I have packed and sent by EXPRESS a good proof of Couture"s picture, signed by the engraver, my poor friend, Manceau. It is the best that I have and I have only just found it. I have sent with it a photograph of a drawing by Marchal which was also like me; but one changes from year to year. Age gives unceasingly another character to the face of people who think and study, that is why their portraits do not look like one another nor like them for long. I dream so much and I live so little, that sometimes I am only three years old. But, the next day I am three hundred, if the dream has been sombre. Isn"t it the same with you? Doesn"t it seem at moments, that you are beginning life without even knowing what it is, and at other times don"t you feel over you the weight of several thousand centuries, of which you have a vague remembrance and a sorrowful impression? Whence do we come and whither do we go? All is possible since all is unknown.
Embrace your beautiful, good mother for me. I shall give myself a treat, being with you two. Now try to find that hoax on the Celtic stones; that would interest me very much. When you saw them, had they opened the galgal of Lockmariaker and cleared away the ground near Plouharnel?
Those people used to write, because there are stones covered with hieroglyphics, and they used to work in gold very well, because very beautifully made torques [Footnote: Gallic necklaces.] have been found.
My children, who are, like myself, great admirers of you, send you their compliments, and I kiss your forehead, since Sainte-Beuve lied.
G. Sand
Have you any sun today? Here it is stifling. The country is lovely.
When will you come here?
XIX. TO GEORGE SAND Croisset, Sat.u.r.day evening, ... 1866
Good, I have it, that beautiful, dear and famous face! I am going to have a large frame made and hang it on my wall, being able to say, as did M. de Talleyrand to Louis Philippe: "It is the greatest honor that my house has received"; a poor phrase, for we two are worth more than those two amiable men.
Of the two portraits, I like that of Couture"s the better. As for Marchal"s he saw in you only "the good woman," but I who am an old Romantic, find in the other, "the head of the author" who made me dream so much in my youth.
XX. TO GEORGE SAND Croisset, Sat.u.r.day evening, 1866
Your sending the package of the two portraits made me think that you were in Paris, dear master, and I wrote you a letter which is waiting for you at rue des Feuillantines.
I have not found my article on the dolmens. But I have my ma.n.u.script (entire) of my trip in Brittany among my "unpublished works." We shall have to gabble when you are here. Have courage.
I don"t experience, as you do, this feeling of a life which is beginning, the stupefaction of a newly commenced existence. It seems to me, on the contrary, that I have always lived! And I possess memories which go back to the Pharaohs. I see myself very clearly at different ages of history, practising different professions and in many sorts of fortune. My present personality is the result of my lost personalities. I have been a boatman on the Nile, a leno in Rome at the time of the Punic wars, then a Greek rhetorician in Subura where I was devoured by insects. I died during the Crusade from having eaten too many grapes on the Syrian sh.o.r.es, I have been a pirate, monk, mountebank and coachman. Perhaps also even emperor of the East?
Many things would be explained if we could know our real genealogy.
For, since the elements which make a man are limited, should not the same combinations reproduce themselves? Thus heredity is a just principle which has been badly applied.
There is something in that word as in many others. Each one takes it by one end and no one understands the other. The science of psychology will remain where it lies, that is to say in shadows and folly, as long as it has no exact nomenclature, so long as it is allowed to use the same expression to signify the most diverse ideas. When they confuse categories, adieu, morale!
Don"t you really think that since "89 they wander from the point?
Instead of continuing along the highroad which was broad and beautiful, like a triumphal way, they stray off by little sidepaths and flounder in mud holes. Perhaps it would be wise for a little while to return to Holbach. Before admiring Proudhon, supposing one knew Turgot? But le Chic, that modern religion, what would become of it!
Opinions chic (or chiques): namely being pro-Catholicism (without believing a word of it) being pro-Slavery, being pro-the House of Austria, wearing mourning for Queen Amelie, admiring Orphee aux Enfers, being occupied with Agricultural Fairs, talking Sport, acting indifferent, being a fool up to the point of regretting the treaties of 1815. That is all that is the very newest.
Oh! You think that because I pa.s.s my life trying to make harmonious phrases, in avoiding a.s.sonances, that I too have not my little judgments on the things of this world? Alas! Yes! and moreover I shall burst, enraged at not expressing them.
But a truce to joking, I should finally bore you.
The Bouilhet play will open the first part of November. Then in a month we shall see each other.
I embrace you very warmly, dear master.
XXI. TO GUSTAVE FLAUBERT, at Croisset Nohant, Monday evening, 1 October, 1866
Dear friend,
Your letter was forwarded to me from Paris. It isn"t lost. I think too much of them to let any be lost. You don"t speak to me of the floods, therefore I think that the Seine did not commit any follies at your place and that the tulip tree did not get its roots wet. I feared lest you were anxious and wondered if your bank was high enough to protect you. Here we have nothing of that sort to be afraid of; our streams are very wicked, but we are far from them.
You are happy in having such clear memories of other existences.
