Give up that ax, or I don"t know what I may do!"
Then Damie, in a frightened tone, replied:
"It was only a thought. Believe me I never intended to do it--I can"t do anything of that kind. But because they always call me "skittle-boy," I thought I ought for once to threaten and swear and strike as they do.
But you are right; look, if you like, I"ll go this very day to Scheckennarre and tell him that my heart doesn"t cherish a single hard thought against him."
"You need not do that--that would be too much. But because you listen to reason, I will help you all I can."
"It would be best if you went with me."
"No, I can"t do that--I don"t know why, but I can"t. But I have not sworn not to go--if you write to me that you are doing well at uncle"s, then I"ll come after you. But to go out into the fog, where one knows nothing--well, I"m not fond of making changes anyway, and after all I"m doing fairly well here. But now let us consider how you are to get away."
Damie"s savings were very trifling, and Barefoot"s were not enough to make up the deficiency. Damie declared that the parish ought to give him a handsome contribution; but his sister would not hear of it, saying that this ought to be the last resource, when everything else had failed. She did not explain what else she was going to try. Her first idea, naturally, was to make application to Dame Landfried at Zumarshofen; but she knew what a bad appearance a begging letter would make in the eyes of the rich farmer"s wife, who perhaps would not have any ready money anyway. Then she thought of old Farmer Rodel, who had promised to remember her in his will; could he be induced to give her now what he intended to give her later on, even if it should be less?
Then again, it occurred to her that perhaps Scheckennarre, who was now getting on especially well, might be induced to contribute something.
She said nothing to Damie about all this. But when she examined his wardrobe, and with great difficulty induced Black Marianne to let her have on credit some of the old woman"s heaped-up stores of linen, and when she began to cut out this linen and sat up at night making shirts of it--all these steady and active preparations made Damie almost tremble. To be sure, he had acted all along as if his plan of emigrating were irrevocably fixed in his mind--and yet now he seemed almost bound to go, to be under compulsion, as if his sister"s strong will were forcing him to carry out his design. And his sister seemed almost hard-hearted to him, as if she were thrusting him away to get rid of him. He did not, indeed, dare to say this openly, but he began to grumble and complain a good deal about it, and Barefoot looked upon this as suppressed grief over parting--the feeling that would gladly take advantage of little obstacles and represent them as hindrances to the fulfilment of a purpose one would gladly leave unfulfilled.
First of all she went to old Farmer Rodel, and in plain words asked him to let her have at once the legacy that he had promised her long ago.
The old man replied:
"Why do you press it so? Can"t you wait? What"s the matter with you?"
"Nothing"s the matter with me, but I can"t wait."
Then she told him that she was fitting out her brother who was going to emigrate to America. This was a good chance for old Rodel; he could now give his natural hardness the appearance of benevolence and prudent forethought. Accordingly he declared to Barefoot that he would not give her one farthing now, for he did not want to be responsible for her ruining herself for that brother of hers.
Barefoot then begged him to be her advocate with Scheckennarre. At last he was induced to consent to this; and he took great credit to himself for thus consenting to go begging to a man he did not know on behalf of a stranger. He kept postponing the fulfilment of his promise from day to day, but Barefoot did not cease from reminding him of it; and so, at last, he set forth.
But, as might have been antic.i.p.ated, he came back empty-handed; for the first thing Scheckennarre did was to ask how much Farmer Rodel himself was going to give, and when he heard that Rodel, for the present, was not going to give anything, his course, too, was clear and he followed it.
When Barefoot told Black Marianne how hurt she felt at this hard-heartedness, the old woman said:
"Yes, that"s just how people are! If a man were to jump into the water tomorrow and be taken out dead, they would all say: "If he had only told me what was amiss with him, I should have been very glad to help him in every way and to have given him something. What would I not give now, if I could restore him to life!" But to keep a man alive, they won"t stir a finger."
