"You"ve got to let them do the lion"s share, child. Just you sit still, and listen, and pretend you like it--even though you"re bored to extinction."
"And they never need to pretend anything, I suppose? No, I think they"re horrid. You don"t like them either, Evvy, do you? ... any more than I do?"
Evelyn laughed.
"Say what you think they are," persisted Laura and waggled the other"s arm, to make her speak.
"Mostly fools," said Evelyn, and laughed again--laughed in all the conscious power of lovely eighteen.
Overjoyed at this oneness of mind, Laura threw her arms round her friend"s neck and kissed her. "You dear!" she said.
And yet, a short time afterwards, it was on this very head that she had to bear the shock of a rude awakening.
Evelyn"s people came to Melbourne that year from the Riverina. Evelyn was allowed considerable freedom, and one night, by special permit, Laura also accepted an invitation to dinner and the theatre. The two girls drove to a hotel, where they found Evelyn"s mother, elegant but a little stern, and a young lady-friend. Only the four of them were present at dinner, and the meal pa.s.sed off smoothly; though the strangeness of dining in a big hotel had the effect of tying Laura"s tongue. Another thing that abashed her was the dress of the young lady, who sat opposite. This person--she must have been about the ripe age of twenty-five--was nipped into a tight little pink satin bodice, which, at the back, exposed the whole of two very bony shoulder-blades. But it was the front of the dress that Laura faced; and, having imbibed strict views of propriety from Mother, she wriggled on her chair whenever she raised her eyes.
They drove to the theatre--though it was only a few doors off. The seats were in the dress circle. The ladies sat in the front row, the girls, who were in high frocks, behind.
Evelyn made a face of laughing discontent. "It"s so ridiculous the mater won"t let me dress."
These words gave Laura a kind of stab. "Oh Evvy, I think you"re EVER so much nicer as you are," she whispered, and squeezed her friend"s hand.
Evelyn could not answer, for the lady in pink had leant back and tapped her with her fan. "It doesn"t look as if Jim were coming, my dear."
Evelyn laughed, in a peculiar way. "Oh, I guess he"ll turn up all right."
There had been some question of a person of this name at dinner; but Laura had paid no great heed to what was said. Now, she sat up sharply, for Evelyn exclaimed: "There he is!"
It was a man, a real man--not a boy--with a drooping, fair moustache, a single eyegla.s.s in one eye, and a camellia-bud in his b.u.t.tonhole. For the s.p.a.ce of a breathless second Laura connected him with the pink satin; then he dropped into a vacant seat at Evelyn"s side.
From this moment on, Laura"s pleasure in her expensive seat, in the pretty blue theatre and its movable roof, in the gay trickeries of the MIKADO, slowly fizzled out. Evelyn had no more thought for her. Now and then, it is true, she would turn in her affectionate way and ask Laura if she were all right just as one satisfies oneself that a little child is happy--but her real attention was for the man at her side. In the intervals, the two kept up a perpetual buzz of chat, broken only by Evelyn"s low laughs. Laura sat neglected, sat stiff and cold with disappointment, a great bitterness welling up within her. Before the performance had dragged to an end, she would have liked to put her head down and cry.
"Tired?" queried Evelyn noticing her pinched look, as they drove home in the wagonette. But the mother was there, too, so Laura said no.
Directly, however, the bedroom door shut behind them, she fell into a tantrum, a fit of sullen rage, which she accentuated till Evelyn could not but notice it.
"What"s the matter with you? Didn"t you enjoy yourself?"
"No, I hated it," returned Laura pa.s.sionately.
Evelyn laughed a little at this, but with an air of humorous dismay. "I must take care, then, not to ask you out again."
"I wouldn"t go. Not for anything!"
"What on earth"s the matter with you?"
"Nothing"s the matter."
"Well, if that"s all, make haste and get into bed. You"re overtired."
"Go to bed yourself!"
"I am, as fast as I can. I can hardly keep my eyes open;" and Evelyn yawned heartily.
When Laura saw that she meant it, she burst out: "You"re nothing but a story-teller--that"s what you are! You said you didn"t like them ...
that they were mostly fools ... and then ... then, to go on as you did to-night." Her voice was shaky with tears.
"Oh, that"s it, is it? Come now, get to bed. We"ll talk about it in the morning."
"I never want to speak to you again."
"You"re a silly child. But I"m really too sleepy to quarrel with you to-night."
"I hate you--hate you!"
"I shall survive it."
She turned out the light as she spoke, settled herself on her pillow, and composedly went to sleep.
Laura"s rage redoubled. Throwing herself on the floor she burst into angry tears, and cried as loudly as she dared, in the hope of keeping her companion awake. But Evelyn was a magnificent sleeper; and remained undisturbed. So after a time Laura rose, drew up the blind, opened the window and sat down on the sill.
It was a bitterly cold night, of milky-white moonlight; each bush and shrub carved its jet-black shadow on paths and gra.s.s. Across Evelyn"s bed fell a great patch of light: this, or the chill air would, it was to be trusted, wake her. Meanwhile Laura sat in her thin nightgown and shivered, feeling the cold intensely after the great heat of the day.
She hoped with all her heart that she would be lucky enough to get an inflammation of the lungs. Then, Evelyn would be sorry she had been so cruel to her.
It was nearly two o"clock, and she had several times found herself nodding, when the sleeper suddenly opened her eyes and sat bolt upright in bed.
"Laura, good heavens, what are you doing at the window? Oh, you wicked child, you"ll catch your death of cold! Get into bed at once."
And, the culprit still maintaining an immovable silence, Evelyn dragged her to bed by main force, and tucked her in as tightly as a mummy.
XXIII.
GUT UND BOSE UND l.u.s.t UND LEID UND ICH UND DU.
NIETZSCHE
"Laura, you"re a cipher!"
"I"m nothing of the sort!" threw back Laura indignantly. "You"re one yourself.--What does she mean, Evvy?" she asked getting out of earshot of the speaker.
"Goodness knows. Don"t mind her, Poppet."
It was an oppressive evening: all day long a hot north wind had scoured the streets, veiling things and people in clouds of gritty dust; the sky was still like the prolonged reflection of a great fire. The hoped-for change had not come, and the girls who strolled the paths of the garden were white and listless. They walked in couples, with interlaced arms; and members of the Matriculation Cla.s.s carried books with them, the present year being one of much struggling and heartburning, and few leisured moments. Mary Pidwall and Cupid were together under an acacia tree at the gate of the tennis-court; and it was M. P. who had cast the above gibe at Laura. At least Laura took it as a gibe, and scowled darkly; for she could never grow hardened to ridicule.