"No."
"Oh, Eugene, do you know where I have spent the last three days?" she asked.
He did not answer.
"On my knees. On my knees," she declared, "asking G.o.d to save you from yourself."
"Don"t talk rot, Angela," he returned coldly. "You know how I feel about this thing. How much worse am I now than I was before? I tried to get you on the phone to tell you. I went to find her and bring her back, and I did as far as Lenox. I am going to win this fight. I am going to get Suzanne, either legally or otherwise. If you want to give me a divorce, you can. I will provide amply for you. If you don"t I"m going to take her, anyhow. That"s understood between me and her. Now what"s the use of hysterics?"
Angela looked at him tearfully. Could this be the Eugene she had known? In each scene with him, after each plea, or through it, she came to this adamantine wall. Was he really so frantic about this girl? Was he going to do what he said? He outlined to her quite calmly his plans as recently revised, and at one point Angela, speaking of Mrs. Dale, interrupted him--"she will never give her up to you--you will see. You think she will. She says she will. She is only fooling you. She is fighting for time. Think what you are doing. You can"t win."
"Oh, yes, I can," said Eugene, "I practically have already. She will come to me."
"She may, she may, but at what a cost. Look at me, Eugene. Am I not enough? I am still good looking. You have declared to me time and again that I have a beautiful form. See, see"--she tore open her dressing gown and the robe de nuit, in which she had come in. She had arranged this scene, especially thought it out, and hoped it would move him. "Am I not enough? Am I not still all that you desire?"
Eugene turned his head away in disgust--wearily--sick of their melodramatic appeals. This was the last role Angela should have played. It was the most ineffectual, the least appropriate at the moment. It was dramatic, striking, but totally ineffective under the circ.u.mstances.
"It"s useless acting in that way to me, Angela," he said. "I"m no longer to be moved in that way by you. All marital affection between us is dead--terribly so. Why plead to me with something that has no appeal. I can"t help it. It"s dead. Now what are we going to do about it?"
Once more Angela turned wearily. Although she was nerve worn and despairing, she was still fascinated by the tragedy which was being played out under her eyes. Would nothing make him see?
They went their separate ways for the night, and the next day he was at his desk again. Word came from Suzanne that she was still in Lenox, and then that her mother had gone to Boston for a day or two on a visit. The fifth day Colfax stepped into his office, and, hailing him pleasantly, sat down.
"Well, how are things with you, old man?" he asked.
"Oh, about the same," said Eugene. "I can"t complain."
"Everything going all right with you?"
"Yes, moderately so."
"People don"t usually b.u.t.t in on you here when I"m here, do they?" he asked curiously.
"I"ve given orders against anything like that, but I"ll make it doubly sure in this case," said Eugene, alert at once. Could Colfax be going to talk to him about anything in connection with his case? He paled a little.
Colfax looked out of the window at the distant panorama of the Hudson. He took out a cigar, and cut the end, but did not light it.
"I asked you about not being interrupted," he began thoughtfully, "because I have a little something I want to talk to you about, which I would rather no one else heard. Mrs. Dale came to me the other day," he said quietly. Eugene started at the mention of her name and paled still more, but gave no other outward sign. "And she told me a long story about something that you were trying to do in connection with her daughter--run away with her, or go and live with her without a license or a divorce, or desert your wife, or something to that effect, which I didn"t pay much attention to, but which I have to talk to you about just the same. Now, I never like to meddle with a man"s personal affairs. I don"t think that they concern me. I don"t think they concern this business, except in so far as they may affect it unfavorably, but I would like to know if it is true. Is it?"
"Yes," said Eugene.
"Mrs. Dale is an old friend of mine. I"ve known her for years. I know Mrs. Witla, of course, but not quite in the same way. I haven"t seen as much of her as I have of you. I didn"t know that you were unhappily married, but that is neither here nor there. The point is, that she seems to be on the verge of making a great scandal out of this--she seems a little distracted to me--and I thought I"d better come up and have a little talk with you before anything serious really happened. You know it would be a rather damaging thing to this business if any scandal were started in connection with you just at present."
He paused, expecting some protest or explanation, but Eugene merely held his peace. He was tense, pale, harried. So she had gone to Colfax, after all. Instead of going to Boston; instead of keeping her word, she had come down here to New York and gone to Colfax. Had she told him the full story? Very likely Colfax, in spite of all his smooth words, would be inclined to sympathize with her. What must he think of him? He was rather conservative in a social way. Mrs. Dale could be of service to him in her world in one way and another. He had never seen Colfax quite so cool and deliberate as he was now. He seemed to be trying to maintain an exceedingly judicial and impartial tone, which was not characteristic.
