"Rice, old Mr. Allen"s son."
"G.o.d help the poor woman."
"With the negro and boy I told you of. They had taken the boat and put out to sea alone--after drifting five or six days. .h.i.ther and yon, they were taken up by the vessel that afterward saved us. They saw the wreck and came to her in the first boat. When Rice refused to abandon the brig they sat down by his side, and so we were compelled to leave them."
"And is this all?--did you never hear of them again?" inquired the mother, rising to her feet.
"No; we never heard of them after that. They drifted off with the wreck, and what became of them no one can tell."
"This will be sorrowful news for our neighbor. Husband, I wish some other person than our son had brought it."
Thrasher arose hastily.
"Good night, mother. Shall I sleep in the old room?"
His voice shook, and he seemed greatly disturbed.
"Yes, yes, my son. You are tired out. Go up to your old room."
CHAPTER XV.
BREAKFAST IN THE OLD HOMESTEAD.
Nelson Thrasher could not sleep under his father"s roof. The neat, high posted bed, with its blue and white coverlet that he had slept under in boyhood, was so familiar that it seemed to reproach him in its homeliness for the great change that had fallen on himself. The little looking-gla.s.s over the cherry-wood dressing stand, flashed upon him like a human eye angry and fierce at the intrusion of a guilty man where an innocent boy had slept. As his foot touched the rag carpet, worn smooth by his light tread, years ago, the breath paused on his lips, and the stern face softened into sadness so deep, that his worst enemy might have pitied him.
That instant the old man"s voice rose solemnly through the stillness of the night. From the depths of his heart, he was thanking G.o.d that his son had returned. Every word of that prayer rose to the son, rebuking him to the soul. He fell upon his knees, unconsciously occupying the very spot on which his first prayer had been learned from his mother"s lips. Bitter repentance swept over him for the minute, and covering his face with both hands, he cried like a child.
But such feelings could not hold that stern nature long. When the old man ceased, Thrasher shook the tears from his eyes, and stood up, turning his face away from the gla.s.s, hating that it should reflect the workings of which he was even then ashamed. It was useless; the familiar things around him were full of a.s.sociations that would make themselves felt. He put out the candle, and got into bed, his eyes filling in the darkness as he lifted the coverlet.
Still he could not sleep. The dear old objects were all shut out, but the home feeling was too strong. For that one hour he was almost a good man.
As he lay in the darkness, a soft tread came on the stairs, and the door of his room swung open. He knew all about it. The footsteps were his mother"s. How often he had heard them, in childhood, coming up, because the kind woman fancied that he might be afraid, or ill, or that the coverlet had slipped from over him. Just as of old, she glided through the door and close to the bed. He feigned sleep, that she might not guess how much he had been acting like a child. She stood beside him, full of motherly tenderness, yearning for a few last words before she went to rest; but with gentle self-command, waiting for some sign that he was awake. When she found that his eyes were closed and his breath came evenly, she bent down and kissed him on the forehead more than once, whispering his name to herself, as she had done a thousand times over his cradle.
Still he did not move; the kiss stole like an angel"s whisper through his heart. For the moment, it sanctified him, even in his own eyes. This did not appear to awake him, and the mother could attempt no more. Still she lingered, settled his pillow, delicately as a bird smoothes the plumage of its young, and tucked up the bed, blessing him the while. It was not chilly, but the action put her in mind of old times, and she loved it.
At last that gentle mother glided out of the room, and he drew a deep breath, longing to call her back, confess how far he had gone astray, and become as a little child again.
The night wore on, and he had not slept a moment. Many thoughts came crowding over the holy ones that possessed him, and finally overpowered them. He thought of Mrs. Mason--his first, his only love--for this truth he confessed to himself over and over again, in the stillness of that night, when the difficulties of his position crowded close upon him. He thought of Katharine Allen, not with solicitude, such as the poor creature"s fate should have inspired, but bitterly, harshly, for she was a stumbling-block in his way, an object almost of dislike. Though a cruel man, Thrasher was not recklessly so to women--thoughts of his mother always kept him from that. Still, he almost cursed Katharine in the struggles of that night, for she stood between him and the great desire of his life--John Mason"s widow. But for her, he could make a brief wooing, settle down by his old parents, and without temptations to evil courses, become a man of power, for he possessed that which enabled him to accomplish almost every thing, an unlimited control of wealth.
But with this young creature in the way, what could he do but plunge into schemes that brought sin and peril with them, such as he shrunk from encountering. Abandon his father and mother--go off to some unknown country with the woman of his love--cast off all duties--leave that beautiful girl to die of grief--could he do that?
Thus the good angels and the evil spirits struggled over that man all night long. In the morning, neither had the mastery. On ship-board, the guardian angel would have been driven forth at once; but under his father"s roof, there was something of heaven which would not let the seraph go.
After daylight the young man fell asleep, weary with thoughts that still left their shadows on his forehead. The mother came up twice to call him, but seeing the weariness in his handsome face, went away, holding her breath, and walking on tiptoe.
At last he came down-stairs, and found the old people, with the table spread and the breakfast dishes standing on the hearth, patiently waiting till he should join them.
It was of no use struggling. Over a breakfast table like that the good angels held control; nothing worse could hover near those blessed old people upon their own hearth-stone. There every thing spoke of the old time--the round table, covered with bird"s-eye linen, homemade, glossy as a snow crust, and as white. The same sprigged china and quaint teaspoons. The silver teapot--old-fashioned even then--had been brought out for the first time in years, and stood emitting dainty puffs of steam between the andirons. The old lady looked at her son and at the teapot with conscious smiles, which said plainly as smiles could speak, "You see that I keep nothing back when my son comes home, not even that!"
