"Why, Uncle Apollonius. Who else could it be? Did you scold him, or slap him as you do me when I take sugar without asking? You must have done something to him, or he wouldn"t be so sorry."
The little girl went on chattering and soon forgot her uncle over a b.u.t.terfly. Not so her mother. She no longer heard what the child said.
What a queer feeling was this that had come over her, happy and unhappy at the same time! She had let her needle fall without noticing it. Was she startled? It seemed to her that she was startled, much as she would have been if she had been speaking to some one and suddenly realized that it was not the person she thought. She had thought that Apollonius wanted to insult her, and now the child told her that she had insulted him. She looked up and saw Apollonius coming from the shed toward the house. At the same moment another man stood between her and him as if he had grown up out of the earth. It was Fritz Nettenmair. She had not heard him approaching.
After putting an indifferent question he went on with strange haste to speak of the "dull ball." He repeated what people had said about it, told her how offended every one felt that Apollonius had not asked her for a dance, not even for the first one. It was curious that when he reminded her of it now she felt it more keenly than ever; but not with anger, only with sad pain. She did not say so; she did not need to.
Fritz Nettenmair was like a man in a magnetic sleep; from the leaf of a tree, from a picket in the fence, from a white wall he read, with closed eyes, what his wife felt.
"We shall soon get rid of him, I think," he went on as if he had not been reading from the stable-wall. "There is no room here for two households. And Anne is accustomed to plenty of s.p.a.ce."
That was the name of the girl with whom Apollonius had been obliged to dance at the dull ball and see home afterward. Since then she had often been at the house on pretexts which her crimson cheek branded as lies. Her father too, a much-respected citizen, had sought Apollonius"
acquaintance, and Fritz Nettenmair had furthered the matter in every way he could.
"Anne?" cried his wife as if shocked.
"It"s good that she can"t lie," thought Fritz Nettenmair with relief.
But it occurred to him that her inability to disguise her feelings would also promote his brother"s evil plan. He had sought to make her jealous as a last resort. That had been foolish of him, and he already regretted it. She could not pretend; and even if he were still the dreamer of old, her excitement could not but betray to him what was going on in her breast, could not but betray it to herself. And then--once more he had reached the point to which every conclusion led him; he saw her awakening to an understanding of herself. "And then"--he forced the words out so that every syllable tore itself on his teeth--"and then--she"ll learn to know what it means!"
His brother expected him in the living-room. "Of course, now that he knows I saw him, he must make some excuse for having pa.s.sed by here when he thought she was alone." Thus thought Fritz, and followed his brother.
Apollonius was really waiting for him in the living-room. He wanted to see his brother in order to warn him against the evil-looking workman.
He had heard much that was suspicious about him, and knew that his brother trusted him implicitly. "And so you order me to send him away?" asked Fritz; and this time he could not help allowing his spite to gleam through his disguise. From the tone in which he spoke Apollonius could not fail to read his real feeling. It was: "So you want to force your way even into the shed too, and drive me out of it.
Try it, if you dare!"
Apollonius looked into his brother"s eyes with unconcealed pain. He brushed the lapel of his brother"s coat as if he would wipe away whatever clouded the relations between them, and said: "Have I done anything to hurt you?"
"Me?" laughed his brother. His laughter was intended to mean: "I"m sure I don"t know what!" But it really meant: "Do you ever do anything else, do you ever want to do anything else, but just what you know will hurt me?"
"For a long time I have wanted to say something to you," went on Apollonius, "I will tomorrow; you are not in the right humor today.
You had to know what I have told you about the workman, and it wasn"t meant as you have taken it."
"Of course! Of course!" laughed Fritz. "I"m convinced that it wasn"t so meant."
Apollonius went and Fritz supplemented his speech with, "it was not meant as you would have me believe, old fox. And wasn"t it meant as I took it? You think--The workman is a bad fellow; but you would never have warned me if you hadn"t needed an excuse." He turned on his heel with a movement that suggested his feeling of superiority. In his desolate state of mind it had pleased him to make successful use of his father"s diplomatic method of concealing his thoughts by half expressing them.
His pleasure was short-lived; his old worry fastened him again to the rack. And a newer one had been added to it. He had neglected the business. In his master"s absence from the shed the workman had had opportunity enough to steal, and had certainly made use of it. It was long since Fritz had done any work at the church; Apollonius had been obliged to engage another workman and put him in his brother"s place.
He had earned nothing now for a long time and yet never missed any public amus.e.m.e.nt. The esteem of the important people showed a growing inclination to fall, and could only be kept up by increasing quant.i.ties of champagne. He had plunged himself into debt, and continued to add to his obligations daily. And yet the moment was bound to come when the appearance of prosperity which he had been at such pains to sustain would disappear.