"You have always been an interesting study to me, Witla, ever since I first met you," he went on, after a time. "You"re a genius, I fancy, if there ever was one, but like all geniuses you are afflicted with tendencies which are erratic. I used to think for a little while that maybe you sat down and planned the things which you have carried through so successfully, but I have since concluded that you don"t. You attract some forms of force and order. Also, I think you have various other faculties--it would be hard for me to say just what they are. One is vision. I know you have that. Another is appreciation of ability. I know you have that. I have seen you pick some exceptional people. You plan in a way, but you don"t plan logically or deliberately, unless I am greatly mistaken. The matter of this Dale girl now is an interesting case in point, I think."
"Let"s not talk of her," said Eugene frigidly and bridling slightly. Suzanne was a sore point with him. A dangerous subject. Colfax saw it. "That"s something I can"t talk about very well."
"Well, we won"t," put in the other calmly, "but the point can be established in other ways. You"ll admit, I think, that you haven"t been planning very well in connection with this present situation, for if you had been, you would see that in doing what you have been doing you have been riding straight for a fall. If you were going to take the girl, and she was willing, as she appears to be, you should have taken her without her mother"s knowledge, old man. She might have been able to adjust things afterward. If not, you would have had her, and I suppose you would have been willing to suffer the consequences, if you had been caught. As it is, you have let Mrs. Dale in on it, and she has powerful friends. You can"t ignore her. I can"t. She is in a fighting mood, and it looks as though she were going to bring considerable pressure to bear to make you let go."
He paused again, waiting to see if Eugene would say something, but the latter made no comment.
"I want to ask one question, and I don"t want you to take any offense at it, for I don"t mean anything by it, but it will help to clear this matter up in my own mind, and probably in yours later, if you will. Have you had anything to do in a compromising way with Miss----?"
"No," said Eugene before he could finish.
"How long has this fight been going on?"
"Oh, about four weeks, or a little less."
Colfax bit at the end of his cigar.
"You have powerful enemies here, you know, Witla. Your rule hasn"t been very lenient. One of the things I have noticed about you is your utter inability to play politics. You have picked men who would be very glad to have your shoes, if they could. If they could get the details of this predicament, your situation wouldn"t be tenable more than fifteen minutes. You know that, of course. In spite of anything I might do you would have to resign. You couldn"t maintain yourself here. I couldn"t let you. You haven"t thought of that in this connection, I suppose. No man in love does. I know just how you feel. From having seen Mrs. Witla, I can tell in a way just what the trouble is. You have been reined in too close. You haven"t been master in your own home. It"s irritated you. Life has appeared to be a failure. You have lost your chance, or thought you had on this matrimonial game, and it"s made you restless. I know this girl. She"s beautiful. But just as I say, old man, you haven"t counted the cost--you haven"t calculated right--you haven"t planned. If anything could prove to me what I have always faintly suspected about you, it is this: You don"t plan carefully enough----" and he looked out of the window.
Eugene sat staring at the floor. He couldn"t make out just what it was that Colfax intended to do about it. He was calmer in his thinking than he had ever seen him before--less dramatic. As a rule, Colfax yelled things--demonstrated, performed--made excited motions. This morning, he was slow, thoughtful, possibly emotional.
"In spite of the fact that I like you personally, Witla--and every man owes a little something to friendship--it can"t be worked out in business, though--I have been slowly coming to the conclusion that perhaps, after all, you aren"t just the ideal man for this place. You"re too emotional, I fancy--too erratic. White has been trying to tell me that for a long time, but I wouldn"t believe it. I"m not taking his judgment now. I don"t know that I would ever have acted on that feeling or idea, if this thing hadn"t come up. I don"t know that I am going to do so finally, but it strikes me that you are in a very ticklish position--one rather dangerous to this house, and you know that this house could never brook a scandal. Why the newspapers would never get over it. It would do us infinite harm. I think, viewing it all in all, that you had better take a year off and see if you can"t straighten this out quietly. I don"t think you had better try to take this girl unless you can get a divorce and marry her, and I don"t think you had better try to get a divorce unless you can do it quietly. I mean so far as your position here is concerned only. Apart from that, you can do what you please. But remember! a scandal would affect your usefulness here. If things can be patched up, well and good. If not, well then they can"t. If this thing gets talked about much, you know that there will be no hope of your coming back here. I don"t suppose you would be willing to give her up?"
