Between the two was the science station proper. After the power dropped, Sagan would enter, find Boutin and extract him, pounding him unconscious if need be to get him to the capture pod. If she came across Dirac, she would need to make a quick determination whether he was useful or if he had gone traitor like his progenitor. If it was the latter, she would have to kill him, clean and quick.
Sagan suspected she was going to have to kill Dirac no matter what; she didn"t really think she would have enough time to decide whether he was trustworthy or not, and she didn"t have her BrainPal upgrade to read his thoughts on the matter. Sagan allowed herself a moment of mirthless amus.e.m.e.nt at the fact that her mind-reading ability, so secret and cla.s.sified, was also completely useless to her when she really needed it. Sagan didn"t want to have to kill Dirac, but she didn"t see that she had a whole lot of options in the matter. Maybe he"s already dead, Maybe he"s already dead, Sagan thought. Sagan thought. That would save me the trouble That would save me the trouble.
Sagan shook the thought out of her head. She didn"t like what that particular line of thought was saying about her. She would worry about Dirac when and if Dirac showed up. In the meantime, the three of them had other things to worry about. In the end, what really mattered was getting Boutin to that capture pod.
We do have one advantage, Sagan thought. Sagan thought. None of us really expects we"re going to survive. That gives us options None of us really expects we"re going to survive. That gives us options.
"Are we ready?" Sagan asked.
"We"re ready," Seaborg said.
"f.u.c.k, yes," Harvey said.
"Let"s do it then," Sagan said. "Harvey, you"re on."
Jared woke from a brief nap to find Zoe staring up at him. He smiled. "h.e.l.lo, Zoe," he said.
"h.e.l.lo," Zoe said, and frowned. "I forgot your name," she said.
"I"m Jared," he said.
"Oh, yeah," Zoe said. "h.e.l.lo, Mr. Jared."
"h.e.l.lo, sweetie," Jared said, and once again he found it hard to keep his voice even. He glanced down at the stuffed animal Zoe carried. "Is that Celeste the elephant?" he asked.
Zoe nodded, and held it up for him to see. "Uh-huh," she said. "I used to have a Babar, but I lost it. Do you know Babar?"
"I do," Jared said. "I remember seeing your Babar too."
"I miss my Babar," Zoe said in a little voice, but then perked up. "But then Daddy got me Celeste, after he came back."
"How long was he away?" Jared asked.
Zoe shrugged. "A long time," she said. "He said he had things he had to do first. But he said he sent the Obin to protect me and watch out for me."
"And did they?" Jared asked.
"I guess so," she said. She shrugged and said in a low voice, "I don"t like the Obin. They"re boring."
"I can see that," Jared said. "I"m sorry you and your dad were kept apart for so long, Zoe. I know he loves you very much."
"I know," Zoe said. "I love him too. I love Daddy and Mommy and all the grandparents I never met and my friends from Covell too. I miss them. Do you think they miss me?"
"I"m sure they do," Jared said, and willfully avoided thinking about what happened to her friends. He looked back at Zoe and saw her being pouty. "What"s wrong, sweetheart?" he asked.
"Daddy says that I have to go back to Phoenix with you," Zoe said. "He says that you"re going to stay with me so he can finish up some work here."
"Your daddy and I talked about that," Jared said, carefully. "Do you not want to go back?"
"I want to go back with Daddy," she said, plaintively. "I don"t want him to stay."
"He won"t be gone very long," Jared said. "It"s just the ship that we brought here to take you home is really small, and there"s only going to be room in it for you and me."
"You could stay," Zoe said. could stay," Zoe said.
Jared laughed. "I wish I could, honey. But we"ll have fun while we wait for your daddy, I promise. Is there anything you"d like to do when we get to Phoenix Station?"
"I want to buy some candy, candy," Zoe said. "They don"t have any here. Daddy says the Obin don"t make any. He tried to make me some once, though."
"How was it?" Jared asked.