Strangely enough, the very fact that the whole weight of things always fell upon Barefoot made her bear it all more easily. "Yes, one must always depend upon oneself alone," was her secret motto; and instead of letting obstacles discourage her, she only strove harder to surmount them. She sc.r.a.ped together and turned into money whatever of her possessions she could lay hands on; even the valuable necklace she had received in the old days from Farmer Landfried"s wife went its way to the widow of the old s.e.xton, a worthy woman who supported herself in her widowhood by lending money at high interest on security; the ducat, too, which she had once thrown after Severin in the churchyard, was brought into requisition. And, marvelous to relate, old Farmer Rodel offered to obtain a considerable contribution from the Village Council, of which he was a member; he was fond of doing virtuous and benevolent things with the public money!
Still it almost frightened Barefoot when he announced to her, after a few days, that everything had been granted--but upon the one condition, that Damie should entirely give up his right to live in the village. Of course, that had been understood from the first--no one had expected anything else; but still, now that it was an express condition, it seemed like a very formidable matter to have no home anywhere. Barefoot said nothing about this thought to Damie, who seemed cheerful and of good courage. Black Marianne, especially, continued to urge him strongly to go; for she would have been glad to send the whole village away to foreign parts, if only she could at last get tidings of her John. And now she had firmly taken up the notion that he had sailed across the seas. c.r.a.ppy Zachy had indeed told her, that the reason she could not cry any more was because the ocean, the great salty deep, absorbed the tears which one might be disposed to shed for one who was on the other sh.o.r.e.
Barefoot received permission from her employers to accompany her brother when he went to town to conclude the arrangement for his pa.s.sage with the agent. Greatly were both of them astonished when they learned, on arriving at the office, that this had already been done. The Village Council had already taken the necessary steps, and Damie was to have his rights and corresponding obligations as one of the village poor. On board the ship, before it sailed out into the wide ocean, he would have to sign a paper, attesting his embarkation, and not until then would the money be paid.
The brother and sister returned sorrowfully to the village. Damie had been seized with a fit of his old despondency, because a thing had now to be carried out which he himself had wished. And Barefoot herself felt deeply grieved at the thought that her brother was, in a way, to be expelled from his native land. At the boundary-line Damie said aloud to the sign-post, on which the name of the village and of the district were painted:
"You there! I don"t belong to you any longer, and all the people who live here are no more to me than you are."
Barefoot started to cry; but she resolved within herself that this should be the last time until her brother"s departure, and until he was fairly gone. And she kept her word to herself.
The people in the village said that Barefoot had no heart, because her eyes were not wet when her brother went away. People like to see tears actually shed--for what do they care about those that are shed in secret? But Barefoot was calm and brave.
Only during the last days before Damie set out did she for the first time fail in her duty; for she neglected her work by being with Damie all the time. She let Rose upbraid her for it, and merely said: "You are right." But still she ran after her brother everywhere--she did not want to lose a minute of his company as long as he was there. She very likely felt that she might be able to do something special for him at any moment, or say something special that would be of use to him all his life; and she was vexed with herself for finding nothing but quite ordinary things to say, and for even quarreling with him sometimes.
Oh, these hours of parting! How they oppress the heart! How all the past and all the future seem crowded together into one moment, and one knows not how to set about anything rightly, and only a look or a touch must tell all that is felt!
Still Amrei found good words to speak. When she counted out her brother"s stock of linen she said:
"These are good, respectable shirts--keep yourself respectable and good in them."
And when she packed everything into the big sack, on which her father"s name was still to be seen, she said:
"Bring this back full of glittering gold; then you shall see how glad they will be to give you back the right to live here. And Farmer Rodel"s Rose, if she"s still unmarried, will jump over seven houses to get you."