"No," said Eugene.
"I thought as much. I know just how you take a thing of this kind. It hits your type hard. Can you get a divorce from Mrs. Witla?"
"I"m not so sure," said Eugene. "I haven"t any suitable grounds. We simply don"t agree, that"s all--my life has been a hollow sh.e.l.l."
"Well," said Colfax, "it"s a bad mix up all around. I know how you feel about the girl. She"s very beautiful. She"s just the sort to bring about a situation of this kind. I don"t want to tell you what to do. You are your own best judge, but if you will take my advice, you won"t try to live with her without first marrying her. A man in your position can"t afford to do it. You"re too much in the public eye. You know you have become fairly conspicuous in New York during the last few years, don"t you?"
"Yes," said Eugene. "I thought I had arranged that matter with Mrs. Dale."
"It appears not. She tells me that you are trying to persuade her daughter to live with you; that you have no means of obtaining a divorce within a reasonable time; that your wife is in a--pardon me, and that you insist on a.s.sociating with her daughter, meanwhile, which isn"t possible, according to her. I"m inclined to think she"s right. It"s hard, but it can"t be helped. She says that you say that if you are not allowed to do that, you will take her and live with her."
He paused again. "Will you?"
"Yes," said Eugene.
Colfax twisted slowly in his chair and looked out of the window. What a man! What a curious thing love was! "When is it," he asked finally, "that you think you might do this?"
"Oh, I don"t know. I"m all tangled up now. I"ll have to think."
Colfax meditated.
"It"s a peculiar business. Few people would understand this as well as I do. Few people would understand you, Witla, as I do. You haven"t calculated right, old man, and you"ll have to pay the price. We all do. I can"t let you stay here. I wish I could, but I can"t. You"ll have to take a year off and think this thing out. If nothing happens--if no scandal arises--well, I won"t say what I"ll do. I might make a berth for you here somewhere--not exactly in the same position, perhaps, but somewhere. I"ll have to think about that. Meanwhile"--he stopped and thought again.
Eugene was seeing clearly how it was with him. All this talk about coming back meant nothing. The thing that was apparent in Colfax"s mind was that he would have to go, and the reason that he would have to go was not Mrs. Dale or Suzanne, or the moral issue involved, but the fact that he had lost Colfax"s confidence in him. Somehow, through White, through Mrs. Dale, through his own actions day in and day out, Colfax had come to the conclusion that he was erratic, uncertain, and, for that reason, nothing else, he was being dispensed with now. It was Suzanne--it was fate, his own unfortunate temperament. He brooded pathetically, and then he said: "When do you want this to happen?"
"Oh, any time, the quicker, the better, if a public scandal is to grow out of it. If you want you can take your time, three weeks, a month, six weeks. You had better make it a matter of health and resign for your own good.--I mean the looks of the thing. That won"t make any difference in my subsequent conclusions. This place is arranged so well now, that it can run nicely for a year without much trouble. We might fix this up again--it depends----"
Eugene wished he had not added the last hypocritical phrase.
He shook hands and went to the door and Eugene strolled to the window. Here was all the solid foundation knocked from under him at one fell stroke, as if by a cannon. He had lost this truly magnificent position, $25,000 a year. Where would he get another like it? Who else--what other company could pay any such salary? How could he maintain the Riverside Drive apartment now, unless he married Suzanne? How could he have his automobile--his valet? Colfax said nothing about continuing his income--why should he? He really owed him nothing. He had been exceedingly well paid--better paid than he would have been anywhere else.
He regretted his fanciful dreams about Blue Sea--his silly enthusiasm in tying up all his money in that. Would Mrs. Dale go to Winfield? Would her talk do him any real harm there? Winfield had always been a good friend to him, had manifested a high regard. This charge, this talk of abduction. What a pity it all was. It might change Winfield"s att.i.tude, and still why should it? He had women; no wife, however. He hadn"t, as Colfax said, planned this thing quite right. That was plain now. His shimmering world of dreams was beginning to fade like an evening sky. It might be that he had been chasing a will-o"-the-wisp, after all. Could this really be possible? Could it be?
CHAPTER XXII.