"It was really bad, bad," Zoe said. "I want jawbreakers and b.u.t.ter-scotch and lollipops and jellybeans. I like the black ones."
"I remember that," Jared said. "The first time I saw you, you were eating black jellybeans."
"When was that?" Zoe asked.
"It was a long time ago, sweetie," Jared said. "But I remember it like it was yesterday. And when we go back, you can have any candy you want."
"But not too much," Zoe said. "Because then my stomach will hurt."
"Exactly right," Jared said. "And we really couldn"t have that. A stomachache just wouldn"t do."
Zoe smiled up at Jared and broke his heart. "You"re silly, Mr. Jared," she said.
"Well," Jared said, smiling back. "I try."
"Okay, I"m going to go," Zoe said. "Daddy"s taking a nap. He doesn"t know I"m here. I"m going to go wake him up because I"m hungry."
"You go do that, Zoe," Jared said. "Thank you for visiting, Zoe. I"m really glad you came by."
"Okay," Zoe said, turned around, and waved back to him as she went. "Bye, Mr. Jared! See you later."
"See you later," Jared said, knowing he wouldn"t.
"Love you!" Zoe said, in that casual way that kids do.
"Love you too," Jared whispered, as a parent. He waited until he heard a door close down the adjoining hall before he let himself release the ragged, tearing breath he had been holding in.
Jared looked at the lab, his eyes flitting over the console Boutin had brought in to manage the consciousness transfer, and lingering on the second creche Boutin had brought in, the one in which he would place himself before sending over his consciousness to Jared"s body, wiping out Jared"s existence as if he were simply a placeholder, something put there to mark time until the body"s true owner could take possession.
But then, Jared thought, wasn"t that actually the case? It was was Boutin who was intended to be in this body. That was why it was created. Jared was allowed to exist only because Boutin"s consciousness refused at first to take up residence. It had to be coaxed in to share the minds.p.a.ce Jared had created as caretaker. And now, irony of ironies, Botuin wanted it all, wanted to push Jared aside entirely. Boutin who was intended to be in this body. That was why it was created. Jared was allowed to exist only because Boutin"s consciousness refused at first to take up residence. It had to be coaxed in to share the minds.p.a.ce Jared had created as caretaker. And now, irony of ironies, Botuin wanted it all, wanted to push Jared aside entirely. d.a.m.n it, d.a.m.n it, Jared thought crazily. Jared thought crazily. I just got this brain set up the way I like it! I just got this brain set up the way I like it! He laughed, and the laugh sounded shaky and weird to his ears. He tried to calm himself, bringing himself into a more rational state breath by breath. He laughed, and the laugh sounded shaky and weird to his ears. He tried to calm himself, bringing himself into a more rational state breath by breath.
Jared heard Boutin in his head, describing the wrongs of the Colonial Union, and heard the voice of Cainen, whom he trusted more to be honest about these things, echoing the sentiments. He looked into his own past as a member of the Special Forces, and the things they had done in the name of making the universe "safe for humanity." The Colonial Union did did straddle every line of communication, directed every course of action, kept every aspect of humanity under tight control, and fought nearly every other race they knew of with persistent ferocity. straddle every line of communication, directed every course of action, kept every aspect of humanity under tight control, and fought nearly every other race they knew of with persistent ferocity.
If the universe was was as hostile as the Colonial Union said, perhaps this level of control was justified, for the overarching racial imperative of holding ground and making a place for humans in the universe. But if it as hostile as the Colonial Union said, perhaps this level of control was justified, for the overarching racial imperative of holding ground and making a place for humans in the universe. But if it wasn"t wasn"t-if what was fueling the Colonial Union"s constant wars was not compet.i.tion from the outside but paranoia and xenophobia from the inside-then Jared knew that he and everyone he"d known inside the Special Forces and out of it could have, in one way or another, led to the slow death of humanity that Boutin a.s.sured him was out there. He would have chosen to refuse to fight.