Anne Wohlig had often been at the house since Apollonius" arrival; and Christiane, with the credulity which in simple souls is the natural consequence of their own truthfulness, had seen nothing suspicious in her most far-fetched pretexts. This was not so today. She had suddenly grown so keen-sighted that what she recognized to be an excuse a.s.sumed in her eyes the proportions of an unpardonable crime. She disliked any girl that could be so double-faced, and she herself was too honest to hide her opinion. Anne sought the reason for Christiane"s treatment of her in the latter"s dislike of her brother-in-law. It was well known that she begrudged the poor fellow his brother"s affection. She herself had said that she would turn him down if he should dare to ask her for a dance. And Apollonius" appearance showed that she made it impossible for him to enjoy his stay in his father"s house. Vexation made Anne honest, too, and she expressed her thoughts as far as she could without touching on the delicate point of her own feeling for Apollonius. Christiane was now obliged to hear the same reproach from a stranger"s mouth that she had already heard from her own child.
The girl went. Apollonius, on his way back from his brother, pa.s.sed by again. He was still in time to see Anne leaving. But nothing showed in his face to confirm Christiane"s only half understood fear.
The child had said: "You have done something to him." Anne had said: "You hate him, you won"t let him enjoy himself." And the sad glance that he sent after her--she herself caught him now and then unnoticed--said the same thing. Like a flash of joyous light it came into her mind that he did not look sadly after Anne--nor joyfully either. His gaze was as indifferent as it was with every one else. She had been told: "You hate him, you have offended him and you want to hurt him." And she had believed that he hated her, that he wanted to hurt her. And had he not done so? She looks back into the time long past when he insulted her. It is long now since she had felt angry with him for it; she had only feared a fresh insult. Could she still be angry, when he had become such a different man, when she herself knew that he would not offend her, when people said, and his own sad glance confirmed it, that she offended him? And she let her thoughts run back eagerly, so eagerly that the music sounded again about her and she sat again among her girl friends, in her white dress with the pink sash, in the shooting-house, on the bench in front of the windows; and she got up again, driven by a vague impulse and, dreaming, made her way among the dancers to the door--there she saw outside, was it not the same face that looked after her now when she pa.s.sed, so honest, so gentle in its sadness? Was it not the same peculiar sympathy now as then, that followed her every step and never left her? Then, she had avoided him and looked at him no more, for he was false. False? Is he false again? Is he still false?
All day long Fritz Nettenmair thought of what it could be that Apollonius wanted to say to him tomorrow: "Tomorrow, because I am not in the humor for it today? In the humor? I"ve let the fox see my hand.
If I hadn"t, he would have blurted it out; now I have warned him and made him cautious. I am too honest with a player who cheats so; I am bound to lose. Good; I will be "in the humor" tomorrow, I"ll act as though I were blind and deaf, as if I didn"t see what it is he is trying to do, even if it were still clearer. A cobweb on the lapel of my coat so that he may have something to brush off! I can"t bear to have a fellow like that look into my face--the hypocrite!"
Thus prepared and resolved to outdo the fox in cunning, even though it should put his self-control to the severest test, Apollonius found his brother waiting for him the following day. Apollonius too had resolved on his course. He was determined not to let himself be confused today by any mood of his brother"s; everything depended on shutting off the source of all these moods. Fritz wished him the most unembarra.s.sed, jovial good morning that he could command.
"If you will listen to me calmly and in a spirit of brotherliness,"
said Apollonius, "I hope that this will be the best kind of a morning for you and me and all of us."
"And all of us," repeated Fritz and put nothing of his explanation of the three words into his tone. "I know that you always think of us all, so speak out merrily from your heart; I"ll do the same."
Apollonius omitted his intended introduction. He had learnt to be wise and cautious; but to be wise and cautious toward a brother would have seemed to him to be duplicity. Even if he had known of his brother"s duplicity he, unlike the latter, would never have thought of meeting him with the same weapons. Even in the face of his experience he would have persuaded himself that he was mistaken.
"I think, Fritz," he, began cordially, "we should have been different toward each other from what we have been." He good-naturedly took half the blame on himself. In his own mind his brother put the whole of it on him, and was about to a.s.sure him jovially of the contrary when Apollonius continued. "Things have not been the same as they used to be between us, nor as they should be. The reason for this, as far as I know, is only your wife"s dislike of me. Or do you know of any other?"
"I know of none," said his brother shrugging his shoulders regretfully; but he thought of Apollonius" return against his advice, of the ball, of the conference in the church loft, of his being pushed aside in the matter of the repairs, of his brother"s whole plan, of that part of it that had been and of that part which was still to be carried out. He thought that Apollonius was occupied only in trying to put it into execution, and of how much depended on his guessing Apollonius" next intention and bringing it to naught.
While he was thinking this, Apollonius went on speaking, with no idea of what was pa.s.sing in his brother"s mind. "I do not know what it can be that has made your wife dislike me. I only know that it cannot be anything that I have done intentionally. Can you tell me what it is? I do not want to accuse her; it is possible that there is something about me that displeases her. And if so, then it is certainly nothing that should be praised or spared. And I should be the very last to spare myself if I only knew what it is. If you know, please tell me.
If it is anything bad you must not spare me, even if it should cause you pain to tell me. If you know it and don"t tell me, that can be the only reason. But you would not offend me by telling me, really, Fritz."--
Fritz Nettenmair did what Apollonius had just done; in his own mind he measured his brother by himself. The result was bound to be to Apollonius" disadvantage. Apollonius took his thoughtful silence for an answer.