One would have thought that this terrific blow would have given Eugene pause in a way, and it did. It frightened him. Mrs. Dale had gone to Colfax in order to persuade him to use his influence to make Eugene behave himself, and, having done so much, she was actually prepared to go further. She was considering some scheme whereby she could blacken Eugene, have his true character become known without in any way involving Suzanne. Having been relentlessly pursued and harried by Eugene, she was now as relentless in her own att.i.tude. She wanted him to let go now, entirely, if she could, not to see Suzanne any more and she went, first to Winfield, and then back to Lenox with the hope of preventing any further communication, or at least action on Suzanne"s part, or Eugene"s possible presence there.
In so far as her visit to Winfield was concerned, it did not amount to so much morally or emotionally in that quarter, for Winfield did not feel that he was called upon to act in the matter. He was not Eugene"s guardian, nor yet a public censor of morals. He waived the whole question grandly to one side, though in a way he was glad to know of it, for it gave him an advantage over Eugene. He was sorry for him a little--what man would not be? Nevertheless, in his thoughts of reorganizing the Blue Sea Corporation, he did not feel so bad over what might become of Eugene"s interests. When the latter approached him, as he did some time afterward, with the idea that he might be able to dispose of his holdings, he saw no way to do it. The company was really not in good shape. More money would have to be put in. All the treasury stock would have to be quickly disposed of, or a reorganization would have to be effected. The best that could be promised under these circ.u.mstances was that Eugene"s holdings might be exchanged for a fraction of their value in a new issue by a new group of directors. So Eugene saw the end of his dreams in that direction looming up quite clearly.
When he saw what Mrs. Dale had done, he saw also that it was necessary to communicate the situation clearly to Suzanne. The whole thing pulled him up short, and he began to wonder what was to become of him. With his twenty-five thousand a year in salary cut off, his prospect of an independent fortune in Blue Sea annihilated, the old life closed to him for want of cash, for who can go about in society without money? he saw that he was in danger of complete social and commercial extinction. If by any chance a discussion of the moral relation between him and Suzanne arose, his unconscionable att.i.tude toward Angela, if White heard of it for instance, what would become of him? The latter would spread the fact far and wide. It would be the talk of the town, in the publishing world at least. It would close every publishing house in the city to him. He did not believe Colfax would talk. He fancied that Mrs. Dale had not, after all, spoken to Winfield, but if she had, how much further would it go? Would White hear of it through Colfax? Would he keep it a secret if he knew? Never! The folly of what he had been doing began to dawn upon him dimly. What was it that he had been doing? He felt like a man who had been cast into a deep sleep by a powerful opiate and was now slowly waking to a dim wondering sense of where he was. He was in New York. He had no position. He had little ready money--perhaps five or six thousand all told. He had the love of Suzanne, but her mother was still fighting him, and he had Angela on his hands, undivorced. How was he to arrange things now? How could he think of going back to her? Never!
He sat down and composed the following letter to Suzanne, which he thought would make clear to her just how things stood and give her an opportunity to retract if she wished, for he thought he owed that much to her now: "Flower Face: I had a talk with Mr. Colfax this morning and what I feared might happen has happened. Your mother, instead of going to Boston as you thought, came to New York and saw him and, I fancy, my friend Winfield, too. She cannot do me any harm in that direction, for my relationship with that company does not depend on a salary, or a fixed income of any kind, but she has done me infinite harm here. Frankly, I have lost my position. I do not believe that would have come about except for other pressure with which she had nothing to do, but her charges and complaints, coming on top of opposition here on the part of someone else, has done what she couldn"t have done alone. Flower Face, do you know what that means? I told you once that I had tied up all my spare cash in Blue Sea, which I hoped would come to so much. It may, but the cutting off my salary here means great changes for me there, unless I can make some other business engagement immediately. I shall probably have to give up my apartment in Riverside Drive and my automobile, and in other ways trim my sails to meet the bad weather. It means that if you come to me, we should have to live on what I can earn as an artist unless I should decide and be able to find something else. When I came to Canada for you, I had some such idea in mind, but since this thing has actually happened, you may think differently. If nothing happens to my Blue Sea investment, there may be an independent fortune some day in that. I can"t tell, but that is a long way off, and meanwhile, there is only this, and I don"t know what else your mother may do to my reputation. She appears to be in a very savage frame of mind. You heard what she said at While-a-Way. She has evidently gone back on that completely.