But, Jared thought, Jared thought, Boutin isn"t reliable Boutin isn"t reliable. Boutin labeled the Colonial Union as evil, but Boutin also chose to do evil things. He caused three separate races-two with long-standing issues-to come together to attack the Colonial Union, exposing billions of humans and billions of other intelligent creatures to the threat of war. He had experimented upon and killed Special Forces soldiers. He was planning to kill every single member of Special Forces and every other CDF soldier with his BrainPal virus, something akin to a genocide, considering the numbers and the unique makeup of the Colonial Defense Forces. And in killing the Colonial Defense Forces, Boutin would leave the colonies and Earth defenseless against any race who chose to claim one of the colonies as its own. The Obin couldn"t stop the land rush from these other races-and probably wouldn"t even if they could. The reward for the Obin was not land but consciousness.
The unprotected colonists would be doomed, Jared realized. Their colonies would be destroyed and there would be nowhere for them to go. It wasn"t in the nature of the races in this part of the galaxy to share their worlds. Earth with its billions might survive; it would be hard to displace billions of humans without a fight. The more spa.r.s.ely populated and less ecologically burdened colony planets would be far more attractive. But if someone decided to attack Earth, and the Earth had indeed been held back by the Colonial Union for its own purposes, it wouldn"t be able to fully defend itself. It would survive, but the damage would be immense.
Doesn"t Boutin see this? Jared asked himself. Perhaps he did, but chose to believe that it wouldn"t happen that way. But maybe he simply never considered the consequences of his actions. When the Obin contacted him, perhaps all Boutin saw was a people so desperate for the thing he could give them that they would do anything to get it. Maybe Boutin asked for the moon and didn"t give a thought to what he would do with the moon once he had it. Maybe Boutin didn"t really think the Obin would really, truly give him the war he asked for. Jared asked himself. Perhaps he did, but chose to believe that it wouldn"t happen that way. But maybe he simply never considered the consequences of his actions. When the Obin contacted him, perhaps all Boutin saw was a people so desperate for the thing he could give them that they would do anything to get it. Maybe Boutin asked for the moon and didn"t give a thought to what he would do with the moon once he had it. Maybe Boutin didn"t really think the Obin would really, truly give him the war he asked for.
Interlaced within all of this, Jared felt a sick-making worry for Zoe: What would happen to her if Boutin failed or was killed; what would happen to her if he succeeded? Jared felt guilty for worrying about what would happen to one small child when billions of lives would be altered or ended, but he couldn"t help himself. As much as anything, he was looking for a way where Zoe lived through all of it.
Jared felt overwhelmed by the choices he needed to make, and underwhelmed by the information he had to make them with, and utterly bereft at how little he would be able to do about any of it. He felt like he was probably the last person in the world who should be wrestling with all of this. But there was nothing to be done about it now. He closed his eyes and considered his options.
An hour later Jared opened his eyes as Boutin came through the door, trailed by an Obin. "You"re awake," Boutin said.
"I am," Jared said.
"It"s time for me to make the transfer," Boutin said. "I"ve programmed in the process and run the simulations; it looks like it"s going to run perfectly. There"s no point in putting it off anymore."
"Far be it from me to stop you from killing me," Jared said, casually.
Boutin paused; Jared saw that coming right out and mentioning his incipient murder disturbed Boutin. Good, Good, Jared thought. Jared thought.
"About that," Boutin said. "Before we do the transfer, I can run a directive that will put you to sleep, if you want. You wouldn"t feel a thing. I"m offering that to you. If you want."
"You don"t seem to want it," Jared said.
"It makes the transfer more difficult, from what I can see from the simulations," Boutin said. "The transfer will take more securely if you"re conscious as well."
"Well then, by all means I"ll stay awake," Jared said. "I wouldn"t want to make this more difficult for you."
"Listen, Dirac," Boutin said. "This isn"t something personal. You have to understand that you offer a way to make this all happen quickly and cleanly, with the least amount of bloodshed on all sides. I"m sorry you have to die, but the alternative is far more death."
"Murdering every Colonial Defense Forces soldier with your virus doesn"t strike me as the least amount of bloodshed," Jared said.
Boutin turned and told the Obin to start the preparations; the Obin went to the console and went to work.
"Tell me," Jared said. "After you"ve killed all the Colonial Defense Forces, who is going to protect the human colonies? They won"t have defenders anymore. You"ll have killed them all."
"The Obin will protect them in the short run," Boutin said. "Until we can create a new defense force."
"Are you sure about that?" Jared said. "Once you give them consciousness, why would they need to do anything for you anymore? Or do you plan to withhold consciousness until after they give you your next next demand?" demand?"
Boutin gave a quick glance back at the Obin in the room, and then faced Jared. "I"m not withholding withholding anything," he said. "They"ll do it because they"ve agreed to it." anything," he said. "They"ll do it because they"ve agreed to it."
"Are you willing to bet the life of Zoe on it?" Jared asked. "Because that"s what you"re doing."
"Don"t lecture me on my my daughter," Boutin spat at Jared, and turned away. Jared gave a sad shudder, thinking of the choices he was making. daughter," Boutin spat at Jared, and turned away. Jared gave a sad shudder, thinking of the choices he was making.
The Obin nodded over at Boutin; it was time. Boutin looked over to Jared one more time. "Anything else you want to say before we get started?" he asked Jared.
"I think I"ll save it for later," Jared said.
Boutin opened his mouth to ask what that meant, but before he could, a noise erupted from outside the station. It sounded like a very large gun going off very rapidly.
Harvey lived for this sort of s.h.i.t.
His chief worry as they approached the science station was that Lieutenant Sagan would do one of her patented thoughtful, methodical approaches; something sneaky that would require him to tiptoe around like a G.o.dd.a.m.n spy or something. He hated that c.r.a.p. Harvey knew what he was and what he was best at: He was a noisy son of a b.i.t.c.h and he was good at making things fall down and go boom. In his few introspective moments, Harvey wondered if his progie, the guy he was mostly made from, hadn"t been something really antisocial, like a pyromaniac or a professional wrestler, or maybe had done time for a.s.sault. Whoever or whatever he was, Harvey would have been happy to give him a nice big smack on the lips. Harvey was absolutely at peace with his inner nature, in the sort of way that Zen Buddhist monks could only dream about. And so when Sagan told him his job was to draw attention to himself so she and Seaborg could do their jobs, Harvey did a little dance on the inside. He could definitely draw attention to himself.
The question was how.
Harvey was not especially introspective, but this didn"t mean he was stupid. He was moral, within his lights; he understood the value of subtlety even if he wasn"t much for it himself, and one of the reasons he could get away with being loud and obnoxious was that he was a fair stick at strategy and logistics. Give him a job and he"d do it, usually in the most entropy-producing way possible, yes, but also in a way that achieved exactly the aim it was supposed to. One of Harvey"s guiding lights in terms of strategies was simplicity; all things being equal, Harvey preferred the course of action that let him get into the middle of things and then just buckle down. When asked about it, Harvey called it his Occam"s razor theory of combat: The simplest way of kicking someone"s a.s.s was usually the correct one.
It was this philosophy that had Harvey taking the hovercraft Sagan had stolen, mounting it, and, after a few moments to glean the fundamentals of navigating it, rocketing on it toward the door of the Obin mess hall. As Harvey approached, the door to the mess hall opened inward; some Obin heading to duty after dinner. Harvey grinned a mad grin, gunned the hovercraft, and then braked it just enough (he hoped) to jam that f.u.c.king alien right back into the room.
It worked perfectly. The Obin had enough time for a surprised squawk before the hovercraft"s gun struck it square in the chest, punching backward like it was a toy on a string, hurling down nearly the entire length of the hall. The other Obin in the room looked up while Harvey"s victim pinwheeled to the ground, then turned their multiple eyes toward the doorway, Harvey, and the hovercraft with its big gun poking right into the room.
