Amrei, trembling, touched her father"s coat and his blue-striped vest.
But the uncle lifted up the clothes, pointed to the worn-out elbows, and said to Farmer Rodel:
"These are worth very little--I won"t have them valued at much. I don"t even know if I can wear them over in America, without being laughed at."
Amrei seized the coat pa.s.sionately. That her father"s coat, which she had looked upon as a costly and invaluable treasure, should be p.r.o.nounced of little value, seemed to grieve her, and that these clothes were to be worn in America, and ridiculed there, almost bewildered her.
And, anyway, what was the meaning of this talk about America? This mystery was soon cleared up, when Farmer Rodel"s wife came, and with her, Black Marianne; for Dame Rodel said:
"Harkye, husband--to my mind this thing should not be done so fast, this sending the children off to America with that man."
"But he is their only living relative, Josenhans" brother."
"Yes, to be sure. But until now he has not done much to show that he is a relative; and I fancy that this cannot be done without the approval of the Council, and even the Council cannot do it alone. The children have a legal right to live here, which cannot be taken away from them in their sleep, so to speak--for the children are not yet in a position to say what they want themselves. It"s like carrying people off in their sleep."
"My Amrei is intelligent enough. She"s thirteen now, but more clever than many a person of thirty, and she knows what she wants," said Black Marianne.
"You two ought to have been town-councilors," said Farmer Rodel. "But it"s my opinion, too, that the children ought not to be tied to a rope, like calves, and dragged away. Well, let the man talk with them himself, and then we shall see what further is to be done. He is after all their natural protector, and has the right to stand in their father"s place, if he likes. Harkye; do you take a little walk with your brother"s children outside the village, and you women stay here, and let n.o.body try to persuade or dissuade them."
The woodcutter took the two children by the hand, and went out of the room and out of the house with them. In the street he asked the children:
"Whither shall we go?"
"If you want to be our father, go home with us," suggested Damie. "Our house is down yonder."
"Is it open?" asked the uncle.
"No, but Coaly Mathew has the key. But he has never let us go in. I"ll run on and get the key."
Damie released himself quickly, and ran off. Amrei felt like a prisoner as her uncle led her along by the hand. He spoke earnestly and confidentially to her now, however, and explained, almost as if he were excusing himself, that he had a large family of his own and, that he could hardly get along with his wife and five children. But now a man, who was the owner of large forests in America, had offered him a free pa.s.sage across the ocean, and in five years, when he had cleared away the forest, he was to have a large piece of the best farm-land as his own property. In grat.i.tude to G.o.d, who had bestowed this upon him for himself and his family, he had immediately made up his mind to do a good deed by taking his brother"s children with him. But he was not going to compel them to go; indeed, he would take them only on the condition that they should turn to him with their whole hearts and look upon him as their second father.
Amrei looked at him with eyes of wonder. If she could only bring herself to love this man! But she was almost afraid of him--she could not help it. And to have him thus fall from the clouds, as it were, and compel her to love him, rather turned her against him.
"Where is your wife?" asked Amrei. She very likely felt that a woman would have broached the subject in a more gentle and gradual manner.
"I will tell you honestly," answered her uncle. "My wife does not interfere in this matter, and says she will neither persuade nor dissuade me. She is a little sharp, but only at first--if you are good to her, and you are a sensible child, you can twist her around your finger. And if, once in a while, anything should happen to you that you don"t like, remember that you are at your father"s brother"s, and tell me about it alone. I will help you all I can, and you shall see that your real life is just beginning."
Amrei"s eyes filled with tears at these words; and yet she could say nothing, for she felt estranged toward this man. His voice appealed to her, but when she looked at him, she felt as if she would have liked to run away.
Damie now came with the key. Amrei started to take it from him, but he would not give it up. With the peculiar pedantic conscientiousness of a child he declared that he had faithfully promised Coaly Mathew"s wife to give it to n.o.body but his uncle. Accordingly the uncle took it from him, and it seemed to Amrei as if a magic secret door were being opened when the key for the first time rattled in the lock and turned--the hasp went down and the door opened! A strange chill, like that of a vault, came creeping from the black front-room, which had also served as a kitchen.