"Flower Face, I lay this all before you so that you may see how things are. If you come to me it may be in the face of a faded reputation. You must realize that there is a great difference between Eugene Witla, Managing Publisher of the United Magazines Corporation, and Eugene Witla, Artist. I have been very reckless and defiant in my love for you. Because you are so lovely--the most perfect thing that I have ever known, I have laid all on the altar of my affection. I would do it again, gladly--a thousand times. Before you came, my life was a gloomy thing. I thought I was living, but I knew in my heart that it was all a dusty sh.e.l.l--a lie. Then you came, and oh, how I have lived! The nights, the days of beautiful fancy. Shall I ever forget White Wood, or Blue Sea, or Briarcliff, or that wonderful first day at South Beach? Little girl, our ways have been the ways of perfectness and peace. This has been an intensely desperate thing to do, but for my sake, I am not sorry. I have been dreaming a wonderfully sweet and perfect dream. It may be when you know all and see how things stand, and stop and think, as I now ask you to do, you may be sorry and want to change your mind. Don"t hesitate to do so if you feel that way. You know I told you to think calmly long ago before you told your mother. This is a bold, original thing we have been planning. It is not to be expected that the world would see it as we have. It is quite to be expected that trouble would follow in the wake of it, but it seemed possible to me, and still seems so. If you want to come to me, say so. If you want me to come to you, speak the word. We will go to England or Italy, and I will try my hand at painting again. I can do that I am sure. Or, we can stay here, and I can see if some engagement cannot be had.
"You want to remember, though, that your mother may not have finished fighting. She may go to much greater lengths than she has gone. You thought you might control her, but it seems not. I thought we had won in Canada, but it appears not. If she attempts to restrain you from using your share of your father"s estate, she may be able to cause you trouble there. If she attempts to incarcerate you, she might be successful. I wish I could talk to you. Can"t I see you at Lenox? Are you coming home next week? We ought to think and plan and act now if at all. Don"t let any consideration for me stand in your way, though, if you are doubtful. Remember that conditions are different now. Your whole future hangs on your decision. I should have talked this way long ago, perhaps, but I did not think your mother could do what she has succeeded in doing. I did not think my financial standing would play any part in it.
"Flower Face, this is the day of real trial for me. I am unhappy, but only at the possible prospect of losing you. Nothing of all these other things really matters. With you, everything would be perfect, whatever my condition might be. Without you, it will be as dark as night. The decision is in your hands and you must act. Whatever you decide, that I will do. Don"t, as I say, let consideration for me stand in the way. You are young. You have a social career before you. After all, I am twice your age. I talk thus sanely because if you come to me now, I want you to understand clearly how you come.
"Oh, I wonder sometimes if you really understand. I wonder if I have been dreaming a dream. You are so beautiful. You have been such an inspiration to me. Has this been a lure--a will-o"-the wisp? I wonder. I wonder. And yet I love you, love you, love you. A thousand kisses, Divine Fire, and I wait for your word.
"Eugene."
Suzanne read this letter at Lenox, and for the first time in her life she began to think and ponder seriously. What had she been doing? What was Eugene doing? This denouement frightened her. Her mother was more purposeful than she imagined. To think of her going to Colfax--of her lying and turning so in her moods. She had not thought this possible of her mother. Had not thought it possible that Eugene could lose his position. He had always seemed so powerful to her; so much a law unto himself. Once when they were out in an automobile together, he had asked her why she loved him, and she said, "because you are a genius and can do anything you please."
"Oh, no," he answered, "nothing like that. I can"t really do very much of anything. You just have an exaggerated notion of me."
"Oh, no, I haven"t," she replied. "You can paint, and you can write"--she was judging by some of the booklets about Blue Sea and verses about herself and clippings of articles done in his old Chicago newspaper days, which he showed her once in a sc.r.a.pbook in his apartment--"and you can run that office, and you were an advertising manager and an art director."
She lifted up her face and looked into his eyes admiringly.
"My, what a list of accomplishments!" he replied. "Well whom the G.o.ds would destroy they first make mad." He kissed her.
"And you love so beautifully," she added by way of climax.