Much imagination and learning--those are your memories; but if one does not recall anything distinct, one has a very lively feeling of one"s own renewal in eternity. I have a very amusing brother who often used to say "at the time when I was a dog. ..." He thought that he had become man very recently. I think that I was vegetable or mineral. I am not always very sure of completely existing, and sometimes I think I feel a great fatigue acc.u.mulated from having lived too much. Anyhow, I do not know, and I could not, like you, say, "I possess the past."
But then you believe that one does not really die, since one LIVES AGAIN? If you dare to say that to the Smart Set, you have courage and that is good. I have the courage which makes me pa.s.s for an imbecile, but I don"t risk anything; I am imbecile under so many other counts.
I shall be enchanted to have your written impression of Brittany, I did not see enough to talk about. But I sought a general impression and that has served me for reconstructing one or two pictures which I need. I shall read you that also, but it is still an unformed ma.s.s.
Why did your trip remain unpublished? You are very coy. You don"t find what you do worth being described. That is a mistake. All that issues from a master is instructive, and one should not fear to show one"s sketches and drawings. They are still far above the reader, and so many things are brought down to his level that the poor devil remains common. One ought to love common people more than oneself, are they not the real unfortunates of the world? Isn"t it the people without taste and without ideals who get bored, don"t enjoy anything and are useless? One has to allow oneself to be abused, laughed at, and misunderstood by them, that is inevitable. But don"t abandon them, and always throw them good bread, whether or not they prefer filth; when they are sated with dirt they will eat the bread; but if there is none, they will eat filth in secula seculorum.
I have heard you say, "I write for ten or twelve people only." One says in conversation, many things which are the result of the impression of the moment; but you are not alone in saying that. It was the opinion of the Lundi or the thesis of that day. I protested inwardly. The twelve persons for whom you write, who appreciate you, are as good as you are or surpa.s.s you. You never had any need of reading the eleven others to be yourself. But, one writes for all the world, for all who need to be initiated; when one is not understood, one is resigned and recommences. When one is understood, one rejoices and continues. There lies the whole secret of our persevering labors and of our love of art. What is art without the hearts and minds on which one pours it? A sun which would not project rays and would give life to no one.
After reflecting on it, isn"t that your opinion? If you are convinced of that, you will never know disgust and la.s.situde, and if the present is sterile and ungrateful, if one loses all influence, all hold on the public, even in serving it to the best of one"s ability, there yet remains recourse to the future, which supports courage and effaces all the wounds of pride. A hundred times in life, the good that one does seems not to serve any immediate use; but it keeps up just the same the tradition of wishing well and doing well, without which all would perish.
Is it only since "89 that people have been floundering? Didn"t they have to flounder in order to arrive at "48 when they floundered much more, but so as to arrive at what should be? You must tell me how you mean that and I will read Turgot to please you. I don"t promise to go as far as Holbach, ALTHOUGH HE HAS SOME GOOD POINTS, THE RUFFIAN!
Summon me at the time of Bouilhet"s play. I shall be here, working hard, but ready to run, and loving you with all my heart. Now that I am no longer a woman, if the good G.o.d was just, I should become a man; I should have the physical strength and would say to you: "Come let"s go to Carthage or elsewhere." But there, one who has neither s.e.x nor strength, progresses towards childhood, and it is quite otherwhere that one is renewed; WHERE? I shall know that before you do, and, if I can, I shall come back in a dream to tell you.
XXII. TO GUSTAVE FLAUBERT Nohant, 19 October
Dear friend, they write me from the Odeon that Bouilhet"s play is on the 27th. I must be in Paris the 26th. Business calls me in any event. I shall dine at Magny"s on that day, and the next, and the day after that. Now you know where to find me, for I think that you will come for the first performance. Yours always, with a full heart,
G. Sand
XXIII. TO GUSTAVE FLAUBERT Nohant, 23 October, 1866
Dear friend, since the play is on the 29th I shall give two more days to my children and I leave here the 28th. You have not told me if you will dine with me and your friend on the 29th informally, at Magny"s at whatever hour you wish. Let me find a line at 97 rue des Feuillantines, on the 28th.
Then we shall go to your house, the day you wish. My chief talk with you will be to listen to you and to love you with all my heart. I shall bring what I have "ON THE STOCKS." That will GIVE ME COURAGE, as they say here, to read to you my EMBRYO. If I could only carry the sun from Nohant. It is glorious.
I embrace and bless you.
G. Sand
XXIV. TO GUSTAVE FLAUBERT Paris, 10 November, 1866
On reaching Paris I learn sad news. Last evening, while we were talking--and I think that we spoke of him day before yesterday--my friend Charles Duveyrier died, a most tender heart and a most naive spirit. He is to be buried tomorrow. He was one year older than I am. My generation is pa.s.sing bit by bit. Shall I survive it? I don"t ardently desire to, above all on these days of mourning and farewell. It is as G.o.d wills, provided He lets me always love in this world and in the next.