A little heap of ashes still lay on the hearth, and on the door the initials of Caspar Melchior Balthasar and the date of the parent"s death, were written in chalk. Amrei read it aloud--her own father had written it.
"Look," cried Damie, "the eight is shaped just as you make it, and as the master won"t have it--you know--from right to left."
Amrei motioned to him to keep quiet. She thought it terrible and sinful that Damie should talk so lightly--here, where she felt as if she were in church, or even in eternity--quite out of the world, and yet in the very midst of it. She herself opened the inside door; the room was dark as a grave, for the shutters were closed. A single sunbeam, shining through a crack in the wall, fell on the angel"s head on the tile stove in such a way that the angel seemed to be laughing. Amrei crouched down in terror. When she looked up again, her uncle had opened one of the shutters, and the warm, outside air poured in. How cold it seemed in there! None of the furniture was left in the room but a bench nailed to the wall. There her mother used to spin, and there she had put Amrei"s little hands together and taught her to knit.
"Come, children, let us go now," said the uncle. "It is not good to be here. Come with me to the baker and I will buy you each a white roll--or do you like biscuits better?"
"No, let us stay here a little longer," said Amrei; and she kept on stroking the place where her mother had sat. Then, pointing to a white spot on the wall, she said, half in a whisper: "There our cuckoo clock used to hang, and there our father"s discharge from the army. And there the hanks of yarn that mother spun used to hang--she could spin even better than Black Marianne--Black Marianne has said so herself. She always got a skein more out of a pound than anybody else, and it was always so even--not a knot in it. And do you see that ring up there on the ceiling? It was beautiful to see her twisting the threads there. If I had been old enough to know then, I would not have let them sell mother"s spindle--it would have been a fine legacy for me. But there was n.o.body to take any interest in us. Oh, mother dear! Oh, father dear! If you knew how we have been pushed about, it would grieve you, even in eternity."
Amrei began to weep aloud, and Damie wept with her; even the uncle dried his eyes. He again urged them to come away from the place; he was vexed for having caused himself and the children this grief. But Amrei said in a decided way:
"Even if you do go, I shall not go with you."
"How do you mean? You will not go with me at all?"
Amrei started; for she suddenly realized what she had said, and it seemed to her almost as if it had been an inspiration. But presently she answered:
"No, I don"t know about that yet. I merely meant to say, that I shall not willingly leave this house until I have seen everything again. Come, Damie, you are my brother--come up into the attic. Do you remember where we used to play hide-and-seek, behind the chimney? And then we"ll look out of the window, where we dried the truffles. Don"t you remember the bright florin father got for them?"
Something rustled and pattered across the ceiling. All three started, and the uncle said quickly:
"Stay where you are, Damie, and you too. What do you want up there?
Don"t you hear the mice running about?"
"Come with me--they won"t eat us!" Amrei insisted. Damie, however, declared that he would not go, and Amrei, although she felt a secret fear, took courage and went upstairs alone. But she soon came down again, looking as pale as death, with nothing in her hand but a bundle of old straws.
"Damie says he"ll go with me to America," said the uncle, as she came forward. Amrei, breaking up the straws in her hands, replied: "I"ve nothing to say against it. I don"t know yet what I shall do, but he can go if he likes."
"No," cried Damie, "I shan"t do that. You did not go with Dame Landfried when she wanted to take you away, and so I shall not go off alone without you."
"Well, then, think it over--you are sensible enough," said the uncle, to conclude the matter. He then closed the shutters again, so that they stood in the dark, and hurried the children out of the room and through the vestibule, locked the outside door, and went to take the key back to Coaly Mathew. After that he started for the village with Damie alone.
When he was some way off, he called back to Amrei:
"You have until tomorrow morning--then I shall go away whether you go with me or not."
Amrei was left alone. She looked after the retreating figures and wondered how one person could go away from another.
"There he goes," she thought, "and yet he belongs to you, and you to him."
Strange! As in a sleep-dream, a subject that has been lightly touched upon is renewed and interwoven with all sorts of strange details, so was it now with Amrei in her waking-dream. Damie had made but a pa.s.sing allusion to the meeting with Farmer Landfried"s wife. The remembrance of her had half faded away; but now it suddenly rose up fresh again--like a picture of past life in a vision. Amrei said to herself, almost aloud:
"Who knows if she may not thus suddenly think of you? One cannot tell why she should, and yet perhaps she is thinking of you at this very moment. For in this place she promised to be your protectress whenever you came to her,--it was yonder by the stunted willows. Why is it, that only the trees remain to be seen? Why is not a word like a tree, something which stands firmly, something which one can hold to. Yes, one can, if one will. Then one is as well off as a tree--and what an honorable farmer"s wife says, is firm and lasting. She, too, wept because she had to go away from her native place, although she had been married and away from it for a long time. And she has children of her own--one of them is called John."
Amrei was standing by the tree where they had picked the berries. She laid her hand upon the trunk and said:
"You--why don"t you go away, too? Why don"t people tell you to emigrate?
Perhaps for you, too, it would be better elsewhere. But, to be sure, you are too large--you did not place yourself here, and who knows if you would not die in some other place. You can only be hewn down, not transplanted. Nonsense! I also had to leave my home. If it were my father, I should be obliged to go with him--he would not need to ask me.
And he who asks too much, goes astray. No one can advise me in this matter, not even Marianne. And, after all, with my uncle, it"s like this: "I am doing you a good turn, and you must repay me." If he"s severe with me, and with Damie, because he"s awkward, and we have to run away, where in this wide, strange world are we to go? Here everybody knows us, and every hedge, every tree has a familiar face. "You know me, don"t you?" she said, looking up at the tree. "Oh, if you could but speak! G.o.d created you too--why cannot you speak? You knew my father and mother so well--why cannot you tell me what they would advise me to do?"
Oh, dear father! Oh, dear mother! It grieves me so to have to go away! I have nothing here, and hardly anybody, and yet I feel as if I were being driven out of a warm bed into the cold snow. Is this deep sadness that I feel a sign that I ought not to go? Is it the true voice of conscience, or is it but a foolish fear? Oh, good Heaven, I do not know! If only a voice from Heaven would come now and tell me!"
The child trembled with inward terror, and the sense of life"s difficulties for the first time arose vividly within her. And again she went on, half-thinking, half-talking to herself--but this time in a more decided way:
"If I were alone, I know for certain that I should not go; I should stay here. For it would grieve me too much. Alone I could get along.
Good--remember that; of one thing, then, you are sure--as to yourself you are decided. But what foolish thoughts are these! How can I imagine that I am alone, and without Damie? I am not alone--I belong to Damie, and he belongs to me. And for Damie it would be better if he had a fatherly hand to guide him--it would help him up. But why do you want anybody else, Amrei?--can you not take care of him yourself, if it be necessary? If he once starts out in that way, I can see that he"ll be nothing but a servant all his life, a drudge for other people. And who knows how uncle"s children will behave toward us? Because they"re poor people themselves, they"ll play the masters with us. No, no! I"m sure they"re good,--and it would be a fine thing to be able to say: "Good morning, cousin." If uncle had only brought one of the children with him, I could decide much better--I could find out about things. Oh, good heavens, how difficult all this is!"
Amrei sat down by the tree. A chaffinch came hopping along, picked up a seed, looked around him, and flew away. Something crept across Amrei"s face; she brushed it off--it was a ladybird. She let it creep about on her hand, between the mountains and valleys of her fingers, until it came to the tip of her little-finger and flew away.
"What a tale he"ll have to tell about where he has been!" thought Amrei.
"A little creature like that is well off indeed--wherever it flies, it is at home. How the larks are singing! They, too, are well off--they do not have to think what they ought to say and do. Yonder the butcher, with his dog, is driving a calf out of the village. The dog"s voice is quite different from the lark"s--but then a lark"s singing would never drive a calf along."