tonight in the middle of night.
His body stunned, finally he slowly released his hand, little by little letting her off from his embrace, but his pair of hand still holding in her waist, “Do you really want to leave me?”
He stared at her, his eyes showed panic, confused, fear, anxiety, just letting her stayed in daze.
Chu Zhu Yu felt, her heart being held tight by someone. The current him, very similar to the heaven fairy who is falling to the human world, and experiencing the hurt of the ordinary human pain. Actually, she wanted to scold him harshly but now, she only keeps all in her stomach.
“What’s matter?” she asked. He gives her a sense of sympathy and pity feeling toward him.
“Don’t leave me.” At the moment his voice sounded hoa.r.s.e. He buried his head into her hair which spreading, as if someone who drowning in the water and trying to grab the wood, “ You are someone I hardly found and obtained, I found you, moreover I couldn’t let you go.”
She breathing hard, patting his shoulder, “I don’t say that I am leaving.”
“Don’t leave me, whatever you want, I can give you all.” If she wanted a baby, can he give her one?
“Okay, okay, I won’t, leaving.” She cajoles him as if he is a little child. As she predicted, he is acting like a child who is being afraid of losing his toys, while she is the unlucky toy.
Getting Chu Zhu Yu guarantee, Xiao Zhi ruthless and tyrannical acts, slowly by slowly disappear.
He as usual taking off his hair cap, removing his outer robe, and naturally lying beside her, unimaginable, her few words, could disappearing his anxiety. His heart no longer empty like before, as if his heart being put inside something and slowly filled fully.
His hands still embrace her waist, but this time, the strength is not as tight as before, loosen bit.
“Tired?” Chu Zhu Yu looked at Xiao Zhi who eyes half opened.
“Little.” He murmured and closed his eyes. His nose filled with her scent, which actually makes him feel very comfortable.
“So, let sleep.” Chu Zhu Yu pulling the blanket, shares it half to cover Xiao Zhi’s body.
She just hoping, after this, she could sleep peacefully.