Thrasher smiled as he gathered in this picture. It was the smile of a stern character, and changed his whole face. Rare must be the smile which makes a human heart leap. You never heed perpetual sunshine, but that which flashes through clouds makes itself felt and remembered.
"How much he looks like his father now," thought the mother, while the old man held out his hand, and grasped that of his son with a hearty "good-morning."
"Son," said the old lady, as she took up the teapot, with a little flutter, like that of a bird pluming itself, "now that we are all together--the whole family, you know--supposing we sit down at once.
Your father usually goes to prayers before breakfast, Nelson, but we"ll just put it off till afterward--don"t you think so, husband?"
A strong sense of duty alone kept the old man from saying yes, at once; but he wasn"t to be led into temptation by the fond designs of that precious little woman, not he; nor by the fear that his son would rather not. Morning prayers didn"t happen to be duties so lightly disposed of, in his estimation. He motioned the old lady to leave the breakfast where it was, on the hearth, and taking the great Bible from its stand, began to read with solemn deliberation.
Thrasher liked this; had his father varied in any thing from the steady goodness of his character, it would have been a sad disappointment to the son; for such persons are generally the most keen-sighted in detecting the weakness of good men. Besides, there is something holy in the religious a.s.sociations of an early home, which no man or woman can see disturbed without pain.
I am afraid that the old man, in compunction for a momentary impulse to yield, made his prayer a little longer than usual, and dwelt elaborately on that point which asked deliverance from temptation. Certain it is, that according to the habit of the times, he spoke of himself as a hardened sinner, and confessed to shortcomings and taints of original depravity that must have made the recording angel--who had set down nothing but good deeds to his account for many a long year--smile in benign patience.
Once, as the good Christian gave signs of prolonging his devotions, the old lady turned softly on her knees and pushed the dish, which contained a choice delicacy for her son, close to the fire; but she blushed in the act, and covering her face the instant it was accomplished, whispered "amen" at the end of a sonorous sentence in which her husband acknowledged the native depravity of every soul within the created world.
Still Nelson Thrasher was not impatient. Every word of the old man"s voice thrilled him through and through. It would have taken something more than that to upheave the stern selfishness of his character to any purpose; but many a good feeling rose to the surface which, for the time, made him a better man.
They sat down to breakfast at last, and a right hearty New England breakfast it was. The old man talked pleasantly on every subject that came up. He possessed a clear, energetic mind, and had read a great deal more than was common to his cla.s.s. His intelligence was active to seize on any food that presented itself, and his son"s adventures by sea and land, were as exciting as a romance; not that old Mr. Thrasher knew what a romance was, or would have allowed one to enter his door if he had.
Indeed, the Pilgrim"s Progress had disturbed his mind a good deal from the fact that it was not an actual, instead of an ideal truth. As a great many conscientious people condemn the theatre, but fill the boxes of an opera, every night, this old-fashioned Christian listened to his son"s spoken romances with infinite zest. They appealed keenly to his imagination, which found little aliment in any book he read, except when it seized upon the grandest of all poetry--that of the Bible.
So the father asked questions, the son answered them pleasantly, and that dear old lady sat smiling upon them both from behind her silver teapot; convinced from the depths of her heart that she was the happiest and most good-for-nothing old mother that ever drew the breath of life, and ought to be ashamed of herself for not deserving all this joy more thoroughly.
After breakfast, Thrasher took his hat, and prepared to go out. The old gentleman, in the innocence of his heart, proposed to accompany him, but Mrs. Thrasher began to nod and signalize him across the table, and he sat down rather bewildered.
"Don"t you see," said the old lady, with a sweet, knowing smile, "Nelson is sure to find his way down to Mrs. Allen"s--he must have loved us very much to come by without stopping last night. I shouldn"t wonder if that girl kept him at home?"
"You don"t say so!" exclaimed the father, in blank astonishment; "well, I never thought of that."
"Why, don"t you remember how often he used to go there the time he came home before this, and how he went to York State to see her when she was out there with her uncle that winter, going to school."
"Well, wife, I shouldn"t wonder if there was something in it," said the old man, going to the window and looking after his son.
The mother emitted a low, mellow laugh; she was rather proud of her quicker penetration, and patronized the old gentleman accordingly.
"Why of course there"s something in it," she said, nestling herself up to his side, and putting a lock of gray hair back from his temples with her finger. "He"ll hang round her a little while--go down the hill two or three times a day likely, while we don"t seem to know any thing about it--and then think he"s surprising us, when he says that he"s going to marry Katharine Allen, if we"ve no objections. Of course we shan"t have any--for she"s a nice girl and handsome as a picture. Then there"ll be a wedding down yonder. You"ll buy the wine, and I"ll find the cake. Mrs.
Allen has got lots of homespun, and Nelson won"t want much for a setting out, for this house isn"t badly off for furniture, and I"ve been thinking of a new cherry-tree chest of drawers some time."
The old man laughed pleasantly.
"My wife, you"ve got them married and to housekeeping before he"s crossed the top of the hill."
"But wouldn"t it be nice? She"s a smart girl, and might take a great deal of care off me. As for Nelson, if he once took to farming what a hand he would make at it!"
"And you believe all this?"
"Why shouldn"t I? there"s nothing unnatural about it, nor wrong either--besides I am sure Katharine likes him."