And when she laid their father"s ax in the large chest, she said:
"How smooth the handle is! How often it has slipped through our father"s hand. I fancy I can still feel his touch upon it! So now I have a motto for you--"Sack and Ax." Working and gathering in, those are the best things in life--they make one keep cheerful and well and happy. G.o.d keep you! And say to yourself very often--"Sack and Ax." I shall do the same, and that shall be our motto, our remembrance, our call to each other when we are far, far apart, and until you write to me, or come to fetch me, or do what you can, as G.o.d shall will it. "Sack and Ax"--yes it"s all included in that; so one can treasure up everything--all thoughts and all that one has earned!"
And when Damie was sitting up in the wagon, and for the last time gave her his hand, for a long time she would not release it. And when at last he drove away, she called out after him with a loud voice:
""Sack and Ax"--don"t forget that!"
He looked back, waved his hand to her, and then--he was gone.
[Ill.u.s.tration: HE GAVE HER HIS HAND FOR THE LAST TIME]
CHAPTER IX
AN UNINVITED GUEST
"Glory to America!" the village watchman, to the amus.e.m.e.nt of all, cried several nights when he called out the hours, in place of the usual thanksgiving to G.o.d. c.r.a.ppy Zachy, being a man of no consideration himself, was fond of speaking evil of the poor when he found himself among what he called "respectable people," and on Sunday when he came out of church, or on an afternoon when he sat on the long bench outside the "Heathc.o.c.k," he would say:
"Columbus was a real benefactor. From what did he not deliver us? Yes, America is the pig-trough of the Old World, and into it everything that can"t be used in the kitchen is dumped--cabbage and turnips and all sorts of things. And for the piggies who live in the castle behind the house, and understand French--"Oui! Oui!"--there"s very good feeding there."
In the general dearth of interesting subjects, Damie and his emigrating naturally formed the main topic of conversation for a considerable time, and the members of the Council praised their own wisdom in having rid the place of a person who would certainly have come to be a burden on the community. For a man who goes driving about from one trade to another is sure to drive himself into ruin eventually.
Of course, there were plenty of good-natured people who reported to Barefoot all that was said of her brother, and told her how he was made a laughing-stock. But Barefoot merely smiled. When Damie"s first letter came from Bremen--n.o.body had ever thought that he could write so properly--then she exulted before the eyes of men, and read the letter aloud several times; but in secret she was sorry to have lost such a brother, probably forever. She reproached herself for not having put him forward enough, for it was now evident what a sharp lad Damie was, and so good too! He wanted to take leave of the whole village as he had taken leave of the post at the boundary-line, and he now filled almost a whole page with remembrances to different people, calling each one "the dear" or "the good" or "the worthy." Barefoot reaped a great deal of praise everywhere she delivered these greetings, and each time pointed to the precise place, and said:
"See--there it stands!"
For a time Barefoot was silent and abstracted; she seemed to repent of having let her brother go, or of having refused to go with him. Formerly she had always been heard singing in the stable and barn, in the kitchen and chamber, and when she went out with the scythe over her shoulder and the gra.s.s-cloth under her arm; but now she was silent. She seemed to be making an effort to restrain herself. Still there was one time when she allowed people to hear her voice again; in the evening, when she put Farmer Rodel"s children to bed, she sang incessantly, even long after the children were asleep. Then she would hurry over to Black Marianne"s and supply her with wood and water and whatever else the old woman wanted.
On Sunday afternoons, when everybody was out for a good time, Barefoot often used to stand quiet and motionless at the door of her house, looking out into the world and at the sky in dreamy, far-off meditation, wondering where Damie was now and how he was getting on. And then she would stand and gaze for a long time at an overturned plow, or watch a fowl clawing in the sand. When a vehicle pa.s.sed through the village, she would look up and say, almost aloud:
"They are driving to somebody. On all the roads of the world there is n.o.body coming to me, and no one thinking of me. And do I not belong here too?"
And then she would make believe to herself that she was expecting something, and her heart would beat faster, as if for somebody who was coming. And involuntarily the old song rose to her lips: