As he struggled to get out of the car I took him by the arm and levered him out. We supported him, one on either side, and after we got him through the door, she gave directions in a voice strained with effort. She turned on the light of what was obviously a guest room. We sat him on the bed and he sat with his eyes closed, mumbling something we could not understand. When he started to topple over backward, I grabbed him by the shoulders and turned him so that he landed on the pillow. She knelt and unlaced his shoes and pulled them off. I picked his legs up and swung them onto the bed. She loosened his belt. When he gave a long, ragged snore, she looked at me and made a mouth of distaste. I followed her as she walked out. She turned the lights off and closed the guest room door.
I followed her into the living room. She turned, standing more erect, and said, "Thanks for your help. This doesn"t happen often. That is not an excuse or an apology. Just a statement of fact."
I worked the revolver out of my trouser pocket and gave it to her. "If it happens at all, he shouldn"t run around with this thing."
"I"ll put it away and tell him he must have lost it. Thank you again."
"May I use your phone to call a cab?"
She stepped to the front window and looked across the street. "My friend is still up. She"ll come over and listen for the kids while I take you in."
"I don"t want to trouble you, Mrs. Holton."
"I"d like some air. And you"ve been to a lot of trouble."
She went to the phone in the foyer and dialed, then had a brief low-voiced conversation. We went out and got into the car. She asked me to wait for a moment. When the door opened in the house across the street and a woman came out and started across, she told me to start up. She waved and called, "Thanks a lot, Meg."
"Perfectly okay, Jan. Take your tune, honey."
Janice Holton untied the kerchief and put it over her dark hair and fastened it under her chin. From her manner it was going to be a swift and silent trip.
"I guess what racked your husband up was having some person or persons unknown kill his girl friend."
Out of the corner of my eye I could see that she had turned quickly and was staring at me. "I couldn"t care less what... racks him up, Mr. McGee. I feel sorry for the girl. As a matter of fact I regret never having had a chance to thank her."
"Thank her?"
"For letting me out of bondage, let"s say."
"Unlocked your chains?"
"You"re not really really interested in the sordid details of my happy marriage, are you?" interested in the sordid details of my happy marriage, are you?"
"It just seemed like a strange way to put it."
"I find myself saying some very strange things lately."
"Right at the bottom of the certificate, Mrs. Holton, there"s the fine print that says you live happily ever after."
I suppose that you could call it role-playing, maybe in the same sense that the psychologists who use group therapy use the term. Or you could call it, as Meyer does, my con-man instinct. Okay, call it a trace of chameleon blood. But the best way to relate to people is to fake their same hang-ups, and when you relate to people, you open them up. So I lie a little. Instant empathy. To crack her facade I had to make out like an ex-married, so I spoke with the maximum male bitterness.
"You sound like you had the tour too, Mr. McGee?"
"Ride the roily-coaster. Find your way through the fun house. Float through the tunnel of love. Sure. I had a carnival trip, Mrs. Holton. But the setup tends to do a pretty good job of gutting the husband. I believed the fine print. But she turned out to be a b.u.m. So I end up paying her so much a month so she can keep on being a b.u.m. So I"m a little bitter about the way the system works."
"For a girl married to a lawyer, it doesn"t exactly work out that way. I believed the fine print too, Mr. McGee. I considered it an honorable estate, an honorable contract. And, by G.o.d, I worked at it. I knew after the first year it wasn"t going to be the way... you hope it will be. So I tried to understand him. I think Rick feels that he is... unworthy of being loved. So he can"t ever believe anyone loves him, really. So he has a thousand mean snide little ways of spoiling things. He loves the boys, I know. But any kind of... family ceremony, something for warmth and love and fun-oh, can he ever clobber everybody. Tears and shambles and nastiness, and everything you try to plan... birthdays, anniversaries, he has such a cruel way of making things turn sour. But I was stuck with it. I thought thought I was stuck with it. You know, if you"re a grownup, you add up the ledger. A successful man, a faithful man, not a drunk or a chaser. But then... the sneaky business with Miss Woertz changed the ledger." I was stuck with it. You know, if you"re a grownup, you add up the ledger. A successful man, a faithful man, not a drunk or a chaser. But then... the sneaky business with Miss Woertz changed the ledger."
"And let you out of bondage?"
"Kept me from agonizing over... making the marriage work. Sort of... canceled all my vows."
"Did you find out about her quite recently?"
"Oh, no. I found out practically as soon as it started. He started that crusade about finding out what really really happened to Doctor Sherman. You know about that?" happened to Doctor Sherman. You know about that?"
"He told me about it. Was that just to help cover up the affair with the nurse?"
"Oh, no. He"s sincere about it. But when it threw them together, he sure put in a lot of hours in so-called investigation. Somebody called me up and told me about it, in a very nasty whisper. I couldn"t tell if it was a man or a woman. I didn"t want to believe it, but I knew it was true, somehow. Then I saw all the little clues." She gave a mirthless laugh. "The most convincing one was the way he became so much sweeter to me and the boys."
"So are you going to divorce him?"
"I don"t know. I don"t love him anymore. But I haven"t got a dime of my own. And I just don"t know if I could get enough alimony and child support if I bring suit."
I turned in at the Wahini Lodge and parked away from the entrance lights, over near the architectured waterfall and the flaming gas torches.
"You"re too darned easy to talk to, Mr. McGee."
"Maybe because we just wear the same kind of battle scars. I had to get out of my setup just as fast as I could."
"Any kids?"
"No. She kept saying later, later."
"It makes a difference, you know. It"s a pretty nice house, nice neighborhood, good school. There"s medicine and dental work and shoes and savings accounts. It"s an arrangement, right now. I do my part of the job of keeping the house going. But I won"t ever let him touch me again. It would turn my stomach. He can find himself another playmate. I don"t give a d.a.m.n. And we don"t have to socialize, particularly."
"Can you live the rest of your life like that?"
"No! I don"t intend to. But I have a friend who says that we... says that I had better just sort of go along with it as is for the time being. He is a dear, gentle, wise, understanding man. We"ve been very close ever since I found out about Rick. His marriage is as hopeless as mine but in a different way. I"m not having an affair with him. We see each other and we have to be terribly careful and discreet because I wouldn"t want to give Rick any kind of ammunition he could use if and when I try to get a divorce. We don"t even have any kind of special understanding about the future. It"s just that we both... have to endure things the way they are for a while."
"Then, I guess the family outing Rick told me about, the trip to Vero Beach yesterday, must have been pretty grim."
She had turned in the bucket seat to face me, her back against the door, legs pulled up. "Was it ever! Like that old thing about what a tangled web we weave. I didn"t have any idea he"d want to spend any part of Sat.u.r.day with his wife and children. I"d told him I was going to drive over and see June and leave the boys off with my best friend on the way. She lives twenty miles east of here. Her boys are just the same ages, practically. I"d fixed it with June to cover for me in case Rick phoned me there for some stupid reason. And I was going to drive to... another place close by and spend the day with my friend. But out of the clear blue Rick decided to come too! I didn"t see how in the world he could have found out anything. But he was so ugly I decided he must have had a little lovers" spat with his girl friend. When I left the boys at my friend"s place, I had a chance to phone my sister and warn her, while Rick was out in the car, but I couldn"t get hold of my friend to call the date off. Rick was in a foul mood all day." Again the mirthless laugh. "What a lousy soap-opera!"
I could not leave at that moment because it would give her the aftertaste of having been pumped, of having talked too much. So I invented a gaudy confrontation between me and the boyfriend of a wife I never had. I spun it out and when I was through, she said, "It"s wretched that people have to be put through things like that just because a wife or a husband is too immature to... to be plain everyday faithful. Do you ever run into her? Is she still in Lauderdale?"
"No. She moved away. I have no idea where she is now. I send the money to a Jacksonville bank. If I want to find out where she is, all I"d have to do is stop making payments. Look, do you want to come in for a nightcap?"
"Golly, where did the time go? Meg is a good neighbor, but I don"t want to take too much advantage. Mr. McGee?"
"Travis."
"Travis, I didn"t mean to sound like a long cry of woe, but it"s made me feel better somehow, comparing bruises with somebody."
"Good luck to you, Janice."
"And to you too." I had gotten out. She clambered over to the driver"s seat, snapped the belt on, and pulled it back to her slender dimension. "Night, now," she called, and backed out and swung around and out onto the divided highway, upshifting skillfully as she went.
I projected a telepathic suggestion to her unknown friend. Grab that one, man. Richard Haslo Holton was too blind to see what he had. She"s got fire, integrity, courage, restraint. And she is a very handsome lively creature. Grab her if you can, because even though there are quite a few of them around, hardly any of them ever get loose.
No messages, no blinking red light on the phone. The maid had turned the bed down. Small hours of the morning. When I put the light out, a freckled ghost roamed the room. I said good night to her. "We"ll find out, Miss Penny," I told her. "Somehow we"ll find out and you can stop this wandering around motel rooms at night."