"If you do not know," he went on, "let us go to her together and ask her. I must know what I ought to do. Our life cannot go on like this.
What would father say if he knew? I reproach myself day and night that he does not know. It is better for us all, Fritz. Come, let us not put it off."
Fritz Nettenmair heard only his brother"s presumptuous demand that he should take him to her! That he should take him to her now! Did Apollonius already know of her state and want to take advantage of it?
The question was superfluous; if they saw each other now they could not fail to understand each other. And then it would be there, the thing that for weeks he had not allowed himself an hour"s rest in trying to prevent. Then it would come to pa.s.s, the thing of which he knew that it must come and the coming of which he had yet made desperate efforts to hinder. They must not see each other face to face now; they must not see each other now until he had built a new dividing wall between them. Of what? He had no leisure to think of that now. He must have some pretext on which to prevent the meeting, must have time to find an excuse. And merely to gain time he said laughingly:
"Of course! Ask her freely and cheerfully. Whoever asks is told. But how do you come to think of that just now? Just now?" A thought that flashed overwhelmingly into his mind involuntarily expressed itself in this question. Apollonius was already at the door. He turned back to his brother, and answered with a gladness that seemed fiendish to the latter because he did not look into the other"s honest face. If he had, Apollonius would have caught something of the devilish fear that disfigured his brother"s countenance. And still, perhaps he would not.
He might have thought his brother ill, so entirely was he without the slightest suspicion of anything in his proposal that could inspire his brother with fear. In fact he thought that what pleased him must please his brother also.
"Before," replied Apollonius, "I was obliged to fear that I should make her still more angry. And that would have been even more disagreeable for you than for me."
His brother laughed and nodded in his jovial way with his head and shoulders merely for the sake of doing something. And his: "And now?"
sounded as if it were half stifled with laughter, not with anything else.
"Your wife has been different for some time," went on Apollonius confidingly.
"She is"--answered Fritz Nettenmair"s start against his will and wanted to say what he considered her to be. It was an evil word. But would he himself who had made her that tell him so? No, it has not yet come to pa.s.s, what he fears. And even if it is bound to come; he can still delay it. He forces himself not to give utterance to his excitement. He would like to ask: "And how do you know that she--is different?" But he knows that his voice would tremble and betray him.
He must know who has told his brother. Has he already spoken to her?
Has he read it in her eyes at a distance? Or is there a third person involved--an enemy whom he already hates before he knows whether he exists?
Apollonius seems to have caught something of his brother"s unfortunate gift of reading another"s thoughts. His brother does not ask; his face is turned away; he is seeking like a desperate man and cannot find; and yet Apollonius answers him. "Your little Annie told me," he said, and laughed as he thought of the child. ""Uncle," said the odd little thing, "mother is not so cross with you any more; go to her and say you won"t do it any more; then she"ll be kind again and will give you sugar." That"s how she put the idea into my head. It"s wonderful how it sometimes seems as if an angel were speaking out of a child"s mouth. Your little Annie may have been an angel to us all."
Fritz Nettenmair laughed so boisterously at the child that Apollonius"
laughter caught fire again from his. But Fritz knew that it was a devil that had spoken out of the child"s mouth. Yet he laughed--so hard that it did not strike Apollonius how forced and disconnected his reply was. "Well then, tomorrow, as far as I"m concerned, or even this afternoon; now I can"t possibly spare the time. Now I"ll go down with you to St. George"s. I have a necessary errand to do tomorrow! Oh, the confounded child!"
Apollonius had no suspicion how seriously the laughing "confounded"
was meant. He said, still laughing at the child himself, "Good. We"ll ask tomorrow then. And then everything will be different. I am looking forward to it as gladly as the child, and you are too, I know, Fritz.
We"ll make it a very different life from what we have been leading."
Kindhearted Apollonius rejoiced so heartily at his brother"s joy! He continued to do so even after he was up again on his swinging seat, flying round the church roof.
Just as restlessly hovered about his brother"s fear the sinister something that hung above him and threatened to engulf him; still more industriously did his heart hammer away at the crumbling plans to hinder the fall: but the ship of his thoughts did not hang between heaven and earth, held by the light of heaven. It pitched deeper and ever deeper between earth and h.e.l.l, and h.e.l.l branded him ever darker with its fire.
Toward evening Christiane was suddenly aroused from her dreaming by two men"s voices. She was sitting in the gra.s.s not far from the closed door of the shed. Fritz and his brother had just entered the shed from the street at the back. She heard him teasing his brother about Anne Wohlig. Anne was the best match in the whole town--and Apollonius was a rascal who knew the world and the species that wore long hair and ap.r.o.ns. Anne was already sewing away at her outfit, and her cousins were carrying the news of her approaching marriage to Apollonius from house to house. Christiane heard her husband ask when the wedding was to be. She had been about to move away; now she forgot to go, she forgot to breathe. And then she almost gave a jubilant shout: Apollonius had said that he was not going to marry at all, either Anne or any one else.