Since then, she had thought of this often, but now, somehow, it received a severe setback. He was not quite so powerful. He could not prevent her mother from doing this, and could she really conquer her mother? Whatever Suzanne might think of her deceit, she was moving Heaven and earth to prevent this. Was she wholly wrong? After that climacteric night at St. Jacques, when somehow the expected did not happen, Suzanne had been thinking. Did she really want to leave home, and go with Eugene? Did she want to fight her mother in regard to her estate? She might have to do that. Her original idea had been that she and Eugene would meet in some lovely studio, and that she would keep her own home, and he would have his. It was something very different, this talk of poverty, and not having an automobile, and being far away from home. Still she loved him. Maybe she could force her mother to terms yet.
There were more struggles in the two or three succeeding days, in which the guardian of the estate--Mr. Herbert Pitcairn, of the Marquardt Trust Company, and, once more, Dr. Woolley, were called in to argue with her. Suzanne, unable to make up her mind, listened to her mother"s insidious plea, that if she would wait a year, and then say she really wanted him, she could have him; listened to Mr. Pitcairn tell her mother that he believed any court would on application adjudge her incompetent and tie up her estate; heard Dr. Woolley say in her presence to her mother that he did not deem a commission in lunacy advisable, but if her mother insisted, no doubt a judge would adjudge her insane, if no more than to prevent this unhallowed consummation. Suzanne became frightened. Her iron nerve, after Eugene"s letter, was weakening. She was terribly incensed against her mother, but she began now for the first time to think what her friends would think. Supposing her mother did lock her up. Where would they think she was? All these days and weeks of strain, which had worn her mother threadbare had told something on her own strength, or rather nerve. It was too intense, and she began to wonder whether they had not better do as Eugene suggested, and wait a little while. He had agreed up at St. Jacques to wait, if she were willing. Only the provision was that they were to see each other. Now her mother had changed front again, pleading danger, undue influence, that she ought to have at least a year of her old kind of life undisturbed to see whether she really cared.
"How can you tell?" she insisted to Suzanne, in spite of the girl"s desire not to talk. "You have been swept into this, and you haven"t given yourself time to think. A year won"t hurt. What harm will it do you or him?"
"But, mama," asked Suzanne over and over at different times, and in different places, "why did you go and tell Mr. Colfax? What a mean, cruel thing that was to do!"
"Because I think he needs something like that to make him pause and think. He isn"t going to starve. He is a man of talent. He needs something like that to bring him to his senses. Mr. Colfax hasn"t discharged him. He told me he wouldn"t. He said he would make him take a year off and think about it, and that"s just what he has done. It won"t hurt him. I don"t care if it does. Look at the way he has made me suffer."
She felt exceedingly bitter toward Eugene, and was rejoicing that at last she was beginning to have her innings.
"Mama," said Suzanne, "I am never going to forgive you for this. You are acting horribly--I will wait, but it will come to the same thing in the end. I am going to have him."
"I don"t care what you do after a year," said Mrs. Dale cheerfully and subtly. "If you will just wait that long and give yourself time to think and still want to marry him, you can do so. He can probably get a divorce in that time, anyhow." She did not mean what she was saying, but any argument was good for the situation, if it delayed matters.
"But I don"t know that I want to marry him," insisted Suzanne, doggedly, harking back to her original idea. "That isn"t my theory of it."
"Oh, well," replied Mrs. Dale complaisantly, "you will know better what to think of that after a year. I don"t want to coerce you, but I"m not going to have our home and happiness broken up in this way without turning a hand, and without your stopping to think about it. You owe it to me--to all these years I have cared for you, to show me some consideration. A year won"t hurt you. It won"t hurt him. You will find out then whether he really loves you or not. This may just be a pa.s.sing fancy. He has had other women before you. He may have others after you. He may go back to Mrs. Witla. It doesn"t make any difference what he tells you. You ought to test him before you break up his home and mine. If he really loves you, he will agree readily enough. Do this for me, Suzanne, and I will never cross your path any more. If you will wait a year you can do anything you choose. I can only hope you won"t go to him without going as his wife, but if you insist, I will hush the matter up as best I can. Write to him and tell him that you have decided that you both ought to wait a year. You don"t need to see him any more. It will just stir things all up afresh. If you don"t see him, but just write, it will be better for him, too. He won"t feel so badly as he will if you see him again and go all over the ground once more."
Mrs. Dale was terribly afraid of Eugene"s influence, but she could not accomplish this.
"I won"t do that," said Suzanne, "I won"t do it. I"m going back to New York, that"s all there is about it!" Mrs. Dale finally yielded that much. She had to.