12.
I HAD A h.e.l.l of a night. Hundreds of dreams and from what little I could remember of them, they all had the same pattern. Either somebody was running after me to tell me something important and I could not stop running from them or understand why I couldn"t stop, or I was running headlong after somebody else who was slowly moving away no matter how hard I ran, moving away in a car or a bus or a train. Sometimes it was Penny, sometimes Helena. I woke with an aching tiredness of bone, a mouth like a cricket cage, grainy eyes, and skin that seemed to have stretched so that it was too big for me and wanted to hang in tired, draped folds. h.e.l.l of a night. Hundreds of dreams and from what little I could remember of them, they all had the same pattern. Either somebody was running after me to tell me something important and I could not stop running from them or understand why I couldn"t stop, or I was running headlong after somebody else who was slowly moving away no matter how hard I ran, moving away in a car or a bus or a train. Sometimes it was Penny, sometimes Helena. I woke with an aching tiredness of bone, a mouth like a cricket cage, grainy eyes, and skin that seemed to have stretched so that it was too big for me and wanted to hang in tired, draped folds.
After endless toothbrushing and a shower that did no good I phoned the Fort Courtney Police Department and left word for Stanger that I had called.
My breakfast had just been served when he settled into the chair across the table from me and told the waitress to bring him some hot tea.
"You look poorly, McGee."
"Slept poorly, feel poorly."
"That"s my story, every morning of my life. You get yourself a swing and a miss with Janice Holton?"
"They took the trip to Vero Beach together. And you could confirm it by finding out who she left the kids with, an old friend twenty miles from here, in the direction of Vero Beach. And Holton is serious about believing somebody killed Doctor Sherman. The Holton marriage has bombed out. She knew about the nurse. She"s going through the motions for the sake of the kids until she can find some way to land on her feet. And I think she will, sooner or later."
He blew on his hot tea and took a sip and stared at me and shook his head slowly. "Now, aren"t you the one! By G.o.d, she cozies up pretty good to some d.a.m.n insurance investigator."
"I didn"t have to use it. You gave me a better approach."
He aimed his little dusty brown eyes at me. "I did?"
I put my fork down and smiled across at him. "Yes, indeed you did, you silly half-a.s.s fumbling excuse for a cop."
"Now, don"t you get your-"
"You knew knew Holton was s.c.r.e.w.i.n.g her, Stanger. You Holton was s.c.r.e.w.i.n.g her, Stanger. You knew knew that the note you found made it clear to anybody who can read simple words that she and I had something going for us. So what did you think Holton would do after he saw the note or a copy of it? Chuckle and say, Well, well, well, how about that? You probably know even that the ex-a.s.sistant state attorney carries a gun. But did you make any effort to tip me so I wouldn"t get shot? Not good old Stanger, the lawman. Thanks, Stanger. Anytime I can do any little thing for you, look me up." that the note you found made it clear to anybody who can read simple words that she and I had something going for us. So what did you think Holton would do after he saw the note or a copy of it? Chuckle and say, Well, well, well, how about that? You probably know even that the ex-a.s.sistant state attorney carries a gun. But did you make any effort to tip me so I wouldn"t get shot? Not good old Stanger, the lawman. Thanks, Stanger. Anytime I can do any little thing for you, look me up."
"Now, wait a minute, G.o.dd.a.m.n it! What makes you think he read the note?"
"Some direct quotes sort of stuck in his mind. He recited them."
He drank more of his tea. He found a third of a cigar on his person, thumbnailed the remains of the ash off it, held a match to it.
"He try to use the gun?"
"He didn"t get the chance. I was tipped. I found him staked out and waiting, so I sneaked up on him and took it away. I don"t know whether he was going to use it or not. Give him the benefit of the argument and say he wouldn"t. He knew I hadn"t put the shears in her neck. He knew I was cleared of that. Let"s say he resented the rest of it, though. Incidentally, I gave the gun to his wife and she seemed to think it would be a good idea to tuck it away. Maybe there shouldn"t be a gun in that happy household."
"So you took the gun away from him and?"
"I yanked his legs out from under him to get it. Then I had to trip him onto his face, and then I had to block him and somersault him onto his back. The last one took it out of him. He"d been drinking. It made him sick. I drove him home in his car. We became dear old buddies somehow. Drunks are changeable. He was pa.s.sed out by the tune I got him home. I helped get him to bed. She had a neighbor watch the kids while she drove me back. She"s known about the affair since it started. He sleeps in the guest room. I like her."
He held up the hand with the cigar in it. He held it up, palm toward me, and said, "I swear on the grave of my dear old mother who loved me so much she didn"t even mind me becoming a cop that I just can"t figure out how the h.e.l.l Rick Holton got hold of that note. Look, as an ex-prosecutor he"s got a little leverage. Not too much but some. I think he would know where to look, who to bug, if if he knew there he knew there was was a note. But a note. But how how could he know? Look, now. The Woertz woman knew because she wrote it. I knew because I found it. Jacka.s.s Nudenbarger knew because he was with me when I found it. You knew because I read it to you. And down at the store, two men. Tad Unger did the lab work and made photocopies. Bill Samuels acts as a sort of clerk-coordinator. He sets up the file and keeps it neat and tidy and complete to turn over to the state attorney if need be. He protects the chain of evidence, makes the autopsy request, and so on." Had I thought for a moment, I would have realized there had to be an autopsy. They would want to know if a murdered unmarried woman was pregnant, if there was any sign of a blow that had not left any surface bruises, contusions, or abrasions, if she was under the influence of alcohol or narcotics, if she had been raped or had had intercourse recently enough to be able to type the s.e.m.e.n. And the painstaking, inch-by-inch examination of the epidermis would disclose any scratches, puncture wounds, minor bruises, bite marks. And there would be a chemical a.n.a.lysis of the contents of the stomach, as death stops the normal digestive processes. could he know? Look, now. The Woertz woman knew because she wrote it. I knew because I found it. Jacka.s.s Nudenbarger knew because he was with me when I found it. You knew because I read it to you. And down at the store, two men. Tad Unger did the lab work and made photocopies. Bill Samuels acts as a sort of clerk-coordinator. He sets up the file and keeps it neat and tidy and complete to turn over to the state attorney if need be. He protects the chain of evidence, makes the autopsy request, and so on." Had I thought for a moment, I would have realized there had to be an autopsy. They would want to know if a murdered unmarried woman was pregnant, if there was any sign of a blow that had not left any surface bruises, contusions, or abrasions, if she was under the influence of alcohol or narcotics, if she had been raped or had had intercourse recently enough to be able to type the s.e.m.e.n. And the painstaking, inch-by-inch examination of the epidermis would disclose any scratches, puncture wounds, minor bruises, bite marks. And there would be a chemical a.n.a.lysis of the contents of the stomach, as death stops the normal digestive processes.
"You all right?" Stanger asked softly.
"I"m just perfect. When did they do the autopsy?"
"They must have been starting on it when I was talking to you in your room Sat.u.r.day night."
"And those two men, Unger and..."
"Samuels."
"They wouldn"t volunteer any information about the note?"
"h.e.l.l no. The days of volunteering any information to anybody about anything are long gone. Order yourself more coffee. Don"t go away. Be right back."
It took him ten minutes. He sat down wearily, mopped his forehead on a soiled handkerchief. "Well, Bill Samuels was off yesterday and Holton came in about eleven in the morning. A clerk named Foster was on duty and Holton told him that the state attorney, Ben Gaffner, had asked him to take a look at the note that had been found in the Woertz girl"s apartment. So Foster unlocked the file and let him read the photocopy. It still doesn"t answer the question."
"Can I give it a try?"
"Go ahead."
"Would Holton know you were on the case?"
"Sure."
"Would he know he wouldn"t be able to get much out of you?"
"He"d know that."
"Would he know who"s working with you?"
"I guess he"d know... Oh, G.o.dd.a.m.n that motor-sickel idiot!"
He told me that as long as I"d had the grief of it, I might as well have the pleasure of seeing the chewing process. I signed the check for my breakfast and his tea and followed him out.
The car was parked in the shade. Nudenbarger, now in a sport shirt with green and white vertical stripes, was leaning against it smiling and talking to a pair of brown hefty little teen-age girls in shorts. He saw us coming and said something. The kids turned and looked at us, then walked slowly away, looking back from time to time.
"All set?" he asked, opening the car door.
Stanger kicked it shut. "Maybe on the side you could rent that mouth. People could store stuff in it. Bicycles, broken rocking chairs, footlockers. Nice little income on the side."
"Now just a minute, Al, I-"
"Shut up. Close that big empty stupid cave fastened to the front of your stupid face, Nudenbarger. Stop holding the car up. I just want to know how stupid you are. Every day you become the new world"s champion stupid. How did you get mousetrapped into talking about the note the nurse left?"
"Mousetrapped? I wasn"t mousetrapped."
"But you talked about it, didn"t you?"
"Well... as a matter of fact-"