"h.e.l.lo, boys!" Harvey said in a big, booming voice. "The 2nd Platoon sends its regards!" And with that, he jammed down the "fire" b.u.t.ton on the gun and set to work.
Things got messy real fast after that. It was just f.u.c.king beautiful.
Harvey loved his job.
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From the other side of the compound, Seaborg heard Harvey start in on his happy work, and had just a little bit of an involuntary shudder. It"s not that Seaborg disliked Harvey, but after a couple of combat drops with the 2nd Platoon one got the sense that if you didn"t like things to explode unnecessarily around you, you would want to stay well clear of Daniel Harvey.
The crash and bang did exactly what it was supposed to-the Obin soldiers at the generator abandoned their posts to help out those of their number who were being cheerfully ma.s.sacred on the other side of the compound. Seaborg did a modified sprint to the generators, wincing as he did so, and surprised what he guessed were some Obin scientists as he came through the door. Seaborg shot one with one of those weird Obin weapons, and then snapped the other one"s neck. That was more disturbing than Seaborg would have expected; he felt the bones or whatever they were give way as he struck. Unlike Harvey, Seaborg was never a natural with violence; he wasn"t much of a natural in anything. This was something he sensed early and hid with overcompensation, which is why so many of his training squad members thought he was an a.s.shole. He got over it-someone is going to push you off a cliff if you don"t-but what he never got over was the idea that when it came right down to it, Special Forces was not a good fit for him.
Seaborg went into the next room, which took up the majority of the shed and which housed the two ma.s.sive forms Seaborg a.s.sumed were the batteries he had to destroy. Harvey"s distraction was going to work only so long as Harvey managed to keep himself alive, which Seaborg doubted would be very long at all. Seaborg looked in the room for controls or panels that could help him or at least give some indication how he could shut down the power. He saw nothing; all the panels and controls were back in the room he left the two dead Obin in. Seaborg briefly wondered if he should have left one of them alive and tried to convince it to shut down the power station, but he doubted he would have been very successful at all.
"f.u.c.k," Seaborg said out loud in frustration, and for lack of anything better coming to mind, raised the Obin weapon and shot at one of the batteries. The projectile embedded in the metal skin of the huge battery, momentarily raising sparks, and then Seaborg heard a high-pitched whine, like air whistling out of a very small hole. He looked up at where he shot-a high-pressure stream of some green gas was spurting out. Seaborg looked at it.
What the h.e.l.l, Seaborg thought, raising his weapon and aiming at the hole from which the stream was emanating. Let"s see if that s.h.i.t"s flammable Let"s see if that s.h.i.t"s flammable.
It was.
The power generator blast knocked Jane Sagan right on her a.s.s and blinded her for a good three seconds; she recovered sight just in time to see large chunks of the power generator"s room hurling through the sky in her general direction. Sagan backtracked enough to avoid the debris and instinctually checked her integration to see if by some miracle Seaborg had managed to survive. There was nothing there, of course. You don"t survive a blast like that. She could feel Harvey, though, shocked for a moment out of his orgy of violence. Sagan turned her attention to the science station itself, its windows shattered and parts on fire, and it took her several seconds of formulating a plan before she realized that she had had integration once more. Knocking out the power somehow brought back her BrainPal. integration once more. Knocking out the power somehow brought back her BrainPal.
Sagan took an entirely inappropriate two seconds to revel in the return of her integration and BrainPal before she wondered if she were still integrated with someone else.
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The blast knocked both Boutin and the Obin to the floor; Jared felt his creche shake violently. It managed to stay upright, as did the second creche. The lights went out, to be replaced a second later by the soft green glow of lights running on emergency power. The Obin got up and went to the wall to activate the lab"s backup generator. Boutin picked himself up, cried for Zoe and ran out of the room. Jared watched him go, his own heart in his mouth.
::Dirac,:: Jane Sagan said. ::Answer me.:: Integration flowed over Jared like golden light.
::I"m here,:: Jared said.