There was a letter from Suzanne after three days, saying that she couldn"t answer his letter in full, but that she was coming back to New York and would see him, and subsequently a meeting between Suzanne and Eugene at Daleview in her mother"s presence--Dr. Woolley and Mr. Pitcairn were in another part of the house at the time--in which the proposals were gone over anew.
Eugene had motored down after Mrs. Dale"s demands had been put before him in the gloomiest and yet more feverish frame of mind in which he had ever been,--gloomy because of heavy forebodings of evil and his own dark financial condition--while inspirited at other moments by thoughts of some splendid, eager revolt on the part of Suzanne, of her rushing to him, defying all, declaring herself violently and convincingly, and so coming off a victor with him. His faith in her love was still so great.
The night was one of those cold October ones with a steely sky and a sickle moon, harbinger of frost, newly seen in the west, and pointed stars thickening overhead. As he sat in his car on the Staten Island ferry boat, he could see a long line of southward bound ducks, homing to those reedy marshes which Bryant had in mind when he wrote "To a Waterfowl." They were honking as they went, their faint "quacks" coming back on the thin air and making him feel desperately lonely and bereft. When he reached Daleview, speeding past October trees, and entered the great drawing-room where a fire was blazing and where once in spring he had danced with Suzanne, his heart leaped up, for he was to see her, and the mere sight of her was as a tonic to his fevered body--a cool drink to a thirsting man.
Mrs. Dale stared at Eugene defiantly when he came, but Suzanne welcomed him to her embrace. "Oh!" she exclaimed, holding him close for a few moments and breathing feverishly. There was complete silence for a time.
"Mama insists, Eugene," she said after a time, "that we ought to wait a year, and I think since there is such a fuss about it, that perhaps it might be just as well. We may have been just a little hasty, don"t you think? I have told mama what I think about her action in going to Mr. Colfax, but she doesn"t seem to care. She is threatening now to have me adjudged insane. A year won"t make any real difference since I am coming to you, anyhow, will it? But I thought I ought to tell you this in person, to ask you about it"--she paused, looking into his eyes.
"I thought we settled all this up in St. Jacques?" said Eugene, turning to Mrs. Dale, but experiencing a sinking sensation of fear.
"We did, all except the matter of not seeing her. I think it is highly inadvisable that you two should be together. It isn"t possible the way things stand. People will talk. Your wife"s condition has to be adjusted. You can"t be running around with her and a child coming to you. I want Suzanne to go away for a year where she can be calm and think it all out, and I want you to let her. If she still insists that she wants you after that, and will not listen to the logic of the situation in regard to marriage, then I propose to wash my hands of the whole thing. She may have her inheritance. She may have you if she wants you. If you have come to your senses by that time, as I hope you will have, you will get a divorce, or go back to Mrs. Witla, or do whatever you do in a sensible way."
She did not want to incense Eugene here, but she was very bitter.
Eugene merely frowned.
"Is this your decision, Suzanne, too?" he asked wearily.
"I think mama is terrible, Eugene," replied Suzanne evasively, or perhaps as a reply to her mother. "You and I have planned our lives, and we will work them out. We have been a little selfish, now that I think of it. I think a year won"t do any harm, perhaps, if it will stop all this fussing. I can wait, if you can."
An inexpressible sense of despair fell upon Eugene at the sound of this, a sadness so deep that he could scarcely speak. He could not believe that it was really Suzanne who was saying that to him. Willing to wait a year! She who had declared so defiantly that she would not. It would do no harm? To think that life, fate, her mother were triumphing over him in this fashion, after all. What then was the significance of the black-bearded men he had seen so often of late? Why had he been finding horseshoes? Was fate such a liar? Did life in its dark, subtle chambers lay lures and traps for men? His position gone, his Blue Sea venture involved in an indefinite delay out of which might come nothing, Suzanne going for a whole year, perhaps for ever, most likely so, for what could not her mother do with her in a whole year, having her alone? Angela alienated--a child approaching. What a climax!
"Is this really your decision, Suzanne?" he asked, sadly, a mist of woe clouding his whole being.
"I think it ought to be, perhaps, Eugene," she replied, still evasively. "It"s very trying. I will be faithful to you, though. I promise you that I will not change. Don"t you think we can wait a year? We can, can"t we?"
"A whole year without seeing you, Suzanne?"
"Yes, it will pa.s.s